## 2017-08-13

### Autism, Empathy, Mental Discipline... and all that

Many people have a crippled sense of empathy. They relate well to babies, and cats, and pretty people, but not to machines, and rocks, and ugly ones. And they are self-righteous in their regard of the world. Hehehe.

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Autism isn't a blase ignorance of empathy

Autism tends to start with hypersensitivity to sensory input. The overstimulation leads to panic, which turns off the lower priority cognitive functions like empathy, etc. So training to cope with sensory overstimulation is where we all start... as kids... that lays the canvas for the development of empathic behaviours via mirror neural reflexes, and communicative feedback loops. So that's two levels of training.

In terms of being able to turn them on/off at will... sometimes you want your meat to be social, and sometimes you want it to be antisocial. If the reasoning parts of the brain are in charge, with training, they can override all natural born impulses. This is mental discipline...

It's quite cool once you figure it out - you can see this viewpoint reflected in the daily auto-therapy of The Accountant Movie's protagonist. Also you will notice how he approaches it as a sort of monastic study that ties in with his militaristic skills. It's pretty much train, train, train, and everything gets fitter, stronger, etc.

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This probably provides insights into ASPD, for the uninitiated.

## 2017-08-12

### Revising Established Definitions

Frankly I'd prefer to have a frictionless fulfilling monogamous relationship if it means we can keep things hot, and get loads of work-work done meanwhile. I once did a budget and figured that the ideal time per week spent maintaining intimate relationships would be something like 2-3%.

But in practice, haha. It's all over.

4.2 hours of 168, excluding stuff you can do together that's also going to happen if you're alone like eating and sleeping.
4.2 hours of sex and futzing around intellectual battles is about all I think is worth it, per week. Maybe more sex. But haha... can that go into the physical conditioning budget?
I really want a dramaless co-pilot.
I think.

I take it back. Co-pilot imagery invokes the notion of something larger than the sum of two selves, a common core project. I don't want a marriage like that - it would be over-specialised. We should have different interests, and only use each other for rest and recreation.

Context: I graduated in 2005, did a few proper jobs in think tanks, banks, etc. Then worked freelance with small/new/startup companies 2008-present. Always wanted to do "grad-school" as self-funded auto-didacticism, at home... managed to nail down a lot of that in 2012, most of the year. But the budget sketch was like in 2008... also when I did my first job as a bartender on Changkat.

Back to relationships - I think the concept of polyamory accurately describes how I love people. I'm usually quite rational about how I allocate resources, but within time-boxed allocations... I allow myself to be quite whimsical. So the boxing kinda prevents any obsessions from developing (so far) and the whimsicality is not particularly "ride or die"-esque, which is how one of my married friends puts her view on her relationship with her husband.

The result is that I "love" easily, too easily for most people. I don't have to be in a relationship with various people... but just meeting someone is usually enough for me to imprint on them enough that I think of them in the set of people I love.

Relationships: well those are formal agreements. 

Marriage: legal agreement. Nor necessarily congenial either... I think I'm a bit cold about drawing the lines that way.

## 2017-08-11

### Hastily Written

On demand, a short article on the nature of my perspective on the relationship between myself and another who so happens to be the requester of this article. A friend of a friend spoke to me at work once, and commented that I reminded her of my friend. Later we met up for coffee, all three friends, and it was a novel meeting. My new friend bakes and takes care of her family. She cares about people, and while she bothers herself with their concerns for a living, she also does so for her own personal fulfillment. She enjoys writing. She studied at a university in Malaysia and requires of herself advanced degrees. Lesser degrees will not do. She respects the institutions of public education in this fashion. As for her health, she is often flitting from study to study, and may find it difficult to bring herself to bear on something as boring as monotony. Such is the nature of my new friend. The end.

Edited once.

### Appeals to Values Deemed Uncivilised

This discussion came up as a follow to the proposition above, as opposed to "appeals to reasonable arguments deemed civilised." It was thereafter raised by someone that values and reason must co-exist. My response:
Actually reason is just a form of order imposed upon values... a computational framework over the animal bits, if you will. By contracting the discussion to an aphorism, I'm just saying that the animals don't matter, and the computers do. But most people are a bit of both. ;) [Don't mind me, and my politics.]

### Fencing with New Friends

What counts as a piece of art? A dish, a drink, a dance... A building, a kiss, a punch... hmm...

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In general, people are systems, like black boxes... and they are going to represent themselves in various ways. Reading people is a sort of literacy, or semantic processing activity. Books don't change their shape. People do.

So there's no end to reading people. 😉

Biological answer: at the end of it all... we're wired a certain way. To do what animals do. We've evolved a reasoning engine that helps our animal parts do what they do more strategically. The reasoning engine can be severed from the animal parts. It's kinda up to you if you want to be more one or the other.

So cyberpunk.

Back to your question: so we want to know people for animal reasons. A computer doesn't care. #noonecares

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Longing: missing people.
Loneliness: carnal.
Desire: pretty things everywhere.
Fear: civility.

Aside: cold air, quiet space, glass screen.

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I always try not to know the names of lady customers at work.
Keeps them comfortably distant.
I'm trying to think of you more verbally, less physically.
More as a text (words on a screen), less as a set of sights and sounds
Moving you into that pristine computational end of consciousness

## 2017-08-10

### How Volunteer-driven Organisations Should Select Technology Solutions

Disclaimer: this is a record of comments posted on a thread elsewhere; comments have not been fact-checked.

Initial comment:
Why would you introduce complexity by custom building the site? Is there something stock Wordpress won't accomplish? Who takes over in the future? How?

Extended argument:

First I will discuss the recommended Baseline for action. Then I will backtrack to list two extremes of Approach, some feasible Contingencies, and general Economic observations. Finally there is also a Tangential recommendation for the content/technology direction for the group.

BASELINE

So broadly, in any organisation, you can go between two extremes, in engineering/technology development, and this applies in selecting a website backend also.

Approach (A) provides a low-risk, low-cost, commonly understood approach to building and maintaining technology infrastructure for this organisation. Most costs of machinery over their lifetime come from maintenance, not initial acquisition. Given the voluntary nature of the business, resources cannot be assumed to be permanently available, nor can they be assumed to be in great abundance.

Should there be a demand for user experiences that cannot be met by approach (A), a discussion should follow beginning with the usability requirements for the system (UI/UX, business functionality), proceeding to discuss how the requirements can be achieved through various implementations, and finally only then choosing the implementation layer with consideration for all of the above.

APPROACHES

(A) Use lowest common denominator standard solutions like MediaWiki (what Wikipedia runs on, therefore what many people already know how to use), and WordPress (13 year history, broad ecosystem, literally an entire app-store of drag and drop plugin, which can be further customised).

(B) Reinvent the wheel. This is trivial if target functionality is trivial, like a static website. This is non-trivial if target functionality is non-trivial, like a CMS with access-controls, data validation, and modularised features. (Not going to even consider discussing a multiple-feature-non-modularised scenario, as that's a worst-practice. ;))

Right... so these are the approaches, what are the contingencies?

CONTINGENCIES

(1) The tech founder stays for eternity and maintains the chosen approach.

(2.1) A sequence of tech people runs the chosen approach, with appropriate handover, clear documentation, etc. between each epoch of staffing.

(2.2) A sequence of techies does not continue previous approaches perpetually, but instead starts from scratch with every new tech leader. Under approach (A), most of the workload of documentation has been done before you begin; the opposite is true with approach (B).

Given two broad approaches, and three broad contingencies above, we have a universe for discussion, and can start to ponder economics. Observations below are in no particular order.

ECONOMICS

(i) Event 2.2 is cheap only if your content base is small. Otherwise it is expensive. If your content base is large, opportunity costs can pile up as migrations are expensive. Discarding content instead of migrating it... well, that may or may not suck depending on how valuable the content is. How much content do we have? [Insert Tangent X]

(ii) Event 2.1 is predictable only if documentation is pristine. I don't mean kinda, sorta neat... I mean MECE-pristine. Otherwise costs will vary.

(iii) Costs discussed here are not financial costs, necessarily, but opportunity costs.

(iv) Decisions made now are betting the agility of the future team on current guesstimates about the availability of tech staffing to the organisation. Will there always be an excess of supply? Will it always be cheap? Will there always be few demands for their time? Between migrating systems, and building new features into an existing system, what's a better use of time?

TANGENT X

As far as I've seen (which is not much, as I'm usually not deeply involved in the organisation), there is a lot of content generated every year. However this all goes into a folder like Gdrive which is not published. I previously suggested moving some content to a crowd-editable platform, i.e. wiki. e.g. MediaWiki, as this would greatly flatten the workload of listing subject-specific how-tos and what-ifs for noob applicants.

(END)

## 2017-08-09

### Airs

We learn to 'disconcern' ourselves with airs... there will always be airs... usually misguided. Every every where.

Being clever is prestigious. Well branded school. Has degree. Has no degree but has money. Has no money but has women/men. Has no material belongings, but changed the world. Has nothing, but passion.

## 2017-08-08

### Google Fired Damore Too Quickly

I think this move is regressive. Instead, a company the size of Google should have an ethics committee staffed by professional or visiting scholars, which addresses both internal policies (issues white papers, advance debates), as well as facilitates recreational debate on subjects of interest. (Note that I'm avoiding any discussion of what sort of disciplinary alignment such scholars should have. :P) I don't think very highly of anyone who acts based on "values." It's as good as non-civilisation. Don't be proud of such behaviour, please. I'll join my colleagues who notice this sort of irrational moral policing in calling it out for what it is. Lollers.

