2026-06-05 at

brief flashes

1. Did you know you can get your house blurred out on Google Maps? 

2. Ditto you can get information removed from search engines with due cause. 

3. There's a brief surfacing of Internet information via frontier LLMs these days. 

4. How long until the information is buried again? 

5. When will states start to lock citizens, both children and adults, to limited sources of information? 

Stay tuned. 

2026-06-04 at

"why do Malaysians fear conversion to Islam?"

Amat senang jawapannya.

1. Negara Malaysia pakai PERUNDANGAN bagi penganut Islam yang tidak dirasa sesuai oleh bukanpenganut.

 2. AMALAN EKSEKUTIF kerajaan lagi pun tidak berciri bebas membolehkan penukaran agama keluar+masuk. Rekod isu ini dah teliti. Mungkin dah masuk OSA. Kita tak tahu.

3. Lagi pun, PERUNDANGAN macam EUBI merupakan ancaman kebebasan bukanpenganut, jadi perasaan dorang selalu "tense" la.

Ada dasarnya dalam politik 70-an. Masih kita berperang saudara / budaya secara sopan.

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Persoalan macam ini, penting bagi pembangunan negara. Jawapannya lebih penting lagi bagi kemajuan kedua-duanya Islam dan Malaysia ... maka tajuk ini hangat dalam hati walau pantang pada luaran.

Dari kaca cerakinan binaan, mungkin badan dan otak negara tak cukup sihat dan kuat lagi, bagi menghadapi persoalaan yang terperinci. Itu hanya nasib rakyat zaman terkini. Kepimpinan negara gelisah, berkitaran dengan kegelisahan rakyat, selama 70 tahun pertama ini.

poor discipline

Malaysians kena fikir balik jap, "kenapa urusan ekonomi tenaga kerja kita jadi lemah, dari 1970-an sampai sekarang?" 

- urusan penjawat kesihatan awam, satu bidang kejuruteraan, yang mempunyai kitaran hidup yang terpaling teratur dan terkawal : dah pun sini kita terhilang disiplin dan meninggal tugas, sebab individu tak dapat mempercayakan kebaikan pengawainya

- bahkan, kawalan keyakin buruh pasaran bebas secara am?

Mungkin patut kita ambil menteri2 penjawat awam dari Angkatan Tentera Msia

2026-06-03 at

Tuhan apa yang korang sembah, di sini?



Kemiskinan sesuatu bangsa menjadi nyata, bila bermulanya kecacian terhadap bangsa lain. Kita dah lama menyempurnakan kemiskinan sebegini.  

Itu lah, kedukaan sebangsa Malaysia. 

penjimatan tenaga pendatang

Sbg rakyat Malaysia kelas3, kerangka jimat usaha politik saya :

/ tumpu dlu /
- ciri perundangan, dan kecenderungan perhakiman
- ancaman luar negeri
- ekonomi asas : kesihatan, kewangan, pembinaan
- latih diri

/ abai dlu /
- pilih parti
- isu mengutamakan satu kaum ( atau agama atau bahasa )
- isu intra/dalam-kaum
- biar saja orang lain terlatih senget

SEMOGA KAU SAMA JUGA

thermodynamics, transcendental idealism, and maths

Remedial maths reading has led me today to the principle laws of thermodynamics. Maths as a language, evolved from the pursuit of laws in physics, and thermo maybe can be considered a "pure category" of experience, in the sense that it tautologically linked with our perception of time, isn't it? 

2026-06-02 at

Epistemology and the role of mathematics


Some people talk about maths as a bastion of certainty. Others think, merely moving from no numbers to natural numbers, a great leap of faith. And moving from natural numbers to real numbers, already a construction of cantilevered toothpicks. 

islam x religion

Islam <- "submission" / penyerahan
Religion <- "reattachment" / ikatan semula

Dua perkataan ini mungkin ada persamaan semantik 50-70%

2026-06-01 at

Amanah Kenegaraan Anda

Pembinaan negara bukan kerja orang besar, malahnya kandungan setiap pengecik.

Amanah bukan hanya berundi, malahan bertanggungjawab dalam gerak keseharian.

Amanah pernah dicirikan sebagai rukun.

