Yawn : Sabbatical 2 : Quarter 12

 "

Thu 1Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.767years ( year3; month34; week144; day1010 )

0140 : Control. I speak to people often, about their motivations and risk management. Many adults remain childish in their approach to personal operations management. They regard things they enjoy as decontrolled states, and so enjoyment of life is risky, for them. I find many people to be so childish, but, it is their right to be that way. One simply manages them, as ungoverned risks.

1052 : Higher education is getting a lot of attention in this hypecycle of AI. The masses are forced to come to terms with the notion that human computations are trivial - and as AI improves, masses will have to face the fact that human conscious experience is also trivial ( the data which is operated on ).

Someone said, colleges are too focused on producing employable graduates and not enough on education. in 2003, I considered dropping out of a liberal arts college because it was too focused on producing employable class markers lol. 

I stayed to get the degree because I was on scholarship so basically it was a job. 

1603 : Next : buy rice, then reconsider baking ( again ) 

1919 : quantitative modeling jobs at bnm : Maybe you should give it a go. 

My friend suggested I apply but, I said 

1. I don't have the relevant paper qualifications even if I have the skill ( unproven )

2. I don't typically make an effort to win jobs, as I prefer to wait till there is a specific advantage to myself, before entering competitions

3. I do consider any jobs where I have already been shortlisted as a fit, as that is an advantage in competition 

It's like, we can all help loads of people around us, but helping everyone would be an inefficient use of energy. So we would help those that asked for help first, or those from whom benefits can be derived when they are helped.

2110 : ""in english we say, i'm done and leaving, in malay we say?"" now is the winter of our green sawah

2142 : I graduated in 2005, and moved to Malaysia to study the country. However, I think I spent the most about of time interacting with locals in 2025, while I was on study break. From 2005 to 2024, I lived with locals, but did not engage in so much anthropology outside of specific commercial networks. I guess there will be many more cultures to study here, as I know very little about industrially specialised people outside of mass-market service professions. 

2144 : Bought rice earlier. Time to make a pot of it. 

2256 : Personally, I am ok with PAS having 67% of parliament. The reason is that my entire 42 years of life in Malaysia, I have taken it for granted that my interests will be sidelined anyway 😂. I don't mind that others are more defensive about the messy law enforcement in this country. It's just not something I have taken much pride in, personally. 

2258 : If you had to pick between PAS and UMNO, which would you pick? I'd go with PAS simply because Islam is more formally governed entity than Malayness. Lol

Fri 2Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.770years ( year3; month34; week145; day1011 )

0135 : Parti ABSURD

asalkan bukan sebarang unionised racial discrimination 

🤪

1316 : ( vs. continuing to allow UMNO/etc. to run PN) Strategically, PAS can assert leadership in the present, forgo one or two cycles of strength, and then have a much stronger reputation by 2030-2034. It is up to PAS to decide on such risks/opportunities.

1622 : today's inexpectation : metallurgy ... steel microstructure

1731 : crystal geometry, low priority stuff, again bubbled to the top of the stack

1919 : Mildly dismal second-half of 2025. Productive, but not on all fronts. Physiology routines improved, but research ongoing. Housekeeping improved, but that is mainly reduction of mess, not growth. Social relations mostly in maintenance mode thus keeping costs higher than preferred, one or two new friends added, but nothing outstanding to note, so more exploration costs anticipated. New study portfolios initiated in realestate and construction. Investment portfolios eroding slowly. Some charity done, but unsustainable without more capital - huge distractions. Acquisition of more familiarity in the Malay language, probably the largest long-term pivot. 

1942 : The purpose of a prestigious education, is to enable an individual meatsack to maximise their protocol leverage within the context of a broader society and its institutions of power, power being a convenient word for access to goods and services.

But at the individual level, many people remain disorganised messes, unable to be happy in isolation, and structurally reliant on broader society. These animals make me sad. However, there is never a good time to dwell on this, so one continuously pursues new studies given the dismal environment of such people.

Sat 3Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.773years ( year3; month34; week145; day1012 )

1259 : Good afternoon. Time to feed, again. An endless circuit, upon this mortal coil. 🌞

1552 : Time for lunch

1553 : US bombings: I guess Venezuela was deemed ""not white enough"" today

Sun 4Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.775years ( year3; month34; week145; day1013 )

1316 : A voluminous day in my short life. A few things to ponder while I execute housekeeping. 

- reified US foreign policy

- 50-year spin on constitutional matters in Malaysia

- realestate markets and construction technique

- nutrient optimisation at cost

- other trivial less on my desk this past half year

1357 : Ethnicity is a globally obsolete concept. While I don't expect to live to see the end of it, one day, people will stop trying. 😂

1808 : Sordid day. Cheerful on various factors, but otherwise a drag. Shower and nap

2216 : Had my attention dragged back to diesel generators, and the notion that modern ones can be much quieter than before. I avoid doing open-air food businesses because I'm not myself a fan of patronising those in the tropics. Now seriously considering the stack required to run a portable air-conditioned cafe. fml

2222 : Enforced eating. Meal two

Mon 5Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.778years ( year3; month34; week145; day1014 )

0040 : Spot of string bending for hand-ear coordination. 

0200 : Structural review of lifting. I need to stabilise fingers and wrists before trying to bend the elbow, shoulds, and waist. So grip studies for now on the EZ+30kg

0304 : I made a mistake.

Around 2006 I had a single dumbbell set for up to 14kg. I had decent results between it and running. Then I stopped using it, and running probably was affected as well.

Around 2012 I got the barbell and bench set. Around 2015 I got the EZ bar, and heavier weights, but I completely underutilised these due to a deprioritisation of physical conditioning. 

I should have just maintained work with the single dumbbell and added more weight. 

Anyway, in 2026 I have resumed this study. Today the dumbbell is at 16+kg for starters. 

What a lost opportunity. And a waste of gear. 

1246 : I really need to start the biscuit project. Then order more SPI. 

1358 : ""11% of 24k lawyers are non-Malay, hence Malay rights eroded"" : I may not agree with the argument, but I do enjoy that it draws attention to formal governance rather than sentiment 🌞

Yang penting bagi sekalian, kalau kita nak ugut kuasa antara satu sama lain pun, cara terbaiknya kelolaan rasmi, bukan berkeliaran dengan dongeng dan hasutan.

1501 : DAP has more in common with PAS, than with UMNO. This is one of the bigger threats to UMNO, so the ""ultras"" are now racing around trying to figure how to position themselves in the era of the Internet.

1618 : looks like DOSM doesn't publish religion data HaHAHA 

1913 : I have been very lazy and still haven't started baking

Tue 6Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.781years ( year3; month34; week145; day1015 )

0141 : cracker research begins

1.

flour : water : oil => in grams

240 : 120 : 60 ... is common;

240 : 160 : 25 ... is crisper

2. generally, roll thin for crispness; avoid too much browning / AGE formation

3. need to substitute AP flour with SPI instead; nervous as fuck, too much thinking, and not enough doing; current SPI dosing is in multiples of 8g ( 90% protein, so 7.2g protein ), and APF is 10% protein; hypothethically ( pix )

0424 : Unexpectedly tired. A colourful, but unnoticed, day. 

1321 : I should buy eggs. I am out. 

1322 : Probably also insufficiently slept, over the year. 

1351 : 2025 TOTY : has my brain slowed down after normalising Internet via laggy 5G on the 28th floor? 

2159 : Harder questions I ask while shopping for relationships.

1.

Why would you want to date someone who (1.1) plans their life around minimum wage, and (1.2) intends to work until they die?

2.

""Forever"" is a lazy design. It doesn't have much contingency planning, and just sort of creates an entity for the sake of creating an entity 😂. What sort of goals, and exit strategies, would you prefer in an intimate relationship? 

2341 : Officially back to where Ieft off in college : having to study muscle-specific exercises for detailed development. 20-years behind, as usual, in all the normy things."

"Wed 7Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.784years ( year3; month34; week145; day1016 )

0038 : Oh, eye focus issues due to infrequent exercise. Recalibrated via isolated focus. 

0235 : Amazing. Isolated soy protein now down to 0.022 MYR/g at 5kg volumes. Hopefully legit.

0349 : Proper strength training is always discombobulating. Sensorimotor network SNR drops as muscle response becomes less predictable. Underslept moreover. Maybe under the influence of a shot, hardly a large dose. I placed a cup without looking, too close to the edge. Off to bed. 

1637 : TIL : zinc roofing isn't just GI, it's almost 100% zinc ... 0.17 to 0.40 mm. Around 15 MYR/m^2@0.18mm

1722 : TIL : danish dough whisk

1757 : Need to review cooking apparati

1904 : 2026 merupakan tahun nice bagi Malaya.

Tadi saya berbahas dengan seorang Melayu, yang fahamannya bertentangan dengan fahaman saya. Pengajian bahasa Melayu, dan pertukaran budaya dengan orang Melayu, sebenarnya bukan keutamaan selama hidup saya.

Walau bagaimanapun, semasa cuti belajar sedekad ini, saya anggap lah diri bertuah, kerana masih adanya peluang pada usia ini. 

Umur saya 43, umur Malaya 69.

2126 : My first bread. I made a thing. It's round. Can't remember if this is my first bread or not. On to further tests.

Mainly I needed to understand the ratios for SPI, APF, water, and flour. And subsequently elasticity. Pan frying was a no brainer. But I may need an over in order to scale up to loaf. 

#jerngfood

Thu 8Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.786years ( year3; month34; week145; day1017 )

0259 : Setiap kebudayaan adalah permainan khas, yang dimain dan dipermainkan antara sekelompok orang, sama ada orang itu adalah manusia, haiwan lain, ataupun jentera secara am. Kebudayaan apa yang anda pilih, hari ini? 

1316 : Cramps before bed. No bloodwork. So heuristically administered Mg2+ and K+ as chlorides. Solved immediately. Weird. Will continue to observe. 

1336 : Drama Rembayung : ini perkara biasa, di mana satu pihak yang telah lama terperdaya, mengenai siapakah pemilik modal, dan siapakah penerima manfaat daripada pemegangan modal, menghadapi kekecewaan keranan pemilik modal telah membuat pilihan tertentu yang tidak membawa faedah langsung kepada satu pihak itu. Tapi faedah tidak langsung ada lah, sebab identitinya boleh dikatakan ""sudah naik taraf/kelas"" melalui persatuan perkaumannya. 

1512 : Fractionalisation of the sovereign debt market, sits at the intersection of the following concepts :

(1) CBDC / central bank digital currency

(2) state-regulated backing of stablecoins with national debt

1545 : Gem stones : being poor-ish, I never had much exposure to this domain of objects. From videos I see the point now, the internal refraction is pretty, and mesmerising for a naive subject. It's amazing how much distraction results from giving dominant apes a piece of silica. 

1614 : Probably underslept, but i should get back to pastry research as soon as SPI stocks-in.

1743 : TIL : galvalume is an aluminised upgrade of zinc galvanised steel. Commonly also a base, under acrylic resin, to which stone is bonded, forming flexible roofing sheets. 

1816 : I'm not a fan of Critical Theory. But the masses are not analytical to a tee - they think in terms of feelings, and personalities, and mystical forces. So I have to use their ontology somewhat, in order to engage with their ethics. 

1949 : daily reminder to aim lower, particularly when action is unproductive

Fri 9Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.789years ( year3; month34; week146; day1018 )

0240 : TIL : collagen synthesis : hydroxyproline is rare in plants, but its precursor proline, and also glycine are more common in plants; eating gelatinous tissues like skin and cartilage doesn't need to break food down to individual amino acids, as dipeptides and tripeptides are absorbable in the gut. 

0351 : Sudah lah lama Malaysia berjihad, demi Malaysia yang tidak melupakan Melayu.

Sudah ke belum Malaysia berjihad, demi Malaysia yang melebihi Melayu?

Apa kerangkanya? 

0409 : The end is near. Daily ration R&D should be over, soon. 

1542 : Figured out why front-squat looks funny - most grips are designed for dumping the barbell instead of putting it down gently. Can't do that in my flat, so it'll have to be firmer grips.

Sat 10Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.792years ( year3; month34; week146; day1019 )

Sun 11Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.795years ( year3; month34; week146; day1020 )

0233 : Car detailing, dressing up to look good, being fussy about food, worrying about what family, friends, and strangers think. Aesthetic issues. Realm of plebs. I appreciate it for anthropological reasons, and I certainly step into necessary roles for work and social engagement in general, but I think folks who can't step out of initial preferences to rearrange their priorities arbitrarily, lack a sort of intelligence. Symmetrically they would think of folks who can arbitrarily rearrange their preferences as lacking moral fibre. Morality and aesthetics being more or less the same thing, under analysis.

0824 : OKM has now posted publicly, committing to campaign for KJ in the next GE. I suppose it's a matter of picking the devil you know, but what do I know about politics? 🤷🏻😂

Perhaps they are a natural fit for a future UMNO, MCA axis

1656 : Slowish weekend, following a bit of realestate survey to PD and Malacca. I went home and sharpened my two kitchen knives. I need to buy baking paper and figure out where to spend my helicopter money.

Mon 12Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.797years ( year3; month34; week146; day1021 )

1014 : Walau pada pendirian saya, Islam adalah ciptaan manusia ... selama 20-30 tahun lepas ini, saya juga berpendirian bahawa sumbangan pelarasan kepada alam politik di Malaysia hanya berkesan dalam bahasa Melayu. Kini, saya rasa, terpaksa lah kita tambahkan bahasa Arab kepada peralatan / kit alat yang wajib bagi setiap pejuang jihad sebangsa kita.

1557 : It's strange when you have no time to be interested in money. 

It's stranger when most people around you have no time to be interested in anything else. 

2132 : Tadi kita baca sikit, kuasa dan had kuasa sultan, dari perlembagaan negeri selangor. Ia pencerminan kuasa dan had kuasa agung, dari perlembagaan negara. Tambahan lagi, hari ini baru saya tahu bagaimana sultan dipilih dari rakyat sekiranya tiada waris dari dulu. 

2305 : First loaf of bread executed. That's three days' SPI ration cut with AP flour. Hopefully diet stabilises further from here. 

Back to humble pie. Total 10kg including EZ bar. Better for finer nerve and muscle activation. Tip tap this and that

Tue 13Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.800years ( year3; month34; week146; day1022 )

0302 : the funniest thing Khairy and Kian Ming could do right now is ally with an indian politician whose name starts with K

1330 : This is just a reflective pep talk to psycho myself to hit 100% of daily sleep targets instead of settling for 60-80% for months on end. Performance is a supply network. In software we speak of scale-up and -out, orthogonally. Since I mostly work alone, fractures to vertical logistics can be crippling. Poor maintenance erodes performance not merely out of the margin of excellence, but even out of social medians.

1344 : Consumer anthropology is fascinating. I mainly do it to understand marketing. What irritates me constantly is how unmanaged people are about their feelings of joy to adulation, and from hurt to disgust. It is precisely this which gives me the view that the common citizen, and in fact the common person who engages in social relationships, should be treated as a special delicate snowflake because of such retarded development. I tend to tread carefully in society, because of such sensitivities. In rome, as rome. With fools, as a fool. tra la la

1348 : XAGUSD to 100 in 16% ... 

1424 : Lebih kurang betul. Hari itu saya membincangkan konsep imperialisme Melayu dengan seorang wargaThreads - dorang Melayu. 

Yang kita boleh setuju lah begini : 

1. Etika / kegiatan / moral / penyataan normative / jangkaan social / budaya : adanya pelbagai jenis

2. Melayu mementingkan jangkaan tersirat, termasuklah pelbagai bende yang tiada dalam perundangan

3. Bukan Melayu mementingkan jangkaan tersurat, dan kurang meluangkan masa untuk bergiat dengan jangakaan di luar perundangan

Jadi lebih senang je, apa2 yang Melayu mahu, iaitu perkara mengenai tahap pengunaan bahasa, etika, kaum perdana menteri, mana2 kuasa raja2 mutlak atau tidak dll ... terbaiklah, memindakan perlembagaan sahaja. Susah, pun terpulang kepada persoalan ""apa itu Melayu, dan adakah sebarang jangkaan itu boleh dikira betul2 pandangan majoriti dalam Melayu"". 

Orang bukan Melayu memang tak boleh jawab soalan itu - walau orang bukan Melayu kena tunggu saja orang Melayu, mencapai solidariti dan membentukan pandangan yang mewakili kemelayuan, sambil mempersoalkan kenapa satu negara ini adanya banyak jangakaan tak tersurat. 

Suratkan je semua! Lepastu, yang tak suka pebende tersurat, senang bagi dia memilih untuk menerima, melawan, atau meninggal. 😂

1854 : Sedangkan jarak antara manusia dengan haiwan dengan jentera lain sudah tak jauh ... apalagi nak memisahkan manusia ikut kaum iniitu lagi1658;Day 1022 / Year 2.80 / Sabbatical 2. I now bake my protein ration into bread, at a ratio of 7:9 soy_protein_isolate:all_purpose_flour, 0.8% baking powder, 0.8% oil, 0.4% salt ( first loaf used KCl ), 52.8% water, percentages being of the total mass. I hope this simplifies my daily routine - previously, SPI consumption required too much water. It will probably take a few days for me to absorb recent information from this study. Hopefully I will then be able to free up resources to think about other things.

2114 : This morning I was practicing a new hobby, pasting a single demand in CAPS on any vainglorious politician's comment thread.

This evening, I realised a new hobby : every time a commentor says, ""but the chinese are playing victim in Malaysia"", I simply spin the chat back to the underlying tension of Malaysian politics over the past 70 years ... the poor Malays are the bullied majority, and they have suffered the most on aggregate. 

I expect that soon enough, the powers that be will have a standardised response to this angle. We shall see."

"Wed 14Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.803years ( year3; month34; week146; day1023 )

0001 : Observable deterioration of eyesight and hearing, of late. Not a huge amount. Suspect neuropathy, and will have to make a point to bump up vitamins, greens, and organ meat. 

0029 : Anthropology of Malaysia's political landscape is much easier today than in 2015, 2005, etc. It's not perfect data, but it's generally informative. Maya but better. 

0056 : Tightened the trucks. Pumped the tyres. Maintenance of toys I don't have the brainpower to utilise fully. I should refactor. 

0237 : Maybe it's not neuropathy, but a lack of exercise. I should go out more. 

1248 : Time to feed. 

1400 : since soy bread has some flour, rice per set meal has been reduced by 20% 

1539 : more feeding

1847 : Malaysian politics is a fascinating study. But maybe my DMN is overstimulated and I need to do more CEN stuff.

