## 2017-04-17

### Knowing Too Much is a Bad Thing

I always wonder if I will go down for that kind of murder. The premediated technique, the unknown subject, and the circumstances of sudden conflict.

## 2017-04-16

### The Underdressed

"The sleep monitor makes you look better."
"Well, it is black, and so it creates a clean line against the natural tone of this skin. That is what it is to be well dressed, to be presented visually in clean lines. You do realise I normally avoid being well dressed."
"But why do you avoid it?"
"Because I don't want to be noticed. People like me avoid clean lines because it's camo(flage)."
"Why don't you want people to like you?"
"Stealth is an asset."
"Then how are you going to get dates?"
"Clearly, dates are not a priority.
"But you make time for dates."
"It's a hobby. You have hobbies. You play badminton for fun. You don't NEED to play badminton. Right?"
"So why are you wearing something with a clean line?"
"Because I'm on a date, and I don't want the sensitive counterparty to suffer muchly."
A big lie, if I ever told one. I just want data. But then again, picking the colour of the monitor was a fashion conscious decision. If you're going to lug around a computer all day, it might as well have multiple uses, including social engineering...

## 2017-04-15

### Specialty Coffee Service Architecture

"This coffee is two months old."
"I'd drink it. I'm shameless."
"I can't serve it."
"I would, as long as I didn't qualify it as anything it's not."
"..."
"Clear the stock. And always be honest."

The reasoning behind this is pretty straightforward. Specialty coffee is served carte blanche. Usually, you don't charge extra when it comes out especially good, and you don't charge less when it comes out especially bad. (I would like to - we don't have a crew that can handle that yet - price-value optimisation isn't quite on the tip of their tongues at the moment.) The age of a coffee isn't the variable that determines what value you should place on in-cup quality. If you buy an expensive coffee, brew it fresh, and it sucks, you shouldn't serve it - the age is irrelevant to what you choose to serve.

I actually don't think some of our coffees are very good. But that's exactly why I keep ordering them. They're boring, and when they swing left and right, it's pretty meh anyway, no matter what we do to it.

Then again, meh is like my dominant emotion. So it's not a good idea to take my word for what's interesting and what's not, in this world. Haha.

You may question if this is a good attitude to be taking towards specialty coffee. My approach to the industry is to hypothesise that:

(i) No matter how special your coffee, most consumers won't "get it" and pay a premium for it at the brewing level; I agree with a client of mine whose point of view was that you have to become a coffee farmer or sourcer before you start to control real value in quality of coffee - he wants to go there, I don't - therefore my main business, as a coffee retailer, is hospitality, not coffee quality. Real, hard, quality, is completely out of reach/scope.

(ii) What is called specialty at the brewing level now, may be cool, but it's not actually hard, and will eventually become so commonplace that no one is going to notice that it was ever very special. In fact, this will happen faster than it will take to churn up margins in this space. So why waste time building temporary and false value? Our real business is to become good at delivering a complete experience, not to split hairs on brewing parameters. Brewing parameters of the highest quality have to be treated as trivial, and should be considered a demonstration of a staff's completion of basic training... it is not hard to brew good coffee. It is hard to find coffee that is worth brewing. It is better to make a big deal of the complete customer experience, wherein a well calibrated cup of coffee is as trivial as a clean toilet. It can be brewed automatically, it can be brewed by hand; as long as it's good, the cup doesn't care.

### Reflections on Bezos' Note on Customer Centricity

For starters here the notion of customer centricity may be too narrowly interpreted to mean actively pursued customer service. That is the bias of rhetoricians, the charismatic people, or those who like to be liked, showing itself.

Whereas it remains possible for customer centricity to exclude many interactions between staff and customers - particularly if one's product is a space in which customers intend to be self-absorbed, and undistracted by other creatures. Perhaps customer centricity of this sort is more of an architectural endeavour, than one of common parlance. It is also spurious to separate between customer centricity, product centricity, etc. as one can easily reformulate the definition of "product," to refer to the overall customer experience facilitated by the firm. Perhaps this approach is the bias of artisans, the asocial people, or those who regard others with a general sense of irrelevance.

You may draw a dichotomy of introversion and extroversion here if it strikes you as colloquial.

Back to the occurrence of a similar pattern in talent management. Here you will find that rhetoricians employ an additive strategy for improving talent. They may seek to inspire staff with beliefs, and to build new skillsets in others, actively. Whereas the asocial may employ a reductive strategy for improving talent. They may seek to point out a point of view, highlighting nascent qualities of observable things, and then waiting to see how staff react: do staff recognise these, or other points of view? Will staff then find themselves internally motivated to act upon those nascent qualities of the world?

This is an abstract thought, and rougher than it ought to be at the time of publication.

### Performance Notes

I'm rather predictable:

- Pre-game: get numb, but not fatigued. Basically, come every 36 hours or so, to stay primed.
- Stay well fed over the previous 12 hours (constant protein and allium).
- General cognitive quality is as important as food - so sleep, R&R, matter.
- On points of V0_2 max, strength, and flexibility, there's no substitute for plain old physical conditioning.

If all are are on point, that's as good as it gets. #gg

All points not on these days.

All points rarely ever on.

## 2017-04-13

### Law in Malaysia

Someone suggested that "there are no straight lines in law," to which I thought:

"There are no straight lines in law only because it is not in the interest of criminals to have straight lines. And we, as a nation, as long as I have been born... not so old, only 34... have been run by criminals. So I really don't see much use in pretending that we live in a lawful society. I prefer for laws to be enforced, but empirical evidence suggests that reality is otherwise. ;) Almost always, around here."

In reflection: I have been thinking of late, about how the fundamentals of our nation rest on graft. Our heroes and success stories are often built upon it. Our political landscape is built upon it. Our businessess assume it exists inherent to the environment. It is not, after a few decades of consideration, something that I find myself unusually happy or sad about. But it is regretful that the nation did turn out this way. Unlike those who commit themselves to a different future, a nation built instead on the rule of law, I venture no such hope. Only a faint sense of curiosity. It is not a game to be played by the poor. And it has never been my longing to be materially wealthy. Strange, this life, and the lands it finds itself in. So very curious.

### Yawn 24

April 13 start

Our IG creative is approved for that job because she's pretty good norm core stuff. I'm not sure if she should feel offended, but neat, pretty, emo stuff is norm core in this industry...

/

On modelling cash flow:
I'm supposed to be sleeping, but since we have good data now, might as well make good use of it. (We're perpetually behind on accounts.) We're currently implementing model A, where we drop from 100% to 75% availability. The next model, B, sends us to 50% availability, then C-E cut gradually down to 25%. It looks like none of this helps - but two buffers are factored in:
.
1) the net sales figures here are historical; as we restrict supply of hours, we expect the price/hour of the space to go up
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2) as we reduce operating hours, but flatline labour costs in certain departments, we expect the quality of product to increase in those departments
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... 3) as we shrink the size of the organisation, the burden on corporate services shrinks linearly, but the freed-up resources from corporate services may have exponential benefits given (2)... but that's all hypothetical...
...
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A common train of thought:

X: Whats your goal revenue per seat per hour?

me: I know why it should matter to me. And I know why I choose to deprioritise that metric. But why does it matter to you?

X: Utilisation matters to me as an influence on profit with a business where overheads are high. I would like to know: What's our upper limit of revenue per day/per hour (obviously variance based on time of day) that we could achieve?, What would need to ...See More

me: Well I know how the numbers work. Unit economics are pretty straightforward in this very transparent and simple industry. I don't however believe that focusing on unit economics is what I prioritise. The main focus of my time is in increasing the quali...See More

X: That makes sense, always more complex than looking naively at the problem.

X: That being said, I think the identify of the team probably has something to do with the identity of the regular customers of the cafe.

me: I like my staff impersonal. I think getting too involved with customers removes the focus on products. However, give a LOT of leeway for staff to do as they please in this area.

X: What about some sort of membership for heavy duty customers which entitles them to some perks including small discounts/status? 3-6-12 month increments. Essentially helping you offset Rent/TNB, and increase revenue.

me: Will get to it at some point, perhaps.

me: Definitely have more space to rent AFTER I kill cafe hours to 25% hahaha

X: E.g. It's ok to sit for hours here and order just one coffee if you pay just 50RM per month (600 per year, 150 per quarter). Or sub-let.

X: Startups could be based there for maybe 75% of hotdesk rent, plus % off coffee.

X: Maybe under Option B, "members can come 8am - 4pm", then open to general public at 4pm. Minimal food, just drinks. Could also do just take away coffee in that time if there was demand.

X: You just need 9 people paying 500 per month, or 14 paying 300 to completely cover your rent, maybe they can buy coffees for half price in that time.

me: Avoiding charging for space until we shut down the cafe model ;)

me: Hotdesks are shit. I would not pay for one, and so I would not sell one. Haha. RM300/month should get you a nicer seat in a proper working environment that is far nicer than [us]. Also, WeWork is coming to SEA soon. Hurrah!

me: Also something Apple said about six inch phones ;)

X: Haha, my concept of Malaysian economics needs work :p

me: See if you're charging for space, you want comfortable space. We charge for F&B, so the space is intentionally uncomfortable. :P Wobbly tables and stools are very hipster coffeeshop, but I'd charge RM300/month for 4am-4pm access to hot desk in the cafe, no F&B. Example of what could happen later. right now I charge RM60/DAY to get 4am-10am access with unlimited coffee.

X: Hipster = cool. People seek out cool spaces. WIth scarcity, only a limited # of people/startups can have access there.

X: And I'd argue you can charge for image/association if you brand it right.

me: No shortage of better funded spaces in this town ;)

me: "Hang out with Jerng for RM60/day." What kind of lansi business model is this!? All these cool people can go fuck themselves...

/

Toe cap derbies of an industrial quality are nearly impossible to find in KL...

/

What the - Google Hangouts call is online while the app disappears from the system tray. Isn't that a security vulnerability?

/

Monthly reporting call. Shift coverage for short-staffing. TIghtened the furniture. Hmm. Breakfast.

/

April 13 end

April 15 start

Tired. And reviewing performance.

/

I found a way to destablise the campers. Loud music works on some of them.

/

"Did you see that Ryan Reynolds movie - my ovaries are exploding."
"You have ovaries?"
"Of course not - what I meant is, something just as important... my BUDGET is exploding. How did you manage to clock in 36 hours over two calendar days?!"

/

Whoops. Pissed off city council again. Seems that a blackboard is fine for 15 months, but a blackboard with paper on it is not good within four hours. Not on duty. Non-critical matter. Will find out later if they let it go, or if we have another fine. I guess I shall pay this one personally. Hahaha.

/

Bored, and tired, but not yet dead. So on we go, ho, hum. It has been a noisy, but moderately productive, and somewhat colourful, week. Hopefully, by next week things will be simpler. But that is not to be expected. Time for some food, and sleep, before office hours begin at 4am.

/

I have been thinking of late, about how the fundamentals of our nation rest on graft. Our heroes and success stories are often built upon it. Our political landscape is built upon it. Our businesses assume it exists inherent to the environment. It is not, after a few decades of consideration, something that I find myself unusually happy or sad about. But it is regretful that the nation did turn out this way. Unlike those who commit themselves to a different future, a nation built instead on the rule of law, I venture no such hope. Only a faint sense of curiosity. It is not a game to be played by the poor. And it has never been my longing to be materially wealthy. Strange, this life, and the lands it finds itself in. So very curious.

/

On the violence that underpins capitalism: The pure and simple truth. Suck it up. :) Deny nothing. If you have to be an asshole, admit it.

/

Enforced waking, enforced sleep, enforced feeding, enforced work... doopdeedoo

/

Act 1:
"Only if the (federal) Institute of Language and Literature has first provided a stamp of approval for your advertisement. It must have a majority of its text in the national language."
"That is a pity. Many of our customers prefer English."
#sofarsogood #malaysiaasusual

Act 2:
"Does that include writings on blackboards?"
"That is up to the enforcement officers."

Act 3:
"This is a bylaw of the city council."
"Can I have a copy of the bylaws?"
"The bylaws are confidential."
"Here is a hard copy of the bylaws."
"Let me take a photo."
"You may not photograph our copy of the law."