1. Kepercayaan kepada ciri kemanusiaan sebagai bayangan ketenteraman alam, walau tiada pun keseragaman gagasannya. 

2. Kesetiaan kepada keniskalaan penyatuan masyarakat. 

3,4. Keluhuran dan kedaulatan tersurat.

5. Kerendahan hati, tanpa kerendahan diri.

Renungkan.

pineal gland

- sits outside BBB to manage blood 
- but needs blue light notification from retina
- retina routes to CNS's SCN, which routes to PNS's SCG, then to pineal
- pineal was first evolved eye, which converted to an internal organ in mammals
- our paired eyes evolved later, from neural tissue
- light has to pass through the optic nerves to reach the photoreceptors before being chemically signalled back to the optic nerves

2026-05-30 at

college

College has been on my mind a lot. I pinged a bunch of profs from 23 years ago about recent news that reminded me of the exact same shit I was staring down back then. Always figured AI would break a lot of heads so I wouldn't have to be the one to do it. Breakage will continue for another decade I guess.

When I got to college in the US, from Malaysia, i had never seen so much money in my life. Just sweeping floors and minding reception desks, and I was already sending spare cash to charities in Africa for a well, because I didn't know what to do with the excess. 

The thing is though, at the same time, now I didn't say it too loud back then, but a lot of the people around me were dumb as shit. It was absolutely not inspiring that way, and I really worked my ass off just to figure out how to not be what the system said was correct, because it was so obviously FOS.

I generally don't expect other people to share my views. Even at 40 I attended some orgy full of hot people on drugs, and the first thing it reminded me of was what I hated most about college. The boredom. Tooth gritting boredom. But for others, that was the life. They missed that the most, while the thing I miss the most is a having a library open all night.

The world is the sum of our parts. Sure, I like a good fuck. But there are more important things that people aren't doing, and I enjoy some of those things more, I guess. Different things are important to different people. 

anti-stalking law in Malaysia

Effective 2023, act 574, section 507A, which surely includes, in its breadth, repeatedly texting on any media or commenting upon someone in social media :), so long as any reasonable person ( common sense weasel clause ) would know it would distress the recipient of such treatment. 

kindergarten politics

"I am surprised at X in my backyard, is there any way to stop X?" 

I mean, yes, at the risk of being arrested for public disorder. Merely the nature of things. Things only change if people care enough. 

keutamaan perkauman

My view of Malaysian politics as it stands is "asalkan perkauman diutamakan" vs "asalkan bukan tunggang perkauman".

Roughly that puts us at

Type A : Perkauman - UMNO, BERSATU, PEJUANG

Type B : Agama, Geopolitik, Kesamarataan - every other party


moral orthogonality as a liberal art

The rudiment of chauvinism is moral orthogonality.

1. Identify the moral agent. 
2. Identify the moral agent's axis of virtue. 
3. Assert to the moral agent an orthogonal axis of virtue. 

There is literally nothing more to trolling, revolution, or the corruption of youth. 

2026-05-29 at

liberal art education x AI

Re : Frey 

I agree with the direction but for fundamentally different reasons, unless this turns out to be a case of linguistic confusion

(1) I'm not a human exclusivist, as I figured out around 2004 how to map all my qualia to quantifiable data structures

(2) the tradition of the "liberal arts" is originally tied to capitalism not humanism - "skills for nonslave humans"; on the other hand, the tradition of a "liberal education" carries more of the modern notion of humanism; both meet around the junction of participative democracy, but one term is thousands of years older in context

(3) the contemporary liberal arts are more like trivium, natural sciences, social sciences, humanities, macroeconomic allocation, geopolitics, law, and engineering (including medicine) sure, but it really is a different thesis.

Or I'm just splitting hairs? Haha. Maybe analytical/ quantitative phenomenology will become a liberal art, in the future. :p

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Src :
https://www.linkedin.com/posts/boardops_i-agree-with-the-direction-but-for-fundamentally-share-7465906933401554944-nIlI/?

Discussion :
I spent my undergraduate career rudely complaining about this to my professors. Basically nothing has changed since 2003 🤣

2026-05-28 at

PMXI pool

Sanusi, Rafizi, Hamzah + JAG wildcard ... we have not had any serious technocrats, and JAG is about as close as it gets.