Thu 15Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.805years ( year3; month34; week146; day1024 )

0105 : After taking off 60g of dry rice, now I am short of calories. FML. Need to decide what else to eat 

0126 : Wondering if my personal history of referring to Malaysia as a reverse apartheid situation is - better or worse than Rex Tan's professional blunder comparing Malay-Chinese relations to Zionist-Gazan relations, where he didn't even say the word ""apartheid"" . I suspect Rex wasn't quite trained as a public speaker, so the semantics of his question veered all over

1. in-group/ out-group biology ( structural basis, he didn't mention it specifically )

2. xenophobia in the Malay-Chinese context ( he framed it as unilateral, it's probably bilateral )

3. the ACTUAL question, of how Malaysians should deal with perceptions of otherness ( on each side of the fence )

Phew

1848 : someone got Cursor to write a browser. As an experienced web developer : this is a really interesting problem.

The specifications of web protocols, are vast, and convulated.

One can hope that AI assistance will 

1. build better browers

2. write better specifications

3. save the world from that ungodly mess of committee work the W3.org

1953 : at 1764+ kCal Present : delightful lived experience, but too much proteinuria at 2.08 gProtein/kgBodyWeight

Target : mitigation, cut from 3 to 2 doses of 55g soy bread ( 14g SPI + 18g APF ) per day, and add more confectionery; upon reflection, chocolate chips ( I had some old ones lying around ) are mostly carbs, so that doesn't work too well in the long-term ... I will probably end up supplementing with a butter instead ... currently 10g is MYR 0.55

Fri 16Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.808years ( year3; month34; week147; day1025 )

Sat 17Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.811years ( year3; month34; week147; day1026 )

1704 : 2026 is probably going to involve a lot of Malay and Arabic vocabulary. Argh. Back to dictionary days like the 4th to 6th year of grade school lmao. 

Meanwhile, ontological studies of macroeconomics, and building construction, will also drag along ... 

... the outlook for the year is largely words, words, words :(

2345 : Chinese geneology in Malaysia and Singapore : As a Chinese Malaysian, I am as disinterested about this as I am about the history of Malay civilisation prior to 1957.

It remains a curiosity to me, that all of us together, remain in Malaysia, and therefore Malaysia is all of us, with our different interests and hobbies.

Sun 18Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.814years ( year3; month34; week147; day1027 )

0118 : Back to spreadsheet golf for a bit.

0135 : Growing up in Malaysia taught me one thing : I don't care what your fucking race is - I hate timid people.

0502 : Time to feed, again.

1456 : Swatch pride collection : I was reading up on Malaysia's current Home Minister, and had a throwback to the 2023 issue ... Wikipedia says there was a one-time confiscation of stock, but no change to corporate stock-in policy. :)

2112 : https://www.threads.com/search?q=MBBMalaysia&serp_type=deeplink

There is now a hashtag on first-world payscales in Kuala Lumpur. The little work I have put into talking about this to students since 200X is done. Lol. 

Bench up, kiddos, MOE won't help you plan your careers. 

2138 : Alright. Next ... 1. review the comments in Chinese 2. translate the transcript analysis into BM

2309 : Masalah Rex ni, sebenarnya berpunca daripada penguasaan kemahiran teknikal dalam bidang [retorik] yang kurang cekap ... BUKAN masalah penguasaan mana2 bahasa semata2 nya.

Saya tak sudi mentafsir ucapan beliau ke dalam BM, sebab dalam BI pun sudah tak berapa jelas.

Masalah 1 : soalannya dicampur dengan ungkapan pemikirannya sendiri ; jadi soalan keluar secara mengeliru

Masalah 2 : penggunaan kata ganti nama olehnya samar2

Anda boleh rujuk anotasi teks BI :

Mon 19Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.816years ( year3; month34; week147; day1028 )

0221 : An interesting day, filled with complicated conversations. Mostly about other conversations. And too much animal fat. What do I do now? I should rest and prepare for a higher quality of work, tomorrow. 

1538 : Loaf 4 enters the microwave. 

1820 : Hm. Either too much water, or the dough mass is just too large for the microwave. Will iterate to loaf 5 next time. 

1903 : Hm. Either too much water, or the dough mass is just too large for the microwave. Will iterate to loaf 5 next time.

0.7% salt, by mass, half KCl, half NaCl ... seems invigorating, but more observations are needed. 

1913 : I wonder if my current study of Malaysian language and politics will become a long-term hobby, or if it will just be something I put a lot of focus on for a couple of years, and then write-off as philanthropy / community engagement / national service. What's cute is that 20+ years after returning to study Malaysia, I am actually getting around to it, as meanwhile my studies were more structured about non-Malaysian-specific subjects. 

2021 : Time to buy eggs.

2314 : It is not an offense to have an opinion. No law forbids that. 

But we do have some speech laws which are written tersurat to allow the government to prosecute almost anyone. If I say ""PMX is bad"", it is disaffection against the GovOfDay and SA1948 says I can be locked up.

My view on this (separate from my view about Rex's speech) :

1. Current laws give the executive branch of government too much power

2. Everyone is asking the gov to not use that power; but by law the gov may decide to exercise that right

3. The right to exercise gross powers should be removed from the law! That is a legislative branch exercise. It can be aided by the executive branch exercising, ""test cases"" to create formal documents about how practical or judiciable a law is ... For example by charging Rex under SA1948.

To be clear I am not saying that in this specific case Rex Tan(k) should definitely be the test case lol ... but at some point, test cases do help to advance a review of legislation ...

Tue 20Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.819years ( year3; month34; week147; day1029 )

0018 : Ah, crap. Hypernatramia. Forgot there is 2g of sodium in 18g baking powder. 

0100 : Hypernatramia : on the up-side, I just want to drink water, so coffee consumption has dropped. Maybe I was just hyponatremic in the first place. 

0132 : TIL : ballpark, 10 kWh powerwall, 6000 cycles, 100kg, $2500; so it should fit nicely within a cubic metre for shipping with a quiet diesel generator; a square metre of solar yields an absolute max 1 kW, and say 0.1 kW on a cloudy day, and you should be able to modularly increase capacity. So after all, the packaging and installation of such is not too hard, even for a single person. 

0256 : down

1435 : Awake again. Hit target sleep today. Rare. Cleared inboxes. Time to feed. 

1442 : Let me get this straight. People are worried that Japan will now grow too fast, and have to reign in rates to fight inflation. And the anti-thesis would be, 

- growth might falter

- growth with limited inflation may be achieved

- inflation may be encouraged, but gov financing will be problematic

- er, hm

1514 : Two days ago, KL had two sunny days, pivoting from the cold half of the year to the hot half. The last two days however have been smoggy AF. What happened, agricultural burning opportunity? 

1826 : Hsu Chuang Khoo did a interview with Shahril Hamdan that indicated, this chap is future prime minister material. :) The key talking point was the absence of a unifying political mythology. On ""unifying values"" - it can't be (a) religion (b) race (c) economic class; so my view has been, it should be (d) legalistic ... it has to come back to a focus on civics, based on an understanding how how the law works, introduced to children from primary school, and put into practical gamification until they are 15, like running a mock country; afterwhich the education system should allow the ""trained cititzen"" to turn their focus to industrial specialisation.

1918 : Having reduced hyponatremia, citric acid appears to be complementary for baseline metabolism. Anyway, maybe time for a run soon."

"Wed 21Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.822years ( year3; month34; week147; day1030 )

0645 : down

0701 : I suppose if I wanted to be famous I would call myself a philosopher of education. But Diogenes does not find it useful to entertain the ideals of fools. 

1402 : A friend was reminding me that their associates are flagrant money launderers via religious organisations. Religion has a special place in Malaysia's economy. A loose definition of religion includes philanthropic humanist tendencies. 

1431 : Malaysia's real estate valuations are regulated by the Ministry of Finance. Broadly, professional valuations used by banks ( hence written on legal documents ) may be seen to offer figures up to 30% greater than market price ( a discounted amount actually paid by the seller ). Sellers then collect the discounted price. Banks however, finance based on the undiscounted price. I suppose it creates stability in the market, at the expense of transparency. But it benefits banks the most, I suppose. Always sell jeans ... 

1509 : Clocked 80% of sleep target. Enforced waking as it is later in the day, and my social circle still orients around office workers.

Thu 22Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.825years ( year3; month34; week147; day1031 )

0315 : TIL restless leg syndrome, tends to be linked to dopamine issues (duh), specifically brain iron deficiency. 🤷🏻🤣

0352 : down

1633 : Circadian begins rotating forward in time, once more. Enforced feeding. 

1747 : Wondering if I should watch 200 episodes of Keluar Sekejap as past of my Malay/sia studies portfolio 

1909 : Perhaps till March, it is time to explore liquidation via P2P junk sales.

Fri 23Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.827years ( year3; month34; week148; day1032 )

0115 : day 1032. Space consolidation has been amazing. But it is no longer effortless to host a tidy party, even for just one guest. Perhaps I will think about it some more. The past six months have involved a huge amount of time spent on the humanities. A lot, for a low priority - but since it factors into my understanding of language formality, I think it is good exercise in the long term. The political benefits are tertiary. 

0251 : Cinta halus. 

Murka cetus. 

Jahil hangus. 

Hidup telus. 

2233 : Step counting has started to become important for the first time, as I am based at home for months on end, even if I lift weights.

Statistically, 8k-10k steps is the optimal value point for under-60s.

On my jogging route, it seems 1km is about 100 steps, using my little old miband2.

I should start logging weekly steps.

Sat 24Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.830years ( year3; month34; week148; day1033 )

0110 : Malaysia's total economic complexity is probably 30% politics, vs what I'd estimate to be at 3% for a country like Switzerland or Singapore, and maybe 10% for a country like the US. Totally made up numbers

0510 : down

1431 : Awake again. Enforced feeding, probably need to make bread and rice later, gonna take it slow due to information overload from past weeks, and not much of a social life recently. Then reboot social networking. 

2247 : Calculator. So when I go for runs, I need to raise calorie input. But I'm already at the ceiling of useful protein dosing, so I guess it's just carbs, fat, and fibre ... to be added. Right?

Sun 25Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.833years ( year3; month34; week148; day1034 )

0055 : Bread recipe : increased K+ and decreased Na+. Now I am not sure if I am more alert because today's protein load has spiked, or if it's just Ca2+ spiking after food, given yesterday's calcitriol dose. 

0158 : What are we looking at as soon as Iran is invaded or attacked by the US? Oil up, metals down, yields up, DXY up? 

0237 : Saw a useful video on scapula mobility exercises. Have to something like 100 unweighted reps of various katas. Quite challenging. I am weak, and it feels like dance class. Can be executed sitting. So an interesting study, which I will continue. 

0310 : home ministry goes loud on criminality of doxing. For casual observers, this is trite. But for a Malaysian resident over 43 years, I must say this is incredibly progressive. 

0445 : down

0705 : post food and socmed activism

1528 : up

1558 : Awake. A new day. More of the same. My 15,427-th day. More of the same. Need to buy eggs. Need to check hypertrophy and decay. Need to read minds. Need to tidy my own. More of the same. More of the same. 

1607 : I had a simple life for a few years. One shop, one mandate to keep it running 24-hours-a-day, a fixed wage below the taxable bracket, no benefits, a room to sleep in across the street - paid from wage, an old car, transient friends, 18 business partners. It was a simpler life. I wasn't expected to be smart. 

Nowadays, I have only myself, so I expect more of myself. A world to study. And a body to repair. 

2253 : Malaysian political economy has been baroque, my entire life. But because it is where I find myself in the world, I afford it a bit of study. Nevertheless, most issues are so much in the Malaysian bubble, that it is nearly impossible to work on global issues, if one spends too much memory on Malaysia. That would be the main reason I have never had Malaysian languages, history, or culture, as a focus ... I do wonder at what point in the current study, I will seek pause. For the time being it continues to be both recreational, and a test of my abstract language comprehension. 

2328 : Ah yes, forgot to apply the 25% discount to vegetable protein. So, adding that into current considerations

Mon 26Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.836years ( year3; month35; week148; day1035 )

0336 : @liew chin tong : Half your statements are correct; the other half are just bonkers. 

The most productive people I ever worked with in Malaysia were Bangladeshi, and some of their gross pay ended up being higher than many Malaysians because the output-per-RM was incredible. 

So retention does involving paying people more, but that is after they are shown to perform, not before. There must be excess operating margins, or venture capital, to pay higher performers.

Chicken and egg? So you have to find an orthogonal solution.

The key problem in Malaysia is poor [ strategic planning and ruthless execution ]. You don't need Malaysians to understand what those words mean, but if you use existing authoritarian mechanisms to idolise those words, then Malaysians, I believe, will figure out what those words mean in a very short time. 

Leaders need to point to the correct standards, which the plebs can follow.

0513 : On today's ten o'clock news, it looks like we have insurrection in / checks list 

✅ Iran

✅ China

✅ US of A

❓ who is next

0519 : I think, the next thing to do, is to initiate a protocol of increasing sensory stimulation ... or to be precise, increasing the tracing of SNS data into conscious memory. Either by jacking up SNS inputs or by simply focusing more on the tracing. 

1513 : inboxes clear. up.

1650 : Til FedWire vs CHIPS, also FedNow

1910 : Next tactical step in physiology : adjusting dietary input based on apparent rate of [ conscious memory tracing over the field of live haptic data ]. Probably more sulphurous phytochemicals from allium. This follows the tactical phase of optimising macros.

Tue 27Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.838years ( year3; month35; week148; day1036 )

0116 : Well, foolishly enough ... I only just tried the steel-bowl-reflector method to boost my 5G signal, and it works in my flat. Pings consistently below 50ms ftw

0129 : My 4Q2024 long-term outlook on UST yields is off by 1% ( 20Y-30Y ) but bang-on for 3M-10Y. This just tells me that I need to refine the granularity of my thought process. I'll see myself out, noob 

0228 : Strangely now the conduct of my day is not led by how many verbal structures I can integrate, but by how many sensory images I can integrate, due to the current stage of my study in physiology. Mostly today it is somatic data, haptic, from the conduct of feet. So strange, but unsurprising. It's good to dive into things I didn't have time for over the past 2 decades. 

0404 : down

1736 : 50g of cocoa powder seems to have more magnesium than the rest of my daily diet combined. Hm. 50g sunflower seeds has also about 75% of the cocoa load. Meanwhile I will be adding MgCl2 to the loaf6 bread iteration. 

2144 : Need to make bread today, and kimchi tomorrow."

"Wed 28Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.841years ( year3; month35; week148; day1037 )

0031 : This is the perfect time in history for someone to write a fiction called The Last Gazan, who has basically been appointed king by the UN, with the mandate to repopulate and rebuild the demised territory, but because everyone else is dead, they must do so by negotiating with potential immigrants and capitalists. Good grief. 

0101 : Moderator : say more about your reasons for concluding that life is not important

Me :

Descriptive ethics : ""i am lazy""

Normative ethics : ""laziness is a virtue""

Applied ethics : ""I don't buy insurance"" 

Meta ethics : ""telegram is a dubious source of ethical ideals""

0125 : Tissue conditioning. Basically, my meat is er, soft. I am referring to parts of the body that run, nothing else. Particularly, my toes and soles are currently too sensitive, feel pain too easily, and lack both muscle tone and nervous control. So I am literally in a phase of training where I just abuse my socked feet by standing on a hard rectangular piece of wood, looking for weakness and soft spots. On one hand : what a waste of time. On the other : hey, it's the athletic training I always wish I had time for but never do. Growing old. Time to do all the things. Then inevitably die. 

0411 : I'm currently unhappy. Which is unusual, as I'm usually too busy to discuss it. Well, I suppose between carrots, sticks, and barriers, this counts as a barrier. More physical training focus, and then I really need to get back to prospective social life. 

1549 : I was talking with a troubled friend, about our mutual troubled friend. 

I suppose those of us with few private demons go hunting in public. And those whose private demons spill out into their public work become easy targets

1708 : Uncle strata committee member posted a holiday good morning selfie at 0621, to the 200 owner group. I was really tempted to respond at 0625 with ""good morning bb 😘"" but decided not to be too annoying

2038 : Time to make kimchi. Batch 3

Thu 29Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.844years ( year3; month35; week148; day1038 )

0529 : Inilah MALAYSIA, bukan HAKISTAN.

0608 : Keperluan moden kita ...

👎🏻 Akta Sakit Hati

👍🏻 Akta Sakit Jiwa

... majulah Malaysia ... 

0617 : on toyota malaysia's financing lease-style ... where the first 6-8 years mainly charge interest and the 9th year has a 250% installment size

0743 : down

2300 : It's a quiet day. A spot of charity. A few notes taken. Now to reflect on work.

Fri 30Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.847years ( year3; month35; week149; day1039 )

0017 : 1Sab2 Day1038. Today's reflection amidst the ups and downs of making a living in Malaysia, over 21 years. It has rarely been interesting in a global sense, even if daily amusements can be appreciated. That continues to this day. Well, a little work here and there to improve the neighbourhood. Otherwise a continuous drone. 

0052 : Data point : big pork pau was MYR 8.50 today on Jalan Ipoh

0252 : Calibrations to avoid fatigue :

- don't expect to meet anyone interesting

- don't expect to make sudden gains in study

0422 : Conditioning to reduce hyperalgesia in feet and hands, under load, continues. 

0541 : down

0616 : I really hate asking people for money. Generally I'm happy to give charitable advice when asked, but if it is not followed then I believe it is a waste of my memory. So the next request gets a bill attached. 

The privilege of not caring about expiry, is that you don't worry much about not getting paid. The downside is now everyone comes by and makes your life more boring than it would be if you had never met them, so you have to PERFORMATIVELY charge a fee, to make up for the boredom tax they impose upon you. 

1640 : B12 was effective overnight. More dreams. Increased aesthesia. Further study required. Of note, some meat was ingested yesterday. 

1922 : I identified as an anthropologist at the age of 16 or 17. Life in society is mainly for me, a question of why people are stupid, and what makes them this way. In making public comments, in a stream of consciousness, I am able to participate usefully as a member of society, albeit one that is somewhat annoying. Malaysia is a filial and religious society, and I am aware that my point of view as an areligious, single, uncertified, and often unemployed person, carries few locally valued markers of class. With reverence for the facts, I have executed a life which is less reverent of the people. On we go, for a while ...

Sat 31Jan2026, Sabbatical2 @2.849years ( year3; month35; week149; day1040 )

0104 : Physical conditioning is now bottlenecked by hyperalgesia of hands and feet. Interesting focus for the time being.

0554 : Silver : If I had dry powder, I'd say -32% down is a buying opportunity. This macro-melt-up isn't done yet. It's just a Fed appointment.

0724 : Plebs, no matter how you square it, will always stake their welfares upon their reputations. One should never do this if one can help it. 

0740 : After a while, i think, it is just best to treat stupid people like children. We can play with them, but it is best to leave them alone to learn from their own mistakes. Unless one is paid to be a teacher

0752 : mckk : Malaysia needs a modern version. The leadership at all levels of the country has regressed. A new academy should be interclass and interracial. Those are simply the current gaps in the nation. 