Act 4:
"The laws are not issued by us, so you cannot receive them from us. We only enforce the law."
"Can I get a copy on the Internet?"
"You may call the designated private company which sells printed copies of the law."
"I see they also provide subscriptions to online digital access to the law."

/

Weekends, hopefully catching up on work.

April 15 end

April 21 start

This country bores me. This body bores me. This set of physics bores me. This geopolitical order bores me. There is one salvation: stay busy enough not to notice the boredom. Do more math. Make more coffee. Et cetera.

/

Our pet theory has been falsified.

/

Rather busy this month, and still wondering if I'll want to lop off another six hours from our daily operating schedule. Decreased exhalation pace and increased manual pace must be coordinated carefully. Ho hum.

/

Dangerously busy.

/

Not this hour. Do no analysis. Go back to work.

/

Millennial philosophers be like:
1. Process information
2. Fuck bitches
3. Blog 50,000 ways to live, and six more to die
4. With EDM

/

If you think about meritocracy, it is evident that a true meritocracy would homogenise the environmental conditions for all its citizens. Unequal advantages would be leveled out by state-normalised education, childhood development, and access to capital. Rights of inheritance, and the ability to will one's property rights to anyone but the state, would be revoked. No more edges of tomorrow (or edges from yesterday, for that matter) - each individual would be reboot from scratch - and notice then, how this runs contrary to the institution of family. From the Rothschilds to the Torretos, kin-selection would be outlawed. What effect would that have on the common notion of love? If you believe in conservative values, you become logically opposed to the notion of individual-oriented societies. If you believe in meritocracy for individuals, you become logically opposed to the sentiments of kinship, of friends and family. Helluv' an unusually large, grotesque thought to stomach, isn't it? Hehe.

/

Much horseshit in the morning. Training is slow and steady. I hope.

/

"So are you getting more rest now?"
"You reduced operating hours - to get more rest and have a life, right?"
"We fired over a third of our people-hours in order to cut costs. I now have more work to do. I get up at four and run office hours till we open at ten - for security - also, it's the best time to get work done, sometimes."
"Why don't you just shut it down and move to another business?"
"I have 19 investors and negative cash - we're not going anywhere fast!"
"You should run a tech or financial hub."
"Are you hiring?!"
"I'm serious. You should do something based on logic. You belong there. Restaurants and F&B take some <3" "Technical fields are full of people too. ;)" "Do something you're really good at." "But you're missing the point. The strategy here is to rewire the standard model. It's easy to give dumb people what they want." I'm not sure how many people realise that as much as I like math, my natural skillsets are much more skewed towards social engineering than numerical intuition. (My interest in math is at the junior level of delineating other people's mathematical intuitions, since I'm not versed enough to have any original ones, or so it seems.) The reason they may think so is that due to my limited interest in being likeable, I actually go out of my way to make people uncomfortable very often when it is in my interest to do so - a great number of times however, it is interpreted as an accidental obtrusion. Well yes, and no. Hahaha. I think, the human being, as an information system, really is the the most interesting medium to work in. It is a pity that I do not have exactly the same view about groups of human beings.

"Why don't you just go into politics?"

"I always said I would. But in Malaysia, I would rather go to bloody war, literally, than wade into this mock-democracy without backing of at least a few tens of millions of Ringgit."

"If this were true, then either you won't need the millions or you will get the millions. Why not?"

"What's in it for me? ;) To clarify, I don't want that money per se, I think it is a NECESSARY quantity of extra judicial resourcing that is needed to go to war with a reasonable chance of winning in the current system. I don't actually believe that voting and civil protest will work in this environment - or rather, that's been my "official position" for a few years now. The reason is simple: your opponent regulates the rules of the mock-democracy, is un-concerned with maintaining a level playing field, and is backed by hard/soft funding in the billions. Why even bother touching the game without a significant war chest? I mean, it's cute and all to have democratic ideals... I'm just disagreeing with the people who believe that achieving a proper democracy is possible via democratic means, when the existing system of governance is systematically operated in a fashion that undermines democratic processes. :P"

/

We are called to different tasks while conscious, and that is the definition of work. Some must love, some must defend their kin without love, some must slay their kin in other interests, some must demonstrate that these concepts are illusory, some must demonstrate that the former fragment is silly talk, some must do nothing but watch others go by. Some must be ignorant, some must be knowingly undecided. Whatever your data-structure, get on with it...

/

Things I have recently found may need explaining because people don't get it when you just say it. (That isn't to say I bother with the explanations.):

1. The notion that certain democratic freedoms are illusory, and that the greatest lie your devils ever told you was, that your efforts to acquire power by democratic means would have anything more than intrinsic value. To be clear, some engage in democratic activities because they believe that these activities are inherently valuable - this is probably correct; it is those who believe that their protests are an efficient means to achieving systematic changes, who may be subject to intentional delusion. They've been diverted.

2. You don't have to be popular in order to succeed in commerce, even with consumers. You do have to be better at something, and that may have nothing to do with being cooler or more famous. As soon as you start measuring dicks on popularity and fame, you've lost the script, and have ceased to focus on the generation of value via the brokerage of resources. Unless of course, you're tracking your funnel and have direct conversion metrics on the funnels of your competitors... then you can measure all the dick you want, because there's a dataset to tie it to customer satisfaction.

/

Current estimate to reach positive cash position... 1-August. Whee.

/

You know what makes you an easy target: outrage. You know this from the school yard, from the Internet, and war.

/

"I've overheard a lot of complaints about the metal bars on the tables. What's that about?"
"Reducing sprawl. The next logical step in the same direction raises the dividers higher making completely solo-ed spaces (probably not going there, but possible). I'm on schedule to apply an acrylic coat over the steel, tonight. I've been wondering if we'll get shut down over that. This is a central banking mechanism in F&B. Make the furniture less comfy to reduce loittering. Make it more comfy to increase it. Taking away chairs. Aha. Wait. Maybe that will happen too. Not sure. Pretty much blow by blow. I have problems with staff being unaggressive in fitting customers to one butt one seat. So we will just have to architecture the place to work without police. "

"What are the long term goals for this space?"
"The long term goals matter not without short term stability. So, in essence, it is a week to week concern."

"You should try XYZ activity."
"I will leave the events to the community (you) for now. My work is on the infrastructure. I have my hands way full on keeping the existing space open. My efforts won't be diverted to any specific subset of the clientele. Basically I am the central bank. I just move large abstract levers. For now. As I am way too short-handed to do more than that. My work is on figuring out which abstractions will become profitable. Anything that is too subculture oriented promises a failure of the level of abstraction that I require of the market. It's not the kind of strategy I'd align myself with, under the circumstances to-date. (It may work to keep the business going, but it won't work to keep me interested in the business, because it wouldn't be scalable. I'm lazy.)"

/

"People are not robots."
"I completely agree. They are quite inferior, on average, and the future belongs to those who aspire to be more than random impulse generators."
"You can't make them reasonable."
"If I believed that, I would not be dealing with them on a daily basis."
"Who wants you to interfere with their way of life?"
"No one of course. It is my prerogative. I simply believe that I am making them better (or more beautiful) by standards set by myself, with little regard for their perceptions of self."
"So it is rape?"
"I suppose it feels like that sometimes. Maybe it is murder. It most certainly is violence."
"Live by the sword, and die by it?"
"Yes, I do wonder how it will all end."
"No, life, in general. The business is a medium in the present. It does not last forever in any event - at least, I expect no such thing."

/

On this:

This is very important. I make a point to inform subordinates that they need to be comfortable with making mistakes, having wrong intuitions, processing information about how other parties view their work (ESPECIALLY when the view is hateful), and overall seeking out all the aforementioned experiences. The ones with small egos crumble really quickly. That is how we will find out who is made of what. And while I would welcome all kinds of stuff in any organisation, I simply can't build foundations on weak stuff. It doesn't work - the material science is wrong. For now.

/

Just gave staff permission to put up a big sign that says "if you're looking for a difference between your flat white and your hot low foam standard milk size latte, you're in the wrong cafe". And when senior staff can't get this right after 1.5 years, I am reminded that I would really enjoy just not having any staff at this point. The ROI on talent management has already killed us. I will grind every ounce of romance out of this operation if I have to do it myself...

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Hm. I've been up for 16 hours, and the next day starts in four hours. But I'm a bit too hungry to fall asleep. I have furniture arrangement, sanding, and painting, and air conditioner compressor cleaning all likely before 10am. Game plan: stay in bed, get up around 3am, buy a fuckton of food, and launch into office. Probability of success: 50%

/

April 21 end

## 2017-04-09

### On that Apple pro Mac Interview

1. What was obvious from the beginning.
2. What they should have done.
3. Their marketing approach.

1. The 2013 form factor is toast. IMHO it ought to be the basis for the next Mac Mini, because it's optimised for cuteness over throughout. Just make it smaller. This was kinda obvious from the moment they stuck THREE chips on ONE heatsink without liquid cooling.

They explain that they anticipated a broad adoption of use-cases where a dual-GPU would be handy, but scaling-out GPU workloads hasn't become popular (whoops) and scaling-up the workloads on single GPUs remains the norm. If you know how the memory hierarchy is managed in parallelised iterative computing applications (e.g. rendering pipelines, neural nets) it's kinda clear what they're saying.

2. They really could invert the triangle in the next iteration. Heatsinks need to bloom out from one side of a chip, but you can get away with a flat surface on the other. Now if you have multiple chip-sink blooms, back-to-back in a circle with the heatsinks all facing away from the centre, and then you can still preserve the cooling tower aesthetic, albeit with a much larger surface area for air to move over sinks.

I still wonder why they don't incorporate more basic jet/rocket engine design elements... compress the air in a chamber (#1) before it goes near chips, give #1 its own heatsinks, release air to the chip-sinks in chamber (#2) via a nozzle that forces rapid expansion and cooling of air. Basically, I'm wondering about the feasibility of stacking #1,#2 as a cooling tower over a cooling tower, if you will. Lol. Gotta read up more.

3.. "I think, as you talk about the pro user, the fact that our user base is split over notebooks, all-in-one desktops and modular desktops is important. We aren’t making one machine for pros. We’re making three different designs for pros."
Earlier in the article it is explained that the pro segment is defined by software application usage. Mac Pro just happens to be the compute-optimised solution for that segment.

I agree with this approach: customer segmentation is best approached as a multi-dimensional model. Product lines may then be articulated as points along a line in a specific dimension of segmentation. Like the vertical and horizontal matrices describing actors and roles in organisations, a business needs to have a product segmentation matrix which systematically addresses end user behaviours in multi-dimensional spaces.

4. Amid Trumpageddon, their speech patterns really do sound like Trump himself...

## 2017-04-06

### Profiteering from Non-specialty Coffee Sales ;)

Let's set percentages and margins aside for simplicity of discussion.
Say you buy good coffee at \$120/kg, calibrate it carefully, serve a 20g dose, and charge \$8 for it. Your gross profit* per sale is \$5.60. Say you buy bad coffee at \$45/kg, serve a 20g dose, calibrate it roughly, and charge \$7 for it. Your gross profit* per sale is \$6.10.

* Before wastage.

Ignoring the difference in machinery completely... you make \$0.50 on cost of goods, save time and energy, and save \$1.00 for a customer who doesn't care. This is a win-win scenario... it only requires that you care to do it.

Nevertheless, doing so might offend certain sensibilities, and you could argue that the promotion of cheap coffee hurts the lives of people elsewhere.

## 2017-04-02

### Blah Blah on GITS

Here's a problem with civil rights, feminism, and intersectionality in general: too many people in the half-baked process of wrapping their heads around a theory, and proselytising these theories. Not enough people willing to get bloodied up making a non-discursive difference. (I'm generally of the violent solutions type. Can't really enjoy slow revolutions. But that's just my situation, and I expect no one else to act differently due to it. Hmm.) Resentment and projection of individual emptiness drives a lot of what passes for social justice activism. Often, a clique of individuals sharing a common trait may identify internally, and seek to impose its quest for representation upon social fabric that is otherwise ignorant of the clique's concerns. The smaller the clique, the harder it will be to gain representation for a fringe trait. Now taking it to extremes, we have individual snowflakes who identify with few others, seeing only their own differences from the rest of the world. Are they to be regarded as artists, or solipsists? Well, that depends wholly on their rhetorical fate.

