2026-04-01 at

BREAKING NEWS : Iran Rebrands as A-Iran

"The SNSC notes that Aryanism is out of trend. But any transliteration from ancient language to modern global terms is trivial, so we are leveraging on the secular funding cycle's commitment to synth vibes. We've learnt from the Chinese the social importance of names that start with A. Moving forward, A-Iran will cement its leadership on administrative rosters everywhere."

The White House has signaled its intention to rebrand as A-America, in response.

time to study ML

 It's time. I'm free enough today, and the industry is mature enough ( though still full of inefficient methods ) that I am starting to catch up on popular ML terminology.


It'll be interesting to see how much of this I will brain in a decade, so 2036.

2026-03-31 at

an insufferable conflict in the Gulf

The US has seven hostages on the world stage : Ukraine and the GCC.

Ukraine, the whipping boy, shields Europe from Russia. Grunts of indignation are heard, but annoyance with the US hasn't yet risen to a level resulting in its defenestration. It will take some time for the EU to bring itself to arms.

Having tired of playthings in East and South-East Asia, the US has been on a romp in West Asia for the past 35 years. The GCC are old friends, so they still have their phones, and are expecting to pay their regular installments for protection.

Back home, trouble is brewing. It would be remarkably theatrical to have regime change happen, Trump scapegoated, having been fed healthily by the GOP for a term and a half, and causation projected upon Iran's thirst for vengeance, with cabinet officials taking minor rebuffs for incompetence. The valley's puppet masters would have their chosen king, at least for a little while.

In all of this, the only party with obvious material capability to deter the US from causing more loss of human life is the GCC.

I've many friends and some family in the US, and I'm probably more culturally American than Malaysian. But in in objective terms, the moderate way forward for the world is with the GCC taking the initiative to realign the global axis of conflict, by discarding American influence, or at least tempering it down by 50-80% from the norms of the last fifty years. It's a snowball's chance in hell, of course.

What shall we see, this April? Stay tuned!



21 hours after posting this, I'm contemplating the hilarity of Europe cosying up to Iran in an attempt to woo the latter away from Russian influence. Situationships remain unfolding.



2026-04-01 : The FT headline says the EU has no strategy about the Iran war.
  • 1. The US deleverages NATO in favour of POTATO ( Pretaliation of Trump All-in Treaty Organisation )
  • 2. RU threatens the EU, but UA is the whipping boy. UA wants to join the EU/NATO, but (1.) so the charade is UA must help all US allies against all RU allies
  • 3. IL and the US are now the firmest axis on the map. But USIL has now disenfranchised the GCC 
  •  4. The GCC is the only party with material leverage to end regional conflict with IR. In concert with the EU, they can weaken the RUIR axis

Recession my ass : not until big game falls over

Market moves when money moves.

If you get cost-push inflation ( from reduced oil infra : it multiplies up the logistics chain ) you'll still be ok as long as there are jobs on the market - govs can print, and run the economy hot for a bit. 

If at the same time financiers get cold feet and no one, not even govs want to spend, then you get mortgage collapses, and some real PE deflation. But this typically comes from popped bubbles - so for example, an AI paradigm shift, which hasn't happened yet.

2026-03-30 at

on the concept of an Asian Union

  •  1. Main motivation for the EU was, "war bad, we shouldn't do it again". This took about 48 years.
  • 2. During those 48 years, Asia was not yet developed : non-states were becoming states, new states were figuring out if war with neighbours was worthwhile or not, and the US was happily trying to make a buck while all this is going on.
  • 3. Presently, Asian states are still "teenagers", excited about individual personality, less committed to long-term relationships, yet still distrusting of adults.

on VC vs R&D

Threads chat :

Well, you surely understand that in business, money follows trust. Trust follows people who want to appear to be trustable.

If you are a hermit, then you may not seek to appear to be trustable, even if it happens from time to time by accident.

LOL

AI governance and economics in Malaysia

AI governance and economic development in Malaysia, is said to be improved in formality soon. This will be good for business and public end-users and appliance innovators.

Unfortunately, nothing I have seen in Malaysia indicates that core R&D is happening around here. For that, the AI sector will need something like 2024's National Semiconductor Strategy (NSS) which is a matter of moving as far upstream as is reasonably possible, within a global context.

Malaysia wasted the early decades of semiconductor development. Hopefully it will not waste decades flopping around AI. 

2026-03-28 at

life among plebs

Awake again. Back at my desk. Year 4 begins today!

My struggle in recent months has been holding space for the crowds of idiocy that I surround myself with for anthropological purposes.

That is what happens if you allow compromises between caring for people, and learning how to be smart. The people will always consume more computation because there are too many of them, and they exponentially decay resource efficiency, because they are only interested in a small number of dimensions.

The popular ones of course are bread, circus, family, friends, and god. People who pursue these things are the reason the species persists at all, but as a side effect, the species produces wandering cells with limited empathy for the muscles.

2026-03-26 at

why are we waiting

My prejudice : LLM + ATP + sensory data types + spatial modelling = human limit

Another paradigm (loosely) :

Free association ~= set union operations ~= DMN of human brain does more of this ~= synthetic operations on data ~= LLM

Logic ~= set intersection operations ~= CEN of human bran does more of this ~= analytic operations on data ~= ATP

... DMN and CEN and SN : go see triple network model of brain

Here's my noob read on Hormuz

Policy map

  • 1. USA : motivated primarily by xenophobia of Iranian independence, secondarily by appeasement of AIPAC/Israel; threatening to choke Iran 
  • 2. Iran : motivated by xenophobia of US interference, directly or through GCC and Israeli proxies in the region; threatening to punch GCC/6 + Israel/7
  • 3. GCC : motivated by pragmatism; unwilling to anger the US along a shared materialistic axis; sipping tea and complaining
  • 4. Israel : motivated by imperial security; "I will stop attacking you if you, and your proxies stop attacking me"

Geography

  • 1a. Kharg is indefensible no matter who holds it, so the US threat of occupation is a more useful tool than any US occupation itself
  • 1b. Khorramshahr and the Shadegan Ponds seem like nice place to set up forward logistics. So they'd have to grab it via Basra ( Iraq ), near Kuwait, or something. Running exposed flank to Al Pakhsh looks crazy, but much easier if the US ships get into the Persian gulf
  • 2a. A beachhead near Bandar Abbas comes with civilian infrastructure and hostages. Not sure if anyone wants another Fajullah.
  • 2b. The US fleet is going to be stuck at the Oman gulf meanwhile.
  • 3. Securing both 1 and 2 would be a critical development, if successful. But again threats are more useful at this point.

Play

  • 1. The root of the situation is US-Iranian animosity. Deescalation of xenophobia is key
  • 2. If the US and Iran deescalate, Israel becomes political collateral, just a bargaining chip
  • 3. Israel doesn't want Iran to drop more crap on them, so it has to acquiesce to US leadership, if leadership picks this path
  • 4. A axial shift from Iranian isolationism to Israeli isolationism in the region is probably the funnest idea to think about.

- random thoughts of a cipher

temporary inconveniences & maleducation

We the majority, living and working outside of geopolitical professions, usually dwell on trade, civil justice, and daily life technologies, conveniently ignoring the greatest scope of force projections. The cope is understandable. Most of us barely have time to think beyond family and friends, about city and state, let alone regional and global politics.

Every few years we are reminded by a few niggling inconveniences, such as the halving of purchasing power, that a few dozen men and their few hundred lackeys work - without pause, over decades - subjecting millions to disease, famine, physical pain, and their subsequent cognitive effects.

But as soon as our inconveniences subside, say next year, or in five, we the majority will once more forget about life beyond the next Netflix'n'chill, family dinner, business deal, or rave.

Such is the state of education in this point in history. Incomprehensive.

2026-03-25 at

nonsense formality : rdf / resource description framework

RDF study : so far it seems to be a problem of verbosity, and overallocation of significance to the concepts of subject, predicate, and object. Since there are no fixed definitions for { S, P, O }, it follows that there can be no fixed definitions for the relationships { SP, PO, } ( and by extension, SPO ). So the whole thing is just pointers, as binary functions, stacked to the 1st and 4th degrees.

( informal syntax scribling ) 

  • SP and PO are just 1-ary pointers
  • SPO is just a 2-ary pointer ( a pointer to a 1-ary pointer )
  • SPOG is just a 3-ary pointer ( a pointer to a 2-ary pointer )
  • SPOGM... is just a 4...-ary pointer ( ditto, etc. )

OK, back to reading. Now I have to try and falsify my hypothesis about this.

2026-03-24 at

LLMs and mathematical "creativity"

Well, there are only two things in consciousness. Consciousness is information processes + qualia, and for this kind of discussion we can ignore qualia.

If mathematicians had a robust, quantified, understanding of how creativity works, from a phenomenological point of view, I am sure they might disagree that LLMs are not creative. Arguably, creativity is all LLMs do. ( Set union operations, associated with the Default Mode Network, synthetic thought. ) LLMs are simply bad at logic. ( Set intersection operations, associated with the Central Executive Network, analytical thought. ) But we have ATPs for that, so the parts are on the table, but they are not always put together nicely.

But what is the data? Well the data operated on by pure mathematicians is basically language ... the ability to discuss properties of language, and to identify unnamed behaviours of language, and to create new names and new grammar to discuss those.

If we go to applied mathematics, then we are simply back in the realm of physics, and we need to talk about machines have sensors, sensory data types that match human sensations, and then the ability to put that data in planes of space-time, and then to form and test hypotheses about that data. 

review of life

I have not known impressive people, most of my life; but I have listened to many speak about their lives, and been friends with a few.  


I have little interest in the political history of my country and planet, but I have spent now some months studying such things in public.


I have not been a foodie since decades past, but I would, and I did serve food in business. I do not think much of cars or clothing, but others do so I have studied such forms of thought and speech.


I find that life has little to offer, so it is in making a grandiose exhibit of nothing, that we partake of it in its fullness.