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Hot take : I would vote for this :

PM : Sanusi
DPM : KJ

Also this :

PM : Abang Jo
DPM : Akmal Saleh

Why? Because I almost never do things if I feel the outcome is easy to predict. 

conditioning inadequancies

Adequate physical conditioning ends with inability to stand.

Adequate mental conditioning ends with inability to think. 

Adequate social conditioning ends with inability to speak? 

Haha

My approach to the Ivory tower


Since I was a child, business done by ordinary people has seemed trivial. I thought, all of us can do it, and it is not something to be considered hard. At 43, I still have this view.

But around the age of 16, I developed an appreciation for cultural anthropology. This arose from recognising that communication is hard, and that its hardness is structural, but rarely impermeable. In college, I considered a traditionally academic life, but I found my peers and professors all to be ... insufficiently ivory ... too commercial, perhaps. So, I made a point to practice anthropology by living with them, while attempting to be ... ivory enough ... in my spare time. It was a period which I have always been grateful for. I considered stopping halfway through the program, but decided to finish it for convenience.

Then around 22 I turned my attention to collecting commercial experience, which I viewed as necessary, in order to be credible in such society, even though I did not find such society intrinsically interesting. I lived among them until I was around 39, taking only about a year out of 17 to be uncommerciably academic. 

Now, attempting a decade of academia, I am not sure that I do a clever thing. But I am rarely sure that any of the things I do, are clever. TBF mainly they are simply interesting. 

2026-05-27 at

the university and its daemons

And AI will increasingly become good enough to facilitate university level discourse, coaching, and grooming. This was always going to happen. Just a question of when. The university as a machine proceeds, with its goals, though methods may change. Maybe goals will change as industry changes also. 

Top universities are fundamentally about political laning, not knowledge, anyway, though the two are related. Only one of the two pays, so the payers have it. 

quantitative phenomenology in canon

It's been a bit disheartening to be reminded, that many clever people still have not the training, which allows them to map their emotional and other personal phenomenological experience to objectively quantifiable data structures. I wonder in what decade or century, this becomes a canonical liberal art. 

next gen lang?

Maybe it is time for a new generation / paradigm of programming language which is tailored to natural language users and environments. Mainly it has to have two things, a control flow that automatically handles exceptions by cleaning-up to a default arena state, and control flow for verifying success within an arena so that it becomes a save-point for progress between arenas. Maybe start like this. 

menggelistis / gedik / manja

My updated translations : "coyness arising from anxiety; descriptive of both childish social incongruence, and signalling in intimate relationships" 

2026-05-26 at

LLMs - intuitive?

There is one outstandingly wrong, critique of most LLMs : 

"they don't have an intuition". 

Well, intuition is NEARLY ALL they have - just open it up and look at the data structure. This is because they are trained as probabilistic consolidations of all past uses of each word in known history, vis-a-vis "unsupervised learning". What they do NOT have is rules, because they are not trained with hard counterexamples, vis-a-vis "supervised learning", let alone trained to have strict rules, vis-a-vis "logic programming". 

on the merits of denying intelligence

Thanks for the thoughtful comment, haha. Without getting too much into the weeds, I think : Each of our perspectives on what AGI / or "I" in general means is shaped by unique personal experience, a bound set for each of us. These sets may or may not be commensurable - we don't currently know if the categories or your experience, and the categories of mine are even comparable. This has political consequences, mainly related to how seriously we take each other's speech.

Some of the technological steps you mentioned however, I must say are "operational improvements" which improve cache hierarchy and introduce compression in some cases -without really changing the overall "architectural" approach employed by the currently trendy transformer gang. 

I think it remains useful to query both, other humans, and the results of what we can make machines do ... in improving not just "what we think intelligence is", but also how we can communicate what we think it is.

the ambiguity of knowledge

A parent asked, if others had asked their children, what their children wanted from education - and how to judge if the child's preferences or the parents' preferences were better.

I elected to share a canonical rant : before I went to Year 1 of elementary school, my parents asked if I wanted to study in a school with two, or three languages. I said two, because I wanted to be lazy. They sent me to the school with three. So for the rest of my life, I have been wary of fools asking meaningless questions.

Aside from that, of course life has provided many disparate experiences. Many have involved speaking with people who tell me, nicely or otherwise, that they believe I am not well-informed or well-opinionated. The problem with me, I find, is that while I am quite willing to accept these views, and submit to compromise, more often than not, I find that I should have paid less attention to them, because the speaker was foolish. I can only speak from my own experience, which is quite limited.