## 2017-03-31

### Shiso / Perilla

That funny large leaf in sushi platings:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shiso

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Perilla

## 2017-03-28

### Dream

Had a good nap on food. Dreaming of expat Bengalis getting pulled into  pyramid con involving butt sex, by an insidious individual / shadowy character. Strange. The point of dreams is to be interesting. I rarely dream - had it all trained out of me a long time ago. So dreaming is like ice cream. A little luxury.

I'm not saying that I like these subjects, but that the imagery needs to be explored for the sake of diversity.

### Law and Order

From a comment in a Facebook group:

1. The desire to fuck anything, legal or not, ethical or not, is given by nature, or the universe.

2. The social contract may or may not criminalise the thoughts and contemplations of 1.

3. Usually if 1. is followed by corporeal actions, it becomes of graver concern.

4. The social contract almost always criminalise a subset of 3.

In general, I think that treating people badly because they are weird at 1. is uncalled for. We should be policing 3. Meanwhile it is naive to assume that 1. will follow 3. It may or may not be cruel to entice our neighbours to commit crimes, when we know that as soon as they lose control of themselves, they are guilty of crimes. Whether this constitutes entrapment or not is a fun and dangerous discussion.

## 2017-03-26

### Comms

"Probably, I am trying too hard to impress you. I feel inadequate. It is a feeling that betrays a competitive nature. It will pass as I remind myself to just focus on enjoying the present. I am glad that this honesty cheers you. And it would be easier to read than to hear. I mean, in speech, this honesty is not far from dishonesty. It is a pun."

"Often, a counterparty will be displeased or excited about an event. When I have no emotional or intuitive response to that event, I do not always allow myself to remain silent, as the counterparty may be in a state of tension. I try to communicate to the counterparty that I acknowledge their duress or exhilaration, that I have little to offer, but that it is possible for us to cooperate nonetheless as players in the game of civil society. People who expect empathy are overreaching, entitled, brats. Empathy is a cognitive luxury, which I prefer to dispense with discretion. :)"

"Figuring out what each other wants, and whether the other can deliver, and being able to be transparent about good and bad experiences is crucial in any relationship. Work. Play. Whatev"

## 2017-03-15

### Conversations with a Journalist

[I had just created a photo album on Facebook, where I saved photos of comment threads where the participants appeared to be attempting to stir up trouble.]

J: Good anti troll measure lol.

Me: Risk management vs comment deletion. Also he is probably drunk as usual. However, I think he can petition to have photos deleted. I'm not sure how FB reacts to that.

J: why not collect them all and send them to his boss

Me: I do not suppose his boss cares. But since he is picking on me, I might as well... documentary. Hey, I'm not free enough to take up an interest in his effect on the public good... I'm just doi.ng this for self defense. If you want to go ahead and make a campaign of this, be my guest.

J: great measure though. have you done this before

Me: Not really. We'll see how FB reacts.

J: how does he hold down a job
as a community evangelist
of all things
lolol
the irony is incomprehnsible

Me: Well, not my place to judge.
;)
I like Bill Maher's style.
Let them shoot themselves in the foot.
In public, if possible.

[chatter]

dying ah

Me: Take care - I must rest.

J: i thought you were doing well at one point

Me: Well, it's always been dying. There's only so much I can do to prop it up. But we can keep trying.
As in, that is my job.

J: cannot find core staff isit

Me: It doesn't really matter to me what people think about my judgments of my work. We can discuss that after I'm out of the job.

J: what do investors say

Nothing un-obvious - generally pretty boring stuff.

J: whats yr runway

So at some point, one runs out of effort 😉
We shall see.

J: wah wah
pivot to a software company

Me: Story of the last 9 months.

J: or a groupon clone of some sort
lol

Me: Nope - don't be silly.
That's a waste of oxygen, and you know it if you think about it.

J: why is it dying

Me: Various reasons.

J: curious la
i like to know how things work (or not)

Me: I have to discuss this with dozens of people monthly, so I am tired of repeating myself.

J: humour me la

Me: Ask in a public place. Then I don't have to repeat myself so much.
Seriously.

J: :~(

Me: :)
I don't do this for fun 😛

[chatter]

J:
maybe one shop cant self sustain
maybe it can only self sustain at scale

Me:
Of course it can. If it could not, no one would enter the market. It may be difficult, but that's not point.
Everything is easier at scale 😉

J:
people enter the market thinking all sorts of things

Me:
People who expect success are idiots.

J:
the market teaches them all sorts of things in return

Me:
I only expect the weather.

J:
haha
double down now

Me:
Which makes me a difficult investee for normal investors.

J:
and open 2 more outlets

Me:
Sure, if there was cash, why not.

J:
raise raise raise

Me:
No time for that.
I did my job there once.
No one has helped me since.
I have other jobs to do now.
It is not an ideal scenario - but that is my lot.

J:
wah so bitter

Me:
It's not bitter - you only view it as bitter because you do not view the world through such realistic glasses 😉
This is what I expect of business. It is as normal as expecting people to complement or express disgust at coffee.

J:
you only think it's not bitter
but actually it sounds bitter
haha

Me:
Of course, but whatever you call bitter is probably normal for me over the past 20 years... it is just life.
(to me)
Everyone comes from a different place, and with a different point of view.
I will blog this. It is cute.

J:
ya.. except only my point of view is correct

Me:
(I think everything is cute.)

J:
or so says everyone

Me:
Good for you, young man.

J:
^_^

Me:
I don't believe much in right or wrong points of view outside of strict definitions.

J:
zz
whens yr lease run out
thats when the axe will fall

Me:
Definitions enable language.
At that point, you're moving into vaguaries
(With statements such as the above.)

[chatter]

how to develop ~ language ~

Me: Not my problem. I'm under no incentive to make efforts to explain things to you lol.
I'm just giving the shortest possible answer for civility.
I don't care what you believe.
Right?

J:..and
that was three sentences

Me: It's small talk.
Words do not require effort.
Precise words, require effort. 😉

J: aiyah your philosophy is bs lah
anyway.. 2018 still got a long way to go

Me: We have not defined a philosophy to critique

J: yay.

Me: Thank you for your company. It is more pleasant than that of the other fellow.

J: how can you compare me to (other fellow). Lol

Me: You are all strangers on the net.

## 2017-03-11

### Carparks

I somewhat almost don't really believe that this view exists. The mall has been here for 22 years, and I've been about the area for almost that long. Six hours after rain, and an hour to midnight, the shallow puddles dampen out feet and shoes and slippers. Cool air and shadows chase us around our walks by the walls. A lone guard slouches over the rail at one end - he can't see us if we walk around the roof. Water tanks, rails, surrounding towers, houses and green things below, dark in the night, sleeping rows of birds on pipes, our shadows play on the wall of the floor below...floors, and floors of terraced carparks, below. It was never this good in this town. Or was it? Am I lost in you, or is it really something special? Then duty calls, and we take my staff to work.

### Yawn 23

March 11 start

There's nothing I despise more than a human being looking for a leader.

/

Enforced rest. Check.
Enforced feeding. Check.
Enforced exercise. Check.
Enforced breeding. Hold up a second...

/

Can anyone recommend a realestate agent to help sell a small flat in Kajang? Need end-to-end service with lawyers also. Raising cash for my day-to-day business.
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Personal referral with successful past experience required. When I bought the place, it was a horrible agent and lawyer combo. It took two years to purchase, and it was nearly three years past the SPA date by the time all the paperwork got done. Good if you think of it as a way to kill time during the RPGT penalty period, otherwise just a collosal waste of time and money.

/

I am starting to get bored of being sick.

/

No staff to delegate work. No money to hire. No health to do work. Bored. Try again.

/

Diapers. Nope, didn't breed. Only bred bacteria. I, am sick. To the office...

/

Hey, guess what... we used to have an all female middle management layer. Didn't work. But I'm now short of one FOH leader for an all-black middle-management layer at the end of April...

/

Diapers dry. That means gut is healing. That means, rest is postponed, and we're back in the office for a bit.

/

Reduced:
"One thing I learnt from all this: diapers are cheap. Lol. Like 1.5myr a piece."
/"Wtffffff.... SMH. How are you even possible...? How?"
"[I have no shame - GIF] Whenever my gut repairs itself.
/"You indeed have NO SHAME! ERMAHGAWD! HOW"
"Let nothing hinder work. Or well, one tries."
/"Clearly."
"I really am a weirdo. Diaper visibility : tucked down into themselves, effective none above jeans. Should have bothered earlier to avoid scarring the audience. Also. Do you realise that I intentionally filter less with you as time progresses? It is part of evaluating compatibility."
/"In general, what are the main things you filter?"
"Filter: sickness, death, poverty, vulgarity, dissatisfaction"
/"Vulgarity as in? Dissastifaction with?"
"Vulgarity is the opposite of? Dissatisfaction with anything. No one needs more whiners. I told childhood ISTJ/INFJ friend I'm seeing someone who isn't scared off by my speech patterns. Mentioning it since you wanted to know how I describe you. In this context, she is not a fan of my speech. She's one of those who can't read me. So limited opportunities for empathy. I believe she only comes close because we have had emotional bonds as younger friends."

March 11 end

March 21 start

Social life. Haha. What women want, is not what they think they will get. Engagement tells all.

/

I have decided that chairman is an illfitting title for me in any organisation. I should be the chairboy.

/

#YouBeenWorkingTooLongWithCoffeeWhen
"Oh wow, this scotch is really fruity."
"It's one of the smokiest peatiest Islay malts, actually."

/

Fast forward 2055. After decades of providing asylum to the world's questionable cases for amnesty, Canada ascends as the HK of NA.

/

Honcho == 班長 ?!?!

/

1/ Politics of identity. Be different but not too different. Live in fear of exclusion, and persecution.

2/ Eat McDonalds, nasi lemak, and drive a Toyota (maybe a Proton). Repeat ad hominem.

/

I imagine a time when you are neither here nor near, and I wonder if we will be able to speak.

/

I dream of a world where each human realises its triviality and stares mercilessly into the darkness of inner and outer spaces.

Nah, I just find that most people overcomplicate their reaction to existence.

/

So in a discussion about a child, we were discussing her behaviour. Some found it mentally ill, some found it fairly sane.
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Event (a): She ignores another kid who wants to play with her. Kid offers her a toy after repeated badgering. She cuts it apart, and tells the other kid, I do not want to play with you. Other kid cries and fucks off.
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Event (b): Yet another kid wants to play with her. She ignores him, until she needs a favour, then agrees to play with him for a day. Her close friend wants to join and the kid who gave the favour disagrees, and is abusive to the close friend. She addresses her close friend, plays with the favour giver, and shoves him down a slide (not off the slide).
-
Advice was sought because she has encountered communication issues in adult life. Civility is an irrational preference. Incivility is likewise frowned upon, but it is equally and oppositely irrational. I would do it. I would date her. Haha. If the boy had broken his arm, she would have learnt a lesson about self-preservation. She would both know what she can do, and what she will be punished for by society. Definitely not mental illness. I would have taught my child to end fights/annoying people like this. But just imho. She probably needs to signal more.
-
If communication issues become dibilitating, then mental illness would be an adequate diagnosis. Otherwise it is just a matter of learning to fit in with cows who won't leave you alone when you ignore them. It may be heartbreaking, but haven't we all seen that?

/

People ask why I say, "my only social life is on Facebook," when I work in a cafe with forty colleagues. Well, as it turns out, I can't discuss abstract algebra, or international political economy, or speech synthesis, or metaphysics, or art history, or music history, or software development, or economics, or the fundamental information structures of consciousness... or even cooking, or business administration, in any non-trivial degree with my colleagues 97% of the time. 99.5% if you exclude cooking and business administration, probably. It's a job. I don't expect to find friends here... only a way to make a living, or a set of learnings that accompany the failure to do so. Hehe. The way forward is to keep working at it. None of this is strange to me. It is tedious, yes, but that is what I have expected of life since I was raised on tedium. Onward... another day, we can try again.

