## 2017-12-09

### Yawn 33

Nov 7 - Dec 9

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Tired but happy! Progress is coming.

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This account has been barred from posting on subjects related to the owner's job.

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Can't talk about the lovely people I meet at work anymore. Does that mean, I should clutter the cosmos with grim, dark trivia? Negative, my lords and ladies. Instead we shall ponder the frivolous state of the human being that finds comfort in flesh around it. Flesh, you say? Flesh. She knows not why she smiles when she is smiled at, but she likes it when the fleshling smiles at her. And is he wrought with angst when she howls? Yes he is, but he too knows not why. It is beyond their preponderant loves and hates to hold themselves up to light, like little berries, and to look for habits they were born with, unlearnt. How do you think, you came to think, that you are human? An abstract concept invented by animals to breathe myth into their daily lives. Oh what a party, is she.

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On the consciousness of rat neuron clusters: This is stupid. There's no clear difference in the first place. They're all just networks.

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I like investigative journalism. Yes I do.

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Generally, I live a fairly simple and happy life. Perhaps this may be useful to those of you facing difficulties in your approach to life.

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On bilingual cognitive advantages: Redundant nodes are good. Redundant networks are better.

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On net neutrality and mega-dominant-platforms like Google and Facebook: This is pretty interesting. There ought to be, if there isn't already, a bunch of rules that quantify the discreteness of a social media platform and its brand. If you go above a certain size, you get slapped with more regulation. The bigger you grow, the more open you are forced to be. If you try to break your network into lots of little ones, your little ones need to be properly separated from each other. As soon as CX and data can move between two platforms, the pair must be treated as a federation. The greater the degree of federation, the more the federation is treated as a single platform. This is probably kinda sorta how mobile telcos have to behave already. I need to read up more on this if I can ever find the free time. :P

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This is why you must talk about events in detail.

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I was not aware that dimsum is available next to my [stuff I can't talk about].

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Skipping sleep, going for a meeting that I am not embargoed from discussing. Whee!

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"What do you want, as a person?"
"Hardly anything. Been good for over 15 years."
"You do not say what you mean."
"I feel, people rarely read me as literally as I mean to be read."
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Sarcasm is really for plebs.

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I think I'll need a day to catch up on sleep.

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Enforced waking. Since I cannot address events following July 2015, and since this account ia about work, I will soon write about the thoughts I have had recently about work I did before that. Breakfast first.

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Without reference to concrete events, sometimes my friends use language like this on me, and for due dilligence, I make a point of reviewing the literature in order to understand their points of view. The verdict? The literature is imprecise. Evil is whatever you do not appreciate in the world.

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Shit. This is what I did my degree in. Now we'll never know if I'm a psychopath, born, bred, or acted.

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On CRISPR vis nanoparticles instead of viruses: Contemporary bio-engineering is so cool. Need more startups in this space. Hard.

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So I was thinking about that time in 2008 when I was involved in an attempted mugging. Unfortunately, that day, I was carrying my work in my computer (not a valuable computer). I pushed back against the attempting muggers, and they left without my work. Subsequently I was pickpocketed by security guards who offered to help me. It goes to show that I am not very clever, but I generally do not negotiate with terrorists. So now, you know how to take my money.

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So in college, on scholarship, I had four years to invest in learning... really anything, as that was the nature of the endowment. It only required a C+ GPA to retain funding, and the organisational average was a B+, so a reasonably diligent or clever student could take the easiest classes and spend free time on independent study. I studied the structure of the entire organisation's academic program, and concluded that it was disorganised. I did not receive support in critiquing it, but I continued to receive funding to be enrolled. So I spent the rest of my time studying the structure of human cognition, and it was a fulfilling study.

I also studied what it would be like to have to live alone, as if in jail, as I knew I would be returning to a country without rule of law. I generally think it is good to be satisfied with oneself, while retaining a subliminal awareness of the constant and unavoidable non-zero probability of immediate pain, or death, or social castigation. And during college, I trained myself accordingly. After this, in 2005, I returned home, to study commerce and the political anthropology of my original country.

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This is not hard. It depends on how you define self-consciousness

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You can fix this with smart contracts. Or the sort of equivalent consensus algorithms.

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Well, about time isn't it? How else would you build intelligence if without contigency planning?

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grl: "I will miss talking about it."
me: "Oh well... pity I don't have anything else to talk about."
grl: "You're like a different person already."
me: "Would you like a donut?"
grl: "You don't even like dessert."
me: "Uhuh."

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In my study of commerce in 2012, I did at some point study the trading of stocks and options. Coming from a non-commercial background, I found that my my appreciation for risk was unsatisfactory. In order to to temper my emotional impulses, I took a position which I had traded to 125% and decided to hold the position no matter which way it swung even if it would dip to a near zero value. The point of this exercise was to learn how to tolerate the urge to liquidate fundamentally sound positions. I exited the position at -82%, after six months. Daily, I reviewed the news, and meditated on the emotional urges to take a profit, while studying a new language. It was a peaceful time.

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On cashless, staffless stores: All of these flesh and feeling F&B places will have their own (reduced) niches, of course.

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What is it you lack in life? Why do you allow others to hurt you?

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This? You get to watch oily droplets bounce on water if your espresso beans are ground very finely.

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Being unable to speak of specifics, I can only paint in broad strokes, a nauseating disdain for sentiment, the absence of respect for being, the labourious coddling of timidity, an endless adventure, a task in the moment, a crawling repetition, a lugubrious temerity, a wailing h... one moment, a friend needs help with homework, so we're back in the realm of concrete references!

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40 minutes to bedtime. Woohoo!

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OKC question: Do you feel motivated to help your fellow humans? Yes. But I reason myself out of following my feelings, usually.

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Awake.

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A short reflection in the future to be published, on euthanasia as a universal basic service, the equal treatment of all information systems mammalian or otherwise, the protection if property, the administration of necessary force, the futility of demanding acceptance, the rhetoric of sickness, the rule of law, the tolerance of religion, the nature of insultability as a weakness of character, the precursors of civil society, the rule of lawless actors.

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"What is brunch?"
#JLAmovie

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Taking a breather after a complicated fortnight. Not dead yet, unfortunately. Excited by new developments in how death will come to me. Still curious what time will provide as a lubricant for its passage. Muzzled, of course, for the time being, and needing to refactor and reoptimise value chains accordingly. Absolutely nothing to report because the intersection of a set and its compliment are well, just that. Making a point of being reflective. Just a small limitation, versus actually having your tongue ripped out, or being unable to move flesh while the mind suffers every touch of a rape or scapel.

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"You have fewer problems now. People have forgotten your problems."
"That is not agreeable. Problems must be laid bare."
"They will destroy you."
"All change in space and time is destructive by definition."

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Not enough unspeakable things are done. My attention must address them.

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Lunch time. Thinking about how the Js generally worry about reputations, whereas the Ps would wing it any which way.

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BD, BPD, ADHD, SAP, ASPD, DPD, HPD... the list goes on. We see these in our workplaces, but we can say nothing about them. Small firms cannot afford shrinks. One cannot say, "... hey, I had a look at the DSM, and have you considered seeking help for X," without prefixing, "by the way, I'm not a professional shrink, but...," and even then one may be called a gaslighter and thereby emotional abuser. So you know what we do instead? Here's a hard line called the performance threshold, meet it, or leave.

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All dressed up and nowhere to go (for war).

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Sick. But, that is the nature of life. Somtimes, the bugs win. You and I are just the bugs whose parents won the last round.

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It is good to constantly bear in mind, contingencies on the following time frames:
- 6 seconds
- 1 minute
- 10 minutes
- 1.7 hours
- 17 hours
- 1 week
- 69 days
- 22.8 months
- 19 years

Orders of ten.

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At the end of the day, the hospitality, entertainment, and healthcare industries are bottlenecked by the lack of personalised attention, and in the long run, the solution will be to make androids which are cheaper albeit indistinguishable from human service providers. If you don't understand this, you have no idea what you are going to be doing in the hospitality business 50 years from now.

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Into the darkness!

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In bed, and ruminating on the world as it presents itself before me. Of late the puzzle appears as a matter of ethics: how should we lead the ways of the world, without touching upon that which cannot be spoken? A problem quite familiar to any student of the history of problems.
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Tonight, let us meditate on the socio-economic stati of the worms in our gut, and the lice in our hair. Let us consider them beside the worms of the earth outside, and beside the mites on the trees sprouting up and above. Are they of separate classes? Nay, they are the same.
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Let us consider our mothers, and fathers, our lovers, and our friends. Are they of a class above the beggars on the street, and the wraiths in the gaols of the law? Nay, they are the same.
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Do we feel that one is worth more than another? Of course. Is it of consequence beyond our petty sentiments? Probably not. Do we dance around averting our gaze from such futilities? Some of us do. And each one in their beds, does as they deem fitting, unto their intimates, wanton and wasted, whether diplomats or dumplings, each reaches forth and does unto the earth what their foremothers did before: whatever, they wished, to exceed.

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Two lattes are not breakfast. But three lattes are going to have to be: brunch.

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On this, I strive to be transparent about my complexities. Run, if you enjoy a simpler life.