I do not believe this makes me intelligent, but sometimes intelligence is something you have whether you want to have it or not. And others lack it, whether you wish they had it or not.

And sometimes you are just stupid. :)

2026-05-25 at

maths has an ISO notation

Day 1 back at elementary number theory ( day 1155 of sabbatical2, day ~15,547 on earth ). I am revising this slide on the notation for exponentiation and logarithms which I made year ago.

  • after a bunch of catch up on software engineering, I am finally turning to focus on remediating my poor foundations in number theory
  • a quick look around the internet will show you that this "has always been, and continues to be" an issue for many students of maths; folks also decry other notations like dx/dy, and the visual non-symmetry of notation for differentiation and integration
  • I think, a pet idea of mine henceforth will be  : someone should make an ISO standard for canonical mathematical notation, and then republish all past mathematical texts ( or have a way of translating them automatically ) to the canonical mathematical notation; all mathematicians would be of course free to use non-ISO notation anywhere they liked. ( oh wait, they've been doing it since 1992, and the latest is here : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/ISO/IEC_80000 )

TIL :(or am reminded, because I probably forgot) : 

  • (1) there's an ISO for maths notation, so speculation about notation optimisation should just target that, 
  • (2) the notion of "antilogs" we studied in highschool are already deprecated in scientific writing, 
  • (3) the etymology of "logbooks" is the same as that of "knots"


    orang kebencian

    Jenis orang yang paling saya benci, bukan tertumpu kepada mana-mana negara, atau kaum, walaupun ada banyak jenis ini persekelilingan hidup saya. 

    Iaitu sesiapa yang dahpun dorang diajar sesuatu oleh ibubapa atau gurunya, dorang ingat pula orang lain kena ikut cara itu. Bila tak ikut pula orang lain, jenis orang yang saya paling benci akan rasa gelabah. Dorang seakan-akan petu ... yang mat saleh panggil karen. 

    "Kan, saya sudah buat apa yang disuruh, kenapa orang lain tidak menjunjung perbuatanku? Mana pengiktirafan? Aku mahu respek! Cara saya mulia! Saya seorang yang berjalan lurus! KORANG, tak beradab!" 

    Karen puteh ada, karen cina ada, mana-mana jenis karen pun ada. Tapi ini kerangka mengenali penyakit itu, secara am.

    Saya tidak sebut pasal kemahuan seseorang. Tapi pasal orang yang kemahuannya, diterima dari ajaran, dan bukan dikerjakan sendiri.

    electrolytic muscle function, and disease

    At rest : 

    • [ neuron and muscle independently : sodium-potassium pump (slow) : pushes out 3Na+ for every 2K+ pulled in, maintaining negative voltage inside the cell ]

    Firing : 

    • [ neuron : ( due to upstream stimulation) opens sodium gate, Na+ inflow sends current to calcium gate, Ca2+ enters neuron, triggers acetylcholine release into synaptic cleft ] 
    • -> [ muscle : acetylcholine from synaptic cleft, opens sodium gate, Na+ inflow sends current to sarcoplasmic reticulum, which releases calcium, which causes contraction of the cell : (fast) K+ leaves cell to restore negative voltage inside the cell ]

    Muscle Diseases, and ordinary states which become diseases if not reversed within ordinary timeframes :

    • - Ca2+ : 
      • too much outside cells, "overshields" sodium gates of BOTH neurons and muscles, both become "understimulated" ... and subsequent to neuron stimulation, Ca2+ enters neuron slower, dumping acetylcholine slower, furthering muscle "understimulation"; 
      • too little outside cells, "undershields" sodium gates of BOTH neurons and muscles, both become "overstimulated" ... and subsequent to neuron stimulation, Ca2+ enters neuron faster, dumping acetylcholine faster, furthering muscle "overstimulation"
    • - Mg2+ :
      • too much outside cells, block Ca2+ entry to neurons, reducing acetylcholine release, "understimulating" muscles
      • too little outside cells, Ca2+ entry is less blocked, increasing acetylcholine release, "overstimulating" muscles
    • - K+ : 
      • too much outside cell, K+ cannot leave quickly, cell may become "overcontracted" - ditto "overexcitation" of neuron at early stages, but  at later stages, sodium gates fail, neurons and muscles both weaken; 
      • too little outside cell, K+ leaves too fast, cell may become "hard to contract"
    • - Na+ : 
      • too much outside cell, Na+ enters quickly, cell may become "overexcited", ditto for neuron; 
      • too little outside cell, Na+ cannot enter quickly, "underexciting" cell, ditto for neuron; nervous system may overcompensate with erratic voltages, causing "erratic excitation"