2026-03-23 at

TNF-alpha and IL-1beta

Check out these two pro-inflammatory ( immune-response stimulating ) and somnogenic ( sleep inducing ) cytokines ( signalling molecules ) :

  • TNF-a ( tumour necrosis factor-alpha )
  • IL-1b ( interleukin-1 beta )

Consider :

  • "neurotransmitter interaction with tnf-a and il-1b"
  • "insulin interaction with tnf-a and il-1b"
  • "dietary mineral impact on tnf-a and il-1b"
  • "dietary protein impact on tnf-a and il-1b"

gasotransmitters : more systematic details

Oh fuck, nitric oxide helps sleep. I didn't note this before. I guess citrulline intake should be so-timed.

In parallel, I reviewed hydrogen sulfide (also a gasotransmitter). I have hadyears of allium consumption for therapeutic effect, without studying the mechanisms.

So they both sustains infrastructure for breath control, inflammation, immunity, sleep, and clock genes in muscle ... indicating the link between sleep and hypertrophy.

Fantastic.

2026-03-22 at

You are going to say I am masking, ya 🤣

Don't like that la. A lot of people only have food, friends, fashion, art, and sex to look forward to. Lol

I call them plebs but I don't think they have options. It is an ordinary life. We should not be too eager to change the minds of unable people. 

🤣

the liability of masked partners

I don't watch TV much, it's too slow. But I did spend many years watching TV on dates, as partners enjoyed it. This led me to understand that many people seek relationships where they can "unmask" in private, because their public social strategy depends on facades. I am good at facilitating comfort, but it is a pure expense to me - I am publicly vulnerable, and have little to unmask in private. So nowadays I aggressively filter against the trait of comfort seeking, in partnerships. 

SOFR, IORB, EFFR

 US monetary policy studies : 

  • 1. Borrowers of cash, sell repurchase agreements (repos). Lenders of cash, buy repos. Repo sellers put down USTs as collateral. This market determines the Secured Overnight Financing Rate (SOFR).
  • 2. The Fed lends to banks, charging Interest on Reserve Balances (IORB). Banks lend to banks, determining the Effective Fed Funds Rate (EFFR). 
  • 3. Positive IORB-EFFR @ IOER spread, and positive IOER-SOFR spread, signify ample market liquidity.


heteronormative rejection trends

CW : sexual heteronormativity

Men and women reject prospective partners in different ways.

  • Women withhold ANY contracts.
  • Men withhold EXCLUSIVE contracts.

In both situations, we find reactions which range from graceful to chaotic. So it is meaningless to pin fragility in relationships on either gender.

2026-03-21 at

AI governance, job security, and growing the pyramid

So ... in the general study of governance ( same root word as cybernetics ... both referring to control systems ) : auditability is a big deal.

If you don't have time to check everything a population of staff is doing, then you need a way to maximise proof of correctness. That's where various systems and system maintainers come into place. That's just what peoople will shift work to, since the lower level work is getting automated.

We don't lose jobs, we raise productivity ... if, and only if, work at the bottom level is increased fast enough, and safe enough, to grow the pyramid.

frontend architecture : napkin draft

 Frontend architecture drafts are coming together. On today's walk,

  • 1. At the ORIGIN server, the TREE-manifest of application assets should be granularised to the CODE BLOCK, for styles, scripts, and markup.
    • 1.1. This allows INDEXING OF EACH function body, style rule, and document fragment, enabling de/serialisation a.k.a. de/hydration of client application state, including client application logic as state.
    • 1.2. That, then allows including NESTED CACHING of markup.
    • 1.3. And, that allows for the highly distasteful, but occasionally useful, practice of totally modelling the USER's client state, via [ server-side rendering, SSR ] of both [ entire documents ], and [ document fragments ].
    • 1.4. Server and client shall exchange data on latency, server shall default to laziness ( preferring client-side rendering, CSR ), client may object, and server may respond to various degrees, ultimately taking over all work and performing SSR.
  • 2. Client HTML app root functions as a broker
    • 2.1. ... managing all requests to servers,
    • 2.2. ... managing all DOM manipulations,
    • 2.3. ... registering web components,
    • 2.4. ... and, maintaining ( some degree of ) application state.
  • 3. Web components
    • 3.1. ... contain markup, styles, and logic, but no business data
    • 3.2. ... upon registration (2.3.), if data is required, will request it from broker (2.1.), and if DOM manipulations are required, will request those also (2.2.), possibly combining both into atomic transactions to be guaranteed by the broker.
  • 4. Mutation Observer API : enables C++ implementations of communication between components and broker. 
    • 4.1. It's not even necessary to propagate DOM events along the huge branches of markup, because markup is only an end-product after rendering. 
      • 4.1.1. The number of app components is far lesser than the number of markup elements, and it is possible to have a small, detached node tree, representing components without markup, which comes out of the box with the propagation behaviours of events between leafs and root.
      • 4.1.2. Even without a small detached node tree to model components without markup, it is possible to simply pass to each component and the broker, pointers to each component and the broker, so that they can all inbox each other directly without using the messaging medium of DOM event propagation along the giant markup node tree ( though the latter is initially useful, for passing the direct pointers to each other ).

... this design probably implies a lot of bugs I haven't though about.

But I did think it would be cute, since the test is called Jonwik ( because it's not Qwik ), to call the broke Charon.

2026-03-20 at

Islamic governance in Malaysia : formal and otherwise

Do you think the { COR, PM } asks the muftis their opinion, or tells the muftis what to do? And do you think the muftis consider themselves legal servants of the former, or independent spiritual assessors of national order?

I think this is a fair, and polite question, that all Malaysians can benefit from in terms of understanding the formal structures of governance, and the distinction between what is culture from the top-down, and what is culture from the bottom-up.

"Tanah Melayu"

  • 1. "Malaya" cannot be used interchangeably with "Malaysia".
  • 2. Direct translations ...
    "Tanah Melayu" - BM constitution
    "Malaya" - EN constitution
    ... you can use these interchangeably.

As a proper noun ( kata nama khas ), Tanah Melayu is not literally "tanah milik Melayu", and does not have the semantic import of the latter.

This might sound controversial, but it's quite a conservative introduction to the topic :P I don't want to get into details here.

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Makin lama saya mengembara di medsos, makin saya sedar ada orang pikir nama Tanah Melayu membawa maksud tersurat, dan bukan hanya sekadar kata nama khas. Tapi rumit lah benda ini ...

political maturity in Malaysia

Political maturity in Malaysia will happen when the majority can discuss things as follows, without catching feels.

  • 1. Malaysia has a constitutionally caste/class-based citizenry
    • 1.1. This does not imply "victimisation" of any caste/class, though it is a popular slur
    • 1.2.. The caste/class-structure is merely a fact of law
  • 2. Most people on earth live under laws written by other people
    • 2.1. Some people have the power to modify the laws that they live under
  • 3. Malaysians are a variety of 2.1

2026-03-19 at

political development via dialogue

( Habermas passed : a reverberation ) 

  • Malaysian speech freedoms are underutilised, as both government and civil society do not proactively organise broadly unifying conversations in public ( hat-tip to many 2020s bloggers for restarting this process )
  • Malaysian speech freedoms remain vague, and legislatively draconian, in order to allow for executive enforcement in case of emergencies; reforms in these areas are limited, partly due to the previous point ... due to the low utilisation of available freedoms, there are few boundary cases which escalate to legal tests, and basically ... everyone just tries to be nice and talk less, instead of tuning the system to allow for a higher volume of talking firmly
This is my secondary function on social media; my primary function is just to have a social life since most of my work is desk-bound.

Front End Web

( still catching up here )

This is great ... in 2025, React and Vue, major brands both moved towards more build-time compilation of logic, imitating Svelte ( 2016 ). Vue Vapor is basically Svelte, and there is no Virtual DOM. React Compiler meanwhile automates caching of UI code ... which was very tedious because ( they just never bothered to auto-nuance it before, and UI components would frequently thrash the virtual DOM ).

Also, Qwik framework ( 2023 ) optimises mainly for lazy-loading JS based on what's on-screen. So I guess everyone's under pressure to work towards doing it now.

The last time I reviewed FE frameworks was 2020 ... and I must say, in theory, the 2026 situation no longer makes me immediately think the frameworks are stupidly written.

Web caching reflections

Web caching reflections, from today's walk.

Part 1

It is nowadays essential to distinguish between two types of server resources, 
  • (1) base data, which is canonical, and 
  • (2) session data, which is temporarily-stored client-state.
Nowadays, (2) may hold nearly the entire state of clients, including rendered markup, and runtime objects in memory.

  • SSG and ISR depend on (1). No client state is needed, whether serving static content to one or multiple clients.
  • CSR depends on (1), and again client state need not be told to the server.
  • SSR and ESR always depend on (1), and may or may not depend on (2), depending on app architecture.

Part 2

Resource modularisation is natural to the tree-structure of GML (1969) descendents. 2010s web frameworks standardised an expensive approach to differential updates of client session renders, with the concept of a Virtual DOM.

One of the common markup patterns is to have a branch (the Content) subbranched, under a superbranch (the Layout). But then the subbranch is ontologically primary, and the superbranch is relatively trivial. So, in the data-structure prior to rendering markup, it becomes more elegant to model Content as a parent object, and its Layout as a child object. This simplifies the rendering pipeline, and also "allows children to dress however they like, and allows the clothes to pick their own clothes, many layers deep". 

2026-03-18 at

improving cognition in humans

Cognition is a cyclical activity, involving the transfer of data between conscious memory and subconscious memory, and operations on data in each memory plane. 

An estimate of subconscious memory dysfunction is possible, when information moved from subconscious memory to conscious memory is apparently messy, or simply slow to transfer. This is a critical metric for monitoring the health of overall cognition. 

Because subconscious memory cannot be consciously operated, we resort to indirect operations. 

1. We can test transfers of different data from conscious to subconscious memory.

2. We can test operations on data in conscious memory. 

3. We can test operations on the body as a whole, or in parts. 

In all testing, we look to see if there are side-effects on the data transferred from subconscious to conscious memory.

Often 3. involves food, sleep, and exercise, which result in different neurochemistry. Here, exercise refers to any activity, solo, social, etc. 


If you were intrigued by Marc Andreessens's recent Freudian slip, where he claimed to have no "introspection" yet defined it as "guilt", do consider the attached model of conscious and subconscious interaction, for amusement.

how machines can have feelings

It's not that complicated.