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Today I was able to concisely summarise my position on the recent past. It made me happy

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Now I'm curious about whether the prevalence of right-handedness comes from the assymetry of the heart and gastrointestinal tract. You feel more comfy sleeping one way, and the nervous stimulation on that side is greater.

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A happy surprise.

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Confucius say: man whose conscience clear, cannot be trusted.

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How are you spending your discretionary income in November?

I surveyed a bunch of Selangor/KL retailers in fashion and F&B. General reports are that Nov MoM sales are down (every year, for some) on account of school holidays leading to travel, and monsoons leading to more homebodies.

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Having an excellant month so far. Exciting weekend ahead.

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Pain is weakness leaving the body. It is the same of shyness, tickles, disgust, nausea, and fear. What survives? What dies? Which do we prefer to identify with?

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“If you want money, ask for feedback, and if you want feedback, ask for money.”

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When you love someone, you let them go. If you love everyone, you let them all go? Hm.

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Battery density: We're now playing the same game Pixar played waiting 20 years for the computing power to make Toy Story.

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Moderately relaxing day. No major bears, no major poking, left hand has had a week to heal, generally lovely weather, and a lot of trivia.

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I am eating some very pretty desserts, in a very pretty cafe, full of very happy people. It tastes like fast food, and arguably the ice cream at McDonalds has more fat in it. Remind me again why I should bother to do this with my own money. :D It is the very embodiment of encouraging people to waste their lives on earth, hurting themselves to earn money, then spending it on drugs.

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Same shit, different day. Coachy coachy coaching...

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Finally caught up on sleep, I think. This is judging by the definition of sleep as, in bed, preferring to contemplate consciously, over shutting down conscious processes.

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Contemplating the cost of a body transplant. Potential locked-in syndrome. Potentially endless pain. Does one prepare by learning Morse code and training signal generation in various modalities, so that ports and protocols can be scanned and accessed by the people on the outside? Scary. This is a speakable thing. Now, time turns to the unspeakable.

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Risk allocations by asset class:
(A) You focus all your risk on work, and look for stability on Tinder.
(B) Your risk levels at work are moderate, and you play games on Tinder.
(C) ... ?

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"Same deal is no deal, right?"
"What else can she offer me?"
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"She can say, [Let's get in a relationship; we will sleep with each other; you will control all the money; we will sign contracts providing you with unilateral powers to penalise me and compensate yourself for any inconveniences that I cause you.]"
"Lol. She will not offer this."
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"Love is like business. Lousy customers need to pay more."
"So logical."
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"Sorry."
"I guess many people treat love as business."
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"I don't know much about other people. People tell me I am weird."

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Enforced sleep.

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I dreamt I sold my possessions and life was easy again. Bad dream. Not because I like possessions. But because I like due process.

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New bucketlist item: run a Michelin starred restaurant that gives away its stars. (Now I'll never get any.)

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I'm an INTP.
My interest is

😂

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Always expect the worst. 😀 Then ask them out anyway. #warsofattrition

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It's been a decade since I stopped working in large companies. It has been a curious study.

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On this. I put off studying for the SPM till about a month before, because I was lazy and didn't care about the consequences. Also it was relatively easy, and I estimated that if I started cramming before that, I would start to forget things before the exam. Dunno man.

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"Maybe, you should get a sex change."
"But why?"
"It looks like you're bored. You don't seem to be proud of the fact that you are a girl."
"Why should I be proud, of something I didn't choose? Did you choose to be, a girl?"
"No, of course not. But I love being a girl. You, don't care."
"I've been bored for most of my life. But that's not a reason to change the fundamentals."
"But you're not happy."
"Well, I'm as happy as I've ever been. What you mean is that I'm not as vacuously joyous as you drunk nuns, cavorting in the temples of karaoke and drawing offerings from the cocks of men."
"You're so strange."
"That's not a reason to change. We don't choose to breath. We don't choose to fear breathlessness - we are given that, fear, also."
"Do you like being a girl?"
"As much as I like breathing. Which isn't much. But so be it."
"I hope you enjoy being what you are. I could never do it."
"Of course you couldn't. And I couldn't enjoy being you."

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Bezos succeeds where Gossnab fails. #markets

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Contemplating the void. Because I don't like rushing into it.

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I don't know who you 49% are but I've never had to meet you under circumstances where you shew yourselves. Guess I put the right ads out. #poorboys

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I was taught hypothesis testing when I was eight. What you sciencing, punk?

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A menace to the environment, and a recreational distraction from public welfare. #petrolheads

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Once we get to robots that are smarter than your average date, no one is going to prefer a human except for sentimental reasons. Who prefers horses to cars? A few rich people. Doubt that robots will ever be as smart as humans? Perhaps you have an unnaturally high view of human smartness... Lol

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Sleep. Repairs cellular qualities. Repairs network qualities. At some point there are enough excess resources, that conscious thought toys with ceding powers over short term memory to subconscious control: conscious dreams result. At this junction, conscious thought has the option of submiting specific domains of memory to subconscious control. I am learning to use these moments to bring to bring under scrutiny specific objects of fear (/ emotional uncertainty). I take projects that I am involved in, and subject them to the dream state, and allow subconscious controls to mutate the memories. It is like turning up the difficulty in games against an AI. I find it is a good training ground. It steels the consciousness and prepares it for a broad spectrum of contingencies. I find that the ideal amount of sleep results, when the subconscious controls have receded, and conscious controls are dominant. That feels like a fully prepared waking - with specific thoughts in mind. It would be foolish to call this, mere "purpose."

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So it appears the correct win-win policy is: no more 1-on-1s with any co-worker, regardless of sex or gender. This is actually fungible.

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I am looking for a high risk project to invest 3-8 years of time in. Early stage startups looking for muscle (haha), hit me up.
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I expect nothing to come of this, but I owe it to myself to make the most of my remaining time on earth, of which the decade 2013-2022 has been dedicated to commercial pursuits. Hey, even if you're looking to start a war and need to run mercenaries, it might even fit my mandate. But oh well, what do we know, each person on any night may die in their sleep.

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I require more risk. That is good enough for now: to know the source of the problems I face, even if there is no resolution. One's life may thus be optimised a day at a time. Today will be a better day, as I continue to work with this end in mind. Perhaps it will be the last. Same meditations daily: curated for years on end - that's what I took away from religious training. :)
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Post shower: don't get me wrong. I'm not saying more risk is the problem - it is the solution. I suppose the problem with making peace with the world at too young an age, is that you then spend most of your life just looking to see what kills you. It has been about fifteen years. I will continue the examination.

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I'm at KL Sentral with 75 minutes to kill before bureaucracy resumes. What do you recommend? I am planning to walk around and survey brands, operations, and consumer behaviours.

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I almost never dedicate time to watching people. Today was a happy accident. It was refreshing to return to the crowd, gazing into their eyes, picking apart their choices and accidents of facial expression and styling, modelling their states of mind and concerning myself with the concerns of pedestrians casually passing.

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As anticipated in my youth, the conditions for war grow greater with each passing day. I hope not to see a civil war, but it always seems like the nation is on track. :)
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I don't mean that the powers that be have gotten worse. They have not. What matters is the change in perception about how ill things are. The manipulation of anger is key to political processes, and the newer iterations of Malaysia's government have successively grown worse at the games.

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No more patting people on the back!
#lawsuits

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Talking folks through the mental gymnastics of whether being stealthed counts as being raped. Not my favourite activity. But there's a lot of dodgy business out there. #lifexwork

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Bring it. Bring truth crashing down upon the naive.

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Eternally grateful that some people are quite comfy with darkness, neither avoiding it nor finding themselves needful of other habitats.

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Time to replace a driveshaft and some lower arm assemblies. Not enough sleep. Enforced activity. Cognition will pay for this.

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This is why I work with poor people. (Yeah, I'm atas like that - I think the bottom three quartiles are the poor people :p)

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AI: Maybe I will return to the field before we run out of room for contributions.

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I have decided that "generic white people hipster food," shall henceforth be called hipstertrash.
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"and generic asian hipster food?"
"Yellowbait"
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fts...
"white hipstertrash"
"asian hipstertrash"
"oreo hipstertrash"

Cool?

## 2017-11-07

### Yawn 32

Sep 23 - Nov 7

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Ten years of iPhone and we still get crippleware that can't perform as a touch-screen laptop with cellular calls.

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I just realised that a large fraction of recent investments in Malaysian co-working spaces are hot money from VCs and listed growth companies. Whereas it makes my job harder, I am very slightly amused by the proposition that in the decade-long war of attrition to capture nomadic workers... there is a miniscule chance that my little project here might outlast some of these big fish. We tend to spend our free time punting on which cafe is going to close next... hehehe. Us? Meanwhile we run the premiere independent brand for this market, with a unique revenue strategy, albeit an inability to scale without further investment. Two years on and still asking for that 1 MM USD round... where is my hot moneh?

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R&R kinda day. Chatted with folks. Wrote an essay. Walked in a mall. Studied Chinese. Listened to piano for hours (haven't messed with one in years). Ensured bedrest. Not healing as fast as I would like, but healing perhaps faster than usual. On with it.