    The Cartesian Product Bubble

    I'm guilty of avoiding AI over the past decades because the techniques I've heard about still seem rather primitive. The last decade in particular has been characterised by VCs throwing obscene amounts of money at a fundamentally inefficient approach.

    After noodling around in the current tech for a week or so, just to make sure I understand what's going on, I think it's safe to say that the the titular concern of this post stands firm.

    An analogy. At the heart of trendy LLMs is a giant Y times Y list of known words in English ( also other languages, but nevermind those for now ), forming an enormous 2D table. It's Y times Y because both H and V axes have the same list of words - sure, half the table is redundant, so you can think of it as a trangular half-rectangle of unique pairs. If you lookup the junction between any two words, you find a WINDOW to a realm of many, about 10^(3 +/- 1 ), dimensions of information about each pair of words.

    Based on the "best" available public information, this is the data structure for storing everything the LLM knows about the world - which it knows ONLY FROM READING TEXT ( except for MLLMs, which we'll also ignore for now ). Even in the case of MLLMs, sensory spatio-temporal data can be understood to be stored within the realm accessed by each WINDOW.

    Of course, when you ask an LLM a question like "What is the meaning of life?" it doesn't need to peek through ALL the WINDOWS and all the realms above, rather it only has to peek through a subset of windows, W_n. However it's still fundamentally inefficient, because : it doesn't JUST look at W_n and answer your question. 

    Oh no.

    It looks at your question, goes to a set of windows, W_n1, takes a peek, grimaces in deep thought, spits out ONE word, then pats itself on the head and goes to W_n2, a COMPLETELY DIFFERENT set of windows, spits out a SECOND word, and goes on and on until W_nM to obtain M words. While there is a cache, this is exactly what it sounds like - quite a bit of work.

    I'm not a very smart fellow, so I'm probably going to be wrong about this. But, it would seem that the thin red circle that I am drawing around the entire architecture that drives most of our current AI tech is going to have to collapse, and be replaced by more efficient methods soon enough.

    When? Who knows. I've been waiting since 2003, and "they" haven't figured it out yet. Some of "them" are pretty close, I think. I like the JEPA and MLLM approaches, and am eager to see where they end up.

    One thing's for sure - if you create a model of the world based on this Cartesian product approach to windows upon a realm of thousands of dimensions, and have to crawl through the whole library, to peek through a different SET of windows, once per answer word ... even if it gets you the correct answer to a question, it's bloody tiring.

    And to BUILD that library of windows to that realm ... it still takes WAY more money than it takes to build a human brain.

    2026-05-23 at

    Misanthropy in cognitive sciences

    Misanthropy ( maybe a good startup name ) in cognitive sciences.

    1. Many humans celebrate the act of living. This coalesces into a treatment of the brain as a joyful machine - lovingly and wonderfully operational. So, there is this current of trying to make machines more like humans, because there is a prejudice that humans are the best template.

    2. On the other hand, I think life is boring. And I'll be damned if my brain hasn't been the dumbest piece of shit machinery I've ever had the chance to work with. So my prejudices in cognitive sciences (and politics in general) tends to be about fixing all the things that human brains are bad at.

    I think each camp finds the other superficially appalling :P 

    apa lagi Kita mahu?