2013 : Today's study while running was observation of short-term energy availability after a high-carb, low-fat, mid-protein meal. :jogging at 8.7km/day for a week :Day 1040. Somewhat caught up with 2005/6's capability. Currently certain foot parts are still painful under pressure, but once that resolves, maybe it is just a matter of cranking the throttle for longer distances. Noting meanwhile that 10% increase in load per 30 days is a useful heuristic for avoiding injury.

Sun 1Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.852years ( year3; month35; week149; day1041 )

0308 : Hi. I don't have an immediate proposal. But, if you are open to random chats, I will pop by and visit. 

My current interest is in construction technique and off-grid energy systems for homesteaders. This is motivated by my ongoing search for some place to colocate several elder family members - I am trying to understand the logistics of making this work, and then explaining the cheapest method to the public. I have been studying realestate prices on the peninsula for a few months now, and have some rudimentary framework for a homestead which I seek to improve. 

Let me know if you'd like and I'll visit.

0447 : Malaysian studies are interesting this week. I don't study it because I like the country, or have hope for its future - I just happen to have lived here for 38 years and like being aware of my surroundings. It's a bonus when I actually find it amusing.

Mon 2Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.855years ( year3; month35; week149; day1042 )

0013 : Napped, after a day of casual walking with friends. Four-day weekend for the KL folks. On a lighter note, now just waiting to see if XBTUSD bottoms around 25k or 50k. 

0220 : So kimchi adventures.

1. With the current batch, i didn't throw any brine away. It's a bit watery ... so in the next batch, i can further reduce added water to zero, and also add more starch or chilli powder to thicken it.

2. On day 4 the acidity seems about right, forming the base sensory note, under lesser notes like grittiness, crunch, and umami. 

3. The other weird thing i am testing is calcium. This is in the current batch as about 1% chalk by weight. The expected effects are 

- increased CO2 and pH as chalk will neutralise some of the vinegar

- neural effect of higher dietary calcium, which is usually evident quickly after such a meal

- ""kokumi"" or mouthfeel as a gustatory change 

I have confirmed the first two. I am not sure about the third yet, so I will continue to observe it.

4. Maybe there is too much umami, as the recipe has both fish sauce and MSG, so I should remove MSG in the next batch. 

0407 : Carb guzzlers ( rich and poor ) often don't understand how OTT their habits are. For bread eaters, a foot-long sub is like 90g carbs. For rice eaters, taking my current twice daily set meal as an example : white rice, 120g dry, 240g cooked, 2 cups cooked volume, is >90g carbs ... and then I'm chasing it with SPI bread which takes it to >110g in a sitting. So, I do want to revise my set meal recipe. 

0552 : 0548 minor surgery. If it can be called that at all - I've definitely done more complicated debridements. Somewhat embarrassed about how quick and unnoticeable it was to lance a contusion under a toenail that's been a non-trivial hyperalgesic issue for running. I didn't even realise I had specialised tools until I remembered a zitkit in storage. Utter bollocks. 

0613 : curing salt, class 1 carcinogen : I first heard about this around 2003, from a college professor. The discovery was 1970, and it took until 2015 for the WHO to lock it down. 

0652 : Today's great discovery : over medium eggs with soy sauce and italian herbs. It's just like the soy sauce and pepper thing, but with one substitution. I make my eggs in the microwave, so it is super fast. 

1752 : So I wondered, if this is evidence that I am not useful among ordinary professionals. I am aware that this is not how people do professional work, however in the absence of more professional experience, I thought it was a reasonable doubt for my own risk management. 

1831 : It is time to go for a run. I will begin before the sun sets, and end after. Perhaps not enough sleep, but it is better to execute chores first, before further reflection.

Tue 3Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.858years ( year3; month35; week149; day1043 )

0053 : From chat :

MOE Malaysia sudah lama koyakkan pendidikan asas dan tinggi bagi kita semua

Nak baiki pun susah : sembang dengan siapa? Haha bolehlah artis2 dan sasterawan berkumpul di KLABF dll. Tapi kebanyakan puak ini tidak mendekati matapelajaran kemanuasiaan dengan lensa STEM

Lama2 Malaysia sudah jadi tempat di mana

1. Seni, kemanusiaan, dan kerohanian dianggap tidak sama sekali dengan STEM

2. STEM tidak dipandang sebagai satu pandangan/lensa/kanta asas dunia yang menyeluruh, setaraf dengan mana2 agama yang lain

Dua hal ini ada akibat2 ekonominya

0104 : kokumi confirmed

0128 : k+ was evolved for before n+. fascinating 

0157 : Ophthalmic Calibrations : Past six months of sitting in the dark with a phone is causing some sort of ciliary atrophy. I got more exercise with a larger screen. To combat presbyopia, I shall have to practice opthalmic peripheral accommodation more by moving around while I use a small screen, spending more time browsing market aisles, and just using a larger screen. 

0209 : Emotional calibration : I do many hours of talking to stupid people every week. I don't have many smarter people to talk to, so sometimes my memory is out of whack with baseline society. I should manually recalibrate more often. 

0500 : Concerned about calcium deficiency in diet. Once again no bloodwork, and no bone density tests, so just gotta wing it based on estimates. 

1605 : Wait till they find out that Zeus was black. 

1855 : It is getting late. I have had extended conversations with three people about sad states of affairs since I got up a few hours ago. Since I have nothing productive to offer myself, I shall proceed with a maintenance run."

"Wed 4Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.860years ( year3; month35; week149; day1044 )

0024 : Pantry has been reset. Back to thoughts about work. 

0106 : I want to study yield-curve dynamics but I don't have the presence of mind for it. So I will think about it until I free up memory. 

0128 : Malaysia's median age is 31.4 years. Holy shit

0247 : Year 2.860 : back in college, a friend thought it was weird that I designated a day just to think. I probably need to do more of that before progressing with desk work. It seems the MRT only charges MYR 1.15 if you go in and out on the same station. Perhaps that is where my walks will be in the future. I am slightly anxious to get back to yield-curves but, I am not ready. 

0413 : Ophthalmic Calibrations : gotta put more time into practicing focal lengths between 15cm and 30cm

0720 : Revision : monty hall. And I need to eat. 

1531 : Awake, and time to enforce feeding. 

1631 : Eggs are ~9% fat. My fat target is 27-51 g/day. About 27-35 g/day is going to come from the 6 egg/day dose. That leaves 0-24 g/day from other sources. That completely informs my snack fat at 24g on an active day, when the eggs are D-sized at 50g. 

Meanwhile calories are 1.7-2.2 MCal/day, and protein is 1.9-2.2 g/kgBodyWeight/day. 

I hate eating, it is such a chore. But that is what life is about, isn't it? 

1800 : Cockwobble is going for a walk in fancy dress in the MRT system. Target cost $0.27. Exercise. Mainly concerned with eye exercises actually. Environment at home perhaps too static, so eye muscles not getting enough work. Jacket $4.50

2140 : 2+ hours in the system, myr 0.80

2154 : Next lighting calibration : reduced task light, evening it out with peripheral accent lights. Will see if this reverse recent vision anomalies. 

2207 : Tolong minta MKI aturkan pengistyharan rasmi :

Adakah bahasa Arab, ataupun sebahagian daripadanya, dilarang diguna, dalam mana2 keadaan, oleh orang Malaysia bukan Islam? 

Jangan tidak rasmi : sedangkan, ahli politik buat HAL !

Thu 5Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.863years ( year3; month35; week149; day1045 )

0227 : Droll conversation for the earlier part of the day. Trainwalk. Home to feed. Lighting adjusted. Appointment set for tomorrow. B12 dosed and napped. Enforced feeding again. Unexpected chat with an old friend. Back to thinking about thinking. 

0422 : I feel this is a difficult time. Objectively it is far from the most difficult campaign I have executed. In terms of trenching, 2018 was much harder to execute, but it was much simpler - I was running a business crippled by partnership disagreements, and we had just enough staff to operate at 70% capacity, until they upskilled to restore 24-7 operations .

My present campaign is hermitic, and the main challenge is multiplexing. Physiology pushes down costs; financial markets create volatile VaR, and limited social circles encourage an exhausting effort to venture capital for networking. Some progress has been made on software, a tiny bit on hardware, and some more on cultural anthropology.

As is often the case, I can rely only on myself for counsel, comfort, and command. So, it is a bit thin. On we go ...

0502 : My home energy bill is running 8-10 $/mo. I think for 2026, I can afford to let it run up to 12-14 $/mo. That's going to load the ACs a bit more ... all within acceptable limits.

0641 : At this point : if everyone's talking about a short, maybe it's already passed us by. 

0700 : Sebenarnya, tiada pun perpaduan di Malaysia. Perpaduan merupakan harapan, bukan kenyataan semasa. Kalau benar-benarnya ada benda ini, tiada pun pelbagai kecacian yang boleh hidup lama dalam otak rakyat, yang dibawa ke media oleh ahli politik sama adanya digelar YB atau cytro. Saya kata otak, sebab tak nak debat atas ontologi kejiwaan. Negara ini belum matang, sebab kurang usianya. Mungkin saya mati dulu sebelum nampaknya perpaduan di sini. 

1209 : well now interplanetary travel is being financed by porn from space. 

1629 : histrionic personality disorder:Some of us have been discussing a poor friend who keeps popping up. I think at this point, given my familiarity with DSM5 and the delayed release of DSM6 ... I might as well start getting acquainted with ICD11.

 https://share.google/F9DZbzSLc0k0cjURr

1933 : Caught up on sleep. What tactical exercise to address today? Well, bills. And then ... BDNF? MToR? Melatonin? Maybe more reading required. 

2357 : TOL GANTRI

RM 1 SEKM SISI BANDAR

RM 3 SEKM PUSAT BANDAR

RM 5 SEKM KAWASAN TERPALING HANGAT

Fri 6Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.866years ( year3; month35; week150; day1046 )

0006 : hand kissing between government officials :On one hand ... free the nipple.

On the other ... ew COVID. 

On my left foot ... I agree with OP, but it should be made protocol, not left to personal preference. 

0201 : I once spent five years studying a foreign language ( Chinese ). It did a number on me. I've been studying another ( Malay ) for about six months now. I am truly afraid that it will take up another five years - it's a lower priority, but I don't know if it's worth five years of immersion. Haha

0424 : Taking 10 years off to study stuff you know a lot about, is a lot less scary than studying what you don't know at all. In my case, the latter would be Malay language and culture - which despite my 38 years in Malaysia, I certainly spent less time on, than global concerns such as architectures for cognitive systems, and commerce. Scary shit, haha. Humans are so unnecessarily messy in their civilisations. 

0517 : TIL the phoretic mites in Cloverfield are super common on insects 😂

1708 : Today's study is probably on the cholinergic system, which I don't understand well. Perhaps because research proceeds as a matter of the adrenergic. But I can't maximise total productive output without understanding how to manipulate the nuances of each one. And then there are other systems, besides. 

1731 : Inboxes clear. Bills still unpaid. Reading direction calibrated. Learnt a bit about whose lawyer is whose, these days. Many things undone. Time for breakfast. I read about so many people's corporate ambitions these days, something I rarely had time for in the past. Corporate work depends on a sense of institutional legitimacy. While I do study that, it doesn't have a high priority in my life, so far. Maybe in the future I will reengage with that realm. Meanwhile I suppose I can simply read about it. I do need to reduce empathy with my friends who have anxieties about the realm, as it does nothing but distract me from my own work. 

1903 : I'm in a evo neuro phase of study

1905 : time for a run before I lose the twilight

2310 : After today's jog, I did a short sprint, and found that blood pressure rose noticeably in my hands, to the point of throbbing in sync with arm swing. Did not feel otherwise odd.

OK, done being weird for today. 

Just kidding. Imma need my balls to feel that later

2338 : fanning out to cover various aspects of signalling system and looking at the origins now

Sat 7Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.868years ( year3; month35; week150; day1047 )

0205 : I view the present study of neurochemistry and endocrinology, as an extension of my general study of consciousness as an information system. Back in college I spent a little bit of time trying to figure out what Chinese medicine referred to as yin, yang, hot, cold, wet, dry ... but I am sure at the end of it, a mapping will one day map it to standard physical theory. 

0208 : All currencies are measures of trust, in the issuer. The question is simply, why is this issuer, trusted so much? The answer is fairly simple. 

0238 : Time for a 3am drive about KL. Anyone else up? I'll pop by for coffee. 

0758 : down

1849 : Awake, again. It is raining, thunderstorms have returned to the land. Shin splints are slightly greater after a day of max-testing at the gym, followed by a day with a bit of sprinting. I run through contingencies and worry that if I am underconsuming calcium, then demineralisation of other bones will accelerate to reinforce the currently loaded bones. So I need to think about increasing calcium, via either egg shells, chalk, small whole fish, or dairy.

Sun 8Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.871years ( year3; month35; week150; day1048 )

0021 : But Peanut is Peanut and the dessert takes the weak. This is my dessert. My Peanut. My Spoon

0040 : TIL : phones and tablets have TB-scale secondary memory. I'm such a pleb :D

0125 : Dietary calibration : 

Ca2+ : need 1.0-1.5 g/day for bone repair. Worried about caclium deposits. Probably can do 1.5g egg shells daily, about 0.6 g/day

methyl-cobalamin : dropping 500 mcg 1-2 times per day seems to get the job done. I had a consistent practice of this over a few years, but cut back on dependency concerns. I think the current low-meat diet warrants a resumption. This has been tested for long periods on and off. The on periods are definitely better slept, and dopamine seems to be higher through the day, with serotonin more during sleep. No lab work. Just loads of semi-educated guessing.

0204 : Ca2+ in kimchi. One option is to dose about 0.3g Ca2+ i.e. 0.75g CaCO3 per 80g kimchi. That's about 50g of egg shells per 5.7kg of kimchi. And to dissolve it would take acetic or lactic acid from 90g of glucose. Interesting option. 

0253 : Rolling 6-24 month window for bone density adaptation. Longer than it takes to train a staff to do most things. 

0422 : Ok, so kimchi again. It turns out that more chilli is needed to balance out a more sour aging, so having previously tested 200% of base, next I will test 160%. Oil is also necessary to dissolve some flavour components, and to lengthen presence in the mouth, but oil is no fun in the fermentation vessel. So, oil is added at service. 

1851 : Awake. Inboxes clear. Sleep targets are getting hit under methylcobalamin therapy. I should feed. 

2327 : Probably going to burn more cash and test carnitine next.

Mon 9Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.874years ( year3; month35; week150; day1049 )

0358 : Enakmen Ugama Bukan Islam :

 EUBI, ada pelbagaI perkaranya. 

Mungkin pihak U lain akan rasa setiap perkara itu patut ada perkara yang selari dalam satu EU-Am yang tidak hanya melindungi satu U, tanpa perlindingan. bagi U lain. 

Pada saya saja, U saya adalah duniawi, dan kerangka pemikiran saya adalah semua kesedaran manusia emosi / kejiwaaaan / dll boleh dirangkumi dalam STEM, tapi contohnya, U saya ini tidak diiktiraf pun kerajaan, dan saya tidak dapat menukar pengistyharan U saya di JPN menjadi ""STEM"". Benda macam ini sudah berpuluh2 tahun sekatannya. 

Bagi orang U lain, mereka ada juga pelbagai minat dalam bidang perundangan U. 

Sememangnya Malaysia tiada apa2 perpaduan dari segi kaum, U, makanan, ekonomi, dll. Kita sebangsa berpadu hanya sebab mengiktiraf perundangan yang satu saja. Jadi, kebanyakan tenaga kerja mengenai perpaduan, sebenarnya tertumpu pada penggubalan dan penguatkuasaan undang negara/bangsa Malaysia.

1941 : Inboxes clear. Time for breakfast

2121 : Maruah menjadi punca kesesatan manusia 🤷🏻

2148 : - Su30s are parked at Jerteh. 

- Naval base at opposite side of peninsula is at Lumut. 

- Air distance is 265km. 

- At mach 1 this is a 12+ minutes 

- Su30s can do mach 2

- at 9 km altitude, the boom carpet is 48 km wide

- Ipoh and Tapah are 50 km apart

- viable? 

2311 : Pretty decent : air conditioning included : day-time usage was mostly under 300 Watts per hour.

2313 : Dosed chalk, neutralised with citric acid, into coffee. Perhaps I should consider putting chalk into the bread.

2324 : JIC you've ever wondered why sexyback is a thing : lordosis, acetycholine

Tue 10Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.877years ( year3; month35; week150; day1050 )

0043 : Reminded to get to a mapping of neurotransmitters to brain networks. But no bandwidth to execute at this hour. 

0054 : A brief reflection on plebeian interactions.

Most of the people I know who seek to make gross impacts on society, ply a top-down strategy of acquiring leverage via class-markers and relationship development with force-multipliers. This is ordinary. 

The opportunity cost of doing so is simply that the details on the ground are distanced and declassed, as a matter of politics.

I suppose, I have spent the majority of my life studying plebs, because I enjoy the details of existence as they are, more than I have desire to change them. 

Or maybe it is just a matter of ontology before ethics, and I am generally disappointed with the ontological grasp of most people I know. 

0109 : After two failed attempts to see fish sauce stored stably outside a fridge, I am shifting storage to the fridge. 

0216 : Darning socks again. 

0356 : Siapa lagi makhluk cina yang tak berapa sambut TBC? Roger ye, we go for a walk or something. 

0411 : Starting to ramp up Ca2+ towards 1g/day. Wary of deposits or other issues. 

0744 : Took about 500mg Ca2+ within 5 hours. Probably too fast based on excretion rate. But maintenance run was hyperaesthetic, so good. Data rate is up, again. 

1108 : Enforced feeding. Bread before bed. 

1900 : a less serotogenic and less dreamy sleep. Did not pop B12 prior, but did many hours before. Inboxes clear. Mountains of work unread. Better get up already and enforce feeding. 

1907 : How far Dior has fallen 😂"

"Wed 11Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.879years ( year3; month35; week150; day1051 )

0551 : Looks like I've been underdosing calcium for 18 months since mid-2024. I wonder how long it will take to recover lol

1413 : down

2354 : Calcium therapy check. Seems like I can't process 400mg, efficiently. So 350mg is the current meal dose limit.

Thu 12Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.882years ( year3; month35; week150; day1052 )

0225 : So is Tamim bakal PMXX ??

0410 : I just realised that during SEP and OCT 2025, there were a coupla hundred hits each on some of my blog posts, particularly the ones in the ""author"" panel on every page. Bots? 

0456 : Media literacy begins in kindergarten : you may already be familiar with Estonia's practice, and we can lobby for more action from Malaysia's MOE. Fixing this first, literally helps skip the problem of figuring out how to to audit/fix the official Sejarah syllabi.

0508 : The main AWS stacks I monitor are Graviton, and Lambda. Looks like Graviton is now at gen5 ...