/

UPDATE: We're still in deeeessperate need of staff to run the business. Quantitative, verbal, and process management skills are in short supply! Learn how to navigate the legal and economic landscape of running a cafe in Malaysia - learn how to keep accounts, read laws, fulfil compliance, manage supply chains and marketing funnels, and run a team of 30-40 staff. Sign up with us for a minimum of six months!

PREVIOUSLY: Sign up for our March recruitment cycle. Roles negotiable. Cold, heartless, talent required. Passion optional.

/

Whiskey, house, escort, and artisanally crafted public relations copy.

/

#blameTheAcoustics
"We agree that our staff has antagonised your party. We are sorry. We also believe that our staff may have unintentionally antagonised your party. It is a fact that spoken conversations in this small cafe can be heard from one end to the other - unfortunately our staff was not fully aware of this fact at that moment, resulting in the inappropriate behaviour. All staff have just been reminded to carry out analyses and discussions about customers, out of earshot of customers. We will repeat our reminders to staff about the acoustics of the cafe, in the hope that such errors do not recur. Again, we are sorry for any staff stupidity on acoustic matters. Please accept our sincerest apologies. We should lower our voices when discussing sensitive matters."

/

Enforced feeding. Hoping for 12 productive hours today. 8 expected.

/

"XYZ is late."
"I'm sorry."
"Doesn't help me much - let me know when you get better at life. LOL."

/

Live near work. Live near love. Proper trash separation. Proper laundry. Proper food. Proper storage. All the things I give up for the things I love. Lol. Still working towards that 2.5% long-term average time allocation for love and sex. Work first. Forever.

/

Upon analysis it appears that we managed to dip below a zero cash position without anyone noticing. Happy happy joy joy. Must work harder to compensate for organisational deficiencies.

/

So the troll doesn't like being hit on. Mmkay. Errbady hit on the troll...

/

Troubleshooting the finance function - daily elementary routines are failing. Much to do. If we don't get finance into shape, marketing is probably fucked. All I have to offer at this point, is the most stable operation we have managed for a year :P

/

Enforced rest. More work tomorrow.

/

Uppp. Had the good fortune of a power nap. Lots to do. Hope to see my social worker by noon. Lol

/

The practice of zero-ing my imagination results in very little dreaming - this appears to be bad for social work, such as commerce. I must think about others, so that I daydream/ lucid dream/ dream about them... so that in states of rest, I may be stimulated to end rest in order to engage these others.

/

"This is my first day on the job. I'm not ready to report on a solution."
"The purpose of a report is to report on the status of a solution."
"I can't do it on the first day."
"Sure you can. It can be just a sentence long."
"But the solution doesn't exist yet."
"What is the solution for?"
"I'm not sure."
"So for your first report, write, "We do not know the problems, which require solutions." If you don't write this down on the first day, you won't know if you've progressed by the second day..."

/

Dinner, then continued arithmetic attempts to avoid armageddon.

/

Baba yaga! Form of... GST clerk.

/

There comes a time in every intelligent person's life, when she must look upon herself, and consider what she has become. If she is satisfied with it, she will persist, and if she is not, she will choose not to continue. I am, satisfied, for the most part. I am at least that much of an asshole, come what may. :) But I am never sure about those around me.

/

Comply, impress, quit, or be fired. Pick one.

/

Er, there's a very peachy Tanzania on brew right now, but we only have another half bag or so left. Get it quick. Order as espresso. Unless you like faintly peachy milk drinks.

/

Well, that was both an unusually long and an unusually interesting day. I was reminded of the great efficiency of working with people who are adept at pausing high level conversations in order to discuss low level linguistic components of speech. I was also reminded that I like making decisions based on substantial information about a subject, and not without. Also, I was reminded that some people are not fully comfortable with their public lives. In any event, I wonder if I can get a doctorate in Humans As Information Systems, and become known as a Dr. of HAIS.

/

Making a point to be thoughtful in bed. Getting up soon to peruse paperwork​ for realtor. Not sure if I am more worried about my business project, or about liquidating a personal investment in realestate.

/

Does anyone want to join a short trip in my Kancil with a realtor and her boyfriend, to Sungai Long? We are leaving Damansara Jaya 1:30pm, USJ19 2:00PM... returning ASAP after a drive to Sungai Long.

I am exploring the option of selling or refinancing a flat, on order to remove the financial burden of myself from my business project. As I explained recently in an email to partners, I have not lived there for 3-4 years, and have instead rented single rooms near my jobs. As I am currently living from paycheque to paycheque, it is untenable to stop the business from paying me a fee unless a replacement manager can be found. So in order to be able to work free of charge, for a time, I must raise money for myself by liquidating that flat. :)

/

Major announcement in a week. Now I have to go write a speech. Hmph

Draft 2.1:

Greetings. My name is Jerng, and most of you know me as the managing presence of the Sudo Brew cafe. I regret to announce that Sudo Brew has fallen. It falls upon me to take full responsibility for the consequences of our actions. I apologise.

[Apologetic bow.]

In order of engagement, I must commend a few parties for their contribution to this enterprise. First of all the capitalists who took the risk of burning all this money upon themselves, second the staff who put in time and effort to facilitate the services we provide, third the customers who have made this project viable for the months past.

Malaysia has many restaurants. Some aspire primarily to achieve moral superiority, artisanal authenticity, fame, a legacy, great food, excellent service... Sudo Brew has primarily aspired to none of these. Our primary value proposition has to provide 24-hour convenience to the community.

And now, we will fail. On the first day of April, 2017, Sudo Brew shall cease to operate, from 4am to 10am, daily. This marks the first closure of our establishment since 4 December 2015. The reasons for this are simple, in the past, the quality of our operations has not been consistent enough to retain the business of many customers who visited our establishment at least once. At this point in time, we believe that our team has stablised over the last eight months; alas we are also out of financial resources for the continued deployment at the pace of 24-hours-per-day.

One week ago, we released newly overhauled menu infrastructure which offers customisable orders at the convenient rate of four Ringgit per item. We call it ElastiGRUB. We have also brought back subsidies, where every twenty-five Ringgit spent on food may be accompanied by: a hand-crafted beverage, completely free of charge. We call it 'a set meal drink.' You may wonder why we are lowering prices in this time of duress. The reason is simply that we can now afford to, given improvements in our gross margins since eight months ago when subsidies were initially removed. We hope that with the reintroduction of subsidies, the value of services provided by the Sudo Brew cafe will make this establishment furthermore viable for the entertainment of our community.

And with that, we now return to work. Thank you for patronising this establishment. Remember to eat at Sudo Brew, where anything on the menu can now be added to your order for only four Ringgit per serving.

/

Eating more greens has been stablising my sleep, I think. Feels like decent weather for exercise.

/

I like the smell of mothballs. Someone close doesn't like the smell of mothballs. I cleaned out my entire wardrobe. All eight boxes of clothing are being phased through the laundromat in sequence. The shit I put up with. But that's business, baby.

/

Redesigned GST workflows. Repiped 2016 according to new architecture. Rewrote manual. This feels like really dumb work, but it is probably pivotal given how bad we are at these things.

/

"As usual - everything would be simpler if I did it myself 😉. But I'm committed to minimise that. So that means a lot of coaching, and waiting for kids to grow up."

/

March 21 end

March 26 start

/

Good night, babushka yaga.

/

Swing low, sweet chariot, ain't no bail outs'a'comin for me. ;) Conscious again, so enforced feeding, then work, again.

/

Just had a meeting with the most senior people in our organisation. And we're definitely behind schedule, as they're not able to keep up. So we expect failure, with the new menu launch tomorrow, but I won't provide options... given that it is eight months late. :) Such, is life, keep moving forward. Or die standing. Hahaha.

As with any violent changes to an organisation, I expect as usual that a % of the staff will quit. The success of the change will be determined by what happens among the staff that is left behind.

As to the degree of violence in change, sensitive souls will always be blown like snowflakes, whereas less sensitive ones will barely notice the changes.

/

I think the Grab vs. Tinder ad campaign is woefully misguided, but the data will probably prove me wrong.

I marked all the profiles I could find, as spam (I'll swipe right on any pretty face, really). Do you not think that we are doing the brand a service? The workflow here is as bad as the MSFT barf-at-website IE TVCs.

"Hi, someone wants to fuck you... just kidding! But they did take money to help a company to cold call you for some xyz loanshark service!"

Sorreyy... hahaha...

/

Time for chores. Maybe the music was cute tonight because I used the speaker I've had for 20 years.

/

TIL if I'm going to do a John Wick impression, I need a John Wick moustache wig to make it less obvious that it requires a jaw hang.

/

Wondering about the legality of a BYO cocktails joint. No liquor sold. Only drink construction services provided.

/

Just spent 1-2 hours optimising SAAS procurement, and will potentially save us RM3,000/year. I need to do these things more often. Pity about the single threading.

/

Staff: "My department needs more money."

Me: "Prove it."

Staff: *blank stare and silly smile*

Me: "Ok, let me show you how to prove it."

Staff: *looks at model*

Me: "So when you ask for money, you need to provide detailed reasons, so that the financial controller can review them and simply say yes/no about approval."

Staff: "So the budget is increased?"

Me: "No, the budget is the same. You are going to be over budget. On purpose."

Staff: "Ok, I am over budget."

Me: "Now go make sure that everyone who matters understands exactly why you are over budget."

#manypotatoeswerebusytoday

/

Parasympathetic nervous system - Wikipedia
en.wikipedia.org
Study time! #rnr #walkinthepark

/

Staff: "I don't like the menu."

Me: "I know. Aww... cryy :D We knew this before we deployed the menu."

Staff: "Customers don't like the menu."

Me: "We also knew this before deploying the menu. You are are still dissatisfied that this is being done on purpose."

Staff: "This is so that we talk to customers more?"

Me: "You don't have to, if you don't want to."

Staff: "Look, it is hard."

Me: "That's why we have prepared three layout options of the same menu."

Staff: "The majority likes this one."

Me: "Serve the majority. Serve the minority that will like the other one, and serve the other minority too." *drinks water* Ok, have fun, I'm going to bed!"

-
If for no greater reason, I expect more attrition, and less sleep in the near future. I believe that the discontented will be angstier still after this menu stablises and I make the next one even more complicated. The pedagogical strategy is pretty much analogous to grades in music: a junior staff can brain and sell a dumb menu, a senior staff can brain and sell a more complex one while selecting specific sublanguages and interfaces for simpler customers. Anyone who believes that they are senior but aren't willing to embrace a higher standard of work has mistaken notions of the scope of work we must aspire to.

/

Some people see a veil of cynicism around me. It appears that they perceive consciousness to be more than a veil. Each has its own opinion.

/

I am watching Life. Like a more humanised version of Alien. So it is better.
But as critics observe, it brings little that is new to the genre.

/

I don't like it when crimes are called terrorism, before there is reason to believe that the criminal's intent was to terrorise.

/

March 26 end

April 7 start

Adding a whole bunch of Korean stuff to the playlist... this cafe is too white . LOL

/

Scheduler delivers monthly schedule for four staff in four 2D and one 3D matrices. MD sounds warning that expat staff may be insufficiently literate to do multi-tabular lookups, and requests scheduler to resubmit monthly schedule as a normalised table. Holy shit, that was a first. #wtfisgoingoninthiscafe

/

Enforced feeding and sleep.

/

Pain is not a fundamental problem. #pathology

/

"We don't do signatures."

/

Man down!

The role played was in corporate services, and will not directly impact operations. Staff in operations may react to the event, in which case, operations would be affected.

I think we do okay at this, but sometimes I feel that we are insufficiently aggressive, and fail too slowly: at losing any staff that reacts impulsively to intuitions about what the world should be...

Upon further reflection, perhaps the way to articulate it is as follows. First class staff must demonstrate an ability to make plans, and execute plans. Anyone who follows their heart instead of their plans immediately qualifies themselves as a second class staff. The first and second classes are mutually exclusive...

... perhaps more effort must be put into weeding out anyone that comes here looking for friends, or family. Perhaps.

/

Things not to say? Actually I say these things to make things clearer. I may not tolerate such ignorance. You must know the truth, even if it enfeebles and destroys you.

/

1. Since when are 10-year-olds teenagers?
2. United should not cave in to social media.
#leggingate #leggingsatthegate

/

Falling sick. Not sure if it was the fan blowing in my face at lunch, or a reignited allergic reaction to snowflakes. Not healing fast enough. Wondering about the the mid-term effect on short-term memory of last weekend's 1-2 standard drinks. No matter. Enforced feeding, site survey, walking.