Later thoughts on the subject:
- instigator was a non-ranking officer
- channels of communication were informal
- the event is analogous to watercooler talk between colleagues on whether star signs should determine hiring and training policies (if X program exists, asking for it to be reconsidered is equivalent to asking for Y program which doesn't exist to be considered for creation)
- The firing move was just offbeat. He should have been put on a leave of absence, they should have concluded the investigation/debate, delineated company policy then proceeded. Which is likely what will happen in retroactive course: if he doesn't struggle too much, there ought to be some reinstatement of his employment with regards to agreeable terms of engagement with his peers.

Massaging my ego with similar thoughts by better people.

Some examples of how debate can be facilitated. (1)

If they can't even do this, the claim to a mission of organising the world's information... is vacuous.

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Town hall cancelled for participants' dox-risk? This is probably not the real reason for canceling the meeting. What probably happened is that top management decided to restrategise before deploying new tactics. There's so much left undone, why rush into it?

### Yawn 28

July 15 to August 8
2017

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Start

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I just did something approximating technical charting analysis on our cashflow..

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War for the Planet of the Apes : So a white chick is Harriet Tubman, Santa Claus is YHWH, and every single military formation makes the Roman Legion look like a covert ops team. Back to my own little war now.

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Not healing super fast. But ok. Tracking diet and sleep. More care required.
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Something about full stomachs doesn't go well with dreaming. Eat, sleep, wake, drink water on emptier stomach, then dream... a reliable pattern.

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"You're not jumping ship?"
"I am the ship."
LOL

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I really hate eating. But it is the job I chose because it is commercially and intellectually interesting. So off I go to work. But first I have to talk myself into it, as the cohort of people like me which I have access to appears to be tiny. Usually I'm surrounded by people who like eating, or those who find eating to be commercially and intellectually unstimulating. But that is the nature of studying hard things. You always end up in strange company.

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Does anyone know Tealive / ex-Chatime franchisEEs whom I can interview to understand the pros and cons of taking on such a franchise? ;)