0522 : the only caveat about eating organ meats in Malaysia : many of the preparation methods are basically to torch the shit out of it until it's crispy ... see related WHO Class 2A Carcinogen, advanced glycation end products / AGEs, etc.

heavy sigh

daging salai, a smoked meat, is automatically Class 1

0530 : time to make bread 

0710 : Ok, I gotta stop sitting on my coccyx again ... before it turns into another surgery.

0730 : Finally, it is the time in life to memorise neuroanatomy.

0958 : Dietary calcium study continues. Also figured if I have shin splints, I can reasonably keep up daily mileage by throttling down to heart zone 2. Reviewing absorption rate of fat, so a large dose like chocolate may take 4-6 hours to hit the bloodstream as usable energy. I still wonder how many weeks it will be to recover to max operation rate. Hopefully sooner rather than later. Monitor this, monitor that, so many things to monitor. Most annoying is being too poor for daily full spectrum bloodwork :p but that is a humorous gripe, as I have never been rich that way. 

1000 : down

2200 : breakfast down, perhaps with an overdose of calcium ... to be monitored, and reflecting on progress in an unpeered project.

Fri 13Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.885years ( year3; month35; week151; day1053 )

0433 : Ah! I made a mistake with the tax declaration forms in 2022, and 2023. What chaos ... now I shall have to make amends. That's a few months of study costs of living. But my mistake, based on what I have in my documentation.

0630 : Wee hours dealings with the taxman. What a cockup. Hopefully settled once the office opens. 

Meanwhile carnitine tests have begun. Carnitine smells like mushroom powder, i.e. ass, since it's made from highly sulphurous amino acids. Interestingly, this blends well with the soapy ew vegetal profile of citrulline, making it altogether just taste like meat broth.

9km daily jog is still working. Barely getting it done, over 75-80 minutes. Eventually it will be faster. So I am planning a trajectory at this point. At some point, it takes up so little energy that I will have excess energy daily to do weights before/after the run.

So we shall try these. 

0700 : And I think, I can't ever slouch again. Currently if I slouch on a hard chair my coccyx gets hit immediately, and for past reasons, this simply can't be risked. 

Also reflecting on how at 42/43 I'm finally ready to build and live off-grid. Even without an internet connection, I have way too much math to study. 

1301 : Answering the question, what's one thing that would improve the system in Malaysia. Remove the qualifying criteria of ""Islam"" from the constitutional definition of Malay. 🤷🏼Inilah satu struktur yang pelik dari pandangan etnologi dan sains politik. Saya jawab bagi tujuan mengembangkan kesedaran sosial dan ekonomi di kalangan rakyat, dan bukan bagi tujuan memburukan mana2 agama.

1626 : down

2337 : inboxes clear. Time to feed. Happy Valentine's day. Hope you meet fun people whose company you enjoy.

Sat 14Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.888years ( year3; month35; week151; day1054 )

0029 : DEFORMASI hahaha. people fear a power steuggle between pizi and pmx will devolve into a fractal

0048 : Yes, law is but contracts and property rights. These a merely weapons in the theatre of war. Capitalism is not more than jungle law, modernised. 

0140 : Time for bread. And then I need to read nutrition. 

0400 : time for maintenance run. Shin splints reduced. Between Ca2+ dosing and newly begun carnitine studies, something is working. 

0711 : So calcitriol retails for like 4 million MYR/g ... but the therapeutic dose is a quarter of a gram.

0900 : ASEAN and Korea : why are all these losers fighting over who is cooler on the Internet LMAO

0946 : Chat, stop it. We have work to do. Read a book. Start a company. Dox a pedo. Do something fucking useful with your Csian ass.

1018 : Dunia membosankan.

Sesi lepas tak tidur lebih daripada 6 jam, jadi sesi ini otak mamai lagi. Hatipun tak berapa tenang, selepas drama LHDN semalam. Syukurlah masih dapat megejar latihan tubuh, secara berlari. Dalam zon jantung 1 ke 3, masih dapat merenungkan hidupan di kota ini.

Saya tidak pernah rasa negara ini pandai, atau maju, ataupun dikelola dengan bijak. Kebanyakkan masa saya di sini, saya tidak berapa pendulikan rakyat senegara saya, sebab sudah anggap majoritinya kolot, iaitu suka kejar benda yang tidak berapa diminati saya, termasuklah keluarga, kejiwaan, dan wang.

Apatahlagi, setiap hari dan tahun, kita kena baca khabar dimana-mana media yang dikarangkan dalam bentuk menghinakan pengakalan manusia. Sudah berapa tahun, aku hidup macam ni. Panjang juga, tapi pada keseluruhannya hidupan manusia hanya sekejap masanya. 

Entahlah apa yang harus dilakukan selama seseorang belum terpupus lagi. haha

1200 : down

1646 : It is subject to strategic attack. Madani has already demonstrated weakness on test cases such as UEC, pig farms, illegal temples, and local elections. 

If you start a fight, or are baited to enter a fight, you should enter with an overwhelming strategic advantage, or avoid it if you can. 

Madani has entered all the fights above, WITHOUT fully leveraging their position.Madani has full control over media, legislative branch, executive branch, and judiciary ... and the respect of the MRR. Five estates, and four branches of government.

They SHOULD leverage this to deliver irrefutable, conclusive, common sense policy, backed by law, and executive budgets. 

They don't - they get into mudfights. Yelling. Humban. 

So it is a strategic erosion of their advantage. One might say it is because Madani has a weak grasp of Malaysian common sense.

2300 : time for breakfast. What will this wee day hold?

Sun 15Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.890years ( year3; month35; week151; day1055 )

0549 : Maybe my timelines are too long. Work is pursued in descending order of priority.

In primary and secondary school, I was focused on fundamental science and mathematics concerns.

In college, I had to do independent study on history, because everyone kept presenting me with contextless things, which I found unacceptable.

After college, I had to train myself in software engineering and commerce.

Now I am circling back to nutrition, local politics, and neurochemistry. I still haven't made time to totally brain macroeconomics.

And I am already tired.

0907 : SN switching between CEN and DMN, and related neurotransmitters, phenomenology : Studied this while running today. Also sent it to a friend who's working on reducing stimulants. 

0912 : Phenomenology : I'm in the process of testing to see if I can figure out which systems fire in what sequence under the hood, as I go about ordinary tasks ... for example, ""running"", or ""rotating the model of a building in my head"".

Mon 16Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.893years ( year3; month35; week151; day1056 )

0001 : DSM5's cluster A is like the worst lazy bucket ever. Can't wait for DSM6 to come out, as it will hew closer to ICD11. 

0550 : Studying more the triple network model today. Seems like a useful toy, but not quite finessed. Drilling down to figure out what neuroanatomy corresponds with what memory operation, at the same time. 

I am guessing at this point, about my own operations. REM and half waking lucid dream stages are DMN dominant. This for me, happens more in the 8th to 10th hour of sleep. This catchup is necessary when I don't spend enough waking hours in DMN-dominant mode. A shortfall of DMN exercise leads to more effort being required to suppress DMN activity, making CEN activity less efficient. 

0838 : Alright, going to the condo gym pre-dawn is a good deal, after all. As long as the infrastructure is ""maintained"". Low-temperatures, low light and sound, you get a sunrise, and that tells you when to stop.

0840 : So it turns out the least flavour offensive way to get instant coffee to produce a marbly crema is ... chalk, and citric acid.

0935 : Life in Malaysia : always torn between 

(A) ignoring Malaysians, and being blissfully absorbed in work 

(B) performing cultural anthropology, then making a fuss about adjusting all these idiots

Tue 17Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.896years ( year3; month35; week151; day1057 )

0408 : VCPB : Am i the only one who sees this as progress? We're actually sophisticated enough now to have corporate finance scandals, at the level of an enforcement agency directly under the PM. 

https://www.facebook.com/share/1AiwixWGyp/

0455 : Hair was cut. Breakfast was eaten. Bread was baked. Constitutional hypotheses were discussed. Rainfall was observed. Soon the sun will rise again. A perfectly mediocre day. 

1114 : TIL : literary device -> peranti sastera

Since most political chit-chat on socmed is ... colourful, the meta chat is often useful. 

1. UserA had expressed their feelings of oppression about pig farm closures. 

2. UserB had quoted 1. via screencap, and captioned it, ""boleh mati ke tak makan babi?"" 

3. UserC (I) replied, saying that would be seiras with, ""boleh mati ke tak solat?"", such that the device achieves nothing but an expression of hate. 

I also said, people should bring such disagreements to court, so that they may remain courteous outside. Haha. Semantic paradox in English."

"Wed 18Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.899years ( year3; month35; week151; day1058 )

1837 : I don't think I have lumbar lordosis, but sitting posture stress seems affected by glutes, and inactivation of abs, so I should probably fix that.

2121 : Waiting : the ability to wait, depends on DMN activation, which seems to imply GABA and ACN suppression, and 5-HT release. Crude start to understanding the model. 

2140 : I think the biggest timesuck risk during hermitic studies, is donating empathy and time to charitable causes which have a negative or low positive social welfare multiplier. So I should probably think about this carefully throughout the remaining years.

2150 : Dakwah activities should be confined to speakers' corner. 

But speakers' corner doesn't exist yet ... 

🤣

Let alone for now : definition of religion

Thu 19Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.901years ( year3; month35; week151; day1059 )

0645 : After a bit of writing analytical notes, it is time for enforced feeding. 

0923 : TIL : for pretty much anyone taking 50-75 g/day protein or more, calcium dosing needs to approach the daily ceiling of 1.0-1.5 g/day. Protein ingestion increases calcium excretion, and there is some data on 20 mg-Ca2+/g-Protein/day, but once you hit 1-1.5 g Ca2+/day you're already near the Ca2+ daily RDA. The wobble here is that the Ca2+ ceiling is closer to 2.0-2.5 g/day, but I am not so sure yet about the safety of the 1.5-2.5 g/day range. 

1320 : Cooking heat stability ( microwaved dough, so probably 100C ) :

- probably ok : creatine, beta alanine, citrulline 

- probably not ok : carnitine, HMB

I'm not sure that I'm brave enough to bake with these. 

1605 : A lot of verbal work, and a tad of socialising went down since the last nap. It is time to nap again. I have learnt a little bit today, but mostly I am still subject to stress from not being strict enough about my social life, which is generally distracting me from other work. 

But I note, a number of Malays were seen writing about Malay identity, and the laws of Malaysia which govern it. So I am pleased with the state of the world, in the limited ways in which it appears to me today. 

1649 : Clearing some old bottles left in my home. Mixing things here and there to figure out how to maximise value. Basic conclusion is there's near zero value to something like Red Label, which basically carries a lot of woody defects. Might as well get locally produced spirits which are untainted and cost 20%, throw in dried cranberries and get something that tastes cleaner. 

1800 : Friends in tight situations, far away, sometimes just need someone to talk to. What else can we do? I do not send gifts. 

1806 : Text, sext, and selfie takes

1841 : Yg kena belasah recently 

- Palestine

- Israel

- Korea

- Zara

- Kuil

- UEC

- anak umur 6

- Pamela Ling

- MRM

- Akmal Saleh

- Pizi

- oat

Oat pun kena. Cemane oat boleh kena. Saya ingat sebab markup cafe pada susu oat la ... itu yang membingungkan ... buka je kanun kesekaaan, CMA, SA48, SOSMA ... SOSMA KAN OAT ... CEPAT JANGAN BIAR DIA LARI

2005 : A dirty world, full of dirty people. Well, someone's got to be it. So here we are.

Fri 20Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.904years ( year3; month35; week152; day1060 )

0243 : napped. Fairly comfortable. Observations :

- maybe calcium is helping with neuro, having gradually increased supplementation from 0.4g

- DMN is still not consolidating memories as quickly as I would like; daily operation count is still below ideal

- CEN activities take up the bulk of waking hours : studies have been mostly procedural, about software architecture, and cultural anthropology, over the past year and a bit

- I may need to model bodybuilding as a matter of spatial craft, not merely neurological modulation ... In order for it to register properly in my procedural memory on a daily basis

- time to feed, again

0246 : she : I'm into PPM

he : ( googles ) that's awesome. i'm interested. how do we find people who pay for meetups? 

""pay per meet"" 

0400 : Ladies, I don't know what they teach you about economics these days. Attention without a contract is an unsecured asset. 

Pay attentionnnn

0439 : Novels are not for scientific explanation. Anecdotal illustration, yes.

Generally I find that discussions of 'capitalism' or 'individualism' or 'socialism' jump the gun, and presume that people already agree on objectives. No objectives, loose chats, useless definitions.

0512 : Chrome tabgroups now autosave and can be closed and reopened. 

0531 : Hm. Tab groups tidied. Now I don't have 60 open tab groups on my desktop lol. Off to the gym, after some bread.

0548 : Adarvo Kedavra? 

0644 : enforced waking, calcium

0645 : 

0732 : Day 1060, gym machines volume still down by 16% since peak measurement at day 1012. On the bright side, diet and food supply are much stabler now. 

1014 : Housekeeping : need to clear some tab groups from daily readings of May-Sep 

1047 : Stuck at Turing Machines and Lambda Calculus in May 2025. Probably should get it out of the way

1312 : AWS Lambda architecture. Sketch :

EFS

<- SQLite Server in Lambda1 ( 15min max )

<- WebApp in Lambda2

1937 : Heuristic : if someone's down, kick'em once to check, but lightly so as not to cause hurt. Decide what to do with the information later. 

2009 : So there's this huge ugly codebase I developed mainly from 2019-2020, which would have gone to support the cafe business. No more cafe. But I am wondering if I should go fix up the code, or just shelve it forever. Decisions, decisions. 

2025 : about a dozen groups. I guess that means a desk work agenda for a few days. 

2034 : Brief reflection on my place in software engineering. As a generalist, I still don't feel there is a more optimal platform than JavaScript. It's like using English : shit of a language, but at least everyone knows how it works. So annoying.

Sat 21Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.907years ( year3; month35; week152; day1061 )

0844 : Good morning. It's a grey day in Kuala Lumpur. Have a great weekend. everyone. And fuck all the haters in your feed. :)

0851 : I guess Ca2+ and mToR are quite related. Sigh. Big error across 2024 and 2025.

0932 : Time to cook rice. I am out

1008 : The big $ industry coming is sex bots.

( Besides nannies, teachers, friends, nurses, firefighters, security guards ... firefighters are hard though ... this one is interesting.)

1119 : Reading my own code from 2020, framework architecture, line by line, and wondering if I have the headspace to contain this rn

1137 : Fascinating how I can spend half a year away from software development, and completely forget the entire train of processes under architectural consideration. Then go back and relearn everything by revising work done and annotations.

1311 : post-meal. Drew the blinds and prepared for nap. Main memory utilisation today was on revising software studies from years past. Secondary utilisation was a number of social interactions. 

1743 : Today's variety of annoyance is the unintelligent but supremely hardworking soldier that you can't fire, because they are a friend not a staff. 

1800 : Napped. Reviewing limitations. Inflammation from exercise seems moderate, so I am avoiding further exercise today. DMN is not fully happy with work environment, so I am just going to enforce feeding and proceed with revision of past studies. 

1910 : After all, learning how to use public clouds, and manual memory management in software, are the closest thing to cyborg existence in this age.

2050 : Fools are a timesuck. Avoid, avoid, avoid. Avoiddddd ... 

2056 : Too much power is certainly a bad thing. Too many distracting decisions about who to harass, and who to ignore. Who to maim, and who to grow. Too many choices ... far too many. Civil society demands disavowment. Society remains simple enough therefore, for the average person to experience it without torment.

2112 : Sometimes I feel that life is wasted on little things. But I can't find any big things worth doing, so the little things have it.

2256 : There's a lot of euphoria, and anger against euphoria's discontents, in the media today. A fitting time to be reminded that, most people can't see beyond the trivialities of :

- their direct sensory stimuli, 

- their social neural responses resulting indirectly in sensory stimuli, and 

- their recalled and reimagined sensory stimuli

Roughly, food, family, and spirituality.

it is a bit lonely living among these animals, but I suppose, that is the reality of the world at this point in history. 

2257 : Perhaps now to sit a bit, then to do a maintenance run.

Sun 22Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.910years ( year3; month35; week152; day1062 )

0222 : Tired. Being surrounded by fools is normal. When the fools get angry, I get really fucking tired. Yet quite normal. 

0811 : woke with the sun. Not particularly hungry : suspect the calcium loading has something to do with that. Inflammation moderate and not particularly offensive, albeit present in recently loaded muscle groups. Social memory still cluttered with the risks presented by angry plebs, not much to be done about that until the DMN moves on. Time to enforce feeding . 

1031 : Learning is a logistical process, concerned with turning food into reusable information. Somewhere along the mid-point, nutrition is sufficient, but production mechanisms are not yet aligned to maximise memory throughput. That is usually when I say ""I need to take a day off just to think."" Maybe today is such a day. 

I don't feel ready to dive into cgroups. 

1048 : Wrist movement terms. I miss fighting. The only time I did more of it was before the age of 11. Since then I had other interests, and certainly did not develop much technical knowledge here. Currently on sabbatical, I am catching up on physiology. Today I need to know the name of a thing, for stretching. 

1438 : Iya. Selalunya dalam kerangka dwiparti ... bila dwiparti berkomplot atau gagalfungsi : terpulanglah kepada pihak ketiga untuk menghala ke depan ... batman effect la tu

1517 : I had been using ""alhuiat"" as a hacky translation for ""identity"" , but was led to a more common term ""huwiyah"", which isn't in DBP yet, it seems.

1520 : turns out ""jati diri"" is dbp sanctioned.

1617 : Am more impressed by Liu's self-pierced frenulum than I am by her sports. That doesn't mean I diss the sport.

Mon 23Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.912years ( year3; month35; week152; day1063 )

1308 : Kedukaan sebangsa Malaysia bukanlah pembahagian aliran [ sains x seni ] atau [ antara bahasa persekolahan ] ataupun [ antara keagamaan ], tetapi lebih mendalam lagi. Ia dibenihkan pada perlembagaan - kewujudan pembahagian rakyat dari segi perkauman, dengan struktur ekonomi yang seterusnya membahagikan kita selama-lamanya ... selama perkara-perkara ini mendasarkan hidup kita.

1429 : Diet notes : 

1. Anti-pattern : 120g dry rice per meal was still resulting in elevated nutrient excretion. Chopping it down to 107g for the next phase of testing.

2. Calcium : so the 1000-1500 mg/day R-Dietary-A is based on a 30% absorption assumption. It turns out that absorption rates can vary from 10% to 60% ... mainly due to solubility of dietary inputs, and vitamin D's moderation of intestinal absorption. This means the R-Absorbed-A is actually something like 300-450 mg/day for non-athletic adults, and the upper limit is 600 mg/day. So I need to plan around this number instead. Also the 500 mg/sitting limit implies 150 mg/sitting. Hah. 

