what I found in commerce

The most interesting thing about studying commerce for me was, that there are folks who

- call themselves accountants, but can't do accounts

- call themselves managers, but can't manage

- call themselves entrepreneurs, but do nothing new, and have no responsibilities

- call themselves engineers, but don't measure anything 

- call themselves people experts, but suck at manipulating talent

- etc. 

Yet few people take seriously those who call themselves generalists, who are exactly what they claim to be. 

study arcs in commerce

In 2005, when I graduated, my primary goal was to start learning commerce and corporations. I started out in Malaysia, and soon realised there were no truly great companies to work for. (There may still be no truly great companies to work for in Malaysia, but I digress.) So I made a point to study the bad parts of companies, and as a result worked for all sorts of really odd shops.

My secondary goal was to catch up on learning how to talk to machines. My previous work in this area peaked around 1998, before I diversified to other stuff. I didn't think talking to machines was so much an intrinsic good, as it would be (1) a way for me to build test breakers as a hobby, based on a quantification model for conscious phenomena that I had developed in college, and (2) a way for me to understand corporate technology fundamentals, in order to be an informed governer over technology staff in the future.

I've been thinking about these choices in my career, while on sabbatical, while I listen to people struggle with job hunts, promotional aspirations, technology in the AI era, and educational governance among children. 

identified with feelings

At some point, it was maybe the fourth girl I dated post 2006, I was about 27, and encountered the first partner I had who had strong feelings about things, and wanted their partner to have strong feelings about those things.

( Yeah, I didn't date much : I imagine people run into this stuff at a much younger age, like 14 ... also mainly why, I didn't make it a priority to date much, as a younger person. Too much slop on the market. )

Anyway, SINCE then, I guess I have run into several more cases of people who identify strongly with their feelings, instead of identifying with their metacognition (trending word these days, hat-tip to Gu) of the structures motivating those feelings.

Nowadays I make a bigger effort to filter out these people. I think it saves us both time. Haha.