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So I've been pumping ad-into "dinner time branding" to try and fix the 6pm-trough that happens EVERY DAY. Instead... we seem to have developed a 5pm spike instead... #sadface / How do you communicate with people? What is the nature of communication? To many people it is purely verbal. Others process body language. But forget not that speech as an aural medium rests on a few layers, analogous to the way that network data in IT rests on what has been called the OSI model. First there is meat, which moves (how, is beyond the purview of this post), the shape of which causes sounds to move through air : a musical object is produced, and on that signal rests word choice, syntax, and more. And this is just one vertical. People tell me that they don't believe machines will ever understand humans. I laugh because most humans I meet don't even see these aspects of humanity which are bare before their ears and eyes. / Putting high speed Wi-Fi in a restaurant, and insisting that patrons behave like restaurant customers... is precisely like putting on sexually enticing apparel, and insisting that pedestrians behave like civilised people. We like it hot. Grow up. / Morning: a lot of comms work. More comms work later today, but for potential investors instead. / On shift, and planning to be bored. Focus spocus. / This is not the right time for anyone to be making comments about (500's) Pollock's taste in women... / Not sure why happy, chatty, people are inherently valuable. Sure, they're good tools for creating business value. But personally, I'll take a measured conversation from a sad, angry person, over 95% of the flap I get from people who appear to be happy and chatty, but otherwise pointless. :P Are you all really so very lonely out there? I guess it works as long as everyone's happy. :D / (Food > Sleep) > (Physical Conditioning > Work) . Or something like that. / Now, the hard part about writing this business summary, is articulating: - the plan as incepted - the plan as adapted - the operation as encountered - the seamless integration of all the above / 24-7 Donutes SS2's blue ceilings and naked air-conditioners: I wish they did this a year ago. Also we're now officially ID trendsetters, as absurd as that might seem. Hahaha... / Really happy that Valerian didn't disappoint. No unnecessarily heavy dialogue, just lots of detailed art. / Sleep is improving, on an emptier stomach. Still not healing fast enough. Time to get up. / I spend way too much time trying to decide if this investment prospectus should be ordered in pyramid, or reverse-pyramid style. / I'm starting my day by saying aloud to myself, repeatedly, "I don't have my shit together," in the hope that I will scare more easily. Still horizontal. / Enforced waking and enforced feeding: huge tactical error. . [Work, Food, Work, Food, Caffeine, Workout, Food, Work, Sleep, Wake], [No Caffeine, No Food, Drink Water, Sleep], works a lot better for REM sleep generation. / Doing investor pitches is a huge context switch. Can't do it. Going back to chores until the staff who needs help with chores is done. #unproductive / Someone sent me for an interview... hmm... pre-call notes included this disclaimer: ... Firstly, I am curious to know what you are looking for from your direct reports. Secondly, I am curious to understand if there is a specific cultural profile that is demanded by staff at X. Based on the public marketing communications put out by X, it feels like the culture there is very cheerful and exciting. Whereas, I am not an excitable person - in fact, a core part of my personal brand involves generally being the most pessimistic person in the room, who is also willing to commit to delivery of work despite cynical expectations. ... / Current Mood: ISTJ / Well, that was a painful week of writing. Back to other priorities.... / Tried to nap to accelerate context switch from grandstanding to ops. Got woken mid-nap by some kid who turned up unscheduled for an interview. Told her to go away. Body still confused - still blood sugar level appears to be in that funny space between high yield from digestion and high storage from insulin. Probably will get up soon and enforce a strength training session. So confused. / Hmm... now the Tax Department says my personal was over double what I filed (A), and that I owe more taxes: what would come to 28% of my annual income of RM42,000 (A). So I suppose I must go and ask them where they imagined any other income came from. I already know what happens if it drags... they block your passport from leaving the country. I suppose that just adds insult to injury if you're running a lossy business and subsidising it with your own income. Haha. Another day, another drama, on the ease of doing business in Malaysia. . After moping about this for a couple of hours, I remind myself to remind myself that have been insufficiently pessimistic, and must increase my levels of concern about how things will err more greatly than anticipated. It is difficult to do this, when constantly surrounded by people who loudly believe the opposite. :) Edit . Resolution: the warning was out of date / Reflecting on recent events. I've been in risk-on mode for five years, have I? How do I count, from 2011, or 2008, or 2005, or 2001? Probably full-throttle from 2011, since 2009-2010 was pretty cushy by certain standards, and since 2005-2007 were pretty basic for the sake of cultural anthropology, and since 2001-2005 was pretty much the best I job I thought I would ever bother to hold down - after which I thought it best to avoid scholarships for a while: too much ease makes one soft, and already during scholarship I was training myself for solitary confinement. But still, I fear landing on the wrong side of the law, only because it is normal in the circles of power to not venture into prison, or away from civilisation in general. Ah, all these cultural trappings - what shall we do with them? . In any event, I am tired. And I wonder if I should begin putting my affairs in order: does one at once contact a lawyer, a doctor, and a crematorium? Spiffy, it sounds. While public health mandates that it is unacceptable to target death with volition, I have generally maintained that to target life for its own sake is either equally or more despicable: a pillow fight of scorn results between folks who fear death, and those who cannot be entertained by staying alive. Haha. . So now the hours while away. That one must wait for the great mass of normal society and its office hours, in order to get things done, that is a regular tragedy. . No one works near me these days, and so, I must reflect on this job by myself, for the most part. . Jobs this strange, are not for everyone, it seems. But if everything else bores you, hell, why not do it just so. / So a customer pointed out to me that the tax departments takes credit card payments. Brilliant, net national income is subsidised via national debt, with an bureaucratic overhead cost in between. . This is very interesting - I actually support the availability of credit facilities to the public, however, I intuit that there must be a more efficient way to execute this at the macro level, rather than sending fees to credit card companies. If you already know a lot about this subject, please chat with me about it. / McCain vs. GOP Healthcare bill: TIL a lot of American journalists still don't understand the difference between a motion to debate a bill, and a motion to pass a bill. #facepalm #goodoldstudentgov / IVr: Why are you so intense? IVe: I don't know how to answer that. (Thinking: are the people here more vapid, on average? Probably just unusual, the candidate.) . IVr: What motivates you? IVe: Simple things, really. I think for work, I like to sum it up in one word - I'm mercenary. (Thinking: I thought the generalistforhire message was clear. Probably just unusual.) . IVr: What do you dislike? IVe: Timid people. I can tolerate slow people, but I find shy people difficult to work with. But I think I do alright, as in, I can get by with them. . IVr: What are you looking for in life? IVe: Wow. I think I'm pretty much settled. But for work, I tend to approach the task by finding out what other want, and then I give it to them. I like being an accessory to desire. My own desires got taken care of a long time ago. . IVr: Which fictional character are you similar to? IVe: Okay, recently the MCU's done me a big favour by painting some vivid caricatures... I'm probably Drax... or Deadpool... something in between, maybe. Overall just pretty loud when I'm not busy, or sleeping. IVr: Try again. IVe: I'm Tony Spock. . I hate interviews. / Taking a break from money problems. Time to wunwun. (run, not GoT) / Not healing fast enough. This is an old story. As with many others. Not enough time to go around. Conversations to engage in, and to selectively argue against. Predictable fatigue. Nothing interesting to report. Trying to be polite, and to not make fun of people who are looking for an emotional reaction. Also those who stare aghast at what I do. Remembering not to turn of emotion completely, as it required for various business functions. All in all, a lot finesse is demanded, and perhaps a little of which is discussed. Ho hum. Off to work, soon. / Called it. :P McCain delivered as promised. / Bitcoin and crypto : I must say, so far, I have been of a similar view. There is no national economy behind this currency. But still, I believe the currency is useful, albeit risky. :P / "Please check quality on x, y, z, as usual." "Please read this guide on how to get your baristas to not quit." . I wish I had more to offer. Haha. (I borrow against my credit card to pay wages, for a company where my ownership is limited.) We have some 300% barista time availability versus we have shifts to give baristas. In fact we are busy worrying about how to avoid contracting operations and removing more shifts altogether. We aim to convert non-entities into solo-FoH agents including the barista role within fifteen active shifts. We are designed to replace baristas quickly - these are the lowest demand roles, both in theory and practice. What we lack is just about everything else... . Lol / Tired. Still looking for a fungible work-rest balance. / "We want to discuss the effect of robot interactions with humans." "Don't forget that robots are people too." "We don't care about the robots for now, we're concerned about the humans." "What intersectionality you talking?" . Later I'm taking a shower and thinking about why this amuses me. Another disenfranchised demographic I have enjoyed arguing better treatment for, is children. In a non-trivial sense, many traditions (including contemporary law) treat children as second-class citizens, and therefore a parallel becomes visible: in disenfranchising minors from decision-making responsibilities, we treat children in similar fashion to how we treat animals and machines. . I don't know what the world will look like in the future, but all three demographics are going to get smarter due to technological and economic progress. So how should we discriminate, judge, and sentence sentience in the future? Do we just have a standardised test for intelligence, including a dimension of civil/social intelligence by which any information system may be admitted to the class of sentient first-class citizens? / OK. I want to sleep. But I need to work. But I should enforce feeding and exercise, and I am very confused. So I'll take a deep breathe, and get right to it in not-so-random order... / I punish myself too much? Oh don't be daft. No one else is going to do it for me 😉. Look, it's just business. The problem is that I don't really get motivated by this kind of work... so I have to gamify it. That is why it has to be interesting. LOL. When you are losing at Dota, you swear. It is the same. I do not really punish myself - I just do what is natural for players of the game. / On some entrepreneurs not caring that they piss others off: Of course not. We're only worried that it gets in the way of operations. Lol. / I think recent fatigue has been due to improper pipelining of priorities. Due to staffing emergencies, I start thinking about multiple contingencies, and then productivity just goes out the window. Will probably have to murder more darlings. / MBL's nasi lemak burger: It's a great comms campaign. Doesn't get better than this. You will see it hit global news networks soon. MediaCock knows how to pour gas too. Can't wait to find out which gwailow outlet will be the first to start poking fun at two Asian runts clad in McDonalds garb hahaha. Wendy's and BK already trending this month. / Spending a few minutes practicing the imposition of gestalten, identification, and deprioritisation of sounds in my environment. When this cognitive function goes out of whack, trivial sounds take up wayyy too much short-term memory. Towards the end of a 45 minute period, subconscious control of aural processing appears to have warmed up and is admitting fewer items to consciousness, so the exercise moved to haptic processing which is the next most distracting modality. Probably visual processing was already warm from having tapped on a screen trying to fix mundane IT issues for an hour before that. / The quitting economy: This is a secular trend. So by the time we opened for business in 2015, we already positioned ourselves reactively to this: we don't encourage passion either. . The dominant trend in hiring itinerant workers is to focus on passion, allow a good amount of process drift, and scale out the workforce to compensate for that (increases in headcount). We go quite the otherway, preferring a smaller workforce that has higher scale-up capability (smaller teams, smarter people). . Theory versus practice? Too long to write here lol. / OK - we managed to have a worse July than June. Got to clean up some accounts, then back to product... / Health up. Work down. Brilliiiiance. . Later, I am sitting at my newly reactivated office desk thinking that however brief, it is welcome, the few hours of reprieve from fools other than myself. . And then in preparation for shift work in the morning, while under the sheets, I take the collars off my imagination, just sufficiently to enable lucid dreaming. I suppose it's called day dreaming if you can control it. . Further study required / Drink promoters: Do you think this would work at (office)? How many pestos can a doorbitch sell? I know it's not the same thing but everyone wears multiple hats around here. I don't mind putting on a mask and being the bouncer as long as some haute chick yells at the space hoggers... (HR) write a job description, quick... I'll post it... / Too little work done, and too many silly fuck ups. Past two months I think quantitative measures of productivity e.g. sleep hours, vs work hours, vs types of errors made, would make a strong case for clinical depression. But since I'm pretty stoic about it... I guess I just treat it as fatigue. Lollers. / Reviewing portfolio of time management: . Best done while fully alert: - physical conditioning (x) - modal analysis and pipeline optimisation ( y ) - wage work - other maintenance . Not enough fully alert hours in day. Economic problem. Inputs: - sleep - nutrition - x - y . Possibly relegated to semi alert hours: - socialising (but not sex) / Psychopathic occurrence is society statistic: 1% really? Now I'm starting to doubt everyone. Lol. / I really, really dislike timid people. Like my dad. A horrible waffling experience. But business is business, so off we go... (Update: he didn't pop by to discuss business, but he didn't make it clear until the meeting started. Typical.) . But I think my tolerance for things I dislike is high. And for that training, I can thank my parents for my upbringing, I suppose. Hahaha. / (Grossly summarised. Dad is a Methodist minister.) . Dad: "I think it's time you reconsidered your relationship with God." . Me: "Well, I can think of God as a person too, so like here I'm having a conversation with you. If God were to come down here and have a conversation with us like this, I think we would have a swell conversation. Whatever. But the difference between you and I is probably in how we relate to people in general, deities or otherwise. Like this being superficially nice to each other is great, we can talk, we can laugh, we can get dinner. Great! But how much do I really care about it? At the end of the day, probably not much." . Dad: "I still think there's more you should be doing with your life." . Me: "Look, there are people are happy with what they have, and there are people who are not. I have been very happy with what I have, for a very long time already. People who are unsatisfied, will be unhappy, and people who are satisfied will happier. I think you'll eventually become happy with what you have, or you'll just have to accept being unhappy." . (Why do I feel now that I'm the parent?) . Dad: So this gap in the drain, when I was younger, I would just leap it, but my knees are not so strong now. . Me: I think it's a matter of practice - do you still get many jogging hours in every day? No? But I think anyone who practices will get healthier. If you start when you're 70, how old are you exactly?" . Dad: How old am I? I'm 69 today. . (Explains why he's reaching out and emo. There were other motivations discussed.) . Me: Right, so even if you start when you're 80, I'm sure you'll be stronger when you're 90. None of us get enough jogging hours in... it's a matter of prioritisation, isn't it? / Me: "Sad that you'll lose tons and tons of money on (her business). " She: "Are you really sad about the money part? I didn't think it would be something you cared much about." Me: "Sad for you. Sad for my shareholders. Not sad for me - I don't really need it." / Mahathir strikes back: Better a clever despot than a foolish one. / Just paid for a GST fine personally - my fault :P / Hwa YangJerng shared a link. How to get to a world without suicide: I would prefer a world with publically funded euthanasia programs, which admit any citizen who subjects to a voluntary test of sentience. LOL. #suicideasaservice / May be stuck on shift for next 12 hours. 