  • 1. Humans are conscious only of experiences in sensory modalities ( data-types ).
  • 2. The data presents in conscious memory upon a superimposed space :
    • 2a. rendered input originating from other parts of the CNS such as memory and imagination, and
    • 2b. SNS input which feeds through minimal distance in 2a.
  • 3. To have an emotion is simply to have a shape of certain data-types in conscious memory
The implications are left as an exercise due to character count

Clustering in 2026

Kubernetes :
mainly Linux :
orchestrates node pools ( roups of hosts, with the same configuration ), and pods ( groups of containers, on the same host ) :

/ smallest overheads /

: control plane, [ 600 MB ],

: data plane, per-host agent, [ k0s, k3s @ 150 MB ], [ EdgeCore @ 80 MB ]

: applications get run IN data plane CONTAINERS 


OpenTelecomPlatform/Erlang :
application platform is OS agnostic :
orchestrates P2P clusters ( OTP VMs on any host, which are linked to each other ) :

/ smallest overheads /

: BEAM VM [ minimal startup flags @ 16 MB ], [ stripped compilation @ 5 MB ]

: AtomVM [ microcontroller scale, e.g. ESP32 @ 100 KB ]

: these register-based VMs run INTERPRETED bytecode applications, though there also exists BeamAsm which does JIT compilation


Provisioning & Orchestration tools ( I'm catching up ) : 
  • A1. Docker :
    • ( no host provisioning ), 
    • Swarm ( schedules work )
  • A2. HashiCorp : 
    • Terraform ( provisions hosts ), 
    • Nomad ( schedules work )
  • A3. Kubernetes : 
    • itself ( schedules work ), 
    • has an Addon called CrossPlane ( provisions multicloud hosts; and controls ( regulates ) hosts, which Terraform does not ); 
    • control nodes can init at 600 MB RAM, worker nodes can init at 150 MB RAM; 
    • has an Addon called KubeEdge for managing EdgeCore worker nodes initing at 70 MB RAM.
  • B. Erlang/OTP : application layer : P2P cluster of VMs, not hosts; 
    • VMs can spin up at 5 MB - 16 MB RAM;
    •  has a fandom AtomVM which can spin up a VM at 100 KB RAM on an ESP32 chip
  • C. GitOps has become a formal thing : 
    • Kubernetes even has well established controllers ( regulators ), like ArgoCD ( has GUI ) and FluxCD ( CLI only ).
  • D. Around 2021, linux LXD feature released ... physical host migration of a running VM, persisting a live Remote Desktop client GUI session; 
    • present example : Canonical's open source MicroCloud ( which can de/provision hosts on public clouds too ).

2026-03-17 at

AWS finops : gross fencing strategies

  • 1. Quantity : reduce account service quotas, e.g. EC2 instances.
  • 2. Quality : reduce IAM permissions, e.g. to start EC2 instance types.
  • 3. "Live" Governance : best effort only ... CloudTrail S3/lake ... within 5 minutes ... e.g. can log every EC2 instance creation; or, you can have a 24-7-365 node that pings the API every 5 minutes to describe live resources. Thereafter you can have custom software monitoring each resource, and killing any as necessary.

architectures for life

Design a virus. Not exactly, but I think I need computers to be able to grow and shrink their hardware infrastructure. Typically nowadays we just refer this as scaling out a CLUSTER, by increasing or decreasing its number of hosts. Yes, hosts, the pun is real.

Anyway,  that being done, new hosts need to be running relevant cluster orchestration applications. Cluster orchestration then federates hosts, into fabric, thereby enabling the cluster to increase its function as a single brain / network.

I shall need to get down to this. Once I am comfier with provisioning and orchestration, I will feel comfier about writing the actual applications for general computing.

computation and the triple-network model

( My comment on Marc Andreesen saying he has "zero introspection". )

It's not that complicated. In 2026, it's called using the DMN, which is part of the Triple Network Model of the brain.

  • CEN, central executive network : more analytical thought : more set intersection computations : tactical work based on long-term memory : more signal variance from baseline.
  • DMN, default mode network : more synthetical thought : more set union computations : formation of long-term memory : more calibration of baseline.
  • SN : switchbox

;) YMMV

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It's a tell, that he associated "introspection" with "guilt/ social anxiety" 🤣


Too obvious

HTTP : cache control : headers

Until 2020, I mostly ignored studying IETF protocols in detail. In 2009 I hired a physics graduate off Facebook ads ( client had a limited budget ) and he became our CTO, introducing me to Model-View-Controller ( MVC ) web application architecture. Later I learned there was a whole cluster of variations about such architectures, mostly trivial. Today I'm studying HTTP caching, and revising what I understand.

An initial HTTP Request, from a HTTP User, is expected to go via a HTTP Client, to a HTTP Server, which Responds in the heuristic of HATEOAS, to provide the client with Hyperlinks to Resources. Conventionally, the client's initial request is a GET ( verb ).

REQUEST HEADERS USED IN CACHING

  • Cache-Control: 
    • no-cache
      • "don't send me a cached response unless the server has freshly revalidated the response"
    • no-store
      • "don't store any part of the request or response"
    • no-transform
      • "don't modify the client's request"
    • max-age=[seconds]
      • "any cache must mark the response as stale, after [seconds] + response-timestamp"
    • min-fresh=[seconds]
      • "stricter : don't send me cached responses, unless they will be fresh for at least [seconds]"
    • max-stale=[seconds]
      • "laxer : send me cached responses, as long as they are stale for no more than [seconds]"
    • only-if-cached
      • "don't send any responses, unless they are already in the cache"
    • stale-if-error=[seconds]
      • "laxer : send me cached responses, if server responds with 500, 502, 503, or 504, SO LONG AS cached response has another status code, and is stale for less than [seconds]"
  • If-Modified-Since: [datetime]
    • "if TRUE, send a fresh response; if FALSE, send a bodiless 304 Not Modified response"
  • If-None-Match: "[ETag]", "[ETag]"
    • "if NONE MATCH, send a fresh response; if ANY MATCH, send a bodiless 304 Not Modified response"
  • If-Match: "[ETag]", "[ETag]"
    • "if ANY MATCH, ignore and proceed; if NONE MATCH, interrupt and send a bodiless 412 Precondition Failed response"
  • If-Unmodified-Since: [datetime]
    • "if TRUE, ignore and proceed; if FALSE, interrupt and send a bodiless 412 Precondition Failed response"
  • Range: bytes=[range]
    If-Range: "[ETag]"
    • "if ETAG MATCHES, AND the resource hasn't changd, send [range] bytes of the resource as a 206 Partial Content response; if NO MATCH, OR the resource has changed, send the resource from the 0th byte"
  • Range: bytes=[range]
    If-Range: [datetime]
    • "if resource HAS NOT CHANGED SINCE [dateline], send [range] bytes of the resource as a 206 Partial Content response; if resource HAS CHANGED, send the resource from the 0th byte"
RESPONSE HEADERS USED IN CACHING
  • Cache-Control: 
    • no-cache
      • "don't cache response"
    • no-store
      • "don't store response"
    • no-transform
      • "don't modify the server's response"
    • max-age=[seconds]
      • "any cache must mark the response as stale, after [seconds] + response-timestamp"
    • s-maxage
      • "OVERRIDES max-age=[seconds] for shared caches; IGNORED by private caches"
    • stale-if-error=[seconds]
      • "any cache may cache and send this response, if in future the server responds with 500, 502, 503, or 504, SO LONG AS cached response has another status code, and is stale for less than [seconds]"
    • must-revalidate
      • "don't reuse stale responses, when disconnected from the origin server, INSTEAD send a 504 Gateway Timeout response"
    • proxy-revalidate
      • "ONLY private caches may use stale responses, when disconnected from the origin server; shared caches MUST send a 504 Gateway Timeout response"
    • must-understand
      • "store the response ONLY if the status code's implications on caching policy are recognised"
      • best used with no-store, as the fallback behaviour
    • private
      • "ONLY private caches may store this response, such as browsers and servers"
    • public
      • "ONLY shared caches may store this response, such as CDNs and ISPs"
    • immutable
      • "don't bother to ask server for revalidation, SO LONG AS cached resource is fresh"
    • stale-if-error=[seconds]
      • "any cache may cache and send this response, if in future the server responds with 500, 502, 503, or 504, SO LONG AS cached response has another status code, and is stale for less than [seconds]"
    • stale-while-revalidate=[seconds]
      • "any cache may cache and send this response, SO LONG AS response is stale for less than [seconds], AND cache attempts to revalidate the response in the background"
  • Vary: [headerKey1], [headerKey2]
    • "when responses with [headerKeyN] having M distinct values, each of the M values must not be cached together"
  • Expires: [datetime]
    • same as Cache-Control: max-age=[seconds] but using an absolute time, instead of relative
    • [0] or [-1] forces revalidation
  • ETag: "[ETag]"
    • [ETag] represents a byte-for-byte identical response
  • ETag: W/"[ETag]"
    • [ETag] represents a semantically equivalent, but byte-wise different response; different is typically due to meta-data, such as CSRF codes
  • Last-Modified: [datetime]
    • used as by clients to reify If-Modified-Since
  • Age: [seconds]
    • indicates time this response has been stored in the cache 

RFC 3986 defines Internet resources ( the "R" in URL ) as *nouns*. Theoretically, a single URL should respond with a resource at a single Path, but it may present that resource differently based on Query Parameters. A client's initial HTTP Request : may or may not specify, a demand for raw- or rendered-data. If this context is not specified, the server may have its own reasons for deciding how to Respond.

In 2026, to optimise memory hierarchy, we have the noun phrases : SSR, SSG, ISR, CSR, ESR, SWR, etc. This leads us to seek optimal caching mechanisms for both raw- and rendered-data. A vaguely defined resource might correspond to a complex set of raw-data, and correspondingly a complex set of rendered-data.