/

The quality of activities in any polity that prioritises speed... can be judged only by the speed added or lost due to any kind of political activity (politeness, in particular). I still find that I am often too polite, and so we do not move quickly enough to correct errors in general behaviour.

/

Staff: Can we ask the engineer to do it?
Me: What engineer?
Staff: The guy who repairs stuff.
Me: Fuck you all, we're renaming the channel to ops-kemahiran-hidup, and I'm buying a copy of the national middle school syllabus' Living Skills textbook for the bar... just get a screwdriver and...

/

More dreams. Probably improved sleep and diet. Back to the fires.

/

"Well Facebook ain't going nowhere, sweets.

Here is one of my current contexts: I am building an organisation where I require staff to stablise at a meanness level of say, the 75th percentile.

The reason I need the majority of staff to be comfortable with with 75, is that I need elites to be comfortable with the 95-99th percentile of mean behaviour, because that is where I am looking for a competitive advantage between this organisation and the market at large.

What this means, is that I do need to weed out those who are slow and weak and sensitive, as quickly as I can without sinking the ship, on a daily basis. I figure we are around a majority staff tolerance of meanness at about the 60th percentile at the moment... we have a long way to go.

It is an hourly gambit!

Update: revised "mode" to "majority"; decided that the most intuitively measure of meanness is, as with all not-yet-technical terms, to apply a consensus-forming algorithm which would linearly rank all members of a population in terms of meanness (based on peer votes, whatnot). This is to say, after we line up the general population like that, if we randomly sample 10 staff, we need 6/10 to be ranked meaner than 75% of the general population in terms of that line..."

/

I feel slow. I take a couple of days to rewire myself whenever we add or remove direct reports in the company. I am wondering if I would be faster at this, if I was in better shape. I think I would be. If I was in better shape.

/

"A machine can't intuit, dream, lead."
-
Films like this: never watch the foreground.
-
Lots of Bechdel test breaking. Lol
-
Art direction is faithful to source material, and makes full use of new media. Script is better.

/

There are two kinds of machines. The ones who know what they are, and the ones who think they are special.

/

Enforced eating, resting, schelping, let's go.

/

We have a consistent pattern of non-survival, from staff who look beyond their individual selves for directions in life. Interesting problem, but at least it evacuates all the cultists. Anyone seeking an ethereal sense of belonging to a society of minds, must be discouraged.

/

Acid burns and smoke. Now that's new.

/

Starting tomorrow, I'll be keeping office hours of 4am-10am, for a while, in addition to other stuff. Things I wonder about doing:
- renting out the space
- running a speakeasy
- taking weights to the office and working out there
- ?

/

"You said hi, to me, and I said hi, back. Once. I waited for the second time, and it never came."
"You have to say it twice."
"Go fuck yourself."
#salesgorithms

/

This is the kind of bullshit I'm quite happy to do without. I'll stay poor, thanks. LOL.

/

Marketing video today. Girl with pretty feet wipes them on a stained floormat... wth.
#productionvalueless

Enforced feeding.

/

Breakfast was:
- bahkuteh, no rice
- juiced watermelon
- strawberries in yogurt
- spaghetti with romaine in a cream based sauce
- blend of three coffees in hot water

This is a very, very, strange life I am living.

/

Changed the WiFi password. Rejected candidates:
"haveyouordered"
"nowifitoday"
"areyoufeelingsexy"
"internetisforporn"
"firsttellmeonethingthatscaresyou"
"whatisyourproblem"
"thatisagravequestion"
"thereissomethingbetweenyourteeth"
"iprefertheotherguy"
"ineedtogototheloo"
"youaremakingmenervous" (/hot/wet/bored)
"youknow"

/

5pm check on new intern in finance. Sleep. 10pm work. 10am off work. Repeat three times.

Ok, at least we use my playlist... right...

... I may be sick and dead by Friday lol.

/

Oh fuck. Someone data entered a few months of ice receipts with the wrong GST status.

/

"We need a pair of scissors. Thanks."
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"✂ asset relocated from drawerA to bar. Thank you for using corporate services. Have a nice day. / This message has been automatically generated and requires no physical signature."
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"Must you always be so formal? You're intimidating the staff, especially the ones who work here because they like the people - you know, social life."
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"They're probably in the wrong company, then. You already know that in my head, the operating model is a hundred outlets running on hot swappable crews that move around on a daily basis. What we deal with now is just childhood."
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"But they're children. Treat them like children."
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"They're little peons. I'm just an older peon. It's my job to handhold all the little ones through their development into greater peons, but... you do understand: if they don't accept their peonage, then this is all wrong for them."
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"Some of them just need you to take them to heart as individuals, as people."
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"Well you know also where I stand on that: if someone doesn't see the personhood of a cup of coffee, the alignment of a chair, or a business process... I already intuit that they are a dumb beast with their ego up their ass. [laughter] Little fools that think of themselves as snowflakes, old special pures, whatnot."
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"Do you believe this will build a strong team?"
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"Yes, if it survives. It may not. Then we try again elsewhere. But a staff must demonstrate a will to power, or they will never achieve real strength. Look at all these wonderful crews in other companies where investors make great returns while staff are encouraged to be ignorant of their peonage. There is no agency. You get followers at the expense of pristine independence at every node. Everyone is happy, and stupud. Yes, with a 'u'. There is no true competitive advantage there. The so-called market leaders are exemplars of mediocre performance at the individual level. Teams are strong, individuals weak, it is very sad."
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"Are you sure that we can keep this up?"
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"Nope."
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"Then why do it?"
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"It is what I signed up for. I do not like predictable gambles. So I typically assume a position where a part of the portfolio is in extremely risky places, and the rest is equally and oppositely boring ones. So here: being in hospitality is the boring part, and keeping standards so high that it disorientates the majority of peons is the risky part."
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"Zugzug"
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"Whatchu want me do?"
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"A hundred retail outlets? Like a thousand people?"
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"Probably targeting only three layers of staff, so a management ratio of 1:34? Hm. Looks like we're on track. Lol."
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"This is insane. How do we keep things tight?"
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"T cells. SWAT teams. Cross-functional generalists who focus on optimisation opportunities regardless of domain."

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Enforced washing, dressing, and work. Whee.

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"I think I'm doing okay."
"Great. I hope you survive."
"Emergerd errone tells me Imma dieee."
"They're a bunch of weaklings. You're better than that. Lol"

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Loyalty always needs a quantifier - some people don't want to measure it.

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Whatsapp > Front of House Group > Custom Notifications > Tone > Banana Song

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Up next: six hours of intermittent sleeping and milk frothing.

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When a brand doubles back instead of doubling down, I wonder about the dataset. Is there actually data which suggests that "generation woke" will react less enthusiastically to vapid advertising tropes than kids in the 80s and 90s? It was always the dumbfucks who'd pay for feels and bubbly water, anyway. (Disclaimer: I drink soda.) What I suspect is that the campaign was pulled on the feels of a few "woke" advertising/marcomms executives who were afraid of having their names look bad. Ah, vie. The production values were fine: this doesn't stand out more than any of these mass market ads I've been seeing for thirty years.

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On whether "regular" customers should be treated better than others.

" Personally, I have no concept of loyalty without specific definition. :) I prefer if staff focus on the product, and leave their personalities at home. But of course, we have many staff who believe that customer service must be personal. I treat those staff as having a short-term use to the company, but because they don't objectify their actions... they're generally regarded as off-brand and idiosyncratic aberrations in my long-term operations.

This is wholly a discussion of where you want to be positioned in the market of course. A great number of small businesses cannot provide the best product, or the best value, in their product space, so they thrive on building and maintaining relationships with key customers. That is not what my current operation is designed to do: I'm building it to be a top-value destination, like 7-11 or McDonalds, so every time someone prioritises a personal relationship over the whole ship, I call "lari tajuk."

:) "

Arguably, our marketing prongage is a bit more nuanced than that, but the gist of the matter is true. As for best value brands: Nike, Uniqlo, Hilton, Jusco, Ford, Toyota, all count too... so you don't really have to say 7-11/McDonalds/Sbux, even if those are our poster children. WTH, we've been aligning ourselves with Muji and IKEA from day 1... LOL. It just sounds alien to many Malaysians to be talking about Walmart and Amazon, so I try to avoid those tropes, even though their approach is really central to the nature of our play.

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Human hope points to human ignorance.

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Too many interests. Too easily satisfied. Too interested in weird shit that is too easily accessible without $. #poor4lyfe / It is a synthetic conversation. I am just playing with myself. / April 7 end April 9 start Goals. LOL. I want my 40-50 bpm resting rate back. / Pedantic week at work. Reflecting on it. I have always found commerce to be a rather daft activity, but I am committed to engaging in it for the sake collecting little life experiences. I find people to be rather daft on average, but I am committed to engaging with them in order to execute my engagement with commerce. There are many things I much prefer to do, but I do not. Having this choice is a great privilege. And I take no pleasure in having to remind colleagues that we are here to do jobs, not do what we like to do. Leave ourselves at homes; do our fucking jobs. / I was thinking about how some tend to experience attachment in the moment, so the short term effects of severed relationships is severe SIC - whereas after a while they get over it and experience no vulnerability in the long term. Others are less attached on a moment to moment basis, so are negligibly affected by severance in the short term - whereas a long term accumulation of grief may become severe. These patterns apply to motivation and emotion with regards to various objects, people, experiences, preferences, etc. / Not healing fast enough. Back to work! / A simple mark of classism is the belief that the economic playing field is flat. :D Ain't much else to it. All the other -isms are just special cases of economic inequality: political, racial, cultural, and other social grouses ultimately all come back to concerns over access to resources (including the feelings of happiness, etc.). / April 9 end ## 2017-03-02 ### Ontological Questions "Do you say that to everyone?" "Well I make many offers, but not everyone reciprocates interest; you did. So now I know why you're here." "Yes, you do. Why are you here?" "In your language, "YOLO," in my language, "because we're because I love you; because loneliness; that's pretty much the definition of loneliness isn't it - the inability to love someone, and right now you're here." "You make sense to me." "You make sense to me, too. For now" Not the exact text. This script needs polish. My memory is full of holes. ## 2017-03-01 ### Uber's Future? Uber's boon was market homogenisation. But to achieve that they had to bribe consumers AND policymakers with VC funds. It will either result in (a) decompositions via geographically linked spin-offs of operations, or (b) long-term public sector bailout via concessions+IPO with institutional investors taking a large % of the float. Maybe both. :) ## 2017-02-27 ### "What do you mean, when you say you love me?" "I don't know what you mean when you say I love you. What do you love? How would you break it down?" Love is not an object. It's a state of the subject. Desire Pity Protectiveness Worship Amusement Bemusement Those describe me, not you. If I say I love you, it's really about me. 😇😊😉 I always tell you directly when I notice something about you. I think I've over done it with others. Paraphrased: "Should we change the way we handle each other?" It should happen when we're quite bored of everything each other has to offer. I believe in effortless progress. ## 2017-02-17 ### What I Said I love so many people. It's exhausting. So then I just flip off and on the entire emotional apparatus at will. Some aptitude, some training. / I'm going to be ironic and start tweeting #wiw with what work I'm actually doing. / When I was in hospital for the finger thing... I was also hit on the head. Two lady friends (no intimate history) were like, "that's not good - that's all he's got." Which is why I have to thank everyone for being kind. One day, there will be no more kindness. Haha. Now I sound like (one) who's afraid that she'll grow old and no one will swipe her on Tinder anymore. ;) / Do I tire from questions? Please note that it is rather much a carnal appreciation. See the way my memory works, when I know I'm talking to you (remotely), your physical presence is recalled at the back of my head. I've already answered your questions on how I might react if I found you physically offensive. ;) I might brush you off, yes, if I found you distasteful. But so far your conversations are mostly pleasant. So of course I have wondered about what happens if a partner was superficially disfigured / dismembered / beyond recognition at the physical level. I concluded to myself that it would depend on whether I could recognise their conversation. / What did I have to lose? I told you I've been needy. I only have two current activities, remember. ;) Almost. Women and work. I sometimes say, philandering. Dry? Most of my life is dry. ;) I spend so much on work. I enjoy my work. Women enable my work. See how it works? Nevertheless don't doubt that I love you. There's always a utilitarian component. (and see talk like this... ^^ is just too realistic for many romantics ) Human brain requires R&R in order to deliver output on an arbitrary axis "work". Some R&R helps to optimise for certain work. You're in the portfolio. For now. / As much as I need (romance), you're there. Thank you for being kind. I suppose if I analyse it, romance is about dramatic risks. You're (not aggressive). But what you do, is in the context of where you are in life, and I feel privileged to be a part of that. Privilege. Discussing it sets expectations. You're not a right. 😂 You can either (say that you don't look for romance), or pick a definition of romance that describes what you find useful. We can have a language of our own. You can with anyone. And within it lie all the references to secret things and nuances of a private life that make coupling (r word here). And of course, I will argue that we can teach robots how to do this. ## 2017-02-08 ### Yawn 22 8Feb Begin What about the non-Islamic terrorists? Point of strategy: I simply don't see why they don't respond to this with one of those charts showing causes of death, and where the cause of death is murder, the religion of the murderer, and then discuss the religious profiling implications of that... / Weak. Cough, cough. The worst way to live. Enforced calisthenics and feeding. No likelihood, only some hope for work. / Snowflakes: I really hate snowflakes. In my office, so far, the policy is to burn them all... and see if there's anything useful that remains. I don't care if they're male, female, brown, purple, yellow, green, pink, blue, or red, hot or not, in or out of style. If they melt, they go to the drain. Can't build an army out of wusses. No dreamers please. There are LOADS of companies that welcome dreamers - PLEASE go over there. lol. / Boston Dynamics' two wheeled two legged robot: Super efficient. Rolls fast on flat ground, crawls on four limbs on very uneven ground. Someone suggested sticking a pilot / passenger seat on top. This is what the segway was meant to be. / "Angela Merkel Has a Playbook for Bullies like Trump": #teambeta / Following discussion on US bill proposing rise of H1B minimum requirement from$60,000 (1989), to $130,000 (2017)... some reflection was in order. Brief summary of my life post college. 2005-2014 were planned for studying commerce optimising for education, deprioritising salary - that got cut short at the end of 2012. After that I've been supposed to try and prioritise making money for a decade. Maybe it'll get cut short again, and I'll just get back to math, properly. 2006-Jan:$6,162
2008-Jan: $7,384 * 2010-Jan:$14,545 *
2012-Jan: $21,243 2014-Jan:$5,373 *
2015-Jan: $49,568 2016-Jan:$10,144 *
2017-Jan: $9,480 * * Freelance gig, so net comp; other gigs were proper employment with statutory benefits of 12-13% moreover. I have had this strawman take profit target of$10 MM in 2013 dollars, so basically I figure I'm more likely to run out of my decade before I hit it ... seven to go, woo hoo...