😏 / Post-nups: So much yes. / I don't understand people who disagree with their bosses, on professional targets, who also don't quit their jobs. It is a waste of everyone's time. Lol. But it appears my lot in life to turn peasants into an army, so on with it. I don't actually anticipate success, but we lost our options a year ago, and are committed. Heheh. / Not sure which is worse, watching big budget movies with loose scripts, or working with plebs on a daily basis. Lol / If humans are filth, the foodie is the filthiest of all, celebrating in the present those systems evolved from the beginning of life, without consideration for the future, or for systematic transitions at all. But maybe humans are not filth... maybe it is only the foodies. After the foodies, come the tourists. Devoid of the capability to generate lucid experiences from secondary sources, the self-styled traveller roams around the Earth writing primary experiences to memory... / Woohoo. Night potatoes leave mess. Morning potatoes on MC. Cover the shifts. Kitchen potatoes illiterate, must receive demonstration on scrambled eggs, plating, other concerns. Not enough sleep, so physics engine not working - lots of kinesthetic fuckups. Ok. Night potatoes don't know how to attach hose to hoover. Make training video. Other potatoes moving the furniture around. Need to lock down furniture. On we go... / Gonna measure everything anyway :p / Shift thrown! Standby for cover. Enforced shower, nap, etc. / I find that I mostly operate on two emotions, boredom, and sadness. Boredom inspires action. Action is limited by economics. Inaction inspires sadness. Sadness inspires boredom. There is no room for excitement by action, that is foolish. On we go / Silence is not consent. Silence is not discontent. / Confident body language: Lol. These are things I avoid doing because people find me intimidating. / I may need to schedule daily checks on all major muscle groups. I could swear I spend more time on daily checks of our toilets. / According to this study, my college's alumni have relatively low early-career salaries, and relatively better mid-career ones. LOL #notintherelevantpool / #kicktest ing a new business idea. I happen to use MBTI notation (a descriptive, not predictive framework) pretty well, so someone asked me to help find them partners using such heuristics: . Person #1 is an INFJ woman, looking for, men, "XXTP, XXFJ, maybe XXTJ; possibly more inclined to N types vs S types." . PM if you have leads. / Professional ornamental hermit: Found my true calling. / Fancy cake glazing: Basic B stuff I wish I had time to do. Not happening soon by the looks of it :P / East Asian women looking for husbands that don't cheat: If you can't keep contracts, don't take contracts. Geez, it's like this is a difficult concept to understand, or something. / Sugar babies: Meanwhile I've been wondering how many of my already posh friends really just do it for the thrill and sense of validation. I envy some of them very much. Haha. I don't think they need the money, some of them, but, who couldn't use more dough? / Reboot reboot reboot, quick quick quick... #everyendofproject / - End ## 2017-08-07 ### Love is the Word of the Day Silence is not consent. Silence is not discontent. How strange is it to walk by others nonchalantly, who have requested that you do not speak to them? Is it not surreal to meet the long loved, of your lost love while contemplating the intuitions hidden behind a face painted fiercer and fiercer with each successive year, to the achievement of what end, we do not know? Elsewhere silence falls like Durandals on the runway. Warnings echo through spooked minds around, and around, and around, like husky puppies in the snow. Summer love is fleeting, but summer here never fails. After years of silence the distance in minds that easily forget is forgotten. Only resilient memories bear the marks of parting. Ignorance is bliss. Utter bliss. Utter sleepy bliss. ## 2017-08-06 ### Introducing the Philosophy Major at a Fair Some talking points we used today: # Syllabus - If you have to, it is useful to substitute the word "philosophy" with "critical thinking" to provide a non-academic appreciation of what the major involves. - Broadly, the nature of the skill set pursued in the Philosophy major relates to the determination, D, of truthful sentences. The reason this is broadly applicable is, because all other fields are discussed in terms of sentences. (We don't need to introduce the distinction between propositions and sentences to pre-students of the major). We can separate a philosophy program syllabus into: 1. "critical thinking tools," which typically include at least one course in logic (predicate calculus / the algebraic treatment of natural language) [tools, T for pursuing D] 2. - the "application of critical thinking tools to specific subjects," which for example, could be courses in "philosophy of science," "philosophy of mathematics," "philosophy of eating meat," etc. [the applications, A, of T to various domains] 3. - the "history of the development of the tools, and the history of the application of the tools," which we can generally refer to as courses in the history of philosophy [the histories, H of T, and H of A] # Context of the major - The Philosophy is a liberal arts major, in the same way that the Mathematics major is a liberal arts major: there are no/few commercial jobs in pure mathematics, but many commercial jobs employ the skills used by mathematicians, and many commercial jobs employ the skills used by philosophers despite there being no/few commercial jobs in philosophy. [Optional definition of a liberal art in the Greek sense.] For the purpose of this discussion, "commercial," refers to the "non-academic domain," whereas it is a fact that academia itself is in certain ways commercialised. - Research opportunities in philosophy per se are largely academic, whereas certain commercial bodies, such as hospitals, may explicitly employ ethicists. Skills of philosophy may be applied to research in other less abstract fields, just like skills of mathematics. Likewise, the incentives to pursue graduate study in philosophy are mainly academic fulfilment, whereas commercial bodies will have a high variance in valuing a graduate degree in the liberal arts for the purpose of determining employee compensation in a commercial setting. - In the USA, certain individuals will study philosophy as a precursor to law, whereas law is a precursor to government service, given given the model of three branches of government requires an understanding of how laws interact with each other across each branch. The skills from the Philosophy major therefore set scholars up for statesmanship, in a similar fashion that the Philosophy, Politics, and Economics major does in the UK. This may come as a surprise to people who are used to living in countries without rule of law, as the dominant function of lawyers there is litigation between private parties. But in most countries, it is well understood that the study of law is also a precursor to commercial tactics. (We can leave out discussions of philosophy as a precursor to STEM, because that requires the audience to brain STEM (lol), and that can't be imposed upon a general audience. Maybe this avoidance is too conservative, and should be developed.) - Philosophy programs in top-100 US undergraduate programs (including colleges and universities) may be judged along an axis of quantitative rigour. The schools which treat language with more quantitative analysis are in what is called the Analytical tradition, whereas the schools which treat language with less quantitative analysis are in what is called the Continental tradition. (Let's leave out Eastern philosophy, and American pragmatism out of it for now.) Therefore when picking a program, it is advantageous to examine the degree of analyticity applied by the faculty of the program - this can be done roughly via reputational assessment. A more technical student might prefer a more Analytical approach, a more soulful student might appreciate a more Continental approach. ### College Application Essays This year, I was rather out of touch with the event's organisation - and I ended up being reminded about the event the day before, on Facebook. I joined a facilitator's group, and from that group got the itinerary which I could not find online. Then, since I had free time and needed a break from work, I turned up during "essay," and "major," advisory sessions for applicants. For the essay section, I asked where they needed help, and got sent to the "Brainstorm/Outline" stage, ended up in Room 8, was advised to advise individuals during the breakout, parked at the back of class, and waited for further instructions. Lel. I ended up in a group with two participants and one student helper, so it was quick. Points covered: - College admissions is a competition. - Admissions readers are judges. You are writing your own recommendation letter. Without being too trite about it. - Essays are structural: the judge is looking to evaluate the writer's ability to build models. Model building capacities are not evident from report-cards and other parts of the application documentation. - What your model (essay) about is not important, which is why the essay is fundamentally open-ended in topicality. What the judge is looking for is systematic structure, for example if the model is of a house, there must be a front door, window, rooms that connect to each other, etc. - Brainstorming: begin with a topic that makes yourself excited, so that there is some basal motivation to explore the topic. Analysing the origins of exciting feels may be informative. In one example, the student helper was led to realise that her interests in horror movies and outdoor sports are related, because these two different activities have a similar effect on her psyche. Teasing out relationships like this provides raw content for listing. - Outlines: building a list of interests is a good start. Arranging the list in a bulleted tree structure is the next step. Rearranging the leafs and branches changes what an essay is about, as it groups ideas together. After all, the entire essay should be bound together under a single idea. - Editing: after 2-4 private drafts, it is helpful to seek peer review. Reviewers should be people who have experience in: admissions programs, hiring for businesses, or managing teams - these could even be juniors in the writer's school, who have played a role in team selection for committees, projects, camps, etc.. Giving a reviewer the essay, the writer wants their feedback on only one question: would you hire this person? - End of process: the more revisions and cycles of peer review conducted, the better. Feedback however should be collected in bulk, then judged as a whole. A lot of the feedback will not matter. The writer must decide on what matters, and push the essay in a specific direction, with specific opportunity costs. That is the form of essays. General feedback: organisers had a great idea with the separation of essay-stages into rooms... with the idea that participants would move through the rooms; but participants were not aware that they were supposed to move around. My participants thought they had been randomly assigned to one room for one hour.😯😯 ## 2017-08-04 ### Offense! (Not clearly thought out; more of a placeholder for later development into a clearer position on, "offense," "respect," "cultural appropriation," and all that.) I take issue with people who demand respect without knowing how to define it concretely. The whole movement of "taking offense" is about people who expect others not to hurt their feelings - while it is nice to propose such a morality, it is rather foolish to expect others to embrace it without war. So they go to war. Not a war I have time for, most days of the week... ### The Mouse Once there was a mouse. She was a timid little mouse. A mousey mouse, and she hid in quiet corners and watched as the larger occupants of the home lumbered by. One day there was an air of silence, and the timid little mouse wandered a little further into the spaces beyond her usual worryings. And then the house fell down. The end. #omgGIF ## 2017-08-02 ### The Rock Once there was a rock. A great rock. It stood over the city of streetlights. But the citizens of the city could never see the rock, because the lights were bright, and it was always night. And then, one day, after the long night, the sun rose. Still the citizens could see nothing. For the great rock covered the sky, stretching close to the horizons, blocking the sun's path. But the pale light, of this impossible moon, sang through their windows, and every child fell asleep. ## 2017-07-29 ### Chit Chat on Artificial Intelligence, Regulation, and Convergence with "Organics" (With regard to recent news:) First of all, Musk sounds like an alarmist... only if you read him as forecasting a Terminator (movie) event, literally. Of course, he isn't. Zuckerberg however, probably interprets Musk's warnings too literally, and is therefore laughing at the wrong image. Musk's main concern is that robots have already reached a point where handlers cannot accurately predict their actions. Clearly this is dangerous if bumbling robots accidentally come across weapons and act like bumbling robots. Also, every passing day raises the level of uncertainty about robot actions. So far, nothing I have described is short of hard fact. The question is not whether we should regulate robots. The question is how, and after that, the question is when? We know the answer to neither question. Musk is simply on track to say we ought to invest time in trying to figure out these two answers. (FWIW: I too used to think Musk was joking. Then it seemed we should take his gaffs a little more seriously.) Convergence In the long run, synthetic minds are as unpredictable as human minds. Since it is the unpredictability of humans which causes the entire spectrum of political-economic behaviours to emerge... in the long run, synthetic minds will be regulated in a very similar fashion to natural born humans. If an AI does something undesirable, it will generally not be possible to track down why it did it - negotiation with the AI may be attempted, but if the AI proves to be sociopathic, then it will face capital punishment - possibly death, or solitary confinement. At the end of the day, machines are people too. People in general are just complex information systems. (In the context of a conversation on how the use of machines changes the way organic people interact with each other:) I mean, you can ask the question "at what point does it become the case that a synthetic person has been raped by a natural born human person?" And then the same penalties apply. / Micro-economically, the individual events of organic-synthetic interaction can be addressed at one level of regulation. This is pathology and medicine at the level of individuals. The formation of such regulation can take into account the macro-economic effect... that's possibly addressed by another level of regulation. This is public health, and civil society design etc. But the two levels/orders/resolutions of concern, and the enactment of policies at each level, will inform activities at the other order. We write public health law with concern for the well-being of individuals, and we address individuals with therapies with consideration for the gross effects on the public that their individual psyches will engender. This is already the case with organic-organic person relations. My point is simply that you should not address organic-synthetic relations any differently, because in the long-run they will converge to where organic-organic person relations are currently. / I think in the long run the synthetics are going to be more complex, and therefore arguably more sentient than individual unmodified organics. LOL. / ## 2017-07-21 ### Love (ENFP) popped in. Ten minutes of catching up. Happy. She has date. Off she goes. She is always bubbly. It was very sweet. She's suddenly just there. And blah blah blah. And she sits on my lap in the corner and we are making out and talking about love and planning to meet next week, but I just leave it up in the air because she is perpetually a last--minute person. Stories. She is a storyteller too. ## 2017-07-20 ### ... hello angel where are you? ## 2017-07-15 ### Yawn 27 June 2 to July 15 start. / If you don't have any emotions to show: if you don't actually feel anything, you're going to have to fake it, or face resistance lol / Who's your favourite supplier / brand for Manitoba flour (high protein wheat flour, W index > 350) ? KL/Selangor please. / Time for a nap. Then some paperwork and math to figure out if we are opening daily for 18, 12, or 6 hours per day for the rest of the month. Wish me luck. / Hmm. Contemplating credit card debt. / Managed to get enough sleep to do work, at 4:30am today. / Finance and accounts: 98.5% of time is consumed at the accounting layer. LOL / FOH GROUP: Permission granted to use electric fly bat on cat, until it learns to stop coming inside. / "Can I donate a machine to your expansion project?" "Dude, we're reviewing contraction projects..." / OK WE'RE BREAKING EVEN AGAIN. Now I just need to find working capital -_- / You can't idealise a population with zero fear and pain. A system without negative feedback is a physical system but not a biological one. Life ceases abruptly without pain. In view of that, it becomes a matter of public health that all members of a population experience some degree of pain... some of the time. Light ruminations over breakfast. Lol / Looking up options for loans (debt), credit facilities, with or without convertible options, for the little coffee shop. Sigh. PM if keen. :P As expected, I'm terribly bored, but it's not my job to stop working on this. Ho hum, on we go... / You can never know the truth, so document the hell out of everything. The account speaks for itself. / I hate rushing design work. / Enforced recess. / Not healing fast enough. / If you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go with others, and spend 85% of your resources on coaching, whipping, babysitting, and counselling. Then tell investors who would never spend more than 30% of their time on those activities, that this is the nature of the business. Because it is a meat shop. Then make fun of business aphorisms, while procrastinating between work. . If you want to come fast, come alone. If you want to come farther... do you get a girlfriend, or simply aim higher? / Enforced rest. / "Is Friday softcore still on?" "What were we supposed to do?" "That cafe." "Er." "Omg, it's called Soft Spot. I'm sorry. I think Soft Core is another cafe..." "No it's not. It's porn. Why did I search for that..." / So are we saying that Trump was over there (Saudi Arabia), in order to start a war, so that the US can repeat 1991? Brilliant. / Hmm. Not yet dead. Much work to do. Not sure if feasible. Not a lot of room for reflection. Still cleaning up trajectories from 1-1.5 years ago. Not really in a mood to work. But, work needs to be done anyway, so off we go again. But first, another shower. / In marketing, I suppose there's green washing, and pink washing, and rainbow washing. / 10 click jog. Pumped up with recent creatine supplementation, and 2-3 carby meals a day. Lost pulse data, but peak reading en route was 170+ and stable above 133 while strolling. Mostly focused on fine digit control. I've lost so much focus, in running form, since peak. / My geography of nationstates is so bad, it's not even funny. / Sometimes I wonder if I do the right thing. Then I figure that the right thing is to stick within formal boundaries, and push the limits where definitions are lacking. I guess it is a life. / So I made another old man sad today. A travelling contractor for the fire department walked into the shop, and represented himself as being from The Fire & Rescue Department of Malaysia ("BOMBA"). He arranged to take our fire extinguishers for service, and to leave his fire extinguishers behind for us to use in the mean time. He left a receipt. When I found the receipt, it had the name of private company X on it, not The Fire Department. I reprimanded our staff, and called the contractor back for a return of our goods. I called private company Y, from whom we had bought the goods, and asked for their service charge: it was 60% that of of X. I explained to X that based on our communications today, that he would not receive our business unless he could match 60% of his original quotation. He offered 80%. I said, based on the misrepresentation he had provided earlier, and his price, I would be giving the business to Y instead. I explained that I believe X was a good man, but that had flaws in his pitch. I said, he could have our business at the next cycle of service. X said our business was no good, and that we deserved to be robbed by truly dishonest people, then X left. I felt sorry for X. But I do not really care how long people have been engaged in their cultures, (25 years already, X said), if I believe the culture is not ideal, there is a good chance I will try to have nothing to do with it. We can all go to hell, or we can, and you can go elsewhere believing whatever you want to believe. :P / Pastry pathology -_- / Some people have difficulty understanding the motivations of stoics. They can be summed thus: the only thing to be outraged about is outrage itself. Rage is the enemy. If we find it in us, we study it. If we find it in you, we study you. / Small business execution: what can be done in three days with a larger team takes three months. So logically cohesive 14 day plan can take two years. Lol. This is expected of the talent in this industry. But sometimes I wonder if my patience will be the death of me. / 5pm on a Sunday: caught up on deeper sleep. Enforced washing, feeding, and work. Need to clean up a week of accounts, continue with the logistics for a menu update, and do monthly reporting. And then we die, based on statistics for the industry, but that never stopped some people from getting started. / I find my daily work still addresses failures from as long as 12-15 months ago. Not done yet, unable to move faster, quite accepting of incessant whining. Hoping for improvements in reduction of staff whininess. Hope. Haha. / People who reject determinism as boring certainly aren't as accepting of boredom as I am. / Ah crap. Got to see what I can do to get out of a late GST declaration fine tomorrow. Probably nothing. Busy busy. / The only thing I can do about our general backlog of work... isk to remind myself to work harder. / We'll just have to do with three less days of gross profit, I guess. Yadda yadda. / A full morning of cleaning up the past week's accounts (continued from yesterday). This inevitably includes whipping various parties which have not performed adequately on the task of bookkeeping. / Well that was traumatic. I think I need to break for lunch, before completing the update, and delivering the monthly report. / After lunch, I'm watching the staff work, and comparing it to performances I observed a year ago. I consider more recently developed aids, such as printed collateral, and I am reminded that much of it is lacking in polish. I wonder how others feel about their work, when they embark upon multi-quarter/year projects where obvious rubbish has to be tolerated for several periods before resources will allow for improvements. / Today's report begins thus: / Hello everyone, / it's been a years since the on-set of emergency conditions. I'm somewhat surprised to still be here. In this email I will address a few separate sets of thoughts. / 1. Monthly financial reporting as of 31-May / 2. Cash position as of 12-June / 3. A look back to the beginning of the emergency, now 12-months old / 4. A brief on the way forward / I actually find it too easy to form emotional connections with people. With great supply and limited demand comes the assignment of a low price. That is how I came to place little objective value on emotional connections. Technical conversations however, are generally in short supply! / Monthly IR: "Today's call started at 8:01pm, and ended 8:23pm. There were no participants besides myself. That is the report." / Start of the week. Drive to customs office to request reduction of fines. Get redirected to other customs office. Too late - return to shop for opening. Calculate risk of staff skipping work due to annoyance. Send digital memos on staff tardiness in hygiene and service: fortnightly repeat of the same issues. Call up second customs office - line busy: prepare to travel. Eat breakfast. Standby to fill in dead time before staff arrive, to print signage on tardiness issues. Plan to unclog sewer pipe after customs. Plan to handhold cooks on procurement before customs. Plan to print menus after shower, after sewer. Plan to coach cooks on cooking after menu printing. Ho hum / Rerouted to customs office #3. Almost misrouted to Putrajaya. Pulau Indah, here we come... / Next financial engineering sic challenge. Figuring out how to pay GST using a credit card... putting phone down to charge. I think i still have a cash flow crisis. But first lunch. Then sewers. / Brand collateralisation, takeaway cup designs, Art: The Creation of Adam replaced with a laptop worker and a cup of coffee. God is the barista. Text: "We live to work. And then we die. Start running." / Caught up on sleep. Back to the farm. / "This straw is ugly. There's already so much ugly stuff in this shop, why did you give me an ugly straw?" "Don't worry, we'll run out of them soon. Do you like the new water glasses? They're much prettier than the old ones and they cost about the same." "Do you want to say it, or should I?" "I don't want to say it." . . Clearly we still have too many people caring too much about the wrong things. But that will be fixed in time, if we survive, and we may not. Haha. / Brand collateralisation, takeaway cup designs, i2 Text: Large: "We live to work. And then we die." Small: "If you're looking for a feeling, you may be in the wrong cafe." i3: Text: Ordinary coffee. i4: Text: Get back to work. i1v4: Text: Get back to work. We live to work. And then we die. i1v4-2: Text: Why are you here? Please, not the coffee. This is ordinary coffee. All coffee, is ordinary. That doesn't mean it has to taste bad. Ordinarily, coffee should taste fine, or you shouldn't have to drink it. Get back to work. We live to work. And then we die. Why are you here? i1v4-3: lose the first line of i1v4-2. i5: Text: Order coffee. Ordinary coffee. Get back to work. We live to work. And then we die. i5v2: Text: Get coffee. Ordinary coffee. We live to work. And then we die. Why are you here? i6: Text: Please, not the coffee. This is ordinary coffee. All coffee, is ordinary. Ordinarily, coffee should taste fine, or you shouldn't have to drink it. Get back to work. We live to work. And then we die. 💪💀 / Generally I believe in hard underselling. Evidence should speak for itself - narratives should be pessimistic. If you still want something, your optimism should be based on intrinsic motivation, not on others' narratives. Yet I still find myself faced with disappointed counterparties. Perhaps I am unusually cheerful for a pessimistic person. Perhaps we're variously cheerful for the wrong reasons. / Cashflow back under control for the weekend. I hope. Back to sleep. But I may have drank too much coffee during QA activities just now, and I may not be able to fall asleep. Will work on the menu. This thing is not launching fast enough. / This is about enabling the IAAS/PAAS provider to gain marketshare in strategic sectors of the tech industry. There's nothing but brand equity, customer base, and timing the market versus rivals going on here... / Had a few good laughs today. Surely, my friends can be smarter than this. . "You should go on a holiday." "Well, the business has lived hand to mouth for a year now. It doesn't seem that it will survive a properly long leave of absence by the core coordinator." "It's barely surviving anyway, might as well let it fall over." "True, but that's not the nature of the job." . "Isn't it silly to run on freelances, and flake-outs, with their high rates of attrition? Why don't you hire proper corporate citizens?" "And incentivise them with what? The highest paid staff here makes less than a fresh graduate in an ops consulting/outsourcing firm." (Collective LOL.) . "You should shut down the kitchen and focus on coffee and cakes." "It's never once been viable to project success without a kitchen. Who on god's green earth needs more brown water and sugared fluff from a cornershop? People will eat basic food, no on eats basic cake." . "Is this not like calling wolf, again, and again?" "The premise of the fable of the wolf is that help came the first and second time, and no wolf was found. I've been holding down the wolf for a year, and no one's come into the cave to grab it. Same wolf. Big wolf. Not yet dead wolf." . "Are you wasting your time here?" "If I had anything else to do, why would I bother to operate a restaurant? It sure as hell ain't because I like to eat." (Collective LOL.) . ... I'm sure a few more punchlines will bubble to the fore after a little nap... . (Right, here goes...) "How about opening from 8am to 10pm?" "But those aren't even our most profitable hours. And why would we want to compete in the exact same space as the market mode?" (Perhaps we should, nevertheless...) . "Are you paying lipservice to shareholders in terms of being interested in their advice?" "I'm not interested in their advice, but I'm responsible for being polite in accepting it. What I'm interested in is operational or financial assistance." "Who in their right mind would grant it?" "It's kind of obvious that the probability is low. But despite the low probability of receiving a positive response to my requests, I believe the simplest form of cooperation has been for me to repeat the same request, nonetheless." "Communications have been uninformative." "I believe my messaging has been consistent. I decided to focus on repeating a consistent message, because I believe the message is difficult to accept." / Mid-sleep-phase blurness and post-breakfast sugar crash, I'm wondering if it's just better for the world if we stop work. Hmm. / Does anyone have an opinion on the statement: "Co-working spaces will go the way of gyms, in terms of business modelling,"? / OK - 89 combo items that we're adding to the menu, successfully imported to the POS. Now to tune, and debug. I guess this is the last straw :P / 1MDB: Malaysia finally making a commercial impart on the global art scene. Goes to show you need big, fat, round, blustering governments, to get shit done. Lol / Back to work again. / Horrible start to the day. Went to office. Staff not in aprons. More QA. Want to vomit. But first, breakfast. . Make a coffee. Coach kitchen on not overstuffing the cake supply. Increasing effort on new menu prep. Coach FOH on retail display design. OK. Back to stationery... / My rainbow is not your rainbow. In fact, why hasn't the coalition of meteorological rainbow guardians started a campaign to combat the cultural appropriation of rainbows for sexual representation? Among other things... / I just realised that our food production pipeline involves JIT compilation... . On the verge of credit card debt, I think I should avoid going out tonight. Sleep, showers, lazing... are affordable. A car ride, perhaps. To survey the market... . Tomorrow is for bookkeeping, and financial planning, and buying shoyu, I think.. . Sun's up. Nervous system still running due to "yesterday"'s coffee, too recently administered. Up, and at the mountain of undone things. . It turns out that the most effective way for me to save money is to just not pay myself. Otherwise I typically end up consuming my paycheque on consumables. / Wondering what life would be like if I wasn't so easily fatigued. / So someone suggested that I take 5HTP supplements, and I started reading up on serotonin pathways, and now I'm wondering if serotonin syndrome can result from too little sleep combined with too much sex. God damn, one day we'll have more data on so many metabolic pathways and their interactions with daily life. One day. / I feel sorry for people who live for ideals about what the state of humanity should be like. I am only alive because I haven't been put into so much pain that I kill myself. Each to their own way about the earth. Good morning, Sunday. . I miss physics. Maybe I try to make all the things I do at least as hard as physics. Also maybe I see people as types not things too much. . Caught up on sleep. . Caught up on bookkeeping. . On to cashflow plannning... / I think the hardest bit about being bad at some activity is not letting it affect your enthusiasm for getting it done. A few points on that. . First of all, in light of that, it's important to really minimise enthusiasm at the onset of any project - this sets the bar low, and keeps expectations manageable, and service levels affordable, and therefore contributes to the sustainability of effort. . Second, despite constant enthusiasm at the quantifiable levels of timely delivery, the subconscious part of the brain is still going to goof off and bring to bear long-ago evolved negative feedback mechanisms that characterise the majority of human endeavour: these mechanisms are selected for specifically because in general it is useful to mutate strategies when one does not work... whereas this evolved trait is completely useless in scenarios where the