2026-03-16 at

What a healed Malay community means to me ( a Chinese Malaysian )

( Singaporean Malays started a trend, lol. )

 What a healed Malay community means to me ( a Chinese Malaysian )

  • 1. Root : reduced repression of self; less submission to authoritarianism; self-control depending on reasoned strategy, not blind compliance
  • 2. Pain Management : individuals to reach daily for what they want; today's stressors should not carry over to tomorrow - too much carry-over results in catastrophic failures ( amok )
  • 3. Rational Development : fewer fights with fists and keris, more with words in parliament, and in court

the wandering cunt

Life in general is boring. Here are some daily adventures, in search of aha-moments, which demonstrate what is commonly called patience.

  • - listening to some dork talk about what they want until they mention something you have to offer them
  • - collecting the complaints of social media users across tens of thousands of words to find the aggregate motivation
  • - reading hundreds of algebraic tokens in computer code before figuring out what the whole thing does
  • - cooking : to reach a consumable product
  • - other chores, cleanings of this and that
  • - going to sleep : what, awake again? 

Philosophy of : preemptive multitasking : by language runtime

Group 1 : C, Java, Rust  :

{ Expensive, Fast, Preemption } : 

kernel-space "OS" thread scheduling : 

Single-box-optimised : best raw performance potential under such limitations : scaling-out requires some reinvention, lacking best-in-class-reliability.


Group 2 : BEAM/OTP, Haskell, Go :

{ Cheap, Slow, Preemption } : 

user-space "green" thread scheduling :

Web-scale-optimised : BEAM/OTP has best-in-class-reliability, but trails in raw performance until scale-out overtakes scale-up. ( Go has a generalist position; Haskell is more for research; neither of these have BEAM/OTP's unique quality. )


Group 3 : Python, Ruby, PHP, JavaScript, WebAssembly :

{ No Preemption i.e. Only Cooperation } :

global interpreter lock : 

Beginner-optimised : best for prototyping : quickest to learn : good-enough for single-box setups : scaling-out requires some reinvention, and lacks both, best-in-class-reliability, and raw performance potential.


  • Group 3 : I suppose here, I remain, for now. A puny student.
  • As a corollary, work to improve scale-up or scale-out while working in Group 3, is a distraction. 

2026-03-15 at

ethnic microaggressions in Malaysia : ontological roots

Or, in business we simply say we cannot manage what we cannot count. ("Do what?", depends on "what exists?".)

Of course here, I'm referring to the constitution of Malaysia as the point of introduction of [ ethnic economic discrimination ].

In case it wasn't clear : my point is that Malaysia is stuck with this [ kedukaan sebangsa Malaysia ] , so you can't fix the little legal microaggressions like daily coloured-treatment, unless you fix the constitution altogether.

Too bad. Malaysia boleh!


Selagi adanya perbezaan kami/kita, perpaduan tidaklah tercapai di Malaysia. :)

Perpisahan sudah termaktub (buat masa ini).

the whole point of dating

Successful date : paraphrased

  • Me : do you like walking up [ local ] hill?
  • She : i went once many years ago; i only go very early before the sun is too strong, and I am afraid to go alone in case i am unprotected from monkies
  • Me : i think you are too sensitive for partnership, but we can be friends and grab coffee
  • She : i would not like to be friends; blocks

1. This is modern dating : not all conversations involve meeting up.

2. A date is great, if the outcome establishes information.

As I was explaining to a critic : the point of dating is not to close deals, but to close the better deals.

raising clinic prices cannot solve malaysia's health problem

If Malaysia raised hospital prices from RM 1 -> 10 : 20.26 MM * RM 9 / 45300 MM = 0.4% of KKM's budget

The structural problem :

  • - National security strategy deprioritises health : huge subsidies are provided for poor food and transportation habits that damage health and raise healthcase expenses : it's a self-limiting feedback loop : which ultimately limits GDP growth
  • - Talent management of doctors is authoritarian and shame-oriented
  • - Usual rent-seeking leaks in CA/OP-EX

prasangka : mutu STEM, pendidikan, songlap

( dari ulasan FB, mengenai mutu pendidikan STEM di Malaysia  )  saya ada prasangka besar terhadap penggunaan bajet KPN lol. Ia memang terpulang kepada kaedah operasi dan pengatucaraan logistik - adanya cekap atau tidak. Kecekapan dalam setiap sekolah mempunyai faktor yang berbeza, maka senibina pengajaran keselurahan adalah rumit.

Memang saya tidak turun padang - rakan sekelas sekolah menengah saya yang terasa dengan masalah ini, pernah membuka program TFM, contohnya, tapi itu bukan kerjaya saya.

Memang saya seorang yang kurang bersifat nak menyusahkan diri bagi menyelamatkan negara. LOL. Tapi bagi tujuan persediaan pendirian saya sahaja, saya buatlah kajian sendiri mengenai kecekapan pelbagai aspek senibina pendidikan.

Kesimpulan saya yang mungkin salah : KPN sejak dulu-dulu sudah berbajet tinggi. Tapi kesannya berjuta-juta MYR telah songlap melalui perbelanjaran operasi dan modal yang tidak wajar, tapi benda ini susah di-MACC-kan.

2026-03-14 at

Malaysia is simply not interested in STEM

( On teaching languages causing a reduction in STEM capabilities. )

More of one doesn't mean less of the other. 

It is just that we do not place enough emphasis on STEM. 

The notion that putting emphasis elsewhere reduces STEM is a poverty mentality. It is what they want you to think, when the real game is "actually we just don't want to improve at STEM".

Indeed, Malaysia is where STEM goes to die.

Redundant ways to use AWS Lambda

Local test enviroments : 

  • (ServerlessApplicationModelSAM), 
  • (ServerlessFramework|SLS)
SAM uses (RuntimeInterfaceEmulator|RIE), SLS uses ... buttfuckall, no one has a name for it, it's not RIE, but it does the same thing.

Alternatives are LocalStack, et al.

Deployment tools :

  • SAM, 
  • SLS, 
  • (CloudDevelopmentKit|CDK), 
  • (CloudFormation|CF) 
... they are all wrappers for CF ... and CF is just a wrapper for the AWS API, so the most minimalist approach turns out to be to script against the AWS API directly. 

Alternatives are Terraform, Ansible, et al.

2026-03-13 at

subby + mengamok : compounded with authoritarian public policy

A tangent on the personality-skew of Malays.

Upon this post, a Threads friend, a practicing Muslim, said they weren't fond of support for the conservative legal system. To which I joked, 

"I think it's a personality thing. Regardless of choice of creed ...

  • a) some people like jerking themselves
  • b) some people like to be whipped

:D"

To which they said they suspected it was a "... Malay thing because the way they put themselves beneath everyone else ..." etc. 

To which, I responded, not-intended as a joke :

"Being subby + mengamok in Malay culture has had anthropological attention.

  • 1. Hypothesis that living in the non-hurricane + non-ring-of-fire + non-desert has setup a comfortable environment and thus culture.
  • 2. The introduction of Islam as an ideology of self-restraint has a deep interaction with 1., which may of course have both healthy and pathological modes.
  • 3. The pathological mode of 2., is excessive restraint without reasonable support structure, increases risk of explosive release."

Then we talked further about downstream public policy, and how it has shaped knowledge, culture, and daily tendencies for all Malaysians.



Friend said, "fact that religion overrides logic annoys ... [ redacted ] ... not even theology ... [ redacted ] ... just basic common sense". To which I responded : 

"- "common sense" is a notion that disregards cultural structure
- going into the structures, it seems you prefer a different culture
- structures are built from various factors ( discussed above in our chat )
- a lot of the structure in Malaysia is authoritarian, which aligns with the Mahathir era of Malaysia's development ( he wasn't a cleric, but clerical developments advanced in parallel with his public policies )"

religious polemics on edge in Malaysian politics

Malaysian public narratives are on edge with religious political polemic. From 30,000 feet, you should have in mind that : 

  • 1. Malaya has a ~47% religiously conservative-Muslim voter base. Birthrates, past and present, indicate that this base will grow in the near term ( 1-2 decades ). Sources say that as many as 86% of the country's Muslims support the official status of the Syariah legal system.
  • 2. Sabah and Sarawak are on the way to getting a super-minority of parliamentary seats, 35%, which would allow them to collectively block unfavourable constitutional amendments ( requires 67% ).
    • 2a. This furthermore means that with less than 50% of Malayan support, a unified Sabah and Sarawak could PASS constitutional amendments.
    • 2b. Note that Sabah has become more conservative-Muslim since 1963, for interesting reasons you should read on separately.

Come on science bots ... chop chop

 A robot that does science needs to have :

  • 1. fundamentally sense-modal data-types
  • 2. spatio-temporal model of said data-types
  • 3. freedom to form, and test hypotheses in those data-types

It'll be a while ... but we'll get there :) I have no doubt about it.

  • LLMs simply do not have 1., and they don't even do logic very well ... 
  • whereas ATPs do logic very well, 
  • and game-engines are a simple example of 2. 
So we will need all these pieces in an anthropomorphic science bot

2026-03-12 at

IAM policy grammar, and the { subject, { predicate, object } } triple

Ok, I figured out what is unclear about AWS IAM policy grammar. It is about the implementation of the { subject, { predicate, object } } triple /triplet /3-tuple.

  • BASIS : 
    • Policies are written as a predicates, which means they lack a subject. When policies are attached to a subject, a.k.a. a principal, the policies-as-predicate are interpreted in the context of that principal-as-subject.
    • ISSUE ARISING : 
      • Without knowing the subject of a policy-as-predicate, it's not apparent what the policy-as-predicate is about.
  • BASIS : 
    • Policies-as-predicates must specify resources-as-objects.
    • ISSUE ARISING : 
      • Some policies-as-predicates specify the object key, "principal", which indeed specifies an authorised subject, however again it is not explicit what the predicate and its object are. Of course, by skipping steps of logic, it turns out that intuitively the current policy is a policy-as-predicate, and the specified principal is a principal-as-subject, indeed it is a principal-as-both-subject-and-object.