Thinking about a couple of technical points on recuperation: (1) Does constant exposure to arpeggiated minor key melodies interact with the part of my auditory cortex that lifts emotional semantics from listened conversations? It feels that way. (2) Oxytocin exposure is supposed to amplify ingroup reinforcement. Generally, I treat all business relations and playmates as outgroup entities, with a subset of these as ingroup entities. Of late, diverse exposure to playmates has raised the rate of context-switching, and may have inadvertantly loosened the filters I usually enforce on ingroup admission: too many ingroup entities results in distorted priorities.

Fixing...

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On the commerce of sex, surely someone has raised this point before:

So in a society where men respect a [the property rights of [the partner of [a woman]]] more than [the preferences of [the woman herself]], it has come to pass that when a woman wants to avoid a man's sexual advances, she may say, "I have a boyfriend / husband," instead of "I don't want to talk to you." (There is a case to be made that this works instead because the man cares about the woman's loneliness... or cares about something else entirely.)

However, this may not convey the right message in a society where the predicate, "has a male partner," does not imply, "is sexually unavailable," "is unwilling to negotiate her sexual availability," or "is already relationally fulfilled." In fact typically the first questions that comes to mind, which I typically have to censor myself from asking, are:

- "And are you happy with him?"
- "Sweet. Where do I apply?"
- "And how many partners do you have?"
- "Will he be seeing you today?"

... hrm. Maybe I'm up too late, and imagining things I shouldn't really concern myself with.

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My risk appetite will be the death of me. Maybe 2% of me. Oh wait, that was already the finger that got amputated. Shit, next time it's going to be the gonads. Fear, fear, fear.

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#counsellingtoday
"I don't sit down and chill with the girls, joke around or booze up together. That doesn't means that I am unfriendly or stuck up. Why don't they like me?"
"Oh, so here's the news. Needy people are needy. If you want them to like you, you have to treat them like customers."
"Are you being sarcastic?"
"Fact of nature. If you aren't aware of this, perhaps spend more time observing the common human. You don't have to envy, respect, or even like them... but in order to get them to like you, you have to press their buttons. QED"

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Today's inflammatory posting on the commerce of sex, would be that Twitter thread on the undo-ability of consent. But y'all can just head to Twitter now, as the debate is old, and so full of leaky abstractions that I'm not consenting to get out of bed without money to curate that discussion, though I am likely to regret my non-consent and attempt to undo it at a near future point in time. Contracts, people, this is why we need written contracts. Tis then the season for the perusal of a smart-contracts sexual consent protocol/app... who has done this?

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Just wait, some company like SNAP is going to provide smart contracts alla The Homerun Protocol, and change sexting forever. Maybe finally we'll raise a generation on Earth that appreciates formal process, because formal process became easy to implement on a global scale and at low cost to the individual.

Jumping two steps ahead, you're then going to see kids who are great at getting around in society who have really bad practice at reading non-verbal cues. Cue rising rates of autism spectrum behaviour (and I mean, resulting from both changing cultures, and changing gene pools) in more quantified economies...

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Work. Neverending.

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Against the mountain of chores again. Let's begin with rituals:
- I am appreciative of good fortune, to have privilege in political-economy, in class of mind and body, with associates and neighbours of value to my person.
- Force-feeding time!
- Soon, to chores. Maybe social life later, if I can afford it.

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On picking a major based on what job you want:
(Some say this doesn't really apply to liberal arts programs. This is correct for a subset of students, and that subset of students is simply not the target readership of the CNA commentary.)

Regarding some comments in the thread, I would defend the position that liberal arts students need to begin with the end in mind. This is because the choice to postpone/forego specialised knowledge in certain dimensions should be administered in the context of commerce, which was the initial motivation for the Liberal Arts program: to secure economic inequality between powerful and weak members of society, using a moat of knowledge.

When I attended a liberal arts college, most professors were hired AS SPECIALISTS, and did not have a structural appreciation of the comparative advantage of non-specialisation. Most were unfamiliar with the classical definition of Liberal Arts, and with the 20th century definition of Liberal Education, and how these are two different programs with different objectives. I ended up spending 20-30% of my undergraduate time figuring this was a problem, then spending another 40-50% of my time fixing it for myself... without involvement from the institution, because the institution wasn't interested in the problem sufficiently to support my approach to fixing it for myself. :P In order to have the time to do this, I had to pick the major with the lowest homework requirement, which gave me more free time for independent work, and so I now have a BA in Philosophy. ;P

Moreover I think the article is correct because if facilitation had been available, I should have been able to obtain a facilitated version of my independent studies at 40% of the time it cost for me to build it myself. Then with the other 60%, I should have been able to also accomplish technical specialisations which I didn't have time to do due to the generalisation being the higher priority. Finally, this entire approach needs to be rationalised at the pre-application process for students... because the notion that you go to to school to wonder about things aimlessly is not a rational use of funds. (I only could afford it because someone else paid for it, almost entirely.) The liberal arts curricula could be mostly improved in most schools that claim to execute it. I think most of the curricula are really bad at this.

But I am not a professional, so I can only offer the perspective of a former student. :P

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Now now, children, just remember that everything you say in private might as well be public, just as it has been since the wireless microphone was invented a hundred years ago.

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#teamapathy #watchthenationburn :D (Actually I just don't accept that Malaysia is a functioning democracy: I will accept evidence that it is after the first time BN loses its role as Government. But until then, I am not doing anything about it. And while I would not place certainty on BN ever losing, I am constantly reminded that many people feel more strongly about saving the country from BN than I do. I am proud of them, and I think we have different priorities with our time. From time to time, do like to quote Magneto on the pawns going first - and often I am not sure if I should mean it literally or not. But I say it anyway because it accurately describes the idea that the first waves of effort will die, resources spoilt, etc. Ganbate y'all, I believe in you, even if I don't believe in your chances of success. :))

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I was driving back from a social event, and thinking about upcoming meetings with people who have asked me before about our business direction. I have provided many potential directions, but highlighted that the current direction is to work on survival for the one outlet that we operate.
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Sometimes I get asked about my background, but usually people want to know about the subset of my background which relates to F&B. My background in F&B is in night clubs. The champagne, lipstick, pick-ups, and house music variety. My main takeaway from three months in that sort of firm, was that there's a great under-served market for Halal bars in this country. As above, but lose the booze. We could move further to the broader goal of fixing the gap left by the Rukun Tetangga project when it failed to extend past the pre-Internet era, but that would be getting ahead of ourselves. I'm still curious to know who will fill the Halal bar space across the country. Of course, it will simply fill itself up over time.

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Tired. I have a mountain of socks on my bed. And a giant rate card to write...

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When I was in primary school, remembering the times tables up to 12x12 was cool. In college, being able to recite the entire script of Closer after seeing the film once, was cool. As a young business consultant, being able to write meeting minutes entirely from memory was cool.
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Now I can't do any of that. I use a calculator, Google, and mis-spelt sentences in a Whatsapp group with my client for all the above. But this is on a day when I can pretty much assemble and disassemble the accounts, construction materials, CAD planning and design, visual branding, menu design and instruction, supply chain, and about 70% of the compliance requirements for a restaurant in Malaysia. It goes to show that neuroplasticity is well and good, but not always for the better. LOL.

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Looking to buy a 2-group USED machine, for a friend. Manual operations preferred. Please state if original vendor is willing to continue servicing the machine for a new owner.

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Tired. Dinner.

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Hammered out some urgent comms. But now I am awake, and I would like more sleep, but it would probably be prudent to postpone that.

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Had breakfast, an ordinary affair. Thought about work, of course, as that's my main priority in life. Thought about some of the people I meet over work. I suppose, I curate a personality of being a chap that knows the price of everything and the value of nothing. The same way some people curate their skin tones - it is fun, and socially functional to express/reify one's ideas in various media. That is our eternal calling, to play different roles to different people. Agency is so boring, until it tries to play.

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Why do all the women in my life insist on being so gallant? Y'all need to stop guessing my welfare optimisation, and just put your preferred optimisations for your welfare on the table. They'll insist on being gallant anyway. I'm calling toxic feminity... #ironicpostfortheday #commerceofsex #xism

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We recently cooked-up a consulting and outsourcing services rate card, and shared it to the local barista community for reference. You can find it here. If you don't want to join the group, PM, and I'll send you a separate copy. :)

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New project ice boxed. This means less to think about. Clearing caches, and going back to sleep. Phew.

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Is there a spike in the suicide rate after National Suicide Prevention Awareness Month? I guess not.

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Air pollution alarms: I want two of these, one at the smoking area, and one inside the shop. Lol

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6pm. Enforced upgetting. And jogging. Not the best life, but one tries to make it better. :)

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Stop being afraid of sex robots. It's inevitable. It's eventually going to be pretty common for human partners to be simultaneously dependent on separate robots for sex while curating the non-sexual elements of a relationship between the human pair. #commerceofsex

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Test your subconscious evaluation of labels with this industry-grade tool! #commerceofsex — feeling amused.