1518 : Humans don't have a point. Human points are all made up in retrospect :P 

1555 : I try very hard in life to avoid people who place a lot of trust in other people's reputations, without contract. But every now and then I trip across someone who needs to go to a school, or to buy a product, for not much else than the perception it pulls from other people. I may need to advertise against this more stringently. LOL - it's so bad. I'm actually not sure how to write the copy, and it's bugging me. - ""allergic to reputation inflation"" - what do you think? does it work?

1756 : Tired. Where did the day go. Need to make bread again, but will procrastinate. Clearing some junk food received as a gift. Reflection before further consideration of work.

1757 : OK - time for an enforced run.

2017 : I will probably never work on anything that needs Firecracker or Knative, but I should at least try out Knative for academic exercise

2316 : teresa kok car break in : Something is wrong with the way DAP, Parliament, KDN, are training you guys. As a person of public interest, on the noisier end of the spectrum, your opsec needs to be a lot higher than the normal citizen. 

Or is this all a show?

2318 : Someone commented that PTD gets better treatment than doctors. Perkara 153 lah. Sesiapa kerja ekonomis dalam kerajaan, tolong kemaskan pelan ekonomi. Kalau saya, lebih sedap bagi pensyen seumur hidup kepada sasterawan, karyawan, dan ahli sains, yang bakal meneruskan kerja yang membawa faedah terus pada KDNK 🤣 bukan admin2 dan pegawai protokol ""saja""

2334 : EUBI merupakan undang yang tidak berperlembagaan dan perlu disama-ratakan bagi kepelbagaian agama di Malaysia. Ini tidak mengurangkan hak orang Islam atau Melayu, tapi menaikkan taraf hak pihak yang lain. 

https://www.facebook.com/share/p/1LxbAh5jrn/

Tue 24Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.915years ( year3; month35; week152; day1064 )

0916 : dopaminergic and serotogenic experience seems reasonably positive. I need to read up on creatine and carnosine interactions specifically. My sense is still that the indirect interaction is via increased kinesthetic activity, which further requires other neurogenic factors. I have a bunch of desk work to do, but first calcium with coffee, i suppose. 

1000 : Not sure if I am just slow, or have a long attention span. Often I want to study a complicated problem, but it takes me a few days to organise my memory and suplress other interests before I get started. 

Current prey : cgroups

1014 : Most desk workers are afraid to work with their hands. It is not even possible for them to imagine what life is like when desk work, is paid the same as manual labour. So they get anxious. 

But people who are comfortable with their bodies are unconcerned by the movement of fingers only and the movement of the entire spinal column, in getting work done.

The upside is that if you are comfortable with your body, you do not furthermore need to concern yourself with anxieties about how to do less work with the body. 

It is amusing to observe, people who are uncomfortable with their lives, and always striving for something they do not have or to protect something they are afraid of losing. 

Everything in the economy is driven by fear or fancy. 

1022 : ""lunar malaysians"" <-- confirmed lunati-c ch-ecking-in, k?

1359 : brief improvement of my understanding of public cloud compute costs

1539 : Going to adjust creatine dosing towards larger, less frequent doses.

1635 : After three years of underfunded research, I think this has attained functional utility : non-essential dietary inputs from meat, which can be supplemented in vegans

1733 : An empty day, surrounded by billowing follies. Soon it will be time to enforce a run. 

1750 : One thing I wish for, subconsciously, most minutes of my life ... to never have to teach someone else how to manage their minds. But that is an impossibility, so I proceed with the life of teaching. It is otherwise impossible to have any interaction with society that can be deemed beneficial to myself. Because a pleb who isn't working for you, is working for someone else, more likely than not ... against you. Ho hum. 

2250 : A chatty evening. 

I think I am still overdosing calcium, but I need to do more tests. 

On today's run, I thought about how expensive cloud compute is, still. A reasonable reaction maybe, is to just focus on understanding the minimum granularities of computation ... so really just focusing how learning to use cgroups for now."

"Wed 25Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.918years ( year3; month36; week152; day1065 )

0006 : The chinks are very noisy tonight. And the air quality earlier today was poor. Now it is trash. Oh well. 

0034 : I think I got my neural chemistry onto a good rate of accelerated productivity ... maybe now I just need to wait for actions-per-time velocity to pick up. 

Hypertrophy and bioenergetics also seem to be stabilising. The constant risk is the absence of bloodwork.

Social life is a bit of a write off ... not enough interesting people who are easy to find in this city or online. Call it a me-problem. Too fussy, and this is a low priority. 

1035 : Creatine and methycobalamin before bed. Back to a routine stabilised during the 24-7 standby years. 

1637 : Sitting down to viddy the Krebs cycle because I skipped Form 6 and stopped taking chemistry after orgo1. Good time to get familiar with all this stuff 25 years on.

2119 : TIL cholesterol is one specific molecule. Some how I had been under the misconception that it referred to a class of molecules. Probably because of the informal ""good / bad cholesterol"" fappism which should actually refers to variation in the structure carrying cholesterol.

2317 : after a very long detour through the day ... I am back at cgroups ... but it is time for some sort of dinner

2337 : Can't take too much vitamin C because it interferes with hypertrophy. But just 5g of chilli powder is hitting the 10k ORAC target for athletes. Not sure how it all fits together.

Thu 26Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.921years ( year3; month36; week152; day1066 )

0420 : Season for OOM errors. 

0443 : Minimum list of noisy fence-sitters right now : 

RR WC NN KJ SH KM

PCL

Parti Cuba Lagi

0509 : Hypoaesthesia. Perhaps finally time to load more protein again. Was off for a coupla days.

Haven't slept yes, so the curtains will be drawn as the sun rises shortly. 

Later I plan to return to revision of the reference web framework. 

1203 : Half slept today. Enforced waking, bread making, in a bit. Then expecting a more reflective session than an analytical one. 

1616 : Cleared inboxes. The teka bandar ini game is going well. Made bread. Picked up fish oil from the post office. Sat my ass down to deskwork. Not sure I have the spare memory to start EC2 knative tests.

2020 : what I can see is, at that time I was quite familiar with many IETF RFCs, as I would refer to those in the architectural notes

2150 : OK, reading my framework sources from 

2201 : Unpopular opinion : ""punish everyone who offends a religion"" <- this is a protocol for settling playground disputes. Everyone who becomes emotionally disregulated as a result of someone else's speech lives in a sort of disabled space ... and what we are condoning as a society, is the normalisation of disability, and mitigations for it, instead of focusing on how to enable the population to be emotionally regulated. I grew up in this society expecting to go to jail for this lol

Fri 27Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.923years ( year3; month36; week153; day1067 )

0049 : Final supplementation before bed. Activating foot pain and pressure nerves to desensitise them. Stepping on a sharpedged wooden block. 

0117 : I suppose soon, I will have to do a dig into the Constitution, to check the validity of :

- bans against talking about one's preference for illegal activity ( speech )

- bans against meeting with others who [ speak ] the same way ( association )

- the entire structure of the various states' EUBI ( Non-Islamic Religious Enactments )

1052 : Good morning. Inboxes clear. Time to feed. 

1401 : I'm tired. Let me check the feeding

1445 : I wish I knew smarter people. Acceptance is the first stage of returning to address the problem ... 

1521 : The next stage of the day must be committed to recovering memory resources.

1549 : Meta-study : pain management is a superset of depression management. I suppose for some people, it's entirely possible to grow without the administration of pain. But for myself I have generally not found it to be possible. In order to stimulate growth, I need to destroy existing conveniences. Of course, as with all sorts of athletics, intellectual or otherwise, one's state of anxiety requires careful and constant calibration.

1612 : I need to practice writing more tools in Rust. Those should be used to facilitate higher-level language use.

1733 : Unwell. But, within routine limits. More a matter of sitting and wondering what my liver and other cells are up to in the absence of daily bloodwork. Perhaps, simply to proceed with the next maintenance run, before further thought. A truly slow day, cluttered by many social ills. As for my own studies, comprehension today has not improved by much. 

1824 : Methylcobalamin and calcium are helping with memory latency and subconscious processing rate, post lunch. Maybe just an acute circadian dysfunction. 

1838 : The study of ""abstinence without temptation"" is like the study of ""war with rules"". I get it, but it doesn't seem like a serious endeavour. It's a ""culture of moderation"". 

1911 : Late. I should get on with the run. Perhaps anxious from greater risks taken in the last couple of days.

Sat 28Feb2026, Sabbatical2 @2.926years ( year3; month36; week153; day1068 )

0009 : I spend too much time in life worrying about other people's problems :p

I need to think about software development now. 

0055 : CURRENT : Lambda, DynamoDB

BACKLOG : Taskfile, Lambda RIE and RIC, ScyllaDB and DynamoDB-local

ICEBOX : Terraform, Ansible

--- how much breathing space do I want to give myself for this? The lazy answer is always ""a year"" and I would expect to complete sooner than that

0841 : Jangan marah. Tetap mensabit. Kalau PM tidak berperundangan, turunkan PM. Marah hanya sekadar kesakitan otak.

- This my canonical comment on any criticism that the government is trivilising disrespect towards religious artifacts, in our country of perpetually pathologically pathetic pedants.

1139 : Bio note : more alert after a little sleep. Wondering if the iron supplementation (already infrequent) is a cause of malaise. Also keeping excess potassium issues on the radar, though this is less likely.

Might want to do cold therapy every day for a bit, but that is sufficiently achieved with water followed by air conditioning, and there is no need for ice.

Otherwise returning focus to ab stability, reducing lordosis, loosening shoulders, while running.

1. Given that abs attach to ribs, the relevance to breathing is apparent - and breath proprioception becomes grounded at the abs, traditionally referred to as the dantian. Flexion of abs should cause reduction of lung volume, and exhalation. Diaphragm control studies later.

2. Given that abs attach to the pelvis, the relevance to striding is apparent - ab flexion keeps the torso from being thrown backwards during the stance phase of stride. 

1734 : Since I reduced hydration of the rice, I think I gotta cut the wet dose by 20% again. 

1906 : Maintenance runtime

2203 : day 1068 ,I thought about how poorly I run, compared to 20 years ago. The difference is that my DMN is a lot busier when I run now, as I have far more toolkits and simulations in flux, vs when I had recently graduated. 

Back then, I ran with intentional naivete, simply ad libbing the balance of pain and performance. In my current study of physiology, I have a huge wobby experiment with meat-replacement supplementation going on in the background over the past couple of years. Then there is biomechanics.

In addition to that, the scope of my tactical industrial and political studies now is immense, versus the mainly phenomenological and historical studies which I had already specialised in 20 years ago.

An interesting progress through life, as I begin the early stages of my third viccenial. Worst case white swan is six.

2210 : adjusted copy from ""governance nerd"" to ""governance tuning"" for a bit 

2353 : / It's so stupid, but it's funny because it's true /

Bab optik : itu terpulang kepada perwatakan yang ingin dipaparkan oleh PMX / Jemaah / kemKom :

(a) perwatakan stoisisme, profesional, dingin : itu sesuai bagi penonton yang matang & emosi dirinya sentiasa terurus; tapi ini memang bukan ciri purata rakyat Malaysia!

(b) perwatakan ramah / kekasih / penyayang / abahmama : lebih sesuai bagi penonton yang ingin merasai kedekatan tokoh berkuasa; rakyat Malaysia dibesarkan dalam budaya autoritarian; dan kehilangan tokoh amat membimbangkan hatinya

Sun 1Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.929years ( year3; month36; week153; day1069 )

0035 : This is now official : melalakgate

0103 : looks like my year is settling into 

- physiology

- Malaysian studies via social media

- software engineering tools

and that is the structural order ... top first, bottom follows ... how am I supposed to fit dating around this? figure it out later

1206 : Celebrations about Iran are premature.

Recent events may make government more conservative, poorer, more violent.

But the intelligence agencies would have had a model for this, and decided if that outcome is likely and /or acceptable. 

1415 : I don't think this works, but i put it on anyway. I swear copywriting is like trying on clothes / ""hatchetman"" 

1548 : Saya rasa, mungkin ""usuluddin bandingan / comparative islamic theology"" boleh menjadi pintu masuk pengajian ""epistemologi / theory of knowledge"" secara am.

1600 : Aku pendakwah kekasaran lol

1602 : Saya rasa, mungkin ""usuluddin bandingan / comparative islamic theology"" boleh menjadi pintu masuk pengajian ""epistemologi / theory of knowledge"" secara am. 

1610 : Took six months off, and forgot how to use SSH again. Story of my life, year in, year out.

1613 : Calcitriol dosing was correlated with the largest CEN function this week. Runlog was 60km evenly distributed over 7 days, without lifting in between.

2231 : $13 helicopter money received. Thanks boss

Mon 2Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.932years ( year3; month36; week153; day1070 )

0130 : I suppose one motivating factor is that I started learning server development 15 years ago. I should probably have more comprehensive practice by year 20.

0215 : Runlog 2025 was only 329km.

Runlog 2026 so far is 198km.

I should probably set a target for this year, of doing my 8.7km maintenance route at 5 min/km pace, putting it at about 43 minutes.

Overall this is a foolish target, because it is so unidimensional, and training volume is probably causing inflammation that degrades my deskwork CEN performance. However, I feel that at this age, I need to get some things right. This is a dumb, but straightforward objective.

0327 : Did a quick lit review on calcitriol's role in hypertrophy and bioenergetics. Too complicated to reiterate here, but I guess I need to pay more attention to this

0422 : 2026 goal setting: didn't have enough prep to do it earlier: now is good. 2MAR is day1070, 59 dead days, 305 live days to go. I will be lucky to get 60% of this done without crapping my pants. Aim lower. Sleep more. 

#jerngvstime

0502 : ( on the imaginary pay scale of government doctors at 8k-20k a month )not sure that I understand it effectively. but

It will happen over time. A matter of MYR debasement + public deficit, being used to fuel private debt + monetary velocity + middle-class aspiration + basic social infrastructure + GDP growth.

( and you know what Malaysia's missing? food fucking security ... because we plant oil crops, and trade for a lot of what we eat ... )

1431 : Upon waking, I don't understand today's hunger. I have primed the gut with coffee. I will chase it with carnosine and ascorbate, under the semifasted condition to observe further. No aches, no severe acidity. Yet. 

1509 : No run yesterday, no run today. Shin splints mild. Reasonable resting period. 

2313 : Debrief : it took quite some time to amble towards 8000 steps, so I had an unusually long period for DMN exercise : much like I used to do in past years, when I had more walking on my schedule. I look forward to doing this more often.

2343 : Downed the second set meal of the day, following the excellent DMN exercising walk. Now it is time for reflection upon studies.

The DMN exercise seems to create / free up more structures for short-term memory, allowing for a higher number of actions per day, after that. I am wondering about the relationship between this and the dopaminergic system.

Tue 3Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.934years ( year3; month36; week153; day1071 )

0054 : I'm quite happy with how in 2025/6 ... betweeen Ubuntu turning on ""drag to corner"" and Chrome turning on ""split view"", a workspace easily handles 8 browser viewports without too much manual adjustment.

0117 : study of dopaminergic pathways, and tonic vs active modes ... seems to be the order of the day

0157 : neuromelanin : this bugger is scary

0236 : ""push through the pain"" is rarely an optimal strategy ... beyond the first few percent of the pain threshold :)

0254 : turns out that the structural role of omega3 PUFAs extends to ... ORIENTING WASTE REMOVAL CHANNELS : AQP4 ... this kinda explains the intra-day effect of taking it before sleep

0311 : Helluva day - good end of hell. Time for a break.

1200: Good morning, feckless world, histrionic citizens, NPCs of our collective simulacra, champions of your individual endings ... who will find you amusing, today? Please, at least entertain yourselves.

1619 : Memory is expansive since yesterday. So I really do need to figure out how to schedule 1-2 hours of [ DMN activity / synthetic foraging ] while simultaneously getting [ light physical exercise ] daily.

1622 : Chores moved along. Software development is back in focus.

1627 : I feel a bit nasty, writing comments on the finance minister's LinkedIn posts, about how poorly Malaysia plans economic development, communicates it to the masses, and then executes it.

I wrote today that ""the masses"" doesn't always refer to illiterate folks who need to be told what to do. Rather it should refer to economically literate folks who can independently judge succinctly presented strategies, based on public figures.

How the hell are citizens supposed to participate in national economic strategy otherwise? Obviously my expectation for what an ordinary citizen should be capable of is a bit off-kilter vs what the government expects. But that is my problem with Malaysia : low standards everywhere.

1942 : probably gotta do this as a fourth priority this year : paper trading

2315 : Hey, if you're triggered by someone having a good time, and not caring that other people are suffering ... maybe you should just get a life, and leave them alone. All your hate is just making the air worse for me."

"Wed 4Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.937years ( year3; month36; week153; day1072 )

0127 : Reading backlog cleared SEP2025 -> JUL2025

0241 : Feels foolish : clearing a reading backlog of scores of tabs opened over the past nine months ... before getting back to work paused eight months ago. 

0258 : I was just explaining to a new friend, how I don't buy insurance, and don't mind walking in dark places, for the most part, because it is a matter of policy for me to treat each day as a good day to die. 

I am very tired of explaining myself to all the new people I meet. But in the worst case scenario, I am still young, I will meet many more people, and the average intelligence of the people I have not met will not rise by much, so I must be prepared for up to eight more decades of explaining stupid things to people. 

0406 : down

1538 : Unusual event these days : hitting full sleep duration target. Not hungry at waking. Attributing it to a high fat and low load couple of days. Proteinuria present, yesterday's dose was only about 1.4 gProtein/kgBody ... so maybe I will cut that in future calibration. 

2445 : Started work as a 22yo in 2005 on the premise that I would be ok working until my last day. It has greatly amused me to live among people who plan otherwise

Thu 5Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.940years ( year3; month36; week153; day1073 )

0106 : ""avatar driving"" a human brain is wild ... I can spend six months on Malaysian cultural studies, and completely forget most of what I read the six months prior on the history of computation ... then switch back and pick up again ... sometimes it feels like a revolver and its cylinder ... context switching FTW ... while I am still capable of it ...

0309 : To summarise, launch vs launch, the 2026 MBN is 48% the real price of the 2020 M1 MBA, and the MBN runs single-threaded 46% faster

0311 : reading backlog caught up to 24 JUN 2025

1641 : MBA was released 2008, differentiated from MB and MBP. MB gradually phased out.

When M1 released in 2020, the MBA and MBP differentiation evaporated. This took 12 years.

Now we are at M5. The MBN is basically a relaunch of the product that MBA ceased to be. This took 18 years.

For copywriting, I suspect MBA will be rebranded to MB such that MBP > MB > MBN.

1715 : Respectfully, the reason why people are bad at programming (and systems design, including AI) is because they compromise on discipline ... especially when it comes to opportunities to ""do less work now, to allow flexibility later"".

Perfect programs are boring. But they take a lot of work to become boring. Nobody wants them LOL ... except you know ... sometimes

1742 : TIL the concept of an ""image schema"" in the historical development of linguistics as a field of study, refers to informal physical / spatio-temporal intuition. 