POSIX inodes differentiate 7 standard file types ; files, commands, redirections, and pipes

TIL / TIAR : POSIX Kernel's Virtual File System : VFS

While [ reading ] and [ writing ] to [ files ] are abstract operations, the file's [ inode : index node ] has metadata , which tells the kernel to [ handle the file in one of 7 standard ways ] : 

in RAM :

  • 1. file
  • 2. directory
  • 3. symbolic link
  • 4. pipes : FIFOs : uni-directional : local oriented
  • 5. sockets : bi-directional : network oriented

elsewhere DRIVEN :

  • 6. character devices
  • 7. block devices


... and subsequently ...
  • FILES : nouns : storage media
  • COMMANDS : verbs : operations on storage media
  • REDIRECTIONS : transport data between COMMANDS and FILES
  • PIPES : transport data between COMMANDS and COMMANDS
omfg. took 16+ years to make this note lol

care === computation

Care is computation,
and Computation is care.

Read it again. It will help you think clearer, write better processes, and build better machines.*

Don't try to understand it if you don't get it. Just remember it and yank it out when it seems useful. This is more important than Knowledge is Power. Particularly in the present decade when finally, meatheads are forced to look machines in the eye and consider their own triviality of process.

* Some might say it will make you a better human being, but really, who cares about that ...

2026-03-11 at

history of sorriness

 Apology : 

  • - Ancient Greek : a speech in defense, or justification for belief : apologia : away-speaking
  • - 16th-century : remorse


Sorry : c. 1200

  • - root A. Old English, Proto-Germanic : sarig, sairagaz : sad, distressed
  • - root B. Old English : sorg : sorrow : worry, care

... I need to remember this the next time people start discussing the philosophy of apologies lol.


TOTALLY VALID TO SAY SORRY TO EXPRESS SADNESS WITHOUT REMORSE 


LOL

national education syllabus management

( Commenting on a Ben Leong post about curves and competition incentives. https://www.facebook.com/share/p/1EByKv5DDC/ )

It's not particularly hard to make subject tests infinitely hard. Just stop linking chapters to ages. Physics should be a single syllabus from zero to pre-specialised research, managed at the national level. Every subject should be the same, and the syllabus managers can meet regularly to identify redundant modules. It should be a single syllabus graph for public policy purpose. This is graph A. 

There should be a separate graph B, where ages are linked to standardised subgraphs of A.

Further more there then should be regulations on a family of B-like graphs, where anyone creating an arbitrary education syllabus is able to simply show how it maps to graph A. 

Come on, Singapore, figure it out. Malaysia sure isn't going to do it first :p 🤷🏼

2026-03-10 at

penyumbangan kemalasan kepada budaya Malaysia

Bab budaya Malaysia. Bagi saya, seorang yang lebih mementingkan hak individu daripada keseragaman masyarakat, budaya Malaysia hanya cantuman semua kegiatan warganegaranya. Termasuklah yang bercanggah antara satu sama lain. 

Selalunya orang yang tak suka perangai ini akan kata, lebih baik saya keluar Malaysia. Sebenarnya ramai orang macam saya duduk di sini bukan kerana cinta, tapi hanya kerana malas. 

Penyumbangan orang macam saya kepada budaya Malaysia berdasarkan ciri kemalasan itu. :P

What the marhaen want, and structural barriers to Malaysia's political development

My comment below is a response to this : I will post the original text below in case the image gets lost : 



My comment :

You need to slow down a bit. Let me break it down to a structural approach for you.

1. We live in a constitutional ethnocracy, with constitutional guarantees for unequal access based on ethnicity, and we define the privileged ethnicity as a subset of a certain religion. All this is weird ( see other country constitutions ) but it's simple legal fact.

2. You can only change this by parliamentary 67% majority ... and for some items you can only change this with the approval of the COR / council of rulers. In politics there is no such thing as impossible. It is business. You give something, you get something. So next we can go and ask who wants what, and what are they willing to give.

3. But before that, some structural stuff is changing : Sabah and Sarawak are OTW to getting 35% of parliamentary seats ... this is in order to guarantee that they can block any constitutional amendments ( 100 - 35 = 65 < 67 ). That further means that you need another ( 67 - 35 = 32 ) percent of support from Malaya for any changes which are also 100% supported by Borneo. That's 50% of Malaya + 100% of future Borneon parliamentary seats can change the Constitution. Implementation will surely be messier than that ... bit more here, bit less there etc.

4. Back to what parliamentarians want. If we adopt the fiction that parliamentarians represent the marhaen, then the real question is what do the marhaen want. Well Malaysia has been poor forever. Literally SINCE BEFORE MALAYA ... and we are STILL POOR. You can't sugar coat this with a few shiny towers ... quality of life in Malaysia is POOR. And this is why ... PEOPLE ARE UNHAPPY AND ANGRY IN POLITICS.

Until we fix endemic poverty and structural barriers to economic growth ( party A will say it's too much religion, party B will say it's too many pendatang, whatever ) ... people will not agree. Not because of facts, but because poor people are stupid, and easily angered, and it's not their fault ... they are being abused.

5. We can leave 'what does the COR want' to a longer fantasy discussion. But of course, they have constitutional duties to protect Malay imperialism. But even that changes over the arc of history ... what Malays want will change ... every 50 years ... we don't know what it'll be like. But if you are interested in nation building, it's certainly the sort of thing you should have DEFINITIVE MODELS for.

Hope this helps. I hope folks will teach their kids this from the ages of 8-18, it would give us a lot more informed voters who are interested in structural study of the nation.

🙂

Original post which I commented on :

Anon : 

Malaysia is getting from bad to worst everyday.

problem stems from the fact that we, as a country, never had a rountable of discussions regarding all these issues at the highest levels. All of our problems, which leads to more structural problems, can be traced to:

- the status of NEP and special rights of bumiputera. This needs review urgently. They have been abused, time and time again, to enrich cronies in the name of "bumiputera equity" - which leads to insolvency of many politically connected companies, and complete embezzlement of state funds.

- enforcement of quota for non-bumis and lack of meritocracy in public sector as well as public education.

- the status of SJK schools, that are allegedly counterproductive towards racial unity. They need not be abolished, only reviewed. Nons are concerned with lack of quality as well as creeping islamism in national schools, malays are concerned with creation of fifth column/lack of integration in the society. These problems are not mutually exclusive.

Why we suck, as a nation, is because we never want to DEAL with these problems openly like mature adults. Every time these topics is brought up, they are completely shut down by two words: isu sensitif. Mengganggu sensitivit agama, mengganggu sensitiviti kaum. They will never be solved so long as they remain sensitive issues. These are codewords for sweeping all these shit under the rug. Also, most damningly, issues 1 & 2 will never be allowed to be tabled/discussed/questioned openly, since they are the very pillars that created the power structure that we have in Malaysia. It is in a lot of powerful people's interests (royalties, politicians, state apparatus) that issues 1&2 remain isu sensitif and swept under the rug for all eternity.

Unfortunately you cannot ask politicians to solve these issues for us. What happens when you ask them to do so? Well they will find a way to line their pockets whilst giving you empty sweet promises, like they have been doing for decades. The people must come forward and discuss this themselves, at the highest possible public forum, and get it sorted with a referendum. If you ask the politicians, they will simply shut it down by labelling it isu sensitif. At best, they will just delay real reforms and they have a lot of excuses to do so, chiefly not having enough parliament supermajority to pass legislation (even if they do, no one is gonna table it, it will be political suicide, remember, MPs are mostly self-serving). It's very much in their best interests to keep the status quo. That applies for SJK schools as well, which probably needs some kind of review/update/expansion. However in my opinion, issues 1&2 are the most important and urgent to prioritise, since they affect almost everyhing in Malaysia.

We have the politics that we deserve, because we suck as a people. We are like kids, not mature adults. We cannot discuss these issues without someone threatening violence, 13 may, and keris and parang (just mentioning it will make people lose their shit, how childish is that?). And because of this, we will forever remain backwards. You can thank the majority who want to keep it that way. You have to wait until they grow the fuck up, which might take decades judging from facebook, threads, and tit tok comments.

2026-03-08 at

Varieties of emotional fragility

I was talking to a friend of mine ( a self-identified bleeding heart ), about their work, in the care of other emotional wrecks. It made me think about the nature of emotional triggers, and the skew which is commonly observed. Here are some common ones. Each of these is expressed differently in women and men.

  • 1. Loss of physiological security ( "does my body feel safe?" )
    • 1a. Loss of verbal security ( "does my body feel safe, based on the words in my environment?" )
      • 1a1. Loss of reputation ( "in a social network, will speech about me, reduce my security in any way?" )
    • 1b. Loss of physical intimacy ( "do people want to touch me?" )
      • 1b1. Loss of fuckability ( "do people want to have sex with me?" )
      • 1b2. Loss of care ( "if I am hurt, will people work to reduce my hurt?" )

etc.

This is a good launchpad for a broader study, later.


There is an element of culture which I find most amusing. 

Many people are getting into relationships because they are fearful of caring for themselves or being absent of care in the future. I think those of us who are not oriented about this, are in the minority. 

I suppose ... it takes a bunch of training to be ok with living and dying alone, while still maintaining the flexibility to interact with other humans for fun, only.

2026-03-07 at

defining consciousness & psychological boundaries

The fun thing about consciousness is that people throw the word around like it means a lot ... well it doesn't unless you spec a def ... it has like three of four major definitions which are wildly different based on the context.

Roughly :

  • - medical usage ( closest to commonspeak )
  • - poetic usage ( romantic, sentimental )
  • - information systems usage ( broadest )
  • - qualia-logy usage ( metaphysics / onotology / last big question )


If I may extend this a bit. ( Tell me when to bugger off. )
  • 1. The fact that you appreciate your feelings should always be sacred to yourself. Nothing else has to adjust it. That includes other people's feelings.
  • 2. Choosing to admit other people's feelings as effective upon oneself should not be impulsive, but risk-managed.
  • 3. There are plenty of other people's feelings that will be debounced at 2. Many humans will be rightfully filtered out. You just need to decide which bots to filter in.
Once you get good at 2., it helps you work on 3.

In the long run, the only difference between a properly behaving bot and a properly behaving meathead is ... civil rights.

It's a bit mind-bendy, but it's at the crux of the philosophical distinction between various types of humans that have less than normal civil rights : criminals, disabled, etc.

At some point bots become more competent than the bottom-tier meathead ... then whaT?