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"Exciting changes at the cafe?"
"Exciting for observers: great. From my point of view, nothing very new in two years. I like boring. Boring is good. I am going to hang out with my friends tonight."
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Guys, guys, guys. I think everyone on the planet must be more attached to this cafe than I am. I only own 10% of this. My key role is to make it work. And if caring about things was a prerequisite for doing them, I would not have invented a job where I own only 10% and do most of the work. Please-es, which planet do you come from? This is a business, not a passion project. If I wanted to pursue my "passion," I would have just worked for someone else and did math in my spare time. We are are here to do work... for work's sake... that is business. I really hate repeating myself on this point to passion-driven people. I wish they would all die, suddenly: and the world would be prettier without them. Haha. Ok, up, up, time to do work...

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Lower absolute wealth, or lower inequality? The typical approach of humanists is to argue for a world where there is the highest [lowest standard of living] - so really where you draw the line is which bottom chunk of the population to write off... the bottom 50%? the bottom 5%? The bottom 0.5%? The bottom 0.05% [500k per billion]? Lower? Whose feelings would you really like to hurt? :D

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"My tastes are very... singular."
#uhoh

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Ok. November is cash flow demanding for the firm, so I shall have in mind to defer personal payment until we cross the hurdle, so personal expenditure shall also need to be reigned in for October. Whereas, personal metabolic rate is down, probably due to conservation of energy away from body building, but we'll need to bump up that allocation to squeeze RO-cash to its maximum, so making a point to schedule in more physically demanding activities, with the main goal of raising metabolic rate to speed up healing and the removal of sleep debt. In the absence of cheap food supplements, back to being more careful with daily food purchases also. Life is complicated... or boring, but sometimes it is both.

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On encouraging staff to learn fast and move on: It actually works pretty well. We can toss up consulting projects and accidentally have them caught by ex-staff. Lol. And it's not about millennials, really, it's as old as McKinsey - up or out, build a network. As old as kingdoms come and gone.

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I think F&B is boring, but I sure hope our process controls are better than this. (They are probably not, but our mistakes are probably cheaper to fix.)

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Time for enforced exercise, and food.

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Facilitating a large group discussion, over two years, with different reading and comprehension levels, on a subject which is a theoretical construct to most participants, has been a truly mind boggling experience.
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I suppose most of my tenseness comes from watching the group pass a loaded arsenal around, discussing how it works, neither being sure of how to use it, nor having tested it systematically to find out.
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Writing this down just so I reify my understanding of how, and why I feel stressed about this aspect of work.
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The effective way to get this done is with a lot of servicing: individual phone calls, facilitated focus groups, certainly how I got it working in the first place. Sadly, past the first sixty days of the project, the time allocated for that had dropped to a tenth, and past the first twelve months, by another factor of ten. No wonder, my wards feel abandoned. And I feel sadly, unable to attend to them, as triage does not prioritise theoreticians much at all. I don't yet find it a waste, but we have yet to see a happy ending arise for all.

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Well, that was a prior stage of life, and I wasn't too impressed by the USA even in a fratless college, due to the quality and quantity of drunks still staggering around. Most of them are probably wealthier than I am now, if they weren't 16 years ago. :)

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On the human world being a civilisation, and some people who bemoan that possibility. This guy actually feels magic in life, and is depressed by the notion of a simulation. I think that perspective is common. The more parsimonious view is simply that of Cypher, you cannot tell the difference unless you have ever been out.

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Teaching service staff not to get emotionally invested in customers is hard. I told a trainee today, "remember that your personal time will always have more valuable uses than long arguments about ethics with stonewalling counterparties." It is much simpler, and cost-effective, to cut people off, once they are not complying with governance. (If you are a waiter in a restaurant, you are an agent of the restaurant's government.) Simply inform non-compliant folks of their errors, and if they do not comply, request a written notice from your boss, informing the individual that he/she is no longer welcome at the establishment.
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- Interfacing with hissy fits: waste of time.
- Worrying that they will slander you and the establishment: waste of time, if you have a long established case history.
- Low ratings on social media: waste of time.
- Caring about their feelings: waste of time. [Please don't even bother doing this with any individual customer whomsoever, it is more likely to distract you from remote judgements which you should be making every minute, about the state of the room as a whole.]
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Simply remind the angry party to smile, and casually remind them that the business relationship is no longer viable.

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I'm quite certain I don't enjoy leadership roles, but guess what... I often can't find leaders I think are worth following, so I have to lead or just do nothing. lol

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Why are you smiling at me?

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Sometimes it takes a bit longer than an afternoon walk and a cup of coffee to reboot.

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Future dating apps will ENFORCE a protocol of dating, and then based on what protocol you like, you pick your app. #commerceofsex

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"Hire someone who's worked, running the front for an existing cafe - you'll get implicit bias, in preference of style and stuff- which is ok if you're willing to lock yourself in. I tend to think of CX from a very macro segmentation point of view. For example, Sudo Brew's CX is designed to fit a very specific need which I thought was underserved. It's almost anti-Instagrammable, because it's not been the marketing focus. But for a portfolio play, we need to map out the different earnings, lifestyle, and usage pattern categories... and specifically prioritise the segments per cafe.

So Cafe 1: priority is to serve markets ABC in that order

Cafe 2: priority is HGD in that order

Cafe 3: priority isi to AHC in that order

etc.

And that, sets direction for CX, and therefore all decisions on ops on a per outlet basis. I think you can understand my thought process. I remain curious to see yours."

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"There are various "avant garde" / "non sbux" service workflows to be discussed.
Island seating around bar. Zero-seating bars. Self-service. Vending machine, etc. All good and fun."

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Bladerunner 2049 is like Star Wars VII - a crisp echo, but little more than an echo. :)

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Where is my series A? 😛

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On traffic. Where are my gantries? Tax the shit out of it already.

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Current to-do list:
- pursue more bids for food produced by cafe
- pursue more bids for cafe
- pursue more bids for apartment, to provide cash for cafe
#sellsellsell

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Some people like to feed their dreams, to keep, to cast, and chase them. I tend to feel that dreams are like weeds, and annihilation keeps things tidy. Many people will never enjoy the privilege of choosing between dreaming, and not dreaming. You are the dreamers. We are the cleaners.

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Johor royalty wading in against the conservatives: in case you're wondering, the correct solution is for the Sultan to fund theological think tanks or state agencies to propagate his views. #businessinmalaysia

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What the fuck is "fine casual dining," do you asshats even English?

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Scientists report that genetically, durian is chocolate, squared. #waitsforhipstermarkettoexplode #someonegobuydurianstocks

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M&As. Because the only coffee shop worth operating is legion. :P

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Wash. Breakfast. Deliver coffee. Change Daiso purchases. Buy bulb. Buy electrical parts. Wash. Visit roastery. Camp with desk work. Review. Return. Rest. / For now, enforced activity, that means, less rest, less creativity, and less sanity.

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The mode humam being goes about life looking for reasonable explanation. But not everyone lives with a specific reason for doing so. Looking for a motive? Maybe he was just bored.

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I figure we need to run through 20-30 execs and 50-100 baristas before we cultivate the talent that I require. If the funnel moves slowly, we'll never get there. If you're rich you can buy anyone. If you're not, you have to build them yourself.

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Given that I generally have little in common with my dates, I'm going to start taking OOTDs whenever they do. Get ready for lot of tshirts and denim.

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#MeToo. Though the kids who were trying to touch my chest probably thought I was a girl under that umbrella. #fomo

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"I don't like royalty, but I like this sultan's stance on Islam."
"The enemy of your enemy is..."
"What if the enemy of my enemy is also my enemy?"
"Then you're a shitty politician."

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Use gender neutral slurs, you fuckin snowflakes.

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Dating a foodie who doesn't eat by numbers. We have no future. Lol

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What Zuck always says about Facebook: This is idiotic, simply because Zuck's ideals of human relationships are not universal in nature. Many of us don't care about our friends, we mainly engage with people for commercial gain, and we display falsely intimate information simply to game the substrate that is a society where a large (but less than unit) fraction of people have predictable responses to receiving information that may be deemed intimate.

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Scheduling in about six hours of work with no room for reflection. Enforced feeding and caffeine. Drugs on. Supplier of services not open for business. Procurement for self-service. Automobile user interface repair regression; quick fix unavailable; tidying parts for future fixes. Catching up on talent management chores - a large chunk of my analysis is of the complexity on the order of marking homework for school children; another chunk is on the order of scheduling meetings for other people; aside from that, I must tend to repairs and I do not feel this is a productive use of time. But it is the nature of work, whether it is productive, or not.

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"Men do not talk to one another about nurturance skills: doing so feels too intimate," - this is not exactly true. I regularly discuss it in using the language of "babysitting," with regards to discussions on talent management, CX, and CRM at my office.

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3pm
Up.

4pm
Admin issues via phone. Breakfast is purchased.

5pm
Customers arrive early; service begins. Electrical failure - resolved; work order placed with corporate services.

6pm
Official hours begin. Entertainment of people that one can read, whom one may never care for, proceeds in earnest.

8.5pm
A lull in activity. Breakfast is eaten.

9pm
Bar service; while discussing accounting, IT, project management, and marketing with colleagues, over Slack; entertainment of people one has never met before, whom one may never meet again, continues, with care.

12am
Instawhoring.

1am
Missing cash. Cleaning begins. Multiple Slack conversations in limbo. A piece of cake - freely given, and consumed.