strategy is to remain in rigid formation. Recognising this is key to implementing the latter form. Despite constant, low enthusiasm, efficiencies of delivery will always suffer from negative feedback, and so processes and tactics must always be in ready to address the fuckall tendencies of the given human mind. . Third, it is generally very hard for people who are used to being flexible, to turn themselves to stone. Pun intended. The main issue in my project over the past two years has been to combat a natural aversion to wandering attitudes among staff. Most people who sign up for a minimum wage job are not expecting to be dragged through an operation that requires, we may say, a sort of military discipline. But the latter is the only way to provide uninspired, underqualified, muppets with a modicum of a probability to succeed in competitive environments against organisations with far greater capital resources. . Anyway, whatever I demand of the staff, I generally find that I need to apply to myself, so on we go. A lot of people tell me that the way I am going about it is weird. But since generally they aren't around to actually do it for me, I guess I can only depend on myself to get things done. Myself and anyone I can work with that doesn't give me a sense of pushing on a string, of course. Haha. . I do hope this is over soon. After a year under emergency conditions, I'm quite ready to pass the mantle on to someone else. Heck, I was quite ready after the first month of the emergency. But that hasn't been the point of the job, I guess. So on we go... . Addendum: upon further reflection we have had fewer problems with the minimum wage workers, than with those paid above minimum wage. Haha. Hmm. / Every INTP dictator needs an ESTJ, an ISTP, and an ISFJ subteam... and if team can't be afforded... tada, timesharing... four types in one head... / Lunch. Then more bookkeeping. / Why would anyone need nasi lemak flavoured condoms, when boiled starch, coconut oil, and fried anchovies already smell like cum... #wtfmalaysia / Circadian is back on the 6am workday. / "My cooks are killing me. Not ready to launch new menu. Cannot advertise. No revenue. Cash crunch." "Based on your performance this evening, I think I can get you RM800/hour." "You sure ah? Better than software development neh." "About the same. Er, wait, that is the price for females." "FML lah, where got demand for straight cis male?" "You wait, I find for you." "Mak, pund..." / Testing a deal-of-the-day promotion with RM50 in advertising targeting a 6.4km radius. / Praps low body temperature has been messing up kinesthesia of late. Fixinc / Shred margins. That is the name of the game. And then we die. Haha / Enforced feeding time. Wake up. Stare into abyss. Stares back. Tell her that her eyes look puffy. She smiles. It may be sweet, but she'll still disembowel you for breakfast. We know all this before it begins. Thus the nature of calculated, and accepted, risks. / I miss Erlang. And FP in general. / On Jack Ma's guideline for age behaviour: On track for 20, 30, but probably spending too much of my 30s being 50, and 20s being 40, and generally less interested in being 40 and 60. 50, 40, 20, 30, 60 is a good prioritisation for me. / Brew espresso. Watch oil drops bouncing on water everyday. No guarantee your coffee will taste good if it's brewed that hot though LOL. / Spent the whole day on people management. This is supposed to be important, right? / Standby for kitchen kamikaze. Lol. I didn't think it would be as trivial as this, but perhaps it shall be. Responding to mutinies at 5am. I wonder why I bother. I suppose, I believe that staff can improve in quality. If they cannot, then I suppose it is correct not to bother, so it is time to end. I like to arrange my affairs so that others make my decisions for me. Here it has been fairly simple, albeit disappointing. / "Your coffee today was really good. The tamp was great. The fruitiness was ummph!" "Thanks, I guess that means we're doing our job ok." "I know that what you do is very artistic, so it will change a bit from day to day." "Yes, we get various beans from the factories; they are never exactly the same." "It must take great passion!" "I don't understand what you are saying, but I will defend to the death, your right to say it." #biggestkilljoyintheindustrymaybe / Ok - it took nine months - but we brought lost menu items. Enjoy. Or forever hold the pieces. :D / Kitchen crew missing after start of shift. Brilliant. Lol / Most people just have no discipline. The relationship between diet and mood is multivariably layered, and a lot of practice is needed to align inputs and outputs. Single attempts to achieve calibration only produce noise. / Breakfast. Groceries. Bookkeeping. Marcomms. / I've read a lot of news over the past year, including a bunch of US supreme court coverage. If I lived in the US, I'd probably just sign up for law school as there's a clear path between the legal profession and public service. That has never been the case during my lifetime, as the rule of law in Malaysia has been a sham, with no clear indication that the alternative is viable without deep structural changes to government. Without denigrating the efforts of folks in the legal profession here, I have to say, I'd still put my chips elsewhere. Lol. / Covering shifts at the bar. Time to forget the pressing need to do anything else. I always wonder if I'll remember to reset myself properly after adjusting my memory like this. Run script... / FOH whatsapp group: HARLO.🙋🏻‍♂ (Happy Eid, to all those celebrating.) Small issue came up. Folks 👩‍👦👨‍👧on this team have been sending me storific comments 🗒📂🗂🗄that border on conspiracy theories, so I need to make a brief statement of equally storific advice 🤠on how to deal with it. Sorry for the interjection 🙏, please ignore 🙉🙈 if you're not actively competing for shifts, you don't know what this is about, and if you don't want to know. Theory 1⃣: There is a clique of staff who are refusing to take shifts with folks outside their clique. 🚧👨‍👩‍👧‍👧👨‍👩‍👦‍👦🚧 Horrible theory. 🙄 Theory 2⃣: There are staff who are subpar in performance, that are spending paid hours doing irrelevant stuff. 🖕🏼🤳🏻😴🖕🏼💅🏻🖕🏼Also a horrible theory. 🤔 So... if you believe 1⃣ is true, and you believe that it is unfair, you are probably right. Life is not fair - we don't force people to like us, we have to manipulate them to do so: you can check out the self-help section of the book store on Politics, Charisma, and Rhetoric 🎭. I'm not your mom 👩‍👦🚫so I'm not going to walk you around the playground asking all the kids to play ball with you. Do it yourself. Learn to steal the ball. 🏀 If you believe 2⃣ is true, you are also probably right. 🤷🏻‍♂ Just hang in there, wait for economics to prevail, and for the losers to quit or get fired. 🙀 W'evr. K. Everyone who feels that they are under-informed 😞, and learning too slowly has been mandated to schedule my time 📆 for training 👩‍🎓👨🏼‍🎓. If you don't do that, it is your loss. 👎 However, finally, 3⃣, there's a miniscule chance that everyone is slightly wrong about all of this and that what's needed is for people to speak directly to address 🗣🎤 specific individuals who are providing them with problem, be it ops staff, the scheduler, or myself. I personally think that 3⃣ is the most beneficial direction. If we raise problems immediately, in public, we can raise solutions also daily. People can sleep better 😴, hold fewer resentments😤🚫, and the scheduler can have an easier time making the team grow stronger 😙😓. Anyway, that's my general view on things. Please try to get along with each other. Thank you, if you bothered to read and think about this. Good evening. 🌝 / Back on shift. That was fast. / Breakfast! / "Your job doesn't include watching out for my health." (Sketchy statement.) "If you are going on shifts, I have to be concerned for your well-being, unfortunately." "Thank you for your love and kindness." "Ew, go away." "Now please reprioritise and raise the quality of service by counselling or firing, whichever is appropriate. Get on with it. Or I will hiau you some more." "Omfg. Ew. Bye." / Going to cover shift for 30 minutes. Then I need to massage my brain into marcomms mode. Urg. I like being a generalist but the context switching it turning me schizo. / It's pretty straightforward from a trade policy point of view. If you have localised poor people, you don't have to import them. / Enforced waking. I smell death. It's been over fifteen months now. One gets used to it, day in, day out. / Marcomms. / Breakfast. / Coffee quality. / Food speed. / Cash flow. / Tired. / Tired. We have too much ad data. This is a good problem, right? / "Hi our technician will visit your office on Saturday." "Please have him confirm the time with us." "He will just turn up." "Please give us his number, so that we can contact him to coordinate on timings." "We're not sure which technician is going to your office." . Quality of MNC business operations when they're run by locals. LOL / On women not committing enough crime to be taken seriously: Lean in. Kill a few people. Hmm? / Persuading old people to get HPV vaccines is harder if they are unable to comprehend the implications of statements in the literature regarding probabilities and statistics. But that results from a general issue with literacy. On top of this we have healthcare practitioners who advise clients to not get their shots, quoting such statements. It is rather troubling, once you crunch the risk-reward ratios and the relatively low costs of the vaccines (RM700-2000 every 5-15 years). Look at the rate of car ownership in this country: they think nothing of paying for car insurance because it is a regulatory requirement... and then some will be fucking around, yet unwilling to pony up for a seatbelt, because it is not required by public policy. It is quaintly absurd. / Officially two years on project and one year under emergency conditions. Whee. / It's good to see familiar faces around, regardless. / If you don't like how someone looks at you, tell them to have their face remodelled. Don't come running to me about it - your deep seated fear of social interaction is bleeding into my lane... LOL. I will tell this to you if you are a staff, a customer, my mother (especially my mother), or a friend... jesus, you need Jesus. . (Afterthought: after over a year of counselling people on this stuff... perhaps my next gig is as a motivational speaker. Some days I wake up and I don't understand low self-esteem. I really don't. I may have to thank my parents for that - my dad's already disavowed responsibility for any weird traits I may have developed over time. Hahaha.) / Having a continuous disdain for people who want things, is probably the most difficult part of doing business. Such is life. In order to be entertained, I must annoy myself. / It will be miraculous if I emerge from this project unscathed. But the assumption was that it would be either burdensome, or be something entertaining, so on with it. I just hope for quicker deaths. Haha. / Explaining the economics of our sales strategy to staff. ☝with the new menu out, and photo flipboard all there... it's really easy to open EVERY conversation with "Hi, I'll give you a free drink! You just have to spend twenty-five Ringgit on food. No? Ok, for future reference." ☝consider it a "new standard greeting." The reasoning behind this sales pitch is as follows. People will typically want one drink, always one drink, and only one drink, no matter the price*. But with food their interests are somewhat more negotiable. End result: it is waayy easier to persuade someone who is not hungry to buy more food, than to persuade anyone to buy a second drink. This is why we can drop the drink price to zero, as long as we push up total sales. 🤜👊💪🙏 (* Technically, in economics we say that drinks are demand inelastic.) Glhf. Operating hours will be reviewed daily based on daily sales, and may change with seven days notice. / On the 500 vs. magic sexual harassment complaints: and before anyone can say holy motherfucking sex symbol... the titans blow. Guess there's always a bigger fish. / I have a version of this painful, but trite conversation, fairly often, whenever meeting past investors, potential hires, and other well-meaning whoopsie-doosies who think that we are trying to build a restaurant business at all costs. So for posterity, here's the caricature of it: . "We're always looking for help, in operations." "You're too focused on operations, your strategy is incorrect." "No actually, this strategy is the reason we exist." "You want to give people free wifi?" "Yup. Everyone is afraid of giving out free wifi, and welcoming long-sitters, but we're going to explore how this can work." "But you've shown that it doesn't work, look... you're out of capital, and you're repeating a disproven experiment." "We're out of liquidity for reasons other than the impossibility of the business model - we hired flakey people, and operations suffered in every department. That doesn't mean the business model is disproven, it means that the entrepreneur (me) was a lousy talent manager." "So turn off the wifi." "That would be like blowing up two rockets and deciding to switch business models to low-earth orbit space tourism." "You won't turn off the wifi? But you're going to wipe out." "We'll know that we tried when we wipe out. Until then, we only know that are trying. We can't demonstrate failure by avoiding it - that goes against the principles of science." "Start charging for space." "Ah, but we already have businesses that do that... we decided not to do that because they already exist. We can't add any value to the market by duplicating any proven business model - that would be like selling cake, and pimping charming photos to plebs on Instagram." "Are you trying to fail?" "No, we can do all the proven tactics if we demonstrate that the thesis itself is worth preservation. Known tactics are best practices - but the purpose of a startup is to evaluate unknowns, otherwise it has no reason for its risk allocation." "Is this due to passion?" "It's not about believing in a dream. It's about setting a definition, then working within the limits of the definition. The definition is not meant to be so loose that it is easy to reform it." "Your shareholders share the same view? Is it disingenuous to oppose them." "No they don't. In fact, many of them oppose my view. But I have a minority stake, and we have a clear, formal, mechanism for voting whereby a majority can force* my hand. To-date, my hand has not been forced*. I can't say more than that at this time." "Are you wasting your time here?" "People who have better things to do do not run restaurants. By my understanding, it is a job that is defined as navigating the company to the end of its resources in order to fulfil its purpose. Quaint job - simple job - wring all possibilities out of a limited set of financial and human capital." "Can you get hurt?" "Well, I do not have reasons to preserve myself, beyond the curiosity of perpetual entertainment." "Sounds dodgy." "Well at least I haven't dodged out of the job, so no one is holding that against me. We might disagree on the definition of the job, but in the absence of force*, I'll conduct myself by self-definition." / No time for fun things. Not all the fun things, anyway. 0942 staff missing. Switch into bot mode, and deploy coffeeshop! / Oops. We nerd an official letter in order to renew our table and chairs license. Guess it's not happening today. / Ok. Bored - work is slow. Take more drugs - so more coffee. Then work will still be boring, but it will pass by quicker. On we go. / "Slow down. I can't die while I'm still fat!" #overheard / If you model a business as an information system, two software assets are considered intangible, specifically because the business as an individual exerts no property rights (absolute command) over these two systems. The first is human capital in the traditional sense of the word: the qualities of upstream meat which are most closely traded by the business - further upstream this graduates into supply networks. The second is brand equity in the traditional sense of the word: the qualities of downstream meat which are most closely traded by the business - further downstream this graduates into public relations networks. Up and down the value chain from the core assets of the balance sheet, lie such repositories of wealth. But unofficially, for in finance we must value things conservatively. / People who blame arrests on the arrested: I'm a statist. Maybe. / I don't care what hipsters call it. Brewing coffee, is cooking. Roasting coffee, is cooking. The point is knowing how to cook, not knowing how to (do some subset of cooking). / Taking enough stimulants (caffeine): worried about work. Not taking enough stimulants: not worried about work. I think it's pretty much why I consume caffeine in the first place - the only reason, is to get work done. / SSH-ed into shop router. Sigh. Why is life so complicated? :P / Covering every other shift. Whee. Need to drug up. Good thing we're a drug store. / Not looking forward to adding out95,850 to that pile (of dead, funded, companies)... but oh well. Anyone got a hookup with Masayoshi? Fresh capital would be good right now.