:) philosophy!

brain networks and sense modalities

Brain network modelling : comparison of my college-era and past-week studies :

DMN activity seems to be associated with primacy of focus on haptic, oscillatory, thermal, and other somatic data types. 

CEN activity seems to be associated with primacy of focus on optical and acoustic data types. 

I could be mistaken, and IIRC the SN is associated somewhat with somatic data types. 

Need to go back and check documentation later.

---

Progress.

So, it appears that we do (a lot) of our conscious spatial modelling of kinesthesia by abstracting into the optical mode. That is to say, when we mentally prepare to move the body, we (often) visualise the movement, instead of feeling it. Of course we do both, and it is more accurate to do the latter. But the stronger the imagined somatic data signal, the more live SNS somatic signals are displaced from conscious memory, and the greater the risk that SNS-PNS feedback loops currently in-flight would get distorted by the imaginary signal.

For example, say I actually hold a ball. I can imagine visually dropping the ball, or I can imagine haptically dropping the ball. If I imagine too strongly the haptic signal, it appears to my conscious memory that I had felt the ball dropping and my subconscious might step in to modify the MNS signal and mess up my current effort in holding the ball in place. Of course, with more practice, a kinesthete will be able to imagine stronger haptic signals without corrupting their SNS-PNS feedback loops. That is just part of what all manual/physical exercise studies do.

I suppose in college, I didn't think of this distinction much. I mostly thought about activating the DMN as a matter of zeroing my optical and acoustic imagination. I guess that is because most verbal reasoning happens in those sense modalities. But actually a total zeroing is excessive - I should have allowed non-verbal acoustic and optical imagery to remain in the imagined signal. That would have been enough to disengage CEN activities from conscious memory. 

Back to thinking about this.

Aside, I must say calcium's hourly effect on neurochemistry is probably the most important thing I picked up over the past 1.5 years. The slower release of chalk in tablet form seems to optimally emulate whole food release rates. The only other thing now is that my stomach is going to get used to producing more acid than it did. So I will have to monitor that

2026-03-06 at

BNM : metaphysics of money

2025 Working paper by BNM on Syariah ontology of modern money, and relevance to CBDC 

https://www.bnm.gov.my/documents/20124/826852/ahmad-et-al-2025-wp325.pdf

Here, BNM appears to take an EITHER-OR stance on the ontology of money : 

  • - either it's a COMMODITY, with intrinsic value, 
  • - or it's a DEBT INSTRUMENT, merely a double-entry item.

** THIS IS INCREDIBLY NAIVE **

In modern monetary use, each transaction is a CONTRACT between THREE parties.

  • 1. The ISSUER of money, a.k.a. bank, controls its BASE SUPPLY
  • 2 & 3. OTHERS who use money, are counterparty to 1, and needs 1. to be sane

I skimmed the paper, and may go back for a deeper read later.

"apa yang menghalang kita pergi lebih jauh?"

  • 1. sejak kemerdekaan ekonomi lemah
  • 2. pemimpin tumpukan isu 3R dan bukan ekonomi
    • 2b. akibatnya, sistem pendidikan merosot : akidah naik, akal turun
  • 3. sudah 70 tahun merosot, tapi boleh diselamatkan lagi
  • 4. sebenarnya bagi ekonomi, kena tumpukan kepakaran berikut saja : MATEMATIK, FIZIK, EKONOMI

Ini merangkumi perdagangan, STEM, dan kesenian.

Pendapat saya sahaja.

- pendakwah kekasaran 

"quiet times" as DMN exercise

On 50% sleep today. Most operations were as usual, being rather unviolent activities. No running, no gym. Just clearing the backlog of reading at the desk, food, and a walk. The walk is a recently imposed routine - for DMN exercise. 

During higher resistance activities, I think the CEN is dominant - jogging is not done in a safe place, so it is essentially an hour of risk management. Walking, apparently I can manage at a lower risk-level. I schedule in 8k steps per day, per conventional guidelines. I think I can do some other things during DMN time : I can do twisty puzzles and study knots while walking, or replace walking with skateboarding or cycling. I have been back at this for a few days, and I am still thinking about how it works.

I was raised in a tradition of doing daily "quiet times" for religious practice - I don't practice that now. In college, I walked a lot, and had plenty of time to think about things without risk. 2005 to 2015 was a mixed bag : a lot of CEN drills, with weekends, in a sense. Work between 2015 and 2020 was highly focused on CEN stuff, being on foot all shift, from 8 to 36 hours at a go, and on-call 24-7. So I suppose it is appropriate to force this sort of thing back into my schedule, for balance of mental conditioning. 

From what I can tell the "quiet time" or more concretely, DMN exercise, is helping to normalise dopaminergic tonality, the baseline signal. This makes it easier to exercise active/phasic dopaminergic activities during CEN work for the rest of the day. Proper dopaminergic form vis-a-vis CEN helps with the rate of reading and integratign new information, to a non-trivial degree.

Rather hypothetical at this stage.  


More stuff I think, that can be scheduled into DMN time : rumination on vague concepts, for example when studying new terminology, or thinking about maths and architectural problems

2026-03-05 at

History of the terms "cognitive science", "neuroscience", and "psychology"

  • 1. "mentalism"/ subjectivity was of course the initial approach to psychology ( 1510-> )
  • 2. Watson 1913 was a paper that flipped the focus to "behaviourism"/ objectivity
  • 3. Chomsky 1959 flipped some focus back to mentalism, which was rebranded by Neisser 1967 as "cognitive psychology" - its subfield, "cognitive linguistics" was then a brand claimed by up to three major factions
  • 4. Longuet-Higgins 1973 coined "cognitive science" finally

  • A. Meanwhile "neuroscience" was Schmitt 1962

improvements needed in Malaysia's censorship process

CENSORSHIP has been a grand government of Malaysia tradition ( at least during my life which began in the 80s ), which continues!

What Malaysia NEEDS is a publicly auditable PROCESS ( accompanied by an easily-understood flow-chart ) ... which illustrates the steps taken between : 

  • - legislative policy
  • - executive policy
  • - originating reports to enforcement agencies
  • - actions taken by enforcement agencies
  • - across multiple agencies, such as the police, and the MCMC

This is so that JUSTICE maybe EFFORTLESSLY SEEN to be DONE, not merely done.

( - taking a brief moment, to comment on current affairs, though I'm in the middle of some history of linguistics thing rn )

world models be so trendy these days

Just to nag again : "world" models are what every human argues about with each other. But those are built on "categories of sense experience" ( traditional terminology ), and the subsequent graph of gestalten, and then only the names of gestalts. If the phenomenological data types are imprecisely anthropomorphic, the world models will so be. Words too.

The root of AI hurdles for a 100 years has not been having the wrong operations, but having the wrong data structure under operations.

2026-03-02 at

EPF : Apa Lagi Rakyat Mahu?

Good, but historically, the EPF doesn't seem to have provided the sort of basic security net available in more robust economies. We continue to rely on C2C aid, which exacerbates parochial family / race / sub-group polarity, rather than putting a focus on collective national wealth, which fuels permanent social security payouts.

SARA etc. type helicopter money programs are hopeful experiments, but certainly not a comprehensive plan. I look forward to more expansive policies integrating

  • - monetary debasement to support trade,
  • - SMB infrastructure to increase velocity,
  • - fiscal deficits to install health and economic infrastructure,
  • - and a strategic narrative from the MOFinance + MOEconomy integrating national strategy : particularly how investments in healthcare and social security can undegird life-long contributions of citizens to real GDP growth.

apa itu perundangan

Kebanyakan orang tersalahfaham peranan perundangan dalam masyarakat.

Perundangan bukan paksaan mencapai persefahaman dalam semua hal, dan tidak bertujuan untuk memupuk apa-apa perasaan seperti kasih sayang ataupun kesetiaan.

Sebagaimana pun perundangan adalah mekanisme yang membolehkan pelbagai pihak yang berbeza, yang saling kejahilan, yang takut/ benci/ kecam antara satu sama lain ... dapat bersefahaman pada tahap yang minimum bagi perpaduan tanpa kebinasaan, sahaja.

Jadi, perundangan menjadi dasar kemasyarakatan, dan akar ini tidak bergantung kepada sebarang kepercayaan, harapan, perasaan, pendirian, kejiwaan, intuisi, ataupun ketidaksengajaan yang berasal sebelum kewujudan perjanjian ( dikatakan kontrak ) sebegini.

2026-03-01 at

plebs defined by luxury

An important distinction, of political affinity : 

(1) people who cannot have luxury, are plebs

(2) people who want luxury, are plebs

calcium, sodium, magnesium

This is very cibai. So it is good to figure it out :

  • 1. Bone is a reservoir for Ca, Na, Mg, in descending order of mass
  • 2. If one of these minerals is deficient in serum, the entire bone structure gets resorbed, and the other excess minerals are dumped into urine

  • 3. Finally the same minerals are reabsorbed by the kidney using a common mechanism, so dumping any of one, dumps more of the others too

Practical conclusion : Ca, Na, Mg need to be consumed together

2026-02-27 at

Malays face unique biases, from employers : brief introduction

1. Yes, racism in hiring happens, but not in a uniformly distributed way. 

2 Distribution is more frequent in a minority of employers.

3a. This minority exists due to structural reasons, leading back to the country's constitution, the history of political narrative, and subsequent development of asymmetrical race-dividing economic policy. In practice it has resulted in an "arms race".

3b. Exacerbating 3a, are the strong employee rights laws, which make it very expensive to fire employees. This causes 3a to frontload their risk management, to filter out Malay employees, because 3a doesn't want to deal with the cluster risk of Islamic religious requirements being used as an excuse to reduce employee's productivity. ( In case it is not clear, there are all sorts of cluster risks, but 3a is biased against this specific cluster. )

2026-02-26 at

Chauvinism

Unpopular opinion : "punish everyone who offends a religion" <- this is a protocol for settling playground disputes.

Everyone who becomes emotionally disregulated as a result of someone else's speech lives in a sort of disabled space ... and what we are condoning as a society, is the normalisation of disability, and mitigations for it, instead of focusing on how to enable the population to be emotionally regulated.

I grew up in this society expecting to go to jail for this lol

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Probably why I will never fit into Malaysian society haha.