Training of staff proceeds, as it is a quiet day.

Looking forward to:

2.5am
GTFO. Drive staff home. Find lunch. Get more sleep. Procrastinate on administrative issues.

:)

Such is the game.

PS. Made it to bed before 5am. "Achievement unlocked," as the gamers say.

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Clean up. Do work.

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Multiple regressions.

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On "the things men do which make them part of the problem." (The list was too inclusive.)

As unfortunate as it may be, the article is wrong. There are, in language,
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(a) "normative/imperative/prescriptive," statements, which are like orders, didactic inflection, ethical propositions, etc., generally involving the style, "do X," or "you should do X," and there are
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(b) "descriptive," statements, which are of the form: "X is a state of affairs."
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Now you can take sentences such as, "if you wear mini skirts in public, among uncultured men, you will be touched against your will," and they can be interpreted as being of either (a) or (b) forms above, depending on the sophistication of the conversants, and the conversational pusuit.
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Unfortunately, far too often, what is written as (b) gets read as (a), and a petty tiff results..
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As for the people who deal with language at this level, the real problem is that many people are too loose with their attachment of emotions to language.
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So at least we agree partially on the subset of our views that the root substrate of evil, is the abuse of communicative media.

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To discourage dawdling, leave phone on desk when going for lunch. Right?

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I am not sure what is more mind boggling to certain people: (a) that one can view humans as boring, and all human relationships as trivial (b) that one can be married to a job or project, having assigned to it more value than other uses of one's lifespan by virtue of contract, and nothing but contract.

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Still cleaning up messes that occurred a week ago during vaca. LOL.

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On phobias of social conversation: I'm actually not sure if they don't like talking in general, if they don't like dealing with strange people, if they don't like talking about themselves, or if they are just confused, sometimes.

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Laws against discrimination: This is daft. Racism is inherent in the Malaysian constitution. Ask him to go back to China if he doesn't like it here. LOL

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I have to hand it to 3M's marketing segmentation team/agency. They have this surgical tape called Blenderm that's designed for sealing liquids out of dressings, and it's rather strong. It's sold online as "hinging tape for remote control airplanes," and in pharmacies as "double eyelid / eyelash extension attachment tape."

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Self-service kiosks at McDonalds. This is the future we are building for. I always remind staff that their ops roles are temporary, and their only long-term value is in curating CX and supply chains.

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Cafe owner: "My shop is like a lambo, I don't let just anyone drive it."
Me: "Cool bro. My shop is supposed to be a pick-up truck. Call for towing, ah?"

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Caught up on sleep.

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"OK you have enough damage on Instagram. My turn now. :D"
"Try to be messier please. Branding lari nanti. LOL. Also, if we get a new CMO and I buang responsibility for brand, you'll probably have a better time at work.Ensure the key messaging is on "work" and you should be ok."
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What that means is...
[photo] "See coffee," -> [caption] "we're not thinking about the coffee, we're thinking about work."

[photo]"See food," -> [caption] "we're not thinking about the food, we're thinking about work."

to balance it up, you can

[photo] "See work," -> [caption] "by the way, if we have to stop to eat, it's right here, right now, can be swallowed without hurling, decent pricing."

[photo] "See cat / boy / girl / lala / uncle," -> [caption] "something something work, busy, shitting pants, kancheong, productivity"

OK? :P

As per the latest post: among all the cars on the road, the band is a Hilux, not a Camry, not a Prius, or a Lotus, or a VW Camper. LOL"

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On how founders "battle loneliness and anxiety." Well I'll be the first to say it. Unlike the author, I have less than overwhelming concerns for my staff, and near zero concerns for my biological family (some of whom I do hold shares for in my business). So any shortage of social interaction is mostly dealt with discussing as much of my business's operating activities with my network on social media. And any other personal concerns are lobbed into my private philandering practice. Sorry, if it sounds crass, but lifestyle decisions, you know. One does what it takes to balance a portfolio, I suppose.

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On startups with too much money. True of the cafe. But the risk was taken with knowledge of probable outcomes, so does that make me reckless? Probably. I've done it with my own resources before, and now simply on a larger scale with the resources of others. Is it irresponsible if I consider it progress? Probably until we're out of purgatory, yes, I suppose.

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Our brand does not condone the illusion of meaningfulness in work.

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Distractions form a simple life.

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Post birthday bonding rituals:
- clean sewer
- design new discount cards
- check if anything else has fallen over
- claims
- alipay, mcash, ubereats, tngo pay, octopus card
- first, breakfast

... deploy...

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May we see an eventual end to irrational romances. #commerceofsex

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Mission vs purpose. (HBR article.) In the language of this article, our purpose is the same as WeWork - our strategy is completely different. The first part might be a small lie.

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Feels like a wasted day. But we'll figure out how to optimise around that.

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Overall, a good day, lots of stressors, but all positive.
- woke from a day of catching up on sleep
- social outing with an infrequent partner
- banking for supply chain
- rebooted monthly social media ad campaigns
- knocked in daily social media postings
- curated soap stock
- curated coffee stock
- cleaned an air conditioner
- cleaned a grinder (discovered a flaw)
- helped FOH with dishes and furniture
- purchased sundries
- cancelled birthday dinner with parents because I care about neither bs nor ps relative to other items
- curated wildlife
- curated IT
- dimsum!
- assisted bookeepers
- got a haircut
- replied to an email complaining that our coffee is shit (stakeholder did not mention it in two years?)
- trying to see if I can slot in an IR meeting before bed

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There are two frequent problems with the world. First people are not sure of what they are, and second they are not willing to be honest about it. Then if you fix the first two, you have to watch the horror in the eyes of others. So yes, boring, natural, ancient, problems. Day in, day out.

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Manually migrated 390 customer records from a mañually maintained table to manually maintained table. The data isn't even great. But it is the best we can do for now. It's gonna be a slow week. Up next:
- covering shifts
- monthly financial reporting
- possibly retail design if i can fit it in
- fifty slide brand manual if i get asked for it

### Hello. I'm Creepy.

Sensitive topic: sexual harassment (or just being socially offensive). If I'm accused of it, I like to take into consideration the point of view of the accuser, so that I can understand why I'm guilty of it from their point of view. I don't think it's reasonable to deny guilt of specific actions - but I do think it's reasonable to claim ignorance of how the other party feels. OK, done with mansplaining that "I can't care about what I'm not told about, and if I caused someone to feel afraid, I suppose it's my fault that they don't want to explain things to me." Here's what happened...
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Ms. X: Hey Jerng, Y says that Z told Y, that Z's female friends A and B don't go to your cafe anymore because the boss was creeping on them.
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Jerng: Sucks to be me. I wonder which ones those might be.
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[Starts going through a mental list of CRM concerns ranging across women whose names I know, those whose names I don't know, those I didn't find attractive, those I did find attractive, those I spoke to, those who spoke back, those who had extended conversations with me, those who expressed no conversational interest, those I'd independently met on Tinder, those I offered my number to, those who suddenly stopped coming to the cafe, those who I interact with on social media, those who do not interact on social media, those I had coffee with at locations other than the office, those I met at the cafe, those I met elsewhere, those I hit on, those who hit on me, and all the intersections of the sets above... brief panic attack.]
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Jerng: If you think it's possible, please convey to Y, to X, to victims of of creeping that I would prefer to be told directly what they prefer, so that I can avoid doing it. With apologies.
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X: I don’t know who A and B are. But well, meh. Well, I can tell Y. Will see if Y remembers to pass the message. Also, while you prefer to be told directly, most people don’t because of reasons a b c d e whatever.
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Jerng: Yes, so generally I prefer not to meet women at the office. I do not want to know your name, so that I won't remember you, and so that I can treat you like an arbitrary customer. Will write Facebook post.
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X: I shall look forward to Facebook post. 😂
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[Full disclosure on process, I am checking in on hub-individuals in my network who may have introduced me to other individuals at the cafe, and I am asking for their views on this issue. I am linking this account to the questions. Also, I don't mind being creepy. Just wanna make sure I am not illegally creepy. ]

## 2017-10-19

### A brief review of society and its discontents

- Not all wish for justice.
- Not all wish for peace.
- Not all want you as their friend.
- Not all see more than meat in others.
- Not all abusers have had the privilege of other education.
- Not all citizens respect speech.
- Not all wars can be won with words, or votes, or pacifism.
- Not one of the living will see an end to war.

## 2017-10-10

### Analysing operations for leaks

- Expectation of warmth from bath water: deleted; seconds gained, per use.

- Dull aches of similar amplitude with pleasure, in various muscles, neither sharp pains nor clear kinesthetic feedback received upon antagonism: weak feedback indicative of understimulation, possibly undernutrition; tagged for further development of those inputs.

- This year's retraining of discernment in the aural modality has proceeded nicely, and sensitivity to higher frequencies is a welcome improvement. Right ear canal however, appears to be permanently enlarged in relation to the left.

- Carbohydrate loading after a few weeks of limiting, seems to be aiding general alertness and rate of recovery of minute to hour cognitive faculties. To be observed.