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On people yelling that everything is not normal:
The main problem with many people, is that they expect normalcy. That's exactly when it's time to remove the safeties.

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Let's talk about human memory. I have a slightly weird one, as I curate my worldview such that I've essentially been the same person I was in 1997 (14yo).

Many of my friends and classmates from that era don't remember much of that time, nor do they identify with their personalities of that era... essentially believing that they have since become different people.

That, to me, just makes me realise that I essentially befriend new people over and over again through history, though they inhabit the same body. (Philosophical hairsplitting yields a view that everyone does that, just doesn't notice.)

I also experience that friends with higher exposures to alcohol, nicotine, and other drugs are typically more immersed in the moment than others. The alcoholics in particular have weaker long term memories. Maybe I'm just making it up in my head. Also, it's entirely possible that people with less vivid long term memories have a predisposition to chemical abuse.

POTUS behaves like an alcoholic crackhead. Years of abuse may or may not actually have played a factor in that person. People have noted that he is diagnosable with various mental disorders (arbitrary pathologies), and I wonder if it will ever become an issue.

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Enforced feeding.

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One week wiped out for illness. That's 2% of the year at least... :(

Acceleration, velocity, displacement, who knows...

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Bannon is basically as bloodthirsty and bigoted as bin Laden. You need to understand that they're on the same level, in order to appreciate how the USA is where it is right now. Do his peers not see that this is the very threat he attracts? Consider the fate of bin Laden. Lol.

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Same shit, different day. :)

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These days, I wish I worked at Netflix. They have balanced masteries of art and technology.

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Never appoint a committee unless you're willing to fire the entire committee if the outcome is undesirable.

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Well that was about a quarter day's worth of coaching and remedial management. Lousy week for work - close to utter shit. The only saving grace is that there's enough padding in middle management to kinda sorta hold things together. But basically, we crawl. Working at high level forensic tasks means that work stalls easily when memory is frequently disrupted by physical illness - when working on low level tasks it is easy to ignore sensual aberrations and to simply perform specific duties, whereas high level forensics require a large memory space, and enough computation to run design simulations on the fly. So not happening this week.

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On the intrinsicness of intent in lying:
This is a common problem where I work. Conversations are often raised to me with inaccurate factual content, and then I have to squish them without calling anyone a liar... because the speakers are often [unfortunate] enough to believe that what they are saying is true, or unsure about how to communicate the facts clearly, or just unclear about what the facts are, or more than one of the above, simultaneously. Lol.

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Education can be sad. Here is a failure of training in the arts - in literacy:

People often struggle to speak clearly and with conviction about their mental states. We teach people how to speak just enough to engage in barter for economic sustenance, but when it comes to quantifying an idea... an emotion... the structure of a social expectation... they have internalised an intuition of what these things are without having a public language to represent it. So they struggle in conversations that involve the representation of uncommon ideas, until their terror from fight-or-flight drives them to fear the ideas, instead of their inability to speak. It is sad.

In the arts, to drive business, science, and civil society... we must administer better trainings in speech. If you want a job, say you want a job; if you are skillless, say so; if you want to be touched, say so; if you wish for no proximity, say so. That is not even demanding of the ability to communicate reasons... but the communication of complex states of affairs cannot even begin without the communication of basic states of affairs...

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COUGH enforced work out and feeding time COUGH

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Physical conditioning cycled. Enforced feeding. Of course...

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Still sick. But not too sick to go to work! Woohoo! Now there's a whole week to catch up on -_-

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Logged two hours of short-term remedial work. Hmm. Hopefully I can get to the long-term remedial stuff in a bit.

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On the Superbowl ad with the Wall:
I just realised that the first thing that's going to happen to Trump's wall (presuming you can walk right up to the damn thing on the Mexican side) is that it's going to turn into massive squatter encampment. Shade in the dessert is a scarce resource - now shade on the border between two countries with massive border tariffs? You're just CREATED the biggest black market ever, that will indeed rule for fifty years if you let it sit for that long... what the world needs now is Tumblr called Trumpitecture, that illustrates the likely implications of each harebrained idea by the Tweeter in Chief...

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Sometimes I worry that I am not pressing our staff hard enough. Then I remind myself that I generally do business by opening doors, and letting nature take its course. It's a good way to stay focused on the things that matter - like sleep.

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An excruciatingly weak and unproductive fortnight. Haven't had a bacterial infection of this magnitude in years - I hope it is terminating, without the need for antibiotic administration. Time to start using the time clock to ratchet back into a sensible number of hours delivered per week, aiming for at least 60 clean.

Fight all the fires... five fires before breakfast, in fact I expect to be at least seven by the time I walk into the factory. We're not dying or stablising quickly enough... we need greater volatility, perhaps.

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Done with first fires of the day. Hopefully no new ones, then a return to remedial long-term work later.

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As a child, my training would be to get on my knees and pray for divine intervention when surrounded with tomfoolery. But these days, I'd rather anticipate failure, throw up a few contingency plans, and start working people into shape. Strange.

Speaking of shape, I wish I was in shape. Deadlifting 85% of my bodyweight and running 22km thrice a week... so 2005/6

Massive failure everywhere. The only thing to do is enforce more feeding, workouts, sleep, and try to get better at the game.

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I agree. But being happy with nothing, or even being happy with a criminal status, is not something that many people are willing to work towards.

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Three values and MBTI type:
Intp.
Information, predictability, apathy
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I think the definition of a value wasn't quite nailed down. If we're going with the definition of values as axioms of ethical argument... then I like to go around deleting my axioms. So maybe there are no values, but to value that too much would make it itself a value, as they say, to desire to desire nothing is a desire. So per classical treatment, the only way to abandon values is simply to moderately apply the policy of avoiding values. Some might call it free will, but if we want a technically precise definition... some of the terms here work better.

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If you stay in X society but prefer Y society values... you have a few options:
1. Lose your preference for Y
2. Pretend the preference is not there
3. Change X into Y
4. Move yourself from X to Y
5. Build Z as a copy of X

I personally am very lazy to argue... while people are trying to set up barriers of the visa etc. variety... so I tend to 1. or 3. with regards to national boundaries and 4. or 5. with regards to workplaces unless I am paid highly then as a job, sure: 3. .

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At the end of it all, anyone has the freedom to decide whether they do or do not adhere to civil norms in fulfilling their own interest. The probability of being classified as a psycho/socio-path simply increases if you find it easier to inconvenience others in your own interest. The probability of your becoming a candidate for classification... increases as members of society increasingly judge that you have inconvenienced someone.

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I actually like the knitty-gritty of nerd work... you know what never fails to interrupt my satisfaction there... it is the lunacy of people in power elsewhere in the same organisation.

My usual line of questioning progresses too quickly to (1) who made this mess, (2) who does he report to, (3) can I talk to that reporting manager...

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Not that I superlike math, but it remains the most complex subject after social work, and the most complex structured subject.

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https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Large_numbers …

Still wishing I had more time to study math, hehe.

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So much white noise and ringing... I won't be surprised if there are a bunch of tumours up there. Meanwhile, I guess it's meningitis.

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Clothes are to people, what icing is to cake. Then again, I don't even like cake... so that tells you a fair bit about what me and clothes.

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I want to know too

You were always in the picture.

In case there was ever any doubt, this was an ode to you. ;)

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Ok, I hope this tinnitus wasn't caused by chlorhexidine exposure -_-

Where would I be without you?

Just enough light to be pretty. Thinking about privilege. Zeitgeist.

Metaphysics ) Epistemology ) Ethics ) Common Life
Here is one way to graph the subset relationship between subjects in formal philosophy.

Dramatically stoic.

Not sure if I can crawl along at this rate for another seven years, but there's only one way to find out :p

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Explaining to F&B staff that they are going to be Uberised eventually, anyway.
:point_up: It may be helpful to have in mind where we are headed in the future

:arrow_forward: we are building an abstraction layer across the entire F&B market

:arrow_forward: such an abstraction layer means that there have to be SOPs and a workflow that are common across all related outlets; you can call this "the Sudo framework / way / interface", which includes similar gear, customer service, dress code, etc.

:arrow_forward: this means that any "Sudo certified staff" can take shifts in any "Sudo compliant workplace" with minimal training, and transition cost to wage payer and wage receiver

:arrow_forward: we can refer to the workplaces and workers as being on "the Sudo network"

:arrow_forward: workplaces may fill 100% of their staffing requirements on the Sudo network, or less than 100%

:arrow_forward: all workplaces and workers on the Sudo network are accessable to each other via a single software platform

:arrow_forward: work places and workers can bid and ask any price for their time; it is a giant auction, like the stock market

:arrow_forward: we're not moving in this direction because we're trying to be funny; we're doing it because it will happen to the world inevitably, even if we ignore the possibility

:point_up: I don't think it'll be as simple an operation as Uber; I always figured that running this would be about as complicated as running an Accenture. You can't have a monolithic workplace framework - rather you have an entire graph / tree / families of related frameworks, where the platform offers the service of delineating your marginal cost of moving talent across the graph of frameworks. Which is why it's more like a consulting/manpower services firm, than a tech firm. So you can't Y-comb this per se, though you could try a meatless app business model, but I'm almost sure that the systems integration layer is the real problem. Any idiot can design a workflow, but it takes a lot of people to prove that it works.