It's like living in 28 days later. Every day you kinda just wander out and try to figure out how to interact with the infected.

Some will say "you should leave Malaysia". I think, we are all here as pendakwah. It's just that tujuan dakwah kita semua berbeza.

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On the topic of chauvinism : being a pendakwah of any sort implies you are a chauvinist. It's material implication :P 

on activism

So a Malaysian minister has directed the executive branch to replace any copy of "LGBT" with the copy "deviant culture". The policy device is well known on earth, and the policy direction is well known to Malaysians : and now they come together. 

Setting aside discussion about how likely the policy is to achieve its ends, my thoughts go to the activists in Malaysia's LGBT community. In the past I have found that some of them assert appeals "from empathy", but I believe that approach is strategically ineffective. 

The nature of pain is that it is subjective. Everyone can claim to be in pain, whether it is actually true or false. So it is an appeal which leaves all parties back where they start, in a state of equal competition. 

If activists for, and against, a cause, are to make progress, each in their opposing directions, they must appeal to material arguments. It is no good to yell and hope the other party will change their mind. As already stated, appeals to empathy fall under this category of argument. Each party must be familiar with material devices of law, politics, economy, technology, and physics.

Only materially informed arguments have any strategic advantage.

Guilty Malaysians

Hohoho ... look at all you idiots. Now that the footbook case is "resolved", I will venture a risque comment

1. Original perp OP : did thing T1, then posted a photo of it in public, T2

2. Eeeeeveryone who "reposted" T2 is guilty of T2 also

Discussion :

2a. Motivation, to publicise knowledge of T2? It was not necessary to repeat T2

2b. Motivation, to shock people to inflict punitive action on OP? Now you are guilty of vengeance T3 ( hey, maybe your code says T3 is a positive attitude )

🫶🏼

2026-02-25 at

Putrajaya and Cyberjaya set horrible examples for town planning thereafter

Unpopular opinion : new Malaysian towns are often designed wrong, because the two prime examples of Py and Cy set poor standards for usability.

Symptoms 

  • 1 : difficult to "reach everything" within a 15-minute walk
  • 1.1 : land zoning rules prevent a regular distribution of small businesses
  • 1.2 : land plots and building sizes are large : favouring the rich

( It's ok to have unpopular opinions which are also wrong, as a starting point for discussions on what the right answer should be. )





UK vs MY : control over appointment of the Attorney General, Public Prosecutor, and Judges

A comment on this post.

UK : ... summary, PM controls AG + PP, and Parliament controls Judges

[ PM -> AG -> CPS -> PP ]

and [ Parliament -> JAC&O -> LC's power to deny recommendations -> Crown stamps judges ] 

MY, proposed : ... summary, PM controls AG + Judges, and YDPA controls PP

[ PM -> JLSC -> PP candidates ], [ YDPA -> PP selection ]

and [ PM -> 5/9 majority of the JAC and power to deny recommendations -> YDPA stamps judges ] 

Seems like an improvement in power for the Malaysian YDPA/COR - whose role and responsibilities in the Malaysian constitution are starkly different from those of the Crown in the UK. The COR in Malaysia represents intra-Malaysian Malay imperialism, which a uniquely Malaysian phenomenon. ( I defer comment on whether this is good or bad for the rakyat. ) The COR is always a sort of fourth branch of government, thought it is more formally the root, via its traditional { listen, encourage, warn } role.

My personal feelings are that the COR hasn't done enough over the years, and hasn't been active in reconciling issues with the PM, before they hit the public. This is of course speculation from my unprivileged point of view, informed only by public communications.

Stopping here before I prattle on lol

kepelikan perlembagaan Tanah Melayu

Ada ramai yang tak faham kepelikan perundangan berikut :

1. Tanah Melayu : terjadi lah, bukan milik Melayu sahaja
2. Seterusnya budaya Tanah Melayu : bukan lagi hanya budaya Melayu
3. Hak Melayu dijaga : tetapi tidak semestinya di tempat awam di Tanah Melayu ( kerana 2 )
4. Jati diri kemelayuan dibekukan : sejenis orang Islam
5. Pembahagian ekonomi selama-lamanya antara kelas perkauman : dan akibatnya sama ada baik atau buruk bagi kenegaraan

2026-02-24 at

fahaman ateisme dan agnostisme

Sebenarnya, para ateis & agnostik

  • ❌ bukan percaya tiada tuhan
  • ❌ bukan percaya tiada jiwa
  • ❌ bukan percaya tiada suci & jahat

Yang lebih bersifat fizikalisme

  • ✅ percaya tuhan itu gagasan jati diri pemikir
  • ✅ percaya jiwa itu perisian pada daging
  • ✅ percaya suci & jahat itu hasil rundingan politik

Ada juga yang lain sifatnya. Mestilah satu pos tak menyeluruh. Nak mengaji budaya ini, boleh start lah dari sini.

Asalkan kita bermuhibah dalam kepelbagaian rakyat kita, demi penyelenggaran negarakita.

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Started amping up the reverse dakwah pressure on medsos. Will see how loud it can go before it gets swatted by EUBI or something like that. LOL

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Responding to a query about the definitions above for right and wrong :

"My friend in legal studies, this is literally a test post to see if how sensitive EUBI enforcement is. I think I can defend posting this in court. I don't know how the government wants to handle it - there are so few tests!

Back to your question : that leads us to the general study of secular ethics, which is greatly documented. Can chat more. Unrelated to my post, there are NGOs for philosophy in Malaysia also ..."

2026-02-23 at

Reminders on the legal personhood and liability of AI

Governance long game : 

  • - "who has legal liability?"
  • - "the only difference between AI and a meat person becomes a legal distinction - literally a social class status"

And before AI is granted legal personhood :    

  • - "if you press the self-driving button" -> 
    • either "you the driver", 
    • or "the cloud operator + edge process maintainer" 
  • -> "accept direct legal responsibility for the actions of the car"

AI formation of scientific hypotheses

( These notes were in response to a comment that we should test AGI by seeing if it can reinvent general relativity. )

That's noT how it works, however. You need to give the system access to empirical inputs, not just library sources.

Scientific theory development is based on both

1. an existing theory

2. empirical observations that appear to falsify 1, leading to calibrated attempts that produce new theories with or without further experimentation

"GR was hypothesised from thought experiments, not empirical experiments"

2.1. Thought experiments are done with spatial processing, not with stochastic parrots. The processing algorithm has to actually do physics, including spatial simulations in thought. LLMs don't do that, LLMs only process data structures which are semantic, not spatial. You need spatial data structures in thought, to do spatial simulations in thought. Industry will do more soon.

2.2. All of the former is based on reflection on empiricial observations

2026-02-22 at

mutate and cull

I suppose the best way to introduce the LLM-ATP relationship in terms of neuroanatomy is, it is analogous to the DMN-CEN relationship. 

DAP's communication strategy

https://www.facebook.com/share/v/1B6RvvZ9wg/

As widely observed, DAP is either 
- naive, and intrinsically foolish 
- gullible, and actively baited
- strategic, in appealing to its own base at any cost
- in collusion to shape a popular dialogue characterised by culture wars, that will never end

psy-ops in Malaysia

Malays writing about Malay perspectives in English media, typically come off as psy-ops to placate the Anglosphere, and to derisk everyone's sense of how dangerous existing cultural differences are. 

The converse is probably true, such that non-Malays writing about Malay perspectives in Malay, will also tend to come off as as odd. 

2026-02-21 at

FaaS

1. I was waiting for public clouds to launch them, and was very happy when Lambda GTM-ed. I developed on it for a bit, just for fun.

2. The quickest roll-your-own seems to be : k0s + kNative + alpine, or something like that. I had a brief look at this last year, without getting very far into tests. The overhead for such a system is also non-trivial ( 1+ vCPU, 1+GB ) compared to an application-level system such as in Erlang/OTP.

3. At this point I might actually need to go lower, in order to brain the resource minimisation limit. Maybe it is a matter of building a toy with Rust + cgroups.

Sometimes I feel that life is wasted on little things. But I can't find any big things worth doing, so the little things have it. 


penterjemahan "liberal arts"

 Oi, "liberal arts" bermaksud

✅ "kemahiran bebas" lah

... iaitu persekolahan bagi wargakota bukan hamba yunani kuno ... bukan

❌ "sastera bebas"

❌ "kesenian bebas"

- - -

✅ "kemahiran kebebasan"

✅ "kemahiran warga bebas"

probably more accurate

2026-02-20 at

the problem with communism was not the socialism

Communism : Doesn't work without a clear governance protocol. Can't leave it to executive judgement. Guess what protocol works? Democracy. Ergo democratic, socialism. You could call it democratic, communism, that's just a change of name. Historically non-democratic socialism always failed - do you think it was the socialism, or the non-democratic authoritarianism? Lmao

2026-02-19 at

A guide to the Formal Analysis of Word Salad

( In order of appearance below : unity, education, politics, life, death, adulthood, values, purpose, strategy, tactics, governance, economics, ethics, metaphysics, spirituality, common sense, philosophy, risk management )

Unity is a farce, in the sense that every individual is disposable - if their individual cost exceeds the collective needs of the union. That is how it is with multicellular organisms, and that is how it is with multiorganism organisations. Individual programming holds each individual in place, at various degrees of willingness to keep (within a certain range ) their social cost. That is why education is nothing more, and nothing less than politics. 

- In a world of many, the [ person : as an individual organism ] begins ( being programmed by others ) according to the needs of society at the time.

- In a world of one, the person programs themself according to what is known about their own continuous individuality, including factors that define their own ends for perpetual existence, or eventual demise. < Sidenote : Adulthood as defined by society, is simply the point at which the education of the individual transitions, from being the responsibility of society, to being the responsibility of the person. A society may define childhood as perpetual. >

Politics is therefore merely teleology. That classical word, means the study of [ ends : goals, objectives, purposes ]. Laid out roughly, this is a progression, from intuited values, to precise goals, to strategies, to tactics. A modern phrase, which may be easier understood by rational materialists, is [ control engineering : other modern words referring to a similar concept, are governance, and cybernetics ].