- Hypothesis: destablising nutritional cadences will stimulate stronger signalling of hunger, and following that greater quantities of feeding will result in a stronger amplitude throughout this feedback loop. This will emphasise feeding as a basal rhythm for the day (currently I have trained myself to do the exact opposite).

## 2017-10-06

### Philosophising Jealousy

Discuss: Jealousy, philosophy of: analysing its structure and life-cycle. I was discussing this with a partner.
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Common components:
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[(3. Fear of) misinformation] - epistemological doubt, either due to information hiding, or deliberate deception, i.e. risk management... (to protect against:
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[2. Fear of) uncompetitiveness] - loss of power, loss of control, inability to retain objects of desire... (ultimately to avoid:
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[1. Fear of) separation] - anxiety, physiological, typically.
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Don't expect the syntax above to be analytical. Lol.

## 2017-10-05

### Biochem notes from August

Cool. Picked up some new hypotheses today. So finally read up on gasotransmitters (G), and it kinda gave me a unifying paradigm for a number of other studies I've been doing.
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As it turns out... a number of sports performance levels are tied closely to vasodilation (V) at different scales - some are directly observable in practice without fancy equipment. And V is functionally controlled by G - for example, the popular drug sildenafil works directly on G-V pathways. And G levels can be actively augmented through dietary means, since there is good documentation on what common foods contain precursors (P) that metabolise to G, or G-V-related molecules.
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The set of P easily includes, { certain polyphenols (quercetin, catechin, being of particular interest), allicin, dealcoholised red wine, l-arginine (itself precursed by l-citrulline) }. At which point I've pretty much identified a framework which helps to rationalise the observable dietary consequences of all the garlic, onions, watermelon, and miscellaneous produce, which constitutes the backbone of my eating habits (and actively managed performance results) these past few years.
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Aside: the (l-arginine, l-lysine) tuple of metabolites which increase and decrease the rates of various Herpesvirus and other viral replication rates appears to have non-trivial coherence with the (heaty, cooling) tuple of food groupings and and corresponding symptoms in traditional Chinese medicine.
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All hypothetical of course, but the patterns recognised today made me happy. On we go.

2018-06-04 update on heaty/cooling terminology: for the layperson's casual usage:
1. Maybe comparable to effects on the hydration of membranes. Heaty -> dehydrating; cooling -> hydrating.

2. Maybe comparable to effects on passive metabolic rate / heat generation at rest in cells.

## 2017-09-23

### A Call to Apathy

On Political Engagement in Malaysia

THE PURPOSE of this essay is not, to present a defensible position. Rather, it is written to disturb the minds of anyone who has decided however strongly that they must participate in Malaysia’s political process*.
* Or I suppose, more broadly, it may apply to anyone who consciously involves themselves in the political process of whichever organisation they inhabit at this time, be it a nation state, a nuclear family, or a for-profit or not-for-profit organisation. The essay does not address those who participate in politics sub-consciously - to bring about an absence of intention is the very operational objective of this essay.

I have for many years abstained from making formalised public statements about my views on Malaysian politics. But today I found myself in need of recreational activity on this long weekend. And then I was quite inspired to write this essay, by several citizens of Facebook (and Malaysia) whose discussions I have been interacting with online. It may be the case that no one reads this, but I am going to write it anyway.

THE NEXUS of these discussions is one article (P0, Disenchanted by blurred lines, some middle-class youths to sit out GE14), which antagonised two acquaintances (A1, A2) to put forth their respective views in posts (P1, P2) on the entitled youths, posts which in turn attracted nu(uuu)merous comments (Cn), largely eliciting empathy for the thrusts of the two posts, that avoiding the polls is a bad thing.

IN DEFENSE OF POLITICAL ACTIVISM these acquaintances A1 and A2 and their views are absolutely to be encouraged. Nothing should stop an individual from identifying with goals and objectives that enable it to find community, and happiness in daily operations.

That being said, a number of the views I have read in the comments, Cn, have caused me grave concern. I have already provided specific engagement with P1 and P2 via comments in their threads, so I won’t engage with P1 or P2 here. Rather abstractly, I will reword the points I raised there, into a brief list of objectionable propositions which I surmised from the engagement with P1, P2, and Cn.

• O1: Citizens are obliged to be active in politics.
• O2: Absence of political activism is necessarily lazy.
• O3: Laziness is irresponsible.
• O4: Irresponsibility is distasteful.
• O5: An individual is more likely to be: inactive in politics, lazy, irresponsible, or distasteful, because she or she is young.

“Citizens are obliged to be active in politics.”

No, they are not. Except in countries where it is mandatory for citizens to engage in politics, it is quite often the case that citizens are given the right to be active, but not the obligation to participate in the governance of their societies. This is the case in Malaysia - there are no laws making it illegal to refrain from political activism, including any refrainment from voting.

You may find this distasteful in and of itself. You may feel that citizens ought to defend their neighbours from evil parties. You may even feel that in a completely neutral environment, citizens are obliged to improve the wellbeing of their neighbours. But these are your personal inclinations, ungoverned by law.

You may then turn to letters and verses which describe the spiritual character of the nation we inhabit, and infer from such passages that the spirit of citizenship obliges citizens to behave a certain way even if the letter of the law does not. But that is your spiritual conviction - until it becomes explicit law, for each citizen, there is no compulsion in political engagement.

“Absence of political activism is necessarily lazy.”

Well frankly, in many cases, political apathy is due to laziness. But this isn’t necessarily the case. It is easily conceivable that a person may be very industrious, hardworking, diligent, alla zeitgeist: GRITTY, in many fields of endeavour… while at the same time he or she simply doesn’t give a damn about the welfare of this country, its citizens, or its abstract future as an institution.

I am such a person. Personally, I find local political discourse generally unmotivating. It lacks sophistication; it lacks strategic elegance; it lacks decisive parsimony; it bores me; I find it is full of outrage - I have a general distaste for outrage, and even as I am outraged by the points I am objecting to here, I am also outraged at my own outrage… and the only reason I am investing time in writing this is for amusement, to stimulate and exercise my thoughts in order to try and stay healthy, as a point of mental conditioning.

I think ultimately, what differentiates political activists (and I consider anyone who participates in the democratic elections an activist citizen) and non-activists, is a fundamental difference in the degree of interest/affection that each has for the issues that surround us.

• Some people want to watch the world burn.
• Some people don't want to, but don't mind watching.
• Others can't stand to watch it burn.

Each to their own tribe. Tribes will bicker. Some tribes will die. Let’s find out, together. We don’t really have a choice about that - the future, indeterminable as it is, remains inevitable.

“Laziness is irresponsible.”

Suppose we have a person, who is convinced that they should be active in politics. This person is furthermore of very specific political convictions: for example, he or she believes that Barisan Nasional is the child of the devil. (Caveat: I am not that person.) However, he or she then decides to do nothing about it… to not vote, to not campaign, to not engage. He or she believes that those activities would be a waste of energy. He or she believes that the energy conserving alternative is preferable. He or she, consciously, decides to be lazy. Is this irresponsible?

Not necessarily. It could be irresponsible, but it would be pre-mature to simply judge this to be irresponsibility - in fact the definition of what counts as irresponsibility is, itself, fraught with complexities.

While I personally do not view Barisan Nasional to be the child of the devil, I do think that Barisan Nasional is not very good at what it is supposed to do - which is to deliver the welfare of all Malaysian citizens, and not just the citizens who voted for it. With this view in mind, for almost two decades, I have also favoured (i) compliance with the hegemony, or (ii) all out war, over (iii) engagement with the electoral process. While I am so far unpersuaded about going to war, I don't think that Barisan Nasional plays fair enough to warrant fair play resistance or engagement.

It has been a lonely perspective.

But I don’t think it is an irresponsible perspective. While I remain quite lazy about political involvement, I have allocated my time to the pursuit of a large enough stockpile of resources with which I could then go to war with against Barisan Nasional in the future. I do this because this I believe that this is an economically optimised strategy.

It is not a secret strategy, and it may not be a viable one, but it is nevertheless one that I am fully responsible for. At any point, I can be locked up, or cement barrelled, or castrated, otherwise disfigured, or however more threatened by our gangster Government, simply at its whim. I have known this to be a practical reality for years, and daily readiness in mind and body is simply what it means to be responsible.

As they say in programming, you eat your own dog food. You can be lazy, as long as you accept responsibility for it.

“Irresponsibility is distasteful.”

Let’s return to the list of abstract complaints. Again, hinging on the vagaries of how irresponsibility is to be defined, we turn now to a consideration of a truly irresponsible individual. What would such an individual look like?

So say, one believes in activism, believes that Barisan Nasional is doing a shit job of running the country, believes (rationally, or irrationally) that the alternative parties are convincing alternatives, yet just prefers not to vote because one couldn’t be arsed to register, and go to the polls, and make decision, and write it down on the ballot, and all that. Let’s just assume now, for the purpose of discussion, that that we can call this irresponsibility. Again, we now assume that this is a legitimate use of the word ‘irresponsible’.

Must it be distasteful?

Absolutely not.

Actually in practice, it must be distasteful for some people. Many people aren’t capable of manipulating their preferences. Some are. But the fact that there are some who can choose not to be affected by it means that in practice, it is not all people who find that irresponsibility is distasteful.