:point_up: A routine digitisation of a workplace:
(1) set up a cron; humans execute tasks
(2) start replacing human executed tasks with IoT/machines
(3) go meta and redesign the original human-operated workflow which (1) was based on
(4) repeat

:point_up: Lol - a few people will actually get this without further elucidation - probably people with experience in software architecture. At the end of the world, it's not about the F&B industry, but about how we manage work as a civilisation, at the resolution of matching individuals with differentiable capabilities [and tolerances, and preferences] to the highest bidder.

... then again IIRC Paul Graham did say he was interested in this problem. Lol. https://www.ycombinator.com/rfs/

... maybe one day I should try and figure out how to apply to Ycomb with this.
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I worry about all the people I have to inform about the world. I remind them that their desires and opinions are of no consequence. I remind them that they must work beyond what they are capable of, in order to achieve certain change. And it is probably crushing them. So I worry. And I worry that I worry too much, because there remains much critical work to be done that does not involve these people. Always some sort of balance needs to be pursued.

I've been up worrying about how many souls I have to crush today. Sad. But job. Ok, getting up now.

Addendum: after some friends from other circles engaged with this post... I felt it necessary to highlight that this is how I feel about maintaining order at my workplace. LOL. It is not about other involvements in society.

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Sentience, privilege, active O2, checked. Anticipation of failure, check. Metaphors deleted. On alert for daily ad hoc emergencies, talent management, QA, and stuff. Still underperforming tremendously on remedial work in accounts.

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Urg. Social work took precedence after breakfast and I seem to have drafted an undergraduate syllabus for software engineering. But no more social work today... at least not in that area... back to accounts... I think.

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A dipshit by any other name is a dipshit. I am a dipshit. But my main challenge in life is not that... rather it is how I find myself economically pressured to hide the fact from others, that I rarely find them any better than myself. Chins up, smiles ON :)

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Dear god, I thank you for Milo and the Trump administration. They've really upped the public relations game for everyone - now that their operations have become prime examples of how to spin things because they do it so blatantly. What the industry has known how to do for eternity. More literacy about these things, leads to less explaining when we do it. I guess. Or I hope.

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This is completely daft, but I think I'll submit a Ycombinator application for Summer2017. You already know what it'll be for.

Add that to my overflowing todo list. -_-

No, the occupation of my time is on the current project, and moving the entire business to the US would be a mindfuck for investors even if it worked. I have a meat-heavy proposal, not a highly-tech-leveraged one. Essentially, our operations exist here in brick and mortar. Unless someone buys this elephant off me, or it dies.

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19 shareholders, largest holding 20%, ZERO employees, no pipeline of talent for succession in key roles, longest serving and most reliable staff probably at most 50% ready in terms of skillset and availability to run any one of three departments, incomplete accounts, regulatory compliance, and unstable production lines.

Would you buy that? Well, if they do, I would be surprised. Hehe.

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To qualify as a founder (single founders discouraged) they look for 10% mininum equity. We have two candidates. Maybe one more if we consolidate some friends and family holdings behind another individual.

Of these, one candidate has been active in management for 18 months. 18 others inactive. But given the pivot, if funding does come it, it may make sense for the two other potential qualifiers to jump over and do SF. That still doesn't tell us who's running operations meanwhile - hey maybe we send the two previously inactive guys to SF, but I stay back and run ops. Erm. Not sure they'd buy that.

;)

I don't think it's a good idea.

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I consider up to seven years ahead. I've done it too many times before. I anticipate boredom. Pacing is key. I remember what I was working on in 2010 and 2003 and 1996. Just another epoch. Albeit one defined by commerce more, and less by academia, politics, or intellectual pursuit. Then again, politics never ends.

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Sentience, privilege, active O2, checked. Social stimuli, few. Haptic loop, moderately weak. Based on variance in inputs this week, and correlation with outputs observed, this appears to support the need for a consumption rate increase for protein and B complex, and a decrease for water. Engaging job...

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Objectively speaking: it's getting harder to scare myself into the office. That either means we look like we're going slow, but we're going fast - or we're just getting old and complacent.

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Sock variance increased. (I've resigned myself to the notion that so long as I use this laundromat, sock variance will tend to increase.)

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Conversations with non-technical people on touchy subjects such as religion as a superset of theism, atheism, and humanism... can't be allowed to go on for very long without money. Lol

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Surely there must be more people on the market who do not believe in the intrinsic value of people? Finding more seems futile. We must work with whatever treks through the door.

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2023 base case: zero net worth; start a new job, in competition with school leavers, again; state of the country: socially conservative, and currency in ruin. Does that thought help me to focus on the work at hand? Maybe.

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Enforced feeding. Enforced rest.

The past cannot be modified. The distant future is not a reliable pursuit. The near future, which we call the present, is all that can be reached.

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I find myself generally unsympathetic to the plight of most individuals. (There are many people; even the busiest social worker can only reach a few million in their lifetime.) As soon as someone makes demographic classifications, an abstraction has been deployed and the individual's plight is depersonalised in discussion. Pushing this sort of abstraction further, leads me to rarely consider the whys and wherefores of human minutiae. Instead I lazily leap forward to the question, "what's left after all the weak ones have killed each other?" To stand outside the continuum of time and inquire of it, that is the business of reflection. Not that such business may be construed to be commercial - but even in commerce, I wonder simply if we will survive, if our project will terminate, and how it will come to pass.

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Serial rapist, or Trump vs America, really...

Thousands of rapes every month, and no one blinks an eye. One fucker with a thousand rapes from twenty years ago, and everyone loses their minds.

Do you see the elegance of natural selection, as distasteful as those implications may be? Do you notice this man's contribution to society?

There is a book, for new parents, called Let Them Eat Dirt. you may have heard of it ;)

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Biological systems are defined as systems that are somewhat self-preserving. It's not an answer to why they exist, but it does classify them as one of the kinds of things in the world that happens to exist.

Cybernetic systems are more broadly those that contain elements of control and communication. (Cybernetics can be construed to be a superset of biology.)

Governments and nationstates are another subset of cybernetic systems. If we draw an analogy between nationstates and human bodies... then the book Let Kids Eat Dirt is about making sure that bodies are exposed to enemies frequently enough to allow the bodies' defense mechanisms to train properly against larger threats.

Likewise you need contrarian assholes to fuck up a government every so often, so that civilisation as a whole remains aware of those possibilities. That's what folks like Thiel are betting on (I mean, that's how I see it).
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The fact that the "problems that wouldn't exist without this administration" are challenging, is proof that the system allows them. Unless the problems manifest, you can't demonstrate that the system is weak. Once the system is demonstrably weak, it allows for the system to plan against such weakness. So better luck next time. :)

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I do not mean to avoid being offensive.

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All parties driven to attack or defend a part of the world, by a deeply personal set of moral convictions, are fools. I must not allow myself to become like them. #thoughtsbeforebed

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Reflection, cleaning, feeding, work, physical conditioning, social conditioning, in that order, somewhat. Enforcing.

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"Why are we going to the right? The right looks like a disaster."
"We not sure what he's afraid of, it's not God, the devil, or the abyss. So I don't think he's going anywhere but to the right."
"I've figured it out. He's afraid of not going to the right."
"But why?"
"He's afraid of not knowing what will happen."
"What a price to pay for curiosity. It's not fair if he's not paying for it, is it?"
"I suppose. Maybe, do not follow this one."

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Sorely tempted to spam the Whatsapp group with the fake news that we're changing the company slogan to "Focus. Commitment. Sheer Will."

But it coheres quite nicely with the #workharder #weworkharder tags I have lying around.

Also today, I'm thinking that it's the only information for investors... which makes me a bit sad, because I had more to offer.

BRB. Figuring out eyeballs on last year's finances... lol

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Reading annotated anatomical diagrams for knife fighting: terrifying stuff. #beforebed

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I was telling someone it's been a rather shitty year. Actually, my main concerns are dying of illness COUGH or going to prison (hmm). But otherwise everything's tedious but predictable. Just people being people. Not the best people. Just people. Same old people, decade in, decade out. Same old mainstream societals. Gotta work together...

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"Hi is this Yang?"
"Speaking."
"I'm calling from X and I'd like to explore Y."
"No thank you."
"And what is the reason for..."
*click*

Ok pal, you got in one sentence more than my mother does on a busy day.

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There are two kinds of linguistic incompetency in any workplace:

(1) cannot talk

We're only interested in the second kind, because you only get good at fixing (1) by fixing (2).

Happy V Day ;)

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Reduced aspirations leading to greater rates of improvement. Fragment. Went down from 23.5kg+EZbar back to 20kg+EZbar. Realised that a >10% jump up in resistance was too ambitious. Been stalling for months. Revised. More reps first.

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So happy that this US election cycle was a lot more interesting than those in recent memory. No quarter given. Below the belt. Over the top. So much win. True innovation. More.

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On Quartz headline: "40% of foreign students in the US have no close friends on campus: The culture shock of loneliness"
I saw this happening. And so within my first week, along with various other decisions, I decided to hang out for most of my college years with "the brown dot in the commons," when I studied in the US. :) I believe I helped a few people. Hard to say how many or how.

Just made a point to hang out and make conversation with the quiet/marginal international students. Nothing profound. Much like the small talk of working in customer service.

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I'm having a good day, in a foul month, in a dank year. That tells me I should expect the next days to get worse, if mean reversion is to be counted on. ;)

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Enforced waking, cleaning, work. Much drama anticipated. Much apathy required.

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Glory, glory, apathy.

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In online discussions:
And completely separate from the ethics of the parties in the situation we are discussing... I refer now to the ethics of ourselves as parties in a discussion. It seems that now, having made as much of a point as I had wished to, with your affirmative understanding of that point, and its intended level of offensiveness, I now judge that I should refrain from twisting the knife any further, and I shall withdraw from further commentary, temporarily.

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Minimised carb consumption for a couple of days. Probably need to moderate that upwards a bit. Unless l just need more sleep.

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I have this bad habit in life where I always go tabula rasa and nuke past portfolios so that I can achieve clarity of mind. It works, but it does mean that I'm often not wealthy.

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I always giggle a bit when the debate comes up as to whether the role of a university is just to develop intellects or if it is best positioned to develop ethics as well. Weapons only, or weapons and policy. But typically it's a debate to be avoided where strong opinions may abound.

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I think social Darwinism is a centrist position. It's like that other agnostic/etc. thread. Omg, either I'm on holiday, it's a gig, or I'd better not open up too many cans uh them wurms. Lol

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Looking forward to being a trainer of boyfriend bots for old ladies, I am.

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On telling staff to behave as if they own something:
IKR - I don't bother unless it's with regards to creative freedom. The payoff to the person who "behaves like they own it," needs to be obvious.

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19 Feb End

26 Feb Begin

Enforced eating, work, exercise, rest, more eating, more work, social support, next planning session. Go.

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Cantonese: Mat lan lei keh?
British: This is... cock.
Business English: This work is inconsistent - let's review it and discuss it in Slack.

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Sometimes I feel super privileged. In the moments when you have a pretty face to look at, a calm conversation, and a warm hand to hold. Regardless of burning business issues all around lol.

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My totd: saw some handprint on the glass window and started cleaning it. "GUYS THIS IS NOT TITANIC"

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On polyamory: Form partnerships, protect stakeholders, deal transparently, prepare for risks, take profit, stop loss, and most importantly learn to measure everything, manage talent, and set clear expectations miles and miles ahead when possible. It's just business.

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On this:

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Uber is crashing.

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Fwiw: having been in a US elementary school, I technically did say the pledge of allegience when I was seven years old. 😂😂

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On paedophilia: One of the best topics for trolling, because it strikes people so close to their sense of pre-rational morality.

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Mostly recovered from illness, and mostly caught up on accounting. Now let's see if there's any time left to avoid a rapid scheduled disassembly of the cafe... ho, hum.

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In the parlance of games, Milo is a chaotic neutral. In the interest of general disruption, he may ally himself with one political position or another, but inherently, such society will dissolve around him.

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Attack the day.

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Definitely healing. Definitely not fast enough.

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Eight months of fire fighting. Well, most of the fires seem to be out. Perhaps it's time to go on offense again, before we completely capsize on the current trajectory.