In summary, 

1. the following are identities :

- all talk of unity,
- philosophy of education,
- politics in progress, and 
- governance as a process.

Therefore, everyone who participates in the discussion of what makes an individual maintainable or disposable, in any context, reifies all these named concepts at once.

2. Wherever quantitative methods are applied, it is further named :

- economics.

3. In short, all these bear the name : 

- [ ethics : questions of the general form, "what should we do?" ]

< Sidenote : a classical phrasing, is that ethics depends on [ ontology : a.k.a. metaphysics, questions of the general form "what exists?" ].

- This then points us to mathematics and the natural science as dependencies for a MORE rational approach to 1.

- Whereas, broadening ontology includes LESS rational, non-scientific, natural-language, alternative-traditional, concepts ... including such notions as : spirituality, common sense, and custom.

The sum of ethics and metaphysics, is generally referred to as philosophy.

When philosophy is applied to itself, it is conveniently referred to as metaphilosophy, whose concerns include [ epistemology : questions of the general form, "how do we know what we know?" ]. >

2026-02-17 at

malay and malaysian identity in the constitution

Sebagai penjelasan lagi, perlembagaan menugaskan peranan raja2 dalam mempertahankan hak Melayu+BS&S. 

Dalam perbahasan, ramai orang ingat ini bermaksud "raja2 harus menjadikan Malaysia satu tempat di mana budaya Melayu diwajibkan sebagain alhuiat kebangsaan", sebaliknya ini pembacaan yang salah.

Dalam satu negara yang alhuiatnya bukan hanya M+B raja2 berperanan untuk menjaga hak M+B di tempat duduk M+B. Tetapi di tempat bukan rizab, sepatutnya dibereskan bagi alhuiat am.

2026-02-16 at

penyelesaian muktamad

Saya cadangkan penyelesaian muktamad.

1. Semua Cina dan India pindah ke (a) Sarawak (b) Pulau Pinang dan Melaka tak boleh sebab terlalu dekat (c) Sabah tak boleh sebab ada masalah politik yang belum selesai sejak peristiwa televisyen dulu.

2. Sarawak dan Tanah Melayu berpisah.

3. Tanah Melayu membesarkan lagi majoriti Melayu. Boleh betulkan perlembagaan dan keluarkan perkara mengenai kaum, supaya sesiapa yang tinggal semua jadi serata dan tiada apa-apa keistimewaan bagi marhaen ( raja2 mash spesial ).

4. Sabah settle dulu keadaannya dah pilih nak teman siapa.

Inilah cadangan yang paling bes must try minggu ini diskaun mesti jual habis2an 🤣🤣🤣

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temperatures are rising in Malaysia. not to worry, the KLCI is at 50,000 ... how did that happen?! 

2026-02-15 at

empathy with the chronically anxious

I feel that the greatest loss of time in my life has been empathising with anxious people. I've been quite good at it because it has been my natural environment, but I am not sure it is always a profitable expense. 

Malaysia is famously anxious - one of our national tropes is pent-up anxiety, and we contributed the word 'amok' to the English. I have written to a greater extent on this before. 

My parents, only one of whom was born in Malaysia, were both anxious wrecks for the most part.

So that is how it became my natural environment, two levels deep around me.

Nowadays I expend some energy here and there in this activity, but generally I am wary of taking profits upfront, as anxiety tends to be a debilitating condition for those who have it chronically. They do not often get well fast enough to make superficial therapy a well-paid endeavour. Professional therapists will string this out and it is a goldmine. I do not prefer to participate in that. 

Maybe one day, I will. 

agama kepatungan hati

Hidup di Malaysia memang pelik. Semua pihak mematungkan agama. 

Satu disyaki mematungkan sebatang kayu.

Dia pulak ingat kawannya mematungkan khayalan. 

Kawannya pulak ingat seorang lagi mematungkan manusia.

Seorang lagi itu ingat orang yang lain mematungkan wang.

Adapun yang disyaki mematungkan kekosongan. 

Ada lagi yang disyaki mematungkan keindahan.

Ada lagi yang disyaki mematungkan tamadun.

Ko patungkan apa? Tahu tak, apa itu maksud agama? 

GABA : DMN suppression

TIL : the GABA neurotransmitter is greatly involved in suppressing the [ Default Mode Network, DMN ], an operation which is required for control to pass to the [ Executive Control Network, ECN ] ... hence the link between GABA boosters like barbiturates and executive function disorders, such as those of the Autism spectrum.

In college I figured out how to quantify conscious experiences. Now I get to learn about how the experiences are controlled. Fun.

what happens if I turn X off?

Studying complicated structures, with multiple overlapping control planes, such as the nervous system : I find it is useful to read first 

  • in terms of "what happens if I turn X off", 
  • instead of "what does X do". 
They are essentially the same question - however due to cultural reasons, possibly related to the anthropology of linguistics, the positive statement "subject-has-predicate" does not generally provide details of "subject-not-has-predicate". This is quite interesting for various reasons.

2026-02-14 at

signalling reflections

Avatar driving : momentary reflection on a brief but ongoing study of control systems. 

Serotogenic and adrenergic excess is like lubricant, they make things easier, but don't contribute as much structurally as ... dopaminergic and cholinergic fundamentals. 

I need to get into further details and field tests. 

2026-02-13 at

what is a journalist?

A journalist is just the edge processor for a librarian.

- reply to a journo friend, who sent me an article pondering the AI-era ontology of journalism

angst and its discontents

Given enough angst, the snake will eat its tail, the horse will drown itself in the trough, the human will hang itself by the shirt, the stomach will consume itself, etc. So it comes to pass that people are wary of angst. Some might say they fear death, and so they fear angst as a cause of death.

kerja orang gila

Kadang2 kebingungan aku tiada had. Termenung saja tanya diri, ahli politik dan badan pemikir parti semua ni ... sengaja melemahkan diri tanpa persediaan strategi, ataupun tengah bermain catur 5D diluar gagasan marhaen sepertiku : adakah semua wayang politik di negaraku hanya kerja komplot antara empat cabangan raja, wakil rakyat, hakim, dan jemaah? 

Dahlah kita tahu, mau dapat undi, mestilah mengapi2kan sesuatu. Tapi pihak yang diserang sepertimana pun, patutnya ada kepakaran bombanya dalam angkatannya, kan?? Ataupun kita sengaja nak, sepertimana dikatakan seorang pengarang muka buku, pi mai pi mai tang tu ... dengan setiap isu kegemaran nasional. 

Contohnya, bab babi. Kenapa setibanya percikan isu ini, jemaah, parti, MB, dan pejabat DYMM, tidak auto-jalankan protokol kelolaan bilik perang antara satu sama lain BAGI TUJUAN MENYEJUKAN ISU demi kesejahteraan dan kecekapan ekonomi? Hang ingat pemutaran berminggu2 antara pihak ini boleh mengembangkan KDNK ke, cemana ya? Semestinya, "protokol tersebut tidak wujud", dan kita kena tanya, "kenapa?" 

Contohnya lagi, bab kuil haram. Sampai hari ini, tiada satu pihak mengemukakan carta alir yang ringkas demi penyelesaian isu ringkas ini. Hanya setiap pihak kata, "saya lebih berundang", tapi kebanyakkan ucapan ini tidak memetikan dengan terperinci undang2 mana yang berkaitan. Satu jerit roboh, satu jeri humban. Mana pulak petikan tertentunya? Ini bukan benda susah, bukan fizik kuantum. Ini kemahiran asas dalam bidang retorik, penerangan awam, dan karangan ... kerja budak sekolah, pun mungkin lebih elok daripada persembahan pakar2 kerjaya ni.

Entahlah ke arah mana pilihanraya akan pergi dalam 2030-an, dan 2040-an nanti. Nampaknya macam kerja orang berpura gila. 

2026-02-12 at

what recorders teach children

When someone in charge, gives you something inane, with instructions to blow on it, it's more important to demonstrate effort than to achieve competency.

2026 Feb : Snapshot of generalist life

Hard task of the moment : figuring out the model of structure between
  • - physical plane : neuroanatomy / organs / tissues
  • - network plane : salience / default mode / central executive / etc.
  • - neurochemical plane : adrenergic / cholinergic / dopaminergic / etc.
Hard task of the last six months : figuring out 
  • - parliamentary Malay terminology
  • - Islamic Malay terminology
  • - Malaysian Malay cultural memory and references
Hard task of the last three years : figuring out
  • - mappings between individual nutrients and monthly / daily / minutely performance
Hard tasks of the last several years : figuring out
  • - general mapping between formal and informal languages
Resolved task of the past two decades : figuring out 

  • how to talk to computers, all the way down to memory layouts and processor operations

Resolved tasks from over two decades ago :

  • - understanding institutional treatments of the total history of human ideas / education syllabi
  • - mapping every type of conscious experience to a known quantifiable data structure

2026-02-11 at

Calcium study

Today perhaps, to read about calcium's interaction with everything else.

First interesting find of the day : the atherosclerotic contributions of Ca2+ are due to its intracellular action resulting in vasoconstriction. In a functional feedback loop, the intracellular Ca2+ concentration THEN triggers NO release which antagonistically leads to vasodilation. So to some degree, the athletic benefits of NO's vasodilatory effects, actually require Ca2+ to function properly.

Second interesting find : Ca2+ moderation is also essential for optimal functioning of the raphe nuclei's serotonergic neurons, affecting wakefulness, sleep, and the overall serotonergic system, associated with diseases of mood ( depression, anxiety, OCD, schizophrenia, etc. ) and CO2 sensitivity ( normal : panic if CO2 is too high ).

Third interesting find : Ca2+ competes with Mg2+ for gut absorption, so I should just park Mg2+ in the bread recipe, and Ca2+ in the kimchi recipe, separately.

Fourth : Ca2+ contributes in mitochondrially complicated ways to energy production. When Ca2+ levels are normal, calcitriol ( final form of vitamin D ) will increase fat burning, but if Ca2+ levels are pathologically low, more calcitriol will lead to fat accumulation instead.

( Also today, after yesterday's supplementation of ~500mg Ca2+ I found that there was less need for caffeine upon waking. That makes sense. I will continue to monitor this. )