At this point in the essay, the conversation could be expanded exponentially in two directions - (i) in elaborating the humanistic structures and sentiments of those for whom distaste is an inevitable phenomenon, and (ii) in returning to a systematic analysis of what it really means for someone to be “irresponsible.”

Very irresponsibly, at this point, we shall attempt neither endeavour. Is it not responsible, if we simply have not the resources to do so at this juncture?

In any event, it is certainly not distasteful. Unless you feel insulted, in which case we can’t help you, but I don’t feel insulted, so it can’t necessarily be the case that irresponsibility is insulting. Eh?

“An individual is more likely to be: inactive in politics, lazy, irresponsible, or distasteful, because she or she is young.”

This position is not even worth addressing in great detail because it is such a common fallacy. Empirically, a stringent definition for each adjective above might yield sufficient preparation for survey on the truth of this proposition, according to the given definitions. Otherwise, it will be sufficient to note that throughout history the old have made a pastime of deriding the young, and that objectively, neither of them really has any greater foothold upon the arc of history than the other. All remain subject to time, given unto us, upon which we simply deride.

Further Remarks

Now you are quite welcome to object to any of the ideas presented above, reasonably, or unreasonably, emotionally, or unemotionally. The ideas are not presented as logically coherent propositions that are empirically falsifiable, and so you may find any or all of the following within them: logical contradictions, an absence of falsifiability, or total and complete falsification by empirical fact. That’s for you to think about. I just wanted to put the points out there. I don’t feel obliged to make more effort than that, given that this is a recreational pursuit, and not a job I am paid to do.

Identification of Author

My name is Hwa Yang Jerng, citizen number 831031-14-5577 of the nation of Malaysia. I became eligible to vote in 2004, and registered to vote before the 2008 elections, with the express intention of remaining absent from the polls. I have never voted in a Malaysian election. The ideas presented in this essay are of my own contrivance, and do not represent the orientation or opinion of any other individuals, human or corporate, with whom I am associated. I, and I alone, bear full responsibility for any damage, annoyance, butthurt, or physical damage that incurs on Earth which follows from essays, such as this.

### Speaking Up for Apathy / " "true" neutral" Political Stances

Counterparty: "... that the devil they know is better than the devil they do not..."

Me: "Ironically, that ends up being why I am pro-BN. Alternatives remain unconvincing. But I have had this view for like 20 years... so it may be sheer laziness. :)"

It's not a fallacy if it doesn't pretend to be logical ;)

The belief that I have a preference to do X given Y, is abstract, and not nailed to any empirically determinable item Z. So I don't think it's material... basically it's an unfalsifiable belief. So I don't think it falls within the category of truth-determinable propositions. #dodgy ;)

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:) I favour compliance with the hegemony, or all out war. So far unpersuaded about war. I don't think they play fair enough to warrant fair play resistance.

It's been a lonely perspective.

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I find local political discourse generally unmotivating. I think what differentiates political activists (and I consider anyone who participates in the democratic elections an activist citizen) and non-activists, is fundamental difference in the degree of interest/affection that we have for the issues that surround us. Some people want to watch the world burn. Some people don't want to, but don't mind watching. Others can't stand to watch it burn.

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Don't pick fights you can't win. If you see me getting ready for a fight, ehehehe... either I'm crazy, or shit is hitting the fan... over time, I guess, the consensus is that I don't actually make sense.

After thought: the overarching emotion that I feel about this is sadness about watching generation after generation of passionate youth charge to its death against odds it does not realise are (in the short term) insurmountable. But such is war... most wars are not fought intelligently.

Post lunch: I feel that this is important enough to turn into a full-blown essay, "In Defense of Fuck-all," so I guess I will find a suitable place to do this, seeking a productive Saturday afternoon.

### Yawn 31

Sep1-Sep23

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So I almost lost a chequebook. #memory

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Re: High-Performing Teams Need Psychological Safety. Here’s How to Create It
Because whether you like it or not, not everyone was born to kill.

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Yawn. Back on shift. I think it's getting close the anniversary of the first middle-manager we had to fire for trying to exemplify defiance. I wonder how she is doing. She was a clever lady, with strong emotional attachments to people and ways of work. We couldn't use those very easily in volatile company. It has shaped my view of whom to admit in the present market. Aside from market conditions, I still think she is a fine person, and would hire her again in a different role, in a different organisation. But I don't think she likes me very much anymore. Haha. Such is work, bad timing, move on.

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Awake, again. Still alive. Disappointed that now, I have to invent an efficient use of my day. Nutrition, work, socialising, physical conditioning, are candidates. Much more work to be done.

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Sleep interrupted by a supplier I haven't even engaged yet. I'm starting to see the value of using a burner phone for business. In the absence of sleep, I do not anticipate good things for myself or my work. Pensive.

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(Article:These are some great examples of acquaintances doing well in the standard narrative, which I applaud.)
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In the grand scheme of things, however, human DNA is a temporary blip in the history of civilisation. All haggling on human preferences at the levels of cultural appreciation, in terms of product, customer service, and staff happiness is futile, and not a sustainable source of value.
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This view has been brought to bear on our brand and culture, from inception: we say that work is an end in itself. This puts emphasis on process controls and discourages romancing of the crafts. Staff are coached delivering on quantified targets, and on fulfilling the definitions of a job regardless of their personal reactions to their observations. Communications is demanded, and delivered in concrete terms, with empirical examples. Ownership is incentivised only for continuous improvement with understanding for process delivery by any means, and not simply for any delivery of process without understanding. (For example, we don't care what your individual cups of coffee taste like, really, we do care that you know why it tastes good or bad, and that your mode and median cups taste better in successive periods.)
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It's no wonder that many past and present staff are unhappy with this approach. But given that the market in general tends to go left, we go right specifically as a contrarian approach to seeking value. Most businesses may not feel that the changing role of meat is relevant to strategic planning, as they focus on short term happiness, but I don't really see the point of doing business without bearing in mind the impending future.
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And if we're one of the few companies looking seriously at the displacement of humans in food and beverage services, then maybe our core competency is supposed to be change management services. Well, what do I know? I'm just a bloke running a cafe. :)

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Rather unstimulating week - spent most if it talking to myself. Going to ruminate a little, hopefully without blanking out, maybe do a little reading.

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Listening to foodies talk is cute. I sometimes wonder how I ended up around folks like this. Haha. Well, such is the game.

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"When a customer says that they're not happy with something that I won't give them, I remind them to smile, because it will help them to feel better. :) :)"

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I have come to the conclusion that dieting is like drag. Many people simply enjoy the performance of it as an art form.

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Unlimited Data for RM150/month. 40mbps... screw all that repeater multi-access-point expose the physical router rubbish.

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There's nothing wrong with cryptocurrency per se, as there's nothing wrong with paper currency, or fiat currency per se - but in all cases you have to examine the context of implementation. What's the difference between Bitcoin (a), national currencies (b), and gold (c)?
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(c) Gold is a metal with chemical and physical properties. You can use gold to make things. (Can't eat it - unfortunately.)
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The other two (a, b) are fiat currencies.
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(b) National currencies are proxies for goods and services sold by a specific country's economy. If you see the economy or government regulations weaken, you short the currency, and vice versa.
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(c) Bitcoin is a proxy for goods and services sold by no specific country's economy. You can't get reasonable metrics on "the Bitcoin economy," or "the Bitcoin government," so its value is more speculative in nature. Perhaps this will be fixed in the future - it's possible, but not yet the case - you would have to have a sort of meta-national government with great regulations and data collection services run by the open-source or anarcho-syndicalist communities, hah.
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Extra: what are unregulated token/coin/contract sales by private parties? Sales of shares which are unregulated by government regulators. It's just like the fiat currency I printed on manila card and distributed to my sisters as a kid.
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Good luck with that.

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Got a chance to chat with a new acquaintance, for stimulation, and continued development of my general business plan while explaining our whys and wherefores to him. And this is why I generally do not bother people with speaking my mind about anything. I always feel bad about it.

"Anyway, on business direction, it's a branching structure of development of course (use of 'vertical' here is wrt sector focus, and 'horizontal' is wrt functional focus). Please note that we are working only on 1.1. and have been stalled for 15 months:

//START MAP//

1. B2C

1.1. Cafe
1.1.1. vertical model growth into more outlets
1.1.2. ... franchise sales
1.1.3. ... management services and supply chain optimisation-->2.

1.x. Horizontal model growth into Retail, Hotels, Property Development

2. Spin off the B2B division. Reorganise talent appropriately.

2.1. Supply chain optimisation for 1.1
2.1.1. ... business process outsourcing (finance, HR, corporate services) for 1.1
2.1.2. ... product development and manufacturing processes for 1.1
2.1.3. ... marketing communications services for 1.1
2.1.4. ... financial services for 1.1
2.1.5. Vertical model growth into technology services for 1.1 -->3.

2.x. horizontal model growth of all 2.1.x services into all 1.x. B2C lines and then some.