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O: there is coffee, as a minimal set of interactions in itself.
O2: there are conversations and other interactions about the world in general including O, but leading up to O.
O3: there are conversations about the universe of O2, and how one strategises about O2.
O4: probably a reduction to analytics in general, and speech about speech.
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Now replace coffee with sex. It seems a lot of people dither around in O2. Some people do a lot of O, considered high risk, low intimacy engagements, then call it more meaningful when they get O2. Yet other people do O2, and O3, and O, in equal proportions... but that is less common.
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I think for me, O2 is the baseline, but O3 is ideal. Why is O less common? I think you need to be hot, or rich, or very free for O to happen frequently - not my strong points. O4 is probably my natural habitat.

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Determining physiological adjustment efficacy on cognitive performance recovery:
... sometimes it is best to just study the effects of a meal, by observing the behaviours of muscles, nerves, and the imagination, for a period of 2-3 hours, while ignoring most other information. Typically it tells me something about how my body is responding to blood sugar levels, if neural tone is in a good* state versus if networks between conscious memory and the peripheral nervous system are simply providing lower quantities of ambient data.
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* Falsifiable hypotheses in this domain include assumed definitions of what those networks are doing under various bands of acceptibility.

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95% of philosophy majors have good jobs?
Still looking for a good job. Must be a 5-percenter.