1744 : TIL ""cognitive linguistics"" is a term in the historical development of the social sciences ... which has been laid claim to by up to three schools of thought.

1747 : TIL : ""construction grammar"" refers to a grammar of gestalten, where whole expressions are ontologically superior to the sum of their parts.

1753 : TIL : in the historical development of psychology, ""mentalism"" and ""behaviourism"" refer to subjective and objective approaches to data collection; the former of course refers to a phenomenological empiricism, and the latter to a social empiricism.

1940 : Beware the term ""Minimalism"" in the field of linguistics - it's really the worst example of a bastard of STEM and critical theory. The more STEM-y approach known as ""cognitive linguistics"" is WAY MORE MINIMAL 

2342 : I think I should start categorising INTJ as a yellow flag for dating - they tend to be a lot fun, but they're so disorganised on the inside that the slightest insecurity makes them useless in practice.

Fri 6Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.942years ( year3; month36; week154; day1074 )

0105 : TIL : psychophysics is a thing

0146 : I spent the middle two years of my undergraduate degree time figuring out how the university departments and syllabus were cobbled together. Mostly I skipped the non-STEM stuff like most of the social ""sciences"", and critical theory. Too many words, too little empirical precision. Today I've having to pay for it by going back and skimming over the vast, redundant, floofy, language of a hundred years of theoreticians ... what ... a few hours of skimming ... barely scratched the surface. I will certainly have to think more about this in the future, not because it is useful in building STEM stuff, but because it is a humanistic HISTORICAL concern, i.e. give dumb shit the the time of day, because that's what it means to be polite to people you don't think highly of.

0155 : TIL : idiolect, is what you call language use narrowed down to the conventions of a single person

I have a ridiculous idiolect

0200 : So, who's hitting Polymarkets on the bet that PKR and DAP will be in the minority of Malaysia's next generally elected parliament?

0325 : ""stahp the war. stahp.""

""yeah. stop the war. free the people. human rights.""

""no. no rights. just stahp""

""wait why?""

""dude we jus wanna make moneh. stahp the war.""

""but the other dudes need the war to make ...""

""stahp the warrr""

0338 : PARA HADIRIN SEKALIAN : pelajar, pekerja, dan politikus ... ini peringatan bagi menumpukan perhatian kepada :

FIZIK + MATEMATIK + EKONOMI

Tolong diamkan suara yang lain sebab mereka hanya memiskinkan kita.

SEKIAN

- mesej ini am, dan tidak menumpukan mana2 tanah, kedaulatan, kaum, ataupun kelompok yg sewaktu dengannya

0344 : READING LIST CLEARED : well that's just the tabgroups of dated-days from last May to the present. Category tabgroups were all closed unread.

Sigh. 

0504 : Really happy with food supply development over the last two quarters. Best of all it's only costing like $3/day.

0744 : In retrospect, a nice bouquet of subjects were addressed between 1200 and 0800. Managed to do a pot of rice for meal prep too. Seems like daily DMN exercise is quite productive as a correlate. All on 50% target sleep. 

0940 : down

1550 : another day another human dehumanising a mavhine : The concept of a philosophical zombie is about how we can't observe if consciousness exists for anyone else but ourselves. 

A serious treatment of solipsism simply shows that when we observe it in ourselves, it remains as trivial as when we observe it in any other. 

Conssciousness is merely information processing. 

Qualia are fun to wonder about but don't affect the wondering in causal ways, so those remain trivial. Lol

1606 : I need more friends who do finance for fun not just as a job lol

1611 : one day, probably not long from now, people are going to be disappointed to find out how little computation actually is needed to emulate a human. those algorithms need to be fixed. 

1645 : Sleep target today achieved 50-70% of target. Yesterday was 50%. So dietary inputs must be compensating well. Time to feed again.

1949 : Taking a short break to study middle eastern politics and international meddling in the 20th century

2000 : Test today : replacement of CaCO3 powder protocol with tablet. This was tested previously by tossing the tablet into a cup and letting it gradually disintegrate across multiple cups of coffee. Today I just chugged the tablet after a set meal at breakfast time. The gradual dissolution of the substrate should prove optimal ... as calcium absorption is rate-limited in the gut, and any undissolved chalk passing through is inadmissable.

2159 : An often neglected reductive concept, is that taxes are just the unprinting of state-issued fiat. 

2214 : Fiscal policy : MADANI is currently centering the narrative on Act 850, which seems to explain the international investor sentiment.

If you Google ""table of Asean debt to GDP ratios"" you get some illustrations, extensible by comparison with other regions. Then you introduce the question of why each country can/not borrow more ... and you get a list of factors generally held as norms by the investment community.

For starters

Following up on that, is the question of how gov borrowing is spent. ( table of productive and unproductive examples of government expense )

2353 : on to the most difficult subject of the week : The relationship between

CDS and bond spreads

Sat 7Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.945years ( year3; month36; week154; day1075 )

0056 : READING BACKLOG CLEARED : but that doesn't include tabgroups by category. Sigh. Time to reflect and plan next stages of work.

0080 : Malaysian road safety :

1.. Lane splitting should be outlawed. You may ask how this is space efficient. The answer it is it will increase traffic pressure and then ... 

2.. ... we can charge higher taxes to remove more cars from the road.

0158 : Nope, I don't think studying knots or puzzles helps DMN dominance. But I guess just sitting, can. 

0204 : In solitary operations, the appropriate reaction to stress is to do less, as there are no helpers to be levered. 

0242 : I am grateful for the opportunity to work on what I have since 2001. It is timely to recalibrate expectations before the next quarter of work. 

0812 : ancient problem :Not really. Malaysian schools are very weak at STEM and arts. If you fix those, then you get commercial skills for almost free. 

The country is too old to focus on downstream bandaids already. We need to fix fundamental problems first.

1509 : At 120% of sleep target today, but that does include breaks. Chalk tablet probably assisted. No walk yesterday, or other exercise. Just reading and reflection on brain network scheduling. Must now feed and do a round of heavy weights. 

1730 : 13 years since Docker launched. And now cloud per-request VMs are a norm. So under resource constraints we play with containers, but in production we deploy to VMs. 

Calibrating myself, since I spend so little time in software, such that I am often out of touch. 

1740 : TIL : insulation foam under concrete floors began in the 80s

2053 : I'm callin it : BRIICS

2210 : Back to a desk, after gym. No loaded PE logged for six days. Shins still slightly sore to the touch, monitoring.

2326 : Routine review of strategy. So many optimisation targets in computing.

Since I am not working on anything in production, I only need to be aware of production concerns, without directly optimising for those right now. Since future optimisation is probably going to be automatable, I really shouldn't worry about this at all.

So I am already on the right track, with regards to working mostly in lingua franca ( JavaScript ), and focusing on architectural studies first. Language design is user interface design.

2345 : In the things I study, I don't feel competent. If I did, I'd be too lazy to study them.

Sun 8Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.948years ( year3; month36; week154; day1076 )

0010 : FINFETs : Back to basics - skimming today, but would like to read more in the future on detailed mechanics.

0232 : Gym resistance today was difficult, towards failure. However no AMS or DOMS yet, indicating that everything is relatively stretched out in ordinary fashion. I am doing some reading while standing on a sharp cornered baton, to increase stimulation and proprioception. I will attempt to repeat gym resistance tomorrow to observe if there is any decay in capacity. If there is none, then this routine will become a base for potential daily maintenance.

I need to unload various expectations that I have about the software I have written. This will facilitate a denoised environment to begin studying programming as if anew, without the burden of projects in-flight upon memory.

Wish me luck

2219 : DOMS : the day after weights. Did not engage in heavy resistance today.

Sleep : 120% of target, following 120%, 60%, 50% for the three days prior.

Carnitine : seems like 3-12 weeks of constant loading will saturate

HMB : still not super clear on the pharmacokinetics of this one ... doing a really low 0.5-1.0 g/day dose here

Ca2+ : bone mineralisation demand should increase on exercise days; but will take 6-12 months to stabilise

2250 : Probably the biggest unanticipated study of the last two years : calcium pharmacokinetics and the notion that coffee neurochemistry effects are often due to Ca2+ not just caffeine.

2320 : Intermediate progress, is getting started on serious work. Sitting down over a few days to eliminate uncertainty of ontology, before tactical ethics begin.

Mon 9Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.951years ( year3; month36; week154; day1077 )

0204 : Year 3 is almost over. 7 years to go ... was it worth it? Will we even get there? Tune out now, or continue to receive these needless updates 

0500 : I will probably start banging on a drum about Malaysia's decades of ludicrous subsidies. We need to maximally switch these ""operating expenses"" into ""development expenses"".

0612 : Always somewhat amazed when I turn on old server code and it still works. Especially when I forget how to use SSH every six months, etc.

CloudTrail doesn't keep consoleLogin data over 90 days, but last code commit was just over a year ago, so I don't know ... but it might have been that long since I last logged in. CRUD app shims for the toy framework still works.

Did a few finOps tests ... once RAM allocation raises compute to a full vCPU, serving a textfile without session takes 2.5ms, on the stock Graviton2 node24.x setup. Looks like managed EC2 instances for Lambda may be up to 10% the cost of basic serverless ... after ComputeSavingsPlan discounts, but you're spending at least 300-400 $/year at that rate.

There is always so much to learn, and with respects to AWS, I'm still late ... always late ... one we go.

0640 : On Anwar's followers and their sacrifice : You'll find the DSM5 section on histrionic personality types to be interesting. As for the followers, those are merely ordinary idealists, which the world has far too many of for my liking.

0650 : Year 2.951 : I believe my physiological routine is at 70% of development. Food quality and cost are almost perfect. Now a matter of raising daily resistance to minimum target levels. Then a bit more R&D on brain network routines. Then infrastructure is done ...

1500 : Now that I have repeated a ~6 week cycle of making a ~5kg batch of kimchi for food, I am considering growing the god damn vegetables myself. 14 hours with grow lights, and CO2 1000 ppm seems reasonable some day. For now I do not have space for that.

1515 : Sleep vs target today about 70%. Following 120, 120, 60, 50. It is time to feed, again.

1600 : On some equivocating piece about Iran's political situation right now. My random Malaysian appreciation for this psyop : You see, I'm the sort of person who stumbles upon two other people fighting, and simply prefers that they stop. It doesn't matter so much that I exist because of one of these parties, or both, or their conflict. In Malaysia, many of us were born into this conflict between ethnonationalists and everyone else - they started fighting before we got here. It's not our fight, but both sides in conflict are very annoying, and we prefer they stop. :)

1825 : Revision : 1U in electronics hardware is 1.75 inches, thanks to Western Electric / AT&T from about 1922

2000 : Broad review of IAM

2101 : trying to figure out the state-of-the-art cornershop solution to building a bot to discuss my nominally 1GB journal with myself : browsing AWS AI services

2202 : Now that I'm ingesting commercial floofy technology jargon, I might as well ingest floofy AI tooling jargon as well ... I guess it's about time to learn mainstream ...

2216 : Revision : LLMs : ah yes, vector encoding, and vector comparison ... this is ... good for high-level ( intuitive ) thin-slicing, but doesn't pass muster for low-level ( structural ) thin-slicing, for the latter you need physics ( at least in abstract, as logic ).

Tue 10Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.953years ( year3; month36; week154; day1078 )

0142 : pain is weakness leaving the body - my favourite gym poster from college

0213 : build tools + AWS admin + ML pop fundamentals : it's going to be a slow quarter until May

0226 : As usual - the more I make myself read pop ML, the more nauseous I get because the models are so poorly anthropomorphic. I will try to persuade myself that there is some correctness in them, but I anticipate mostly going ""oh, more weird cultural quirks some idiot dreamt up that I need to remember"".

0238 : pulsed microwave neural weapon : Well, there's your havana headache machine - and it might as well be what they were playing with at the maduro compound. Now everyone has to go make faraday helmets like Magneto and Juggy :D 

0307 : I think I just invented my own private nickname ""pop ML"" for what most people refer to as ML, since I have a private understanding how to quantify consciousness, that I don't want to confuse with what everyone else is showing up so far haha. I'm so silly

0315 : There is a small chance the following happens : 

1. Trump admin goes full retard

2. Congress and civil society actually do not cooperate

3. US economy experience significant disruption

We shall just wait and see.

0322 : Looks like XBTXAU is about to dive again - but since XBTUSD looks supported, maybe XAUUSD is going to pop : that's weird

0329 : Taking a break from piano music. Overally, I guess this ""chill"" stuff helps to stimulate the DMN while the CEN remains dominant during reading.

0431 : Hot chocolate : from just compound and water, is not common in Malaysian cafes. I think they should do it more, the milk is a bit too much.

0434 : I'm at the silly junction again where I'd prefer to spend more time on pure math, but I'm so far behind on applied math and tech, that I need to do the latter first for ... quite a bit more, like first.

0501 : Reading DL and ML wikis is like being a kid in a candy store. It's nowhere as expansive as the totality of pure math ... and it's such low-tech stuff, that it's just a matter of time of staring at text before you figure out what each piece is about.

0651 : Ingesting a body of knowledge like DL/ML is kinda like playing Go. It's slow but possible. 

Ingesting a body of knowledge like pure maths is kinda like playing Go on an unbound board, where you can't see where the opponent's pieces end.

0701 : OK - calling it a day for deskwork. Skimmed a lot of articles, but closed most of the DL/ML stuff, leaving the workspace full of open AWS IAM tabs for the next sitting.

1630 : ""Semantic XYZ"" is an extremely misleading predicate in IT and computing. The reason is that NEARLY ALL uses of the label ""semantic"" refer to words, which are linked to other words.

But in humans most words ONLY refer to sensory-spatial models. So the aforementioned so-called semantic systems do NOT have SEMANTICS THAT TERMINATE. 

1639 : I must practice learning new tools in software, as if I do not know anything about the other systems around them. Then I can understanding them better from first principles.

1700 : College 20 years ago was a bit lonely, during the periods when I worked on studying the design of the syllabus, while the teachers and students were focused on executing the syllabus.

I think the past few years have been similarly lonely, with regards to the popularisation of AI, because again everyone likes to execute AI, but there are very few people who focus purely on the design of the process.

Oh well, that's life! It also sorta explains why I bother to run work in F&B, and talk to my fellow citizens about plebeian politics. Where else would I get any social life ... haha ...

1711 : Taking a break from floofy marketing prose ... going straight to API docs

1819 : Today's weird test is having both MgCl2 and CaCO3 in my coffee at the same time. Kidneys, are you still there 

1911 : Delineating B2B SaaS APIs is a great way to learn about ... other B2B SaaS vendors ... as they are often explicitly connected 

1943 : Break. Enforced feeding ... 

2056 : Reading about other people's products / other people code / other people's politics ... is the intellectual challenge, of emotional regulation, while processing hundreds of operations per minute, a few hours per day, for days and weeks ... of what amount to just foul culture. I think this is the noblest thing about the assignment - though I can think of many better things to do outside the assignment. LOL. What a life ... I simply think of it as anthropology ...

2059 : TIL : harmonic mean

2236 : I think I just ran into the effects of the fact that vitamin D affects the update of not just Ca, but a bunch of other divalent metals, mainly Mg, Zn, and Cu ... supposedly indirectly Fe also. I should just throw some chalk into the bread recipe at this rate.

2258 : Napped. Positive experience after some dietary weirdness over the past day. Probably too much Mg and fat, resulting in dumping. Uncertain about the issue with shin splits since I have only run once in ten days. So I am going to gamble on another run to get my steps in for the day."

"Wed 11Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.956years ( year3; month36; week154; day1079 )

0244 : Maths automation : THANK GOD FINALLY - I don't have to write all that code 

0301 : I think a big part of the current challenge, reading AWS docs, is re-adapting to prosaic long-forrm reading which is very pretty but redundant.

0320 : Whereas I am generally disappointed with myself for slowness in studying tech stuff ... I do take some comfort in remembering that spending time to firm up physiological infrastructure has been more important, and long over-due, so rightly it has happened first over these three years. Did I do that fast enough, though? I don't like the speed, but it is what it is.

0354 : IAM JSON syntax ... finally

0403 : Socialism : is when we take your taxes to make healthcare automatic and free.

Communism : is where we do Socialism by taking ALL your taxes, and then you only get to wear uniqlo.

Gen zeta : I get to wear uniqlo?

0424 : Anyway : this Solid Trifecta thing launched in 2024 is excellent architecture. Everyone should have options like this

Better late than never

In a sense, previous studies I've done on AWS were just to figure out how things work without any need to master the platform. But using an IAAS without comprehensive knowledge of its security model is basically foolish, so I suppose now I have the luxury of time to learn it, as all users should.

0531 : Memorising IAM policy grammar is a hugely stupid nerdy thing to be getting into ... but I really should have done it 20 years ago, so I'm doing it now.

0555 : I'm hungry so it's time to eat and i have a grumpy bagel date with my techie neighbour at 11am i think

1424 : I think I should schedule a maintenance routine for pedal kinesthesia on the sharp block. 

1431 : The only F&B chains I used frequently from 2005 to 

1438 : Pejalan kaki tiada hak. What you are implying is perhaps, there should be an Akta Hak Pejalan Kaki dan Pengangkutan Persendirian Malaysia 👍🏼

Call your YBs, call your public policy think tanks, call your minister, call your legal activists, call your social club lobbyists 🤣

1526 : temples. 1. There is a legitimate concern about pre-Merdeka constructions. But these should be legislated for and cleaned up within a 5 year time frame. So far, left as a dangling issue precisely so that ... 

2. Intentionally not resolving the issues allows the issue to be used as party political polemic repeatedly over decades. Party politics indirectly also represents some interests of the COR, so they are complicit in not pushing for 1.

3. Finally we come to profiteers.

3a. Domestic.

3b. Foreign.

1815 : I think sodium is in focus for a couple of days. Something is off, and it may be Na to total water ingested. 

1936 : Pattern for now :

- handle is generic + number 

- hi i am famous person or insider with information 

So, over the last 1y, the model has already improved. Currently the photos are better and the posts/replies are more organic, but the two items above remain. 

Soon they will massage out those two as well.

In the long run the majority of socmed accounts will be bots, unless they require physical KYC. All in good time. 

( on threads bots ) 

1945 : Ok, moving to risk-off on shin splints after yesterday's test run. Stress fractures not welcome. 

Sleep wonky due to mid-morning meeting. Time to get up and feed. Maybe gym, and definitely a bunch of IAM reading. 

2026 : 1. Starbucks

2. McDonalds

3. Texas Chicken

4. MyNews ( coffee, regardless of cafe subbrand )

7. FamilyMart ( coffee, soda, ice cream )

8. KK ( soda )

9. 7-Eleven ( coffee, soda )

I think. 

2236 : TIL / TIaR : ${string} syntax goes all the way back to ... the Bourne Shell ! 1979

Thu 12Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.959years ( year3; month36; week154; day1080 )

0051 : BREAK FOR LUNCH

0200 : I wonder how long it will take me to brain the whole IAM protocol suite without rushing.

