why do people dream of jobs?

I don't particularly idealise employment, but since everyone talks about dream jobs, I should perform a rendition. 

In some imaginary universe, I would make a minimum of 15x minimum wage, without having to perform a false degree of esteem for clients, colleagues, or other counterparties.

Maybe I should be a dominatrix. 

atrophy of proprioception

Atrophy of proprioception. Every being on earth begins with zero internal structure, no capacity for memory, and no capacity to create it. Consequently, each being is not actively aware of any perceptual developments it does not have, as the capacity to perceive is not yet constructed. So it is with muscle and nerve development - one cannot rely on active signals for deficiency. The nerves do not exist yet, so no signals are present. And only after the organism has come to rely on active data, does it actively notice a deficiency, when the nerves go missing. 

My political participation

I've been reading a lot of politics due to my recent speedrun of Malaysian culture. Reflectively, I wonder what sort of language captures my orientations. 

1. Non-humanism.

What comes to mind first, is that my ethics are not rooted in either theistic or non-theistic humanism. I simply don't find the human project to be necessary - it is merely present, not something I like to conjecture about, in terms of goal-setting.

1.1. Perhaps I would be more imaginative in conjecture if I was richer, however. It would make sense to attempt to operationalise highly-capitalised gambits, if the capital was available. 

2. Public Access

I'm a huge fan of public architecture and infrastructure. I think less highly of private developments. So the entire tradition of gatekeeping access to wealth based on family and friendship networks is quite boring to me. Maybe that puts me on the left as a socialist, but since I am of orientation (1) above, perhaps it is a sort of technocratic socialism, without emphasis on any underlying value of individual human lives.

2.1. And again, this probably reflects my intrinsic biases. I can understand that the rich are skeptical of the poor as freeloaders. As a relatively poor person, I am mainly a freeloader myself, costing the state more than the taxes I pay.

3. Summary

Maybe it remains useful to think of myself as preferring some sort of Borg-like society, where all individuals participate in collective omniscience of the present. 

3.1. In practice, all of this gives me little reason to jump into active politics, given my state of relative poverty. So, perhaps, I remain exactly where the politicians want me.