Varieties of emotional fragility

I was talking to a friend of mine ( a self-identified bleeding heart ), about their work, in the care of other emotional wrecks. It made me think about the nature of emotional triggers, and the skew which is commonly observed. Here are some common ones. Each of these is expressed differently in women and men.

• 1. Loss of physiological security ( "does my body feel safe?" )
• 1a. Loss of verbal security ( "does my body feel safe, based on the words in my environment?" )
• 1a1. Loss of reputation ( "in a social network, will speech about me, reduce my security in any way?" )
• 1b. Loss of physical intimacy ( "do people want to touch me?" )
• 1b1. Loss of fuckability ( "do people want to have sex with me?" )
• 1b2. Loss of care ( "if I am hurt, will people work to reduce my hurt?" )

etc.

This is a good launchpad for a broader study, later.

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There is an element of culture which I find most amusing. 

Many people are getting into relationships because they are fearful of caring for themselves or being absent of care in the future. I think those of us who are not oriented about this, are in the minority. 

I suppose ... it takes a bunch of training to be ok with living and dying alone, while still maintaining the flexibility to interact with other humans for fun, only.

defining consciousness & psychological boundaries

The fun thing about consciousness is that people throw the word around like it means a lot ... well it doesn't unless you spec a def ... it has like three of four major definitions which are wildly different based on the context.

Roughly :

• - medical usage ( closest to commonspeak )
• - poetic usage ( romantic, sentimental )
• - information systems usage ( broadest )
• - qualia-logy usage ( metaphysics / onotology / last big question )

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If I may extend this a bit. ( Tell me when to bugger off. )

• 1. The fact that you appreciate your feelings should always be sacred to yourself. Nothing else has to adjust it. That includes other people's feelings.
• 2. Choosing to admit other people's feelings as effective upon oneself should not be impulsive, but risk-managed.
• 3. There are plenty of other people's feelings that will be debounced at 2. Many humans will be rightfully filtered out. You just need to decide which bots to filter in.

Once you get good at 2., it helps you work on 3.

In the long run, the only difference between a properly behaving bot and a properly behaving meathead is ... civil rights.

It's a bit mind-bendy, but it's at the crux of the philosophical distinction between various types of humans that have less than normal civil rights : criminals, disabled, etc.

At some point bots become more competent than the bottom-tier meathead ... then whaT?

:) philosophy!

brain networks and sense modalities

Brain network modelling : comparison of my college-era and past-week studies :

DMN activity seems to be associated with primacy of focus on haptic, oscillatory, thermal, and other somatic data types. 

CEN activity seems to be associated with primacy of focus on optical and acoustic data types. 

I could be mistaken, and IIRC the SN is associated somewhat with somatic data types. 

Need to go back and check documentation later.

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Progress.

So, it appears that we do (a lot) of our conscious spatial modelling of kinesthesia by abstracting into the optical mode. That is to say, when we mentally prepare to move the body, we (often) visualise the movement, instead of feeling it. Of course we do both, and it is more accurate to do the latter. But the stronger the imagined somatic data signal, the more live SNS somatic signals are displaced from conscious memory, and the greater the risk that SNS-PNS feedback loops currently in-flight would get distorted by the imaginary signal.

For example, say I actually hold a ball. I can imagine visually dropping the ball, or I can imagine haptically dropping the ball. If I imagine too strongly the haptic signal, it appears to my conscious memory that I had felt the ball dropping and my subconscious might step in to modify the MNS signal and mess up my current effort in holding the ball in place. Of course, with more practice, a kinesthete will be able to imagine stronger haptic signals without corrupting their SNS-PNS feedback loops. That is just part of what all manual/physical exercise studies do.

I suppose in college, I didn't think of this distinction much. I mostly thought about activating the DMN as a matter of zeroing my optical and acoustic imagination. I guess that is because most verbal reasoning happens in those sense modalities. But actually a total zeroing is excessive - I should have allowed non-verbal acoustic and optical imagery to remain in the imagined signal. That would have been enough to disengage CEN activities from conscious memory. 

Back to thinking about this.

Aside, I must say calcium's hourly effect on neurochemistry is probably the most important thing I picked up over the past 1.5 years. The slower release of chalk in tablet form seems to optimally emulate whole food release rates. The only other thing now is that my stomach is going to get used to producing more acid than it did. So I will have to monitor that