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"Let's go on a sleep date."
"WTF is a sleep date?"
"We meet up, and go to sleep."
"Oh, like a co-nap!"
"Did you just make that up?"
"No, I mean... it's the obvious permutation of the colloquial 'co-work'... which I find to be ridiculous anyway. I mean, look... if we're going to date, screw the sleep, and if we're going to work or sleep, then screw the company... otherwise it's so lacking in focus."

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Aw shit. We fucked up the data logs again. So then I get asked by the highest paid staff on the roster, "do you like the taste of this?".
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"This tastes really weak. But if you want X, you have to do Y to it."
"Really? You want to do Y to it? But it is a Z."
"This is in the logs - did you read the logs? People are not using the logs the ways logs are supposed to be used. If you want the short answer, pull 24g out at 35s. If you want the long answer, read the logs, digest every line of commentary, and then we can have a discussion. Otherwise we have wasted everyone's experience with this bean. That's all I have to say for now, I don't think I have to say anything else, as I'm really really tired, and it is really really draining, to have to repeat myself on an almost daily basis about this... for two years."
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Following this, I return to my computer, and find that a minute or two ago, I was working on sales data, and data reporting for marketing communications. Context switches are very expensive, and I can rarely keep myself together in getting all the work that needs to be done, done. But that is the nature of the enterprise, it is expected. :)
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After that I have to estimate if it is worth my time to reprimand the entire team. Given that any reprimand will be short, it will not be easily accepted. So at this point, I am deciding not to start another flame war. Hahaha.

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For once I have time to do proper marcomms... at least half-way decent work. Maybe a quarter way, but whatever...

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Question for auditors. So the audit report on my company that the auditor sent back, signed with approval, differs slightly from the balance sheet and P&L that I submitted to the accounting company that worked as an intermediary between the auditor and my company.

Is this normal?

Should we attempt to modify our internal accounts to match the signed report? Or is that not necessary?

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"Is there nothing you're not learning?"
"I suppose I haven't yet learnt the same lesson learnt by all the business people who don't work in Malaysia anymore."
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Repairing a fridge in Malaysia:
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Customer: "Looks like the compressorABC's busted (label is for type-X gas)."
Supplier A: "OK, we'll replace it for RM1050 parts and labour for type-X gas, or RM950 parts and labour for type-Y gas."
Supplier B: "We can't find a new compressorABC; we'll charge you RM450 for labour only."
Supplier C: "We'll charge you RM500 but use type-Z gas."
Supplier D: "We found a new compressorABC, but we don't provide services: RM720 only."
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Customer: "OK, Supplier C gets the job."
Supplier C: "Done."
Customer: "Why do we now have a partDEF installed that says on the label that it's using type-Z gas when we agreed to use type-Y?"
Supplier C: "I don't know, my boss told me to do it like this. The label says type-Z, but we used type-Y gas inside."
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Supplier D: "That photograph of the new compressor partDEC that Supplier C installed? We use the same brand."
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Supplier F: "PartDEF costs RM300; if you used type-Y gas, the one you want is PartDEFY - which costs only RM310."
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#fml #gg
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In general, it turns out that type-Z gas machines can use type-Y gas with, or without partial retrofitting.

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"I still think that F&B retailers are only efficient if they're managed in bulk. Bootstrapping before anything like that happens - different story. LOL. Perhaps I should have focused on raising a superfund to just buy up all the other cafes instead of trying to bootstrap one. Since one more cafe dies nearby every two weeks. LOL. In other words... I really despise the absence of detailed management in many mom-and-pop-sized operations."

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Every society has its moral police.

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Lots of rest down, but probably not enough. Must remind oneself to habitually disassociate commercial counterparties with the set of things in life which are allotted emotional involvement. On with work! Colleagues, customers, and suppliers, here I come.

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A moderately busy day looks like this.
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0915 Minion screams WAKE UP BEE BOO BEE BOOO BOOM!
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0925 Crap. I'm late. Pull on yesterday's clothes. Open shop. Cook on time. Front of house missing. Bored texting. Where is B?
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0945 A turns up. A was originally scheduled, B replaced, but then A had to reverse. Ok. Whatever. Breaking fast. Shovelling noodles down the trap. Chase it with general protein, creatine, B12. The latter appears to have more of an effect on gut bacteria behaviour than anything else. Shrug - whatever works, placebo, or not.
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1030 Cooks were supposed to place orders on Thursday. Orders for soba came in on Friday - suppliers probably closed. Someone wiped the whiteboard and it is bare AF... frantic Googling for content: HPV vaccine PSAs... up next, mental health, economic development, global poverty. 3:30pm-10:00pm shift is still unstaffed due to an emergency cancellation. B offers to start work at 6pm. Champ.
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1100 Go shopping for soba. Also pick up magnets for posters.
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1200 Back in shop. Posters up. Various operational bases touched with FOH and cooks. Chug the coffee. Weak - should have tamped harder. Time to snake the sewer from the manhole. Getting ready with protective equipment, lye, and twelve feet of rubber tubing... the plan is to snake the loo, wash, and get on shift by 3:30pm. Whee. That was the sound of me trying to amuse myself. It doesn't really work.
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1422 Sewer dive complete. Pipes clear. Cleanup complete. Some dilution of detergent for the general use of the shop. A offers to cover till 6pm, B offers to cover from 6pm. Ok day.
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June 2 to July 15 end.