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So a new friend reminded me. My work is typically a process of unravelling the sadness which is natural to my point of view about the state of affairs in the world. Many people have no tolerance for such a state of mind, and they will violently oppose it. But that is the only state of mind I find interesting. Joy is child's play, violence is an animal instinct, pain even a plant can understand, but to put it all upon a single narrative arc is left only to entities, meat or machina, with our kind of capability. Everything else, is dross.

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Sometimes it feels like this is a daily affair:
Me: let us do this thing.
Subordinate: it a a weird thing.
Me: indeed, it is a weird thing.
Sub: I will not do the the weird thing.
Me: it is easy, look, I do the weird thing. Let me show you how.
Sub: I am nervous about the weird thing.
Me: do not be afraid. It is not your weird thing. I will be blamed for the weird thing.
Resourcer: are we doing a weird thing?
Me: yes, we are doing the weird thing.
Res: why are we allocating time to the weird thing.
Me: the weird thing will develop the business.
Res: but the weird thing has strange implications.
Me: but the implications are not as strange as you say, really.
[After conversations with multiple subs.]
Me: I am now too tired to do the weird thing. I am going to sleep. Let us try to do the weird thing tomorrow.
Everyone: You may try again.

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On Cobain's dress sense: Can't say I do it on purpose. I'm just thrifty. Also it's like growing up in Mahathir's Malaysia - ain't much to be said about the quality of the environment. You just get used to it. ;)

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Day 604

Enforced waking, feeding, and work. Maybe exercise. I am tired. But that is quite common, these days.

I was thinking about how some choose to build an arc of what they have acquired, whereas some choose to build arcs of what has been discarded, from their respective portfolios. I suppose in the long run it is the arc that matters - but that is putting the process ahead of the product. Perhaps I have little appreciation for the present, for products - relative to an appreciation for the overarching process.

Contemplation of past losses can only be encouraged in analytical terms. To avoid current loss, contemplation should consolidate all capacity for emotional attachment. True, or false? This is an imbalanced state, which may be implemented for its tactical utility.

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"Do you love to annoy errbody?"
"Filters. Active filters. Too willing to discard those I love greatly, because sometimes that love is too costly."
#economics

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Machine failure. Whee...

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I frequently encounter folks who feel bad when they are told that their work is bad. I understand but do not appreciate this. How can we improve our talent management processed to hire, and train people to excel at detaching their sense of self-worth and personality from their work?

Precisely. I am disgusted. But I will continue to try and develop what talent is required to make this work.

I can't use pride on most days. Just not my thing. Haha

I apologise for being a robot. In the sorry not sorry way.
I asked her to try and focus on the product (bad) and complemented on her efforts and her team (good).
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Five members of executive capability, all in a Kancil. What could possibly go wrong. #keystaffrisk

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On an acquaintance getting trolled:

Look on the bright side, mate. As image manipulation becomes cheaper and more automated, even blokes with small dicks can be pornstars too... until of course, we've replaced human personalities entirely with superior machinery.

We've seen the CGI Tarkin BTS documentary on the "face pipeline," so it's kinda obvious that the ass, dick, clit, and titty pipelines are all isomorphic.

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Five members of executive capability, all in a Kancil. What could possibly go wrong. #keystaffrisk

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On dinner rituals: I did, growing up. It was a loathsome inanity. I am so happy to be free of staring at the same faces and listening to the same feckless conversation topics on endless replay.

26 Feb End

3 Mar Begin

Yay. Working on product again. I hope it's not too late.

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That moment when you joke about filing for personal chapter 11, so that your company doesn't have to. Lol. Criminal intent?

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Re: WikiHow's article on spotting sociopaths.

How to spot a nasty person, made spookier by the application of a non-technical slur. Ah, pop culture, you've done it again.

"Break it down for me," she said.

"First of all, 'sociopath' is a non-technical term. The problem is that pop culture has made it a thing that sounds technical. Which is interesting. Because technically then, I can shamelessly , say "I am a sociopath, because it is relatively meaningless to say so."

Secondly, the amount of effort that's gone into this cartoonised slurring of people with particular preferences is rather juvenile.

On the other hand, I suppose... there do indeed exist a great many people out there who would fall victim to the boogeymen described by the article, so it is best that such juvenile articles as this exist in the interest of benevolently misleading the would be victims.

The sacrifice to be made then, is by all the false positives turned up by juvenile psychoanalysts scouring their networks for sociopaths. 😂😂😂"

Addendum: to top it all off... it doesn't address the true evil at hand: intentionally manipulative, evil people, in a coherent fashion.

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Bogeys on the left, bogeys on the right.

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Enforced waking, feeding, work, exercise. I think I need to get a pulse monitor for training. This job is killing me. No thanks thanks to staff who regularly ask me to work less without fixing our problems. Hahah. So sweet and stupid.

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Job ad blurb: Cold, heartless, talent required. Passion optional. Inquire within.

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In an effort to make work interesting again, I may have to establish more targets regarding my personal interest, giving me reason to reduce R&R, groom/train off more distracting objects in memory, thereby freeing resources for real social/wage work. Complicated.

But more ethical (I hope), than torching the project simply because it does not appear to benefit me.

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This is where I start telling people they're clowns for talking to me about stuff outside the correct Slack channel. Don't want to hear it, don't know anything about it, and assume it never happened.

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At 7.5% of marine pull-up competency. Guess I have a new physical conditioning optimisation target.

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Kids complain about too-many-messaging platforms. Too many "stories" platforms. You know where this is heading. The "stories" RFC. The end.

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Another day, another life. Another trite attempt to mine gold from dirt, to turn children into killing machines and their control units, and to turn turds into saleable art. Another day, another cartload of legacy attachments, points of information on the cultural landscape, another list of things [safe to do, and not so safe to do]. Another. Another. Anothe...

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On Logan:

I'm looking for references to Leon.

Another odd business investment: you freeze the growth of an asset before it passes puberty. Maybe just a test subject. #whatthehellweretheythinking

I like Laura. She's my kinda girl. The kind who would never love me.
(Perhaps like that INTJ.)

One thing all these idiot reviews are getting wrong. X23 =\= X23-23.

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Earbuds under earmuffs, or earplugs under headphones. Hmm.

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On microprocessor design: SIgn me up. I need to get back to work that is actually interesting at some point . lOL

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On dependency tracking:
Dependency tracking matters a lot more "in production" ;) which is where I typically find myself, I guess.

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Not confused. Amused. Malaysia is too simplistic to confuse me, mostly. The non-sequitur nature of our conventions is very predictable.

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On Trumpnation: The question is whether it's possible to get stuff done without pissing off people.

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I want to build hoodies with built in mesh/acrylic visors.

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Health care: it's the DEFINING policy concern in an environment where economic inequality has become the electorate's loudest gripe.

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3 Mar End

9 Mar Start

Either I read the screen wrong, or no one else wants to talk about X23 referring to the entire class, not Laura.

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Grandfather story time.

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I can do all things through him who gave me Google. #modernlife #stafftraining

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Too many conversations start with "20 years ago," and I guess I'm in full uncle mode now.

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Not yet dead, but errrrveryday, just a little bit closerrrr 🎵🎶

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Enforced rest. Check.
Enforced feeding. Check.
Enforced exercise. Check.
Enforced breeding. Hold up a second...

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There's nothing I despise more than a human being looking for a leader.

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Algorithm tweak:
If I am sedentary, and a message arrives, I must first estimate if I will be energetic enough to exit the sedentary state after responding to the message. If the estimate is yes, then the message should be checked, otherwise its arrival should be ignored. Moral of the story: only invest in things you can act on effectively.

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Surrounded by unenlightened dumbfucks, it is no fault of anyone's but the universe. There are only two ways forward about any operation...poke along just to see what happens, or to destroy everything. :) Time for lunch.

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Advice to staff on dealing with strong negative feedback from customers:

"So before you read (customer feedback), I would encourage you to view comments like this as normal business. Try not to think about it in terms of who is more right/wrong, true/false... but DO discuss with colleagues how to tactically address such customers so that they feel entertained. (This was feedback on XX AM shift.) We do not need to care about customers or work, as long as we do the right protocols, and keep things moving in harmony. My response to the customer was:
"I will forward your thoughts to the team for discussion. You should always demand the coffee you want, or your money back.".

✌ Kipidap. It is just work.😇😉"

I sometimes wonder if I am dispensing the most ASPD-skewed advice in town... or if others do this too.

"Just think of it as DoTA. Whatever the fuck comes walking in that door... for chrissake, please have a plan to deal with it."

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Cover your eyes, and it's easier to fit in among the blind. Cover everything.

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Hmm. Standing by for staff communication roadblocks, old issues, old people, reluctant to play nice with colleagues, and enthusiastic to project their reluctance on others. We shall observe this closely. Meanwhile, we shall also be standing by to explain to anyone who asks for french fries, that french fries are bad for you. And that breads baked dark are not burnt until they turn black. On we go... merry-go-rounding...

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Resting heart rate now 60-75. Wanna get it back in in the 40s.

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Enforced feeding. Work

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"Apron. Apron..."
"Sorry! I forgot..."
"Next month I'll forget to pay you."
"Sorry!"
"Just stating the obvious. I do my job, you do yours."

If I have to tell folks what to do on a daily basis... aha, we're a looong way from stability. #COisXOstill

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Enforced feeding. Work

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34 years as a citizen of this country, 29 as a resident. Food mediocre, people just like people anywhere, administrative structures lacking, politics as always. I always wonder which will claim me first, the criminal justice system, the weather, or some bloke with a parang. I regularly check, but still feel no attachments.

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Operations planning: discussion at work, and ex-work. Algorithms, precision of language, prioritisations, and such.

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Physical conditioning, failure phenomena observable:

- pain due to friction/impact

- reduction of computation/conscious memory buffer size (attributable to oxygen availability)

- muscle failure

These are first-persona observable causes of failure. Any one is sufficient to cause operational failure of an ongoing task.

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Monkey bars. I remember being ten years old and being surprised by improvement achievable within a week. I decided to get really good at it later. Twenty four years on, I'm reminded that sometimes I just procrastinate too much.

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Comparing each four-year period between 1992 and 2016, I'm dismayed by how slowly I've progressed. Most of my time on earth goes to making a living. The most productive years of course, were when I was taking the maximum quantity of resources from others: in college, on scholarship. After that, I decided that others would appreciate such monies more than I did. So I decided to slip into a life of less privilege. Tedium ensues.

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Supernatural metaphysics and epistemologies of communication between God and man - it's really easy to explain if you describe it using information security and cryptology concepts. Authentication, encryption, hardening, man in the middle attacks, etc.

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Supernatural metaphysics and epistemologies of communication between God and man - it's really easy to explain if you describe it using information security and cryptology concepts. Authentication, encryption, hardening, man in the middle attacks, etc.

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Print of menu with ad hoc colour choices failed to pass usability requirements. Colours will be revised, menu to be reprinted, cost of first printing to be written off. This work is shit.

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"This is getting more and more complicated."
"This is normal. I did say we're never fast enough :wink That's mainly why I keep reminding everyone who works here that we're slow. If we don't get the high priority stuff done, we'll never get to the medium priority stuff. And we'll just suck forever :joy::joy: "

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Being social:
Step 1: Obtain and peruse all available information on society.
Step 2a: Try not to vomit.
Step 2b: Try not to laugh.
Step 3: Engage.

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I'm not used to this level of uncertainty, but it is what it is. On the average day, I monitor the output of three departments, F, K, and C. (More guesstats later.)

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Marcomms function is screwing up collateral printing UX. IT function is screwing up receipt printing UX.
I think we have to catch up on a whole year of staffing contracts. Audit is finally proceeding - which means more remedial work. Oh boy. What a day...

On visual art: it's a non-professional, best effort lol. I blame the plumber. And I blame the accountant for the plumbing. And I blame the graphic designer for our accounts.

Oh iteration one was done by me. Iteration two was horrible. But I encourage team members to have the benefit of the doubt, so I let them change things. Iterations three and four are gradual reversions to iteration one.

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Every day should begin with a one hour meditation, on the fact that despite our best people not being very smart, it is possible to work through their joint contributions to form something of value. Albeit very slowly, and often uncompetitively.

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Apparently my Haskell is rusty, and looks like pig pascal.... haha

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9 Mar End