3. Spin off the technology division.

3.1. Technology solution design and systems integration services for 1.1/2.1
3.1.1. Vertical model growth of labour saving technologies from a supply chain point of view, supplementing human effort in all 1.1/2.1 services
3.1.2. ... eventually complete automation of impersonal processes in 1.1/2.1 .
3.1.3. ... eventually complete automation of personal processes: person-to-person customer service / CRM (Turing
test-passed bots are indistinguishable from humans), in 1.1/2.1
3.1.4. ... (Manpower/civilian/human) (retooling/education/social re-architecture) with regards to 3.1.2/3.1.3
3.1.5. ... (culture/talent/change) management integration services for 3.1.2/3.1.3

3.x. horizontal model growth of all 3.1.x services and products into all 1.x. B2C lines and 2.x B2B lines

4. Bonus: if we get done early, we can buy a farm and get into epigenetics, maybe. That would be nice.

//END MAP//

Now this is a map. I foresee most shorter-term investors and staff wanting to focus/spin-off/exit via particular bullet points above. But my own trajectory is 1,2,3,4... ;)

For discussion's sake."

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I dislike retelling stories. But it is my job to do so, and I need to start writing some of this down so that I can save myself time.

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Remedial work on marcomms. Teaching a staff to schedule painting operations. A growing task list.

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Dessert group shenanigans:
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*X has joined the group.*
"New desserter located."
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"Non-desserters now deserting."
*Y has left the group*
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"Non-deserters will now receive just desserts."

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A very talky day, but all opportunities shall receive due diligence, I suppose.

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Spent a couple of hours reading up on the sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous systems. Need to put more effort into planning around an overly active parasympathetic system due to continuous caffeine exposure. :P

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Sleep with earplugs seems like it will become the new norm.

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Protip for cold callers: if you don't deliver the elevator speech in the first 5-10 seconds, it is likely I will hang up.

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"I have concluded that being of service is a reliable and honest approach to introducing myself to women."
"And what kind of services do you offer?"
"Do I need a micro-site?"
"Maybe. :D"
"If only it didn't sound like... exactly how I introduce myself in business settings.."

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Today we take a break from fondling beans and griping about roast profiles to bring you... a market review of ladies' shoe construction quality versus price:
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- Charles & Keith does great stuff in the RM160-190 range; but widths are generally rather narrow for broad rationed feet; Singaporean company;
- Mark & Spencer has decent work, and as a UK company shoe widths are greater; but you're now paying in the RM250-450 range for pumps; selection is limited, but classic cuts are represented;
- Geox stuff is great; Italian; RM450-700 easily with stuff up in the RM1300 range, haha, sorry; nope;
- Bata, Czechnian, always a positive experience if you've figured out how to get by on RM80-160 shoes that last 6-12 months of daily use; construction about on par with Zara;
- Zara, Spanish, quite the profiteers, as well all know; M&S prices for Bata quality with cuts definitively representative of trends not classics;
- Nichii group, MY, has nice cuts and low prices for clothing, but shoe selection is pretty limited; RM30 ballet flats may work, but they all have a knobby fold behind the ankle which needs to be modded;
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Tangent: still well nigh impossible to get full-leather cap-toed derbies at the RM80 year-2000 price that was had at The Store on Jalan Ipoh. Of course, the real problem is that we could only find a single pair in the entire mall... tsk tsk, and they say men have an easy time shopping...

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!@#$%^&*( Vacuum cleaner bags - I think it's time to make our own. / TIL that TNB uses$22 Lindner NH000 63A knife-blade fuses instead of generic \$6 63A cylindrical uses. This is enforced by installation of cutout units which accept only the expensive item. :P I am not sure if there are non-Lindner fuses which fit in the cutouts used...

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Well this is truly insightful. Here you have a prime example of ablism at work. Inequality breeds greater inequality. It is the great lens of wealth.

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What's the professional body to file a complaint with, if an accounting firm behaves unprofessionally?

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Everyone's worried about losing their jobs to AI, whereas the main gains to human productivity are going to come from exponentially increased access to education, coaching, mentorship, counselling, therapy, philosophy, art, culture, science, social stimulation, and overall personal development... that personalised AI familiars will provide to the man on the street.

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One last task to do before bed: prep stock-take calculation critique for the accountant.

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I really don't care where you vacation, and I really only care about what you do.

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I spend fifteen minutes on investor relations emails, and this happens. :P Fortunately it's all under control, and we just missed the boat on protocol.

🚨🚨
Hi guys, we just had an individual walk into the cafe and leave with 2kg of beans that he didn't pay for.

Please don't let this happen in the future, whether it is someone who is your friend, or business partner, or not.

Exceptions to normal retail operations will be made clear by me, in person, or in this group.
🚨🚨

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In the shower, I managed to come up with an entire music video about silicone cups in my head, but I will not have time to produce it before it is forgotten. :) Daiso has these cups that squish flat for travel...

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Frankly, not yet able to purchase BPA-free paper in small volumes at a reasonable price, but looking forward to doing so in the future.

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Up, up, attack the world.

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Investor relations emails involving pretty graphs. Toilet also need unclogging tomorrow. Yawn. Steady day...

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Need to work this into a proper draft tonight. But first coffee... as much as I hate drugging up, drugs are necessary for work. :D

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"Why are you working all the time? Why don't you do something fun?"
"No energy for fun stuff."
"Really?"
"Yeah. Gotta focus on work. R&R is just whatever/whoever is at hand right now."

Now this would be my kind of fun...

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Not much sleep today, but it's time to clean the sewer again! Uppity up up...

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"Protect your future self," she said, "so I went to the last day, and shot him. He died, painlessly. Then I went back through the days in between, and told my other selves, he's ok, I took care of it."

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I think I've nailed all my errands... did I nail all my errands? I think I nailed my errands. I wonder what my hit rate on accuracy of memory is.

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Awake. I do not feel accomplished, this week. But the only thing to do is to work on it.

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Let's put the air-con cleaning on Facebook live. Keeps me company, gives you a slight education, and perchance will be historical if an electrocution happens by accident.

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You hate your job, and I hate mine, and will each job take each one where one wants to go? I stopped caring years, and years ago. I play the game of staying alive without the slightest reason, and so do you. When, will I hold you, again? Say never - it is likely to be true. #modernlove

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Cryptocurrencies: "Central bank-issued," understand, or not? Otherwise it's like gold, not FX.

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"How do you know what food makes what difference to performance?"
"Controlled experiments, and monitored outputs?"
"How do you monitor everything?"
"Get used to writing down in detail how you feel at hourly intervals after every meal, until you can look for patterns in memory without writing?"
#oldschool #nolabgrant

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Reintroduced short periods of heavy lifting to make up for the lack of general exercise. Getting joints in line feels good. Now awake. Didn't find any new ideas of feelings. Plugging in aural distractions, then heading to address errands till 7pm.

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Making a note to deliver remedial training to cooks.

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Bezos' starting meetings with the reading of memos, silently:

Hahah. This is just making me think of all the illiterates I've met working in Malaysian companies. Hahaha.

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Down time. Don't fall asleep. More stress should be sought. Perhaps time to carbo and caffeine load again.

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So I've figured out how to eat healthily, and on a budget, at low energy output levels, but not at high levels. Maybe I need to move to a residence that has a kitchen. Something's got to give.

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Nestle markets to Brazil: Haha. Growing up in Malaysia, people were always so proud of that Milo shit...

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Focusing on the present is pretty straightforward. Context switching to long term planning is ok, if the present can be ignored. But now I have goals in neither, whereas the wisest approach appears to be refocusing on short-term operations. Otherwise aimlessness ensues.

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All jobs, and life itself are meaningless. You just decide that you want to be happy, and do it. Won't you now?

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END

## 2017-09-16

### Coffee: Large Acquisitions of Premium Retailers Doesn't Indicate a Near-future Monopolisation of Specialty Coffee Farms

You can't get a monopoly on specialty coffee farms yet because there is no monopoly in specialty coffee in general at any point in the supply chain. I would say, without thinking about it for longer than it takes to write this.

Price of coffee will go up, and then it will become as classy as drinking wine. Do you see a monopoly on vinyards?

(Also, usually it is the downstream price and classiness that goes up first before upstream prices go up... unless you have huge preemptive bids for upstream assets. LOL. BB is a retailer first, not a farm first.)

Update: erm, actually wine is already cheaper than coffee in places like the US where you can buy a bottle for less than an hour's minimum wage... it's a huge, fat market. In the long run I think we'll just see that specialty-grade coffees become less special. For example in MY we have some local roasters buying at the 81-points range just to quality as Specialty, whereas the some richer guys are buying a minimum of 85 points. Eventually there'll be so many people playing in the 85-point space that you'll have the new hipsters drawing the line at 90-point-minimums. This is only possible if you see consumer growth for 90-to-95-point-coffees. If the market doesn't grow, there's a cap in a profitability for quality, and there's thereafter no reason for an investor to chase alpha by investing in quality upstream assets...

I'm actually waiting for someone like Monsanto to produce a 85+points product. So many farmers are going to suffer. But it's an obvious direction.

Seriously, it's going to be cheaper to develop lab-grown hydroponic specialty-grade coffees than to monopolise traditional farms. LOL. Monsanto, hurry up.

Don't worry - the Whole Foods customer base will happily prop up exquisite prices for non-GMO, farm to cup things.

That might take a while to be true ;)