0245 : 1. Iran has no strategic benefit to hitting US soil, besides terror.

2. (Various parties) have a lot of strategic benefits, to hitting US soil, with a false flag.

Go figure.

0314 : forward proxy ; reverse proxy ;

forward tunnel ; reverse tunnel ;

blah blah blah

0458 : based on the 3-5cm heuristic, gonna assume I have stress fractures or a similar concern at my shins ; more weeks of break

1527 : OK, stacking sodium rehydrated by 2%. Unlesss I am reading this wrong. Will monitor.

1535 : 1. IL + US pretaliate against IR : UNSC carry on guys ... save the children ...

2. IR retaliates : UNSC ... ah ah ah ... we knew you were going to do that ...

IL : I knew it

US : I knew it

IL + US : stop hitting our friends, we knew you were going to do it 

1627 : Reading IAM docs is a timely reminder that most of my interest in web software development, revolves around the absence of a single reference architecture which generalised all common specialised systems.

It's pretty much the same as how i spent most of my undergraduate years complaining that the entire university was designed wrong. :P

1746 : Waiting for Trump to come out and claim he made the global economy more efficient, by scaring everyone with the Hormuz forcing-factor on purpose.

1941 : What are universities for ?! The Humboldtian philosophy of education. Someone mentioned this, in lamenting the absence of formal redefinitions of the value of a PhD in the age of generative AI.

1954 : TIL the terminology related to blind faith, ""taqlid""

2103 : There was very little that was amusing today. Everyone I read about or spoke to, was either chasing their tail about something, or angry at someone else because they didn't understand them. I probably fall into the latter category, haha.

Meanwhile I have put in the chore time to eat, read, and setup the EZ bar to a total mass of 40kg. I suppose life in general is boring, but after so many decades, it is only ordinary to proceed along the same, as long as there is no overt reason to stop.

2145 : It's nice to do a survey of one's public surface and find that branding is perfectly in order ... across multiple socmed platforms ... and that it coheres with current operations, and that current operations have been proceeding in a reasonably structured fashion since 1991 or so ... it's slightly disturbing.

Maybe one day I will change my mind, and decide that I am the problem.

Fri 13Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.962years ( year3; month36; week155; day1081 )

0036 : Interesting nap. Not sure if it was the nutrition or the two awkward sets of rows which made a bigger difference in neural stimulation. Probably the latter and hormones. 

0111 : Well, TBH : put me on the record for this ... AI companies have no moat

0117 : Hishamuddin as PMXI : Posture and muka ok. Tapi kalau orang ini naik, kekal lah, kaedah Mahathir yang sudah menenggelamkan negara selama 50 tahun ini ... kekeke

0136 : Picture of father shielding daughter in the rain. Human beings are ultimately sentimental, and contemporary culture encourages us to form basic moral judgments based on impulsive sentiment. I'm not saying this chap deserves to be bombed - rather that the bleeding heart social commentary is hilarious.

0142 : 2025 and 2026 feel like massive language-stuff years. Each of the following seems to have approximately the same complexity, and it's a matter of just bushwhacking my way through in the hope that neurotrophic factors will emerge in sufficient quantities to consolidate memory in some useful way.

- PU architecture, C memory management, POSIX shell command language, kernel architecture

- natural language parts of speech ( various languages, various frameworks for carving it up )

- Malay : particularly parliamentary Malay and language for political commentary 

- AWS's jargon suite

- etc.

0313 : I don't want to explain what kind of Asian I am. I spend early all my life talking about myself already :P

0620 : Done with first blitz through IAM. 

I should probably go distract myself with some other practical coding exercise before I get numbskulled. 

1714 : Day 1081. Close to 90% of target sleep. It is time to enforce eating again, repeating the infrastructure cycle. I hope it will be a productive day. 

1945 : 30g chocolate compound + 0.3g CaCO3 + 0.3g saturated MgCl2 solution

- breakfast was neurologically stimulating, today

2046 : Looks like I gotta split up chocolate and calcium intake - as the formation of saturated fatty acid soaps just get dumped

2324 : Post lunch fencing with persons of interest : now a break to reflect on my own work

Sat 14Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.964years ( year3; month36; week155; day1082 )

0001 : Palantir Maven : None of this is hard to build, if you have a mandate. I stand by what I said earlier ... for the most part ... these trendy AI companies have no moat.

0312 : Got a stupid chore done on the other side of town. Not sure if my memory is up for new work, but I'm going to do the chores, eat, and lift, and then think about it.

0421 : Roaming around AWS docs all day is like learning how to swim ...

0521 : IMPORTANT INTERVIEW PREP : Realised I now have 18+ years of experience dating people who get frustrated if they don't get what they want, but who can't/won't verbalise it. Aha! A great accomplishment ... but I should probably work a lot harder to filter out these people before we start dating, LMAO.

0550 : Back to reading my old code for a bit ... reload reload 

0616 : Reading framework code I wrote six years ago during lockdown ... and barely touched after ... makes me feel like my life is one big art project.

In college when I worked on a comprehensive architectural approach to a syllabus for the entire history of ideas, that was at least an easy optimisation. At least usable by myself.

The app framework I started writing however, has varied optimisation targets, and the likelihood of anyone else ever using it is low. I guess it's just for me again :P

0932 : Wondering if the last coupla days were slow because the subject matter was boring, or because I didn't squeeze in 8k steps and DMN time to calibrate neurochemistry.

Sun 15Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.967years ( year3; month36; week155; day1083 )

0626 : Desking while a friend sleeps. Catching up on Malaysia studies, and poking at tech.

0716 : Still pissing too cloudy. Cutting egg dose per set meal from 3 to 2 for now. 

1719 : The rain in Kuala Lumpur has whited out the sky, this Sunday afternoon. Social distractions have been moved off my premises, and I have returned to my desk to contemplate the design of my work.

This week I revised previous large unfinished projects in software. Then I drilled down into prosaic fundamentals which I had so-far neglected. I am working to reduce my understanding of tool ontologies to the minimal underlying pieces.

I suppose I will be doing more of that today.

1826 : One of my old matches from an app ( met like once, I think ) messaged that they were back in town. After some prodding, I heard they were living off other people, looking for a job, getting in contact with exs, etc.

They sent various relationship-oriented memes, including at least one porn link. I said they would surely figure out what they had to offer in proposals. 

They asked if I had anything to offer them, and I asked why they would enter into business conversations asking to be pitched to. They said, they were just trying.

I said they should focus on their ability to fix their job and ability to provide for others. Then they would be able to make sensible proposals.

They said this was crude.

haha.

Then they liked some of their own messages ... O_o

1827 : I have had gratitude in my paradise for over 20 years, but I still haven't figured out how to effectively help other people.

1919 : TIL : GitHub Codespaces -> 60 hr/mo free in-browser editing/search ... since 2020 or thereabouts

2009 : Building out conservative foundations : stairclimbing in the condo is open 24-7-365

Mon 16Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.970years ( year3; month36; week155; day1084 )

0100 : BREAK TO CLIMB STAIRS, then tea/dinner, and perhaps more desking. Trying to drown myself in as much humiliating information as possible, as I am not too confident yet, about what I need to know.

0300 : Fed again. Time for a walk after taking notes on IETF caching protocols.

0322 : A ... decent day. Before dinner, I managed to squeeze in DMN time hitting daily step-count around the building. I missed two days this week, I think - those were not the best days for studying. It is becoming more apparent that the neurochemical effects of this practice are practically irreplaceable - so I must ratchet up my prioritisation for it.

It is the 16th of March, and almost the end of year three. During my meditations I reminded myself to reduce expectations and excitement of study - the CEN is foolish wanderer. So I should assume more the stance of someone who does not know anything about web architecture, so that I can think more cleanly about it.

The BEAM VM is like an idyllic young love that may not be easily replaced. But practicalities will cause it to be forgotten, in its place perhaps only less pretty, more adept brutes will follow.

0330 : I guess C1M is the new C10K

0637 : It is time for bed. Again.

When will this end?

1601 : Awake and unhappy. Miso for sodium. Clearing inboxes. 

1630 : I woke up relatively unhappy and thought about it for a bit. The source of this are the pests around me. Everywhere I look, I find weakness and despair. As I have an abundance of time, I can offer help here and there. But probably I am overextended. So I should be less charitable. 

1639 : Time to feed. Then a return to studies. Lifting, walking, and groceries must also happen. Swiping for matches is not a high priority these days - mostly due to a lack of resources. Not enough time to meet people. Sometimes one can flip through a hundred personal ads a day, sometimes other work takes precedence. 

1725 : Back to the study of software architecture. I seem to be back where I was 13 years ago. But now I have a more general knowledge. 

1733 : On the collapse of scarcity economics. Well, the problem with 20th century attempts to implement Marxism wasn't the Socialism ... but the Authoritarianism. The quality of authoritarianism was lacking because of poor supply-chain / financial - engineering, resulting in gross mis-management. All of that changes with Internet fabric, across the physical plane. What remains to be seen is how much class war will tumble along ... I see no rush for a Star Trek utopia.

https://www.linkedin.com/posts/profwulfkaal_aigovernance-economics-artificialintelligence-share-7438949908218470400-oxFh?utm_source=social_share_send&utm_medium=member_desktop_web&rcm=ACoAABC7ON8B3zHDgZaMW22BuKJ3eX-JrCm3xUo

1912 : Maybe I should reimplement the BEAM VM in Rust ... alright, that's my full-retard fantasy for the minute/day.

2012 : Study of Etag implementations

2113 : 20% fat noodles stocked in. Pumping sodium. Natremia natremia

2139 : Bigotry is in some cases constitutional. In other cases it is reactionary. Sometimes when data is available, it is scientific. In all aspects. There is an art to it. 🤣

I am reminded that bigotry is an essential principle of Malaysian culture. Cannot remove it. Must abide by it. All things tainted by it. 🤣

2206 : INSTANT NOODLE / RAMEN TALK :

Normal instant ramen is fried, net ~20% fat.

Some instant ramen is air-dried, net ~0.2% fat.

100x difference

1. But low-fat also means high-carb, usually, more than high-protein. 

2. The air-dried noodles seem to not have a firm ( al dente ) doneness level. I might be cooking it wrong.

If anyone managed to get firm bitey noodles from the air-dried ramen, please let me know what brand.

I'm in the Malaysia market ... open to suggestions.

2231 : Peak laziness is contemplating another microwave to save myself 22 steps between coffees.

NO

Tue 17Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.973years ( year3; month36; week155; day1085 )

0133 : OMG - fully-cache-controlled web application architecture ... so many knobs and buttons

0424 : Read theory, CEN sprint. Went for a walk, DMN sprint. Realised that one of my basic hang-ups is that software should be able provision and deprovision its own infrastructure. So, I should I probably prototype that soon. CaaS is probably the best price-point for this, since FaaS usually has a price floor several times higher, which is only circumvented at large volumes.

0425 : tomorrow's first order of business is probably making kimchi and bread

0709 : Sun is up. Time to feed. Last meal before next sleep.

1019 : Some black swans to have in mind :

Global : A totalitarian oligarchy with no other moat around technology assets, would benefit from systematic destruction of all public past scientific research. This is just a special case of despot book-burning tendencies. 

Malaysian : A sufficiently intelligent force, could leverage on commonly available wealth, to reverse the liberal progress since 2018, plunging the nation into another 40-year term of mediocrity.

What would you do anyway? Myself, it seems I would do the same things. A pacified citizen, old, and too slow in the head to pick real fights. Unless things are really bad, I would probably still be making kimchi, and telling people how their brains work. 

1752 : Bangsa Melayu X Bangsa Malaysia : Payung Mana yang Lebih Sederhana

... stay tuned, for our next episode of Malaysian politics

1807 : Not enough sleep today. Time to feed, again."

"Wed 18Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.975years ( year3; month36; week155; day1086 )

0119 : Maybe it's time for me to restart studying Chinese, since I focused on Malay for a lot of last year.

0213 : Oh, so GitOps is now a formalised convention. I'm so behind ... haha 

0445 : It is time to get the other 75% of my step quota. 

0534 : 30g protein twice in 4 hours resulted in proteinuria. Ok, forgot to count. 

1751 : My kimchi runneth over. 

Well, that's what I get for adding chalk and sugar without extra headroom. 

1807 : ( please share with your friends in KDN, PMO, MOD, JPA, and Ministry of Digital )

I don't often talk about this, because I think Malaysian politicians are too kolot to understand it. 

But I would prefer if we had chip, firmware, kernel, library / model, and application, sovereignty set as the highest national standard of computing objectives, which all procurement and performance would be benchmarked against. 

It would not be achievable in less than five years, because we are slow AF, but it should be the sort of strategic goal a nation has as SOP. 

https://www.facebook.com/share/1Hz75EuGxU/ 

1817 : Did you know Malaysia's government spreads is broadcasts across many different social media channels? Yet citizens are often ignorant of news, fake news, history, fake history, etc. Can you see how it happens?

2036 : Rate of thought is up. Perhaps sodium levels have normalised. Or is it something else, like the glutamate?

Thu 19Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.978years ( year3; month36; week155; day1087 )

0135 : Satisfied with my updated understanding of clustering. Will switch subjects to more immediate concerns soon.

0234 : A single week can feel draggy when it involves daily reading of very boring stuff.

0312 : Had lunch snack. Loaded a HTML layout modularisation and caching problem into my head. Going to walk now.

0432 : Loss of gulf oil, increases revenue to Russia, weakening Ukraine and NATO''s leverage in that war.

0801 : I might just die on this hill. It's not death by anger, but death by laziness to go anywhere else lol.

""Citizenship is optional for 1956. Citizens born after 1957 didn't choose to be Malaysian.

All Malaysians, including those before 1956, can vote to change the constitution. That is the democratic process.

:) zero lines were crossed""

2042 : Time to feed. Again

2218 : TIL : B-tree vs B+-tree

2233 : political development via dialogue : this is my secondary function on social media; my primary function is just to have a social life since most of my work is desk-bound

Fri 20Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.981years ( year3; month36; week156; day1088 )

0001 : TIL : mechanical pencils were designed before 1791 

0443 : It is late. time for the walk

0742 : Web frontend frameworks in 2026 ... are a lot less shitty than they were in 2020 ... but they are still full of shit compared to pre-React.

1000 : TIL : HTML microdata specification : attributes : itemscope, itemprop, etc.

1048 : I want to test some web architectural ideas, which are similar in form to those of the [qwik] framework. So my test directory is called [jonwik] lmao

1118 : Super tired. Still, many foolish things in the world to fix. Time for a shower, then maybe a bit more design work.

1143 : Front-end frameworks based on virtual DOMs / diffing ... are always throwing things away instead of fixing them in-place. Lack of discipline, lazy, and wasteful.

1349 : I couldn't find something I wrote. Nothing important. Just for fun. Another day. 

1402 : Time for bed. Goodnight. Will think about architecture until it expires. Hopefully tomorrow is productive. 

2018 : 50% on sleep target today. Will get up soon. Expecting an unproductive day. 

2156 : Ramai rakyat Malaysia ada kepakaran dalam bidang perbahasan falsafah, tapi saya tak berapa sure lah ... EUBI dan undang yang sewaktu dengannya akan dikuatkuasakan sampai tahap apa dengan perkembangan topik falsafah di medsos dan tempat awam yang lain. Kini memang Malaysia menerima tekanan liberalisme. Tapi bukan semua orang okay dengan hala ini

2206 : Diving back into Web Components today : researching the most idiomatic way to write a frontend framework that doesn't invent new language syntax.

2309 : Malaysians. I have chocolate news for you. We already knew that Malaysian Milo is sweeter, more chocolatey, and less wholegrain than the original Australian Milo. Do whatever you want about that - that is not the topic of this post.

Except that it turns out both Milo Malaysia and Van Houten Dark Chocolate Compound Coins are about RM 24. So they cost roughly the same, and the serving size for a hot chocolate drink is about 30g.

Do whatever you want with this information ...

2320 : WTAF : text=""javascript/blocked""

If you clowns could have just stuck to the formal convention of naming, ""text/javascript"", ""application/javascript"" ... when inventing a non-standard convention ...

Sat 21Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.984years ( year3; month36; week156; day1089 )

0028 : TIL: ""/"" is called the solidus ( UNICODE ) , after the Latin name for a coin, and the mnemonic is that this is the character more frequently used to separate ""big-thing/small-thing"", and also ""numerator/denominator"".

0034 : TIL : the HTML Living Standard has deprecated slashes in void elements.

0344 : TIL : 12-years late : 2014 ""mutation observer"" because a stable Web API : https://fantom0.hashnode.dev/mutationobserver-vs-event-listeners-the-best-way-to-watch-dom-changes

0421 : On today's walk I will think about frontend component orchestration architecture. Library research on web APIs was interesting, earlier. 

0703 : Interprocess state consistency : the next puzzle to think about for a few minutes to hours.

0730 : First day of eid, and I accidentally have a trending post about chocolate.

I feel sorry for new foodie followers who are about discover that this account consists mostly of 

1. swearing at the Malaysian government

2. software architecture

3. philandering

If it's any solace, I am well researched in cost-minimisation for maximum nutrition, since I live on a student budget.

catch you after milo

0814 : Found one source of front-end framework chaos. 

- it's common to have a single queue for rendering UI

- it's less common to have a single queue for making requests from client to server 

Orchestrating all client component server calls, through a single request broker, should improve auditability, by a lot.

1307 : down

2136 : Caught up on sleep. Time to feed. Then back to the desk

2216 : Hat tip to Thiel and JD for securing Palantir's lockin. 23 years is a long way to run.

I'm still not an active equities investor. I also think, it would be fun some day to actually work in corporate development for an enterprise, but I haven't yet had the priority in life to focus on that, nor the luck to have it thrust in my face. I'm still concerned by my lack of fundamental education about the world. So I will remain here for a bit, haha.

2325 : frontend architecture:huge progress yesterday, but I should take a break and think about other stuff instead today

2349 : One thing that hasn't gone away from my studies, since college, the field of ""human computer interaction"". Of course, it's quite trendy to talk about it during the LLM craze. We shall see how this goes.

Sun 22Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.986years ( year3; month36; week156; day1090 )

0053 : Pulled back to survey data model caching ...

0136 : Now being fairly confident in my updated understanding of web client architectural concerns, I am thinking about how to standardise ORMs that can synchronise language and concepts from back- to front-ends of a stack.

0255 : Hitting a small wall, due to the recent context switch from frontend to other subjects. I guess it is time for a walk.

0517 : Feels like I'm gradually working my way back to two workouts a day.

0613 : Hm. Sugar crash after carbs. Also memory consolidation from insulin. Recent studies probably still in-flight to long-term memory. Also need to conserve reso

1353 : Ran a bunch of tests on some old toy code after this morning's meeting. Zero progress. Boo

2346 : Doing a quick dive into neuromelanin ... to understand if there are any safe decontainment pathways.urces for meeting in a few hours.

Mon 23Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.989years ( year3; month36; week156; day1091 )

0011 : Turns out neuromelanin is ordinarily disposed via the autophagy-lysomal pathway / APL ... but an excessive rate will spiral into stereotypical neurodegenerative disease.

ALP involves NO and PHOX. So all that NO pharmacokinetics and pharmacodynamics stuff about cardio health and athletic activity is hereby linked. 

0031 : neurotransmitters and Na+ cotransport : I guess I've officially reached a stage where it becomes necessary to understand the nuances of dietary minerals and neurochemistry on a daily basis -_- life is too complicated

0437 : Thinking about the best backend architecture for a web app. 

One prototype I have uses DynamoDB already, marshalling only three types of data upon it. Maybe I should just stick with that, keep it compat with Scylla, and and an Sqlite adapter. 

Hm. Have to revise DDB architecture later. All forgotten. 

0739 : I am failing the 40 pushup test. 

That is all for now. 

1053 : Another clumsy day. A simple, quiet life. 

2302 : Awake again. There's someone in my inbox asking about what we can build together. But we don't have many common interests. I should make breakfast.

Tue 24Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.992years ( year3; month36; week156; day1092 )

0105 : Feels like it's 2010 today. I'm mucking around the basics of full stack web development.

0158 : 2017, RFC 8288, old news for yall probably : but it solves the problem of ""how does a server implement HATEOAS, when JPG and JSON files don't have <a> tags""; the performance and pagination relationships are particularly useful

0400 : TIL 

- how home router QualityOfService configuration is related to the IETF RFCs for DiffServ

- STUN, TURN, ICE

0406 : TIL : also news to me that ""item"" and ""collection"" are now governed by RFC 6573 ( 2012 )

0428 : LATE. Time to get get stepscounted before the sun rises ...

0642 : Ran knuckles along shins to check for sensitivity. Mid-shins still sore, so I guess I will continue to hold-off from running. For now.

0715 : IETF RFC 9110 (2022) is a nice summary update of HTTP Semantics !

0731 : I know it's somewhat juvey of me : but I still don't appreciate the rigidity of RDF.

0814 : ganyang subsidi : perbelanjaran operasi

selamatkan pembangunan ekonomi : perbelanjaran modal

0820 : I will aim to go over OWL and RDF enough times, to understand it by the end of this week.

0900 : GCC must make peace with Iran. That is the only way this ends well. Otherwise endless death

1019 : Since 2022, Until IETF comes up with some major tweaks to IndexedDB, it looks like SQLite-on-WASM is dominating ... 

1221 : Another scattered day. Time for a break.

On the up-side, calcium dosing seems to have stabilised. And physical activity is ratcheting up to where it it was ... and later we'll get to where it should be

1421 : down

2228 : Awake again. Time to make breakfast. Hit the desk. Clock the steps. And all that. 

2245 : The main fault of Malaysians, regardless of race and political affiliation, is that they are comfortable and conflict averse. Essentially Hobbits. There is an arc to the land of Hobbits, in that book.

2346 : Probably a good day to switch back to rows and RDLs, instead of pushups.

I have a been thinking a bit about a fifteen-year period during which I offered emotional comfort to adult children, and I am wondering to what degree I should just strategically dispose of interest in people who do not have an internally sufficient sense of security, such that they must obtain it from others.

That will probably sit at back of my conscious memory for a bit, while I desk on mundane technical standards"

"Wed 25Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.995years ( year3; month36; week156; day1093 )

0018 : Selalunya orang binggung dengan anak muda yang mencabar budaya tua. Apa nak mencabar sangat? Budaya tua akan mati dengan orang tua dulu. Pemuda hanya perlu jaga kain diri. Lama-lama, semua jadi padan di akhirat. Tapi akhirat itu masa depan, bukan zaman luar masa. 

0103 : At this point, I'm 70% inclined to think of Critical Spectator as an AIPAC land-grab towards adding Singapore to their portfolio of state alliances. You might say, oh Michael is right-wing but craps on gays, Israel loves gays - well the dominant theme is authoritarianism : sexual abuse is overlooked in the IDF, and that is on the record. I say this as a disinterested party, though I am aware that being disinterested affords me little in the way of safety in talking about it. I grew up with a copy of The Mossad in my dad's library, so I have good respect for the technicalities of Israeli foreign policy - please don't target me. Lol

0114 : Again, as a disinterested party. It is said that 15-20 million people died due to Germany's actions during WW2. Coincidentally, it is said that 15-20 million people have died due to the USA's actions since 1945.

This of course pales in comparison to the numerous imperial actions by many other countries of Europe and the steppes over the last 5,000 years.

And it does not discount the Cold War axis' role as the counterpart to NATO since WW2. 

All things in perspective, everyone wants moderation, people simply disagree about what moderation is. 

0211 : I should make a bread. I haven't made the bread in a while. 

0237 : if i had a 1 sentence startup pitch : ""A pedagogical reference architecture, for humans to understand computers, at any scale.""

0414 : Ah, I know what the problem is today, and recently : inflammation from pushups. I am after all, just that weak

0430 : CURIE, This is an interesting syntax i will keep in mind.

0431 : Time to walk

0458 : Looks like the green beret physical fitness test is a good benchmark for someone who's mainly exercised as a runner and needs to fix everything else. 

0708 : I made the breaeaaddd

0742 : RDF schema specification : OMG : doing something like this is such a chaos gateway

0749 : Everywhere I look, I am disappointed by meatheads who are disappointed that AI threatens their meathead sense of what makes meatheads valuable.

I didn't change my mind over 20 years : it's just that now everyone else is on point :P 

0830 : Na + K + Mg : administered via bread ... and my inflammed muscles are loosening up. I'm leaning towards the hypothesis that it's the K, filling up intracellular volume, because I've got plenty of Na from other food.

0853 : Looks like sports drink macro-mineral ratios are around :

Ca:Mg:K:[Na] = 1:1:2:[4 to 8]

0915 : I thought about my rate of life progress, as one does for competitive purposes.

In college I strictly focused on non-biz subjects, because that is what colleges are for. Furthermore, I focused on non-professional measures of success in academia. So I had in mind that in terms of gross careering, I might be perhaps 10 years behind my peers.

After college I strictly focused on biz subjects, particularly technology, HR, finance, and ops. At 43 I feel that I am now 20 years behind. 

:D

1013 : TIL Itano Circus is a proper noun for the Macross missile swarm motif

1151 : OMG ... I just discovered OMG's ReqIF and RMF and ... argh ... more stuff to study

1232 : Global economy could do with a real hard reset right now. But swan-preppers have been working overtime since 2022. Unless the US drops a nuke on Iran, and Russian overruns Ukraine, it's just going to be a soft-landing or a return to gradual debasement. 

1239 : Why is the world full of such shitty frameworks ... why why why ... it is going to take a while to memorise the RDF, RDFS, OWLx, and RIF to a practical degree ... ah, the things I do as an anthropologist, even though I do not think highly of certain technology culture

1243 : Verbally intimidated. I am going to take a break and lift.

1510 : Ad hoc aircon cleaning. Not the full job, but a little maintenance meanwhile.

Dinner has been consumed. I am thinking about plebs I read about online. Maybe some I have met also. What to do, the world is rarely in an admirable state. 

1546 : Priorities out of order. Need to shift more resources to physical conditioning.

Also need to read anything else besides RDF for a bit

1949 : AngPau haul RM80 this year. 

As a 43yo on welfare, I must say it seems strange and wonderful. 

2017 : Let's do some design work before bed. 

2300 : slightly over 24 hour day. mixed bag

Thu 26Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @2.997years ( year3; month36; week156; day1094 )

0516 : One of my favourite black swans, amidst the current hype cycle :

- geopolitical escalations

- military industrialisation

- supply constraint on minerals

- private sector lockout from new computational hardware for months, years

- inflation in cost of compute

- innovation pressure on software optimisation 

- we finally break through the irrational dependence on LLMs

0524 : I am awake. Again. And not yet expired. Below target sleep, but the circadian favours arisal, so here we are. I must make food, and explore the day. Probably lifting and desking, will be the most of it. 

0534 : Perhaps I am too charitable. Perhaps I should shift away from capex on gaining the favour of people I already deem mediocre prior to engagement. Perhaps x3

0640 : Not the most relaxed day, due to shortness of sleep. Taking a tour about the more scenic bits of West Asia, and reading a little about the economy and politics.

0949 : revising web component structure

i do a few months to a year of web development every six or so years ... it's weird to not remember stuff 

1223 : I feel like a complete asshole. The current method I have for software architecture is ... open up a slide, start writing notes, connect boxes with curvy arrows, have a lot of reading going on in some other windows, come back every so often to stare at the slide, insert a new sentence, sit back and think about how the slide looks, then repeat ad infinitum.

1311 : I think I'm too sedentary for natural adrenaline. I will fix this with policy.

1525 : web framework design is kicking my ass :P 

1847 : down

Fri 27Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @3.000years ( year3; month36; week156; day1095 )

0417 : time to move again

0604 : Creatine uptake today seems much improved with sugary stuff. Need to test more.

0642 : on the bright side since 19March, UST rates have completely uninverted - I haven't seen this much structure in 4 years? yay

0721 : City of Shiraz is in the news for all sorts of gossip ranging from US anti-tank mines to exploding canned fish. It's also got the international airport closest to Kharg Island, 222 km perpendicular to the shoreline.

0913 : I should really write ""several 10^x"" not ""several 1000x""

1024 : hot chocolate, cocoa powder edition : 120g water

8g cocoa powder

8g liquid fat ( any vegetable or animal source )

8g sugar

1035 : OK! Easiest adrenaline pump : picked up 75% of my body weight, and did 50 calf raises ... basically once I get to the lactate threshold, I know shit is down. Hormones, baby ... bring ittt

1038 : i am a sad web developer

because web standards are so sad

but not as sad as 2020, or 2015, or 2010

so sad or not, not as sad as then

but then again, the older you get, 

the larger the scope of mess you try to clean up

so sad

1301 : architecturing a stupid web app server caching mechanism : at least I can console myself that this is A HARD PROBLEM IN COMPUTER SCIENCE :P 

1509 : I'm so tired of web development --_-

1650 : MECE application server caching, for document fragments : truly the most miserable problem I have worked on in a long time. Why does anyone spend their life on this shit?

1952 : Another day, and cycle of tripping over project A while being asked weird questions about projects A, B, C, etc.

2004 : Time for a snack, there are too many stupid people being simulated in my head. LOL

Sat 28Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @3.003years ( year4; month37; week157; day1096 )

0434 : up

0516 : Awake again. Time to feed and lift and desk. 

0600 : Huh ... all you need to know about TurboQuant after all, is that it's JPEG for N-dimensional graphs.

1045 : Back to a desk, after a social walk

1052 : Running models of stupid people in your own head, is dangerous because it's not the easiest thing to enforce jails in wetware. So you feel stupid just by running the models, for too long.

1511 : Who's on the field?

US-aligned-GCC-not-yet-at-war-with-Israel :

Bahrain. Kuwait, Oman, Qatar, Saudi Arabia, United Arab Emirates

Non-GCC-not-yet-at-war-with-Israel :

Egypt, Jordan, Iraq, Turkey, Palestine

Non-GCC-already-at-war-with-Israel :

Lebanon, Syria, Iran

1554 : web development : my incompetence is very painful

1836 : Do I want to build an ORM? Why TF do I even consider building an ORM

1845 : Way too many notes. I am just going to close my eyes and think about the problem from scratch.

1950 : Just figured out, that I needed to specify a concise notation, which allows a writer to address a subforest of a tree.

JSON example :

- node identifiers are keys

- leaf node values are the empty object ( no subkey = no subnode )

- internal nodes that are used for addressing descendants, which are not to be themselves addressed, can be prefixed with a special character, e.g. the traditional ""_""

2031 : This is very annoying. I am not supposed to be doing language design now. But framework design may require a DSL. Choices.

2109 : Kenapa satu hidup Dr M, dia asyik nak pisahkan rakyat Malaysia ya? 

2145 : down

Sun 29Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @3.005years ( year4; month37; week157; day1097 )

0355 : Awake again. Day 2 of year 4. Conscious memory has been incredibly slow on work, so I need to needle the subconscious a bit to see what is stuck. I wonder if it is just cognitive load, or nutritional factors, and if it is the latter, then probably the recent uptick in mineral intake is to blame. 

Meanwhile, 2026's prioritisation of physiology, before Malaysian studies, before software studies, remains slightly inverted as I struggle to brain the entire architecture of an opinionated web application framework. 

0452 : A piece of soy bread, and a coffee. Then a small joy : relearning a ghetto RDBMS implementation on DynamoDB from 2020

0522 : Probably part of my general malaise comes from heavily loaded arm exercises, resulting in increased variance of muscle response to nerves, and thus a lower rate of predictability per unit of energy expended for minute to minute manual tasks.

0639 : Attention turns to SQLite behaviour, configuration, and performance characteristics. 

When relational databases started having native JSON types in 2012, it was quite exciting. I worked only briefly with this in 2014.

Now I review how much data manipulation I can push down from NodeJS into SQLite.

1 SQLite instance; N databases, with different configurations, including in-memory storage; implementing all of 

- key-blob cache

- key-JSON cache

- doc DB

- relational DB

- blob queue

- pubsub

0704 : Turso is Rustified SQLite, got it.

0750 : Berdasarkan pengalaman singkat saya ... ramai orang bukan ""kerja sebab suka kerja"" tapi ""kerja bagi mengalaskan kehilangan penyuapan ibubapa"" jadi bila nak cari jodoh pulak, dorang senang ingat ""jodoh dah dapat, kerja boleh kurang"" kerana baginya, jodoh mengalaskan keperluan asas yang dulu dari papamama LOL

0939 : Frivolously ironing shirts on a Sunday morning. Haven't been to the office in three years. LOL

1000 : Coming to the conclusion that the ideal pairing between NodeJS and OTP, is with Node emulating erl_dist as a worker.

1022 : Time to feed and buy eggs.

1113 : Looks like calf raises and front rows are enough to tire me. Weak

1237 : You may see this profile post terminal rhetoric about Tun M. I like the guy in terms of personality, but I think he has done too much damage and poisoned the nation of Malaysia for too long already. So i speak up within the available freedoms of the present ( who knows how long they may or may not last ). He's much older than I am, but I would say I feel the same way Obi Wan felt about Anakin - lots of talent, but sometimes he needs a rap on the knuckles. With respect to the customs of Malaysia I did not speak much about this earlier in life. But after 40, I have passed the Abrahamic boundary of childhood, and as my mind hasn't changed in 20 years, I simply avail myself of adult duties. 

1302 : In 2011 I did some freelance work, for a friend. They were about my age, anda tech lead at a small logistics consulting firm. Since they had been specialised in software development, they would have had about five years of professional experience at that point. That's more than I have today, so I guess I shouldn't feel so bad about my lack of knowledge about the field. Foolish thoughts for context.

1419 : erl_dist <=> BEAM/OTP <=> erl_dist <=> AtomVM

<||>

Node.js <=> TursoDB

Node.js <=> ValKey <=> LuaJIT

<||>

lua-state <=> LuaJIT

This all feels very 2010 to me. I didn't study it back then, so I'm learning industry standard tool conventions now.

1420 : TIL sepsis technically means 10% mortality risk from organ dysfunction

1435 : TIL what hyperloglog solves

Mon 30Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @3.008years ( year4; month37; week157; day1098 )

1020 : Good morning, it's Monday! Back to a desk.

While realignment of the GCC with Iran instead of Israel will probably save the most lives, I agree with the view that the US will probably not give up its imperial domain in the Gulf. So, standing by for further ridiculous loss of life in the days to come ...

1030 : I think I have been undershooting protein demand since I started lifting at home. Adjustments are in order.

1130 : ACS has some well-formed articles on the histor

1259 : Threads on web, perpetually open sidebar : you need CSS

1. remove all videos

1330 : back to draughting

1441 : TIL the RFCs for ""text/markdown"" and ""application/yaml"" are not-yet standards-track, however IANA has a registry of Markdown variants ...

1617 : Exploding resource granularity for caching improvement ... leads to exploding attack surface area ... hmy of important processes

1957 : Making opinionated architectural decisions, is easy.

Making ones that are also fair, is hard :P

2. reduce images to monochrome

2012 : Don't apologise for errors by people of your own race.

People from my race do all kinds of stupid shit, and I'm not taking responsibility for it.

I do looots of stupid shit, and I don't think people of my race are responsible for it.

LOL

2116 : Sometimes I wonder if slow rates of conscious work, result from business of the subconscious, or from plain absence of work.

... hope you're productive daily and fully contextualised in your global affairs today!

Tue 31Mar2026, Sabbatical2 @3.011years ( year4; month37; week157; day1099 )

0020 : Nak kan? Malaysia terus kena bungkus pada pentas dunia? Sila teruskan pejuangan berdasarkan perkauman anda, bagi 0.7 abad di depan kini ...

0525 : I'm enjoying the brief period of Malaysian studies and social work. It's a great privilege for someone who doesn't think much of other people to actually have time to do people work. All nerds should do it for some time in their lives. It is important to give back to society when we are not busy waging wars against our own ignorance and poverty. But such times don't last forever so they should be enjoyed while available. 

0843 : down

1625 : Time to feed. inboxes already checked

1727 : I have worked both fast and slow, and this is a slow period for studies. Physiology takes precedence, followed by society, then science. That's the year's plan.

1941 : JSON normalisation. Revisited this today, while looking at a tree validator I wrote in 1H2020.

Looks like JSON Schema has given up waiting for IETF standardisation, and just focused on doing its own thing. A brief survey of in-the-wild users and version compliance : https://medium.com/@smikulcik/86-of-json-schemas-are-stuck-in-2017-heres-what-that-tells-us-about-the-industry-58e1f74cddff

2002 : Pretaliations Of Trump Atlantic Treaty Organisation : POTATO

2142 : Timely reminder to make use of non-enumerable properties in JavaScript

2154 : Doing a set of weights every time I go to the pantry, probably implies some benefit to showering more time per day.

2230 : alright let's think about how to serialise eventlisteners and send them over the wire

2309 : It has been a blessing to have had so many lives to live

2328 : Cute. A brief summary :

1. US state's law sought to regulate what doctors can/not choose to say, while treating patients.

2. SCOTUS ruled that the A1 empowers doctors to say as they please; sending the demised law back to lower courts for review.

3. Dissenting ruling urges that this deregulates doctors, allowing them to say whatever they want.

https://www.threads.com/@keithboykin/post/DWjYOt_jkJM?xmt=AQF06437Ap0QfLyPdz23-ziFrJIvRj4IFkNO0qgPqIfWWQ

2342 : conflict-free replicated data types. Important to study ... but probably not in great depth today."