     Walaupun tak sedap dengar, dan disebut kasar, rasanya :


    1. rakyat Malaysia yang mengutamakan ketuanan Islam dan/atau Melayu, PATUT lah kukuh, satu, dan mantap, pada perjuangan bagi mengundangkan keutamaan ini ke dalam Perlembagaan Negara dan undang-undang yang seterusnya

    1a. kerana, kini tiada perundangan yang menyokong niat itu, secara tersurat dan meyeluruh

    2. sebenarnya, tanah hanya ruang yang terjajah berturut-turut oleh kuasa yang naik dan turun

    2a. ketamadunan tanah kita yang mulia, pra-Eropah ... hasil tikaman dan pendamaian antara satu sama lain, ditikam pulak penjajah Eropah, dan seterusnya ditikam Jepun, dan seterusnya muktamad dalam kelemahannya, JADI terjadinya bentuk yang kita dapat pada 1957 - hakikatnya, bentuk KINI adalah AKIBAT [ kelemahan, ataupun kekuatan, ataupun rezeki ] DULU

    3. secara am, setiap meter padu saat di tanah ini adalah peluang sementara bagi sesiapa pun yang berada, bagi membentuk dunia supaya menyerupai kemahuan dirinya

    3a. perundangan hanya tatacara sementara, dan wajib berubah mengikut masa, sejauh kita tahu sehingga hari ini

    4. apa lagi Kita mahu?

    4a. siapa pula Kita?

    ( This post is only verbose, because it is a shit-sandwich. )

    anthropology of exhaustion

    A strategy of parents, lovers, dictators, and employers alike, is to respond to complaints with policies designed to exhaust the complainer. 

    Therefore, it is important for any leader to fully comprehend the exhaustion strategically administered to the masses of society, by inserting themselves into roles of exhaustion. This is rudimentary anthropology. It is why the rich send their children to do poor jobs, from time to time. 

    You cannot control what you do not comprehend. Trust is control, and that is usually won by compassion and congratulations. 

    "not feudalism"


    So, largely in Helmi Effendy II 's network, there currently a strong objection to the label of "feudalism" to describe Malay attitudes of fealty to royalty. 

    Perhaps you can come up with some ideas, and get back to them with suggestions.

    One particularly interesting suggestion from a chap was "berkerabat" as a better classifier. To which I suggested they launch a campaign to publish in as many political science and Asian studies journals as possible, about "kerabat" paradigms of monarchy, to split it off as clearly as possible from "feudalism". Of course the current academic use of the term feudalism begins with a study of European medieval society, Montesquieu, 1748.

    ( I know it's not really a writing subject, but since it is about word choice I figured this group was as close as it gets to a social club of political theorists in Malaysia. )

    current frontier LLM internals ( broadly )

    TIL current frontier "transformer" LLMs ... 

    1. 

    The terms "encoder, decoder" apparently, don't apply to the encoding of end-user queries. "Encoder-only" and "encoder-decoder" LLMs thus refer to entirely other things.

    Frontier LLMs are "decoder-only" text generators, but they DO ENCODE the user's query into "token" space. 

    Simplifying the dumb parts : the following model process applies to any data, sensory or verbal - all those inputs would be first translated into "tokens", and input the same way. After processing, all results are spat out into the target (sensory or verbal) human language. 

    2.

    Frontier "decoder-only" models function "autoregressively", they "produce results based on historical data". The important part of the model's thought process is broadly - grab a PENCIL and SKETCH it out - 2A looks something like this :

    Input -->[ 2A1 --> 2A2 ] times, ( 80 to 120 minus skipped ) layers --> Output

    2A.

    Input data activates a process of 80 to 120 sequential "layers". ( Fortunately at this point in history, BRANCHING LOGIC allows some to be skipped. ) Each layer is internally composed of, 

    2A1.

    ... an initial "attention" network, of PARALLELISED weight-holding memory cells ( stacked to varying depth ), terminating in 64 to 128 "attention heads" ( architectural variations : MHA, GQA, MQA, MLA, etc. ), whose purpose is to CLUSTER the input data, followed by

    2A2.

    ... a subsequent "feed forward network" block, of BRANCHING weight-holding memory cells ( stacked to varying depth ), whose purpose is to LOGICALLY JUDGE the input data.

    3.

    During the model's "training" period, each loop through all the layers of 2A "feeds forward" data through all ( 80 to 120 ) layers in sequence, and from 2A1 to 2A2 within every layer, then checks the correctness of the result, then "backpropagates" corrections to the weights of 2A1 and 2A2 in all ( 80 to 120 minus ) layers - which make future "feed forwards" more correct. Many cycles happen, to maximise correctness.

    4.

    During the model's "inference" period, a "feed forward" loop through all ( 80 to 120 minus skipped ) layers of 2A happens ONCE FOR EVERY SINGLE WORD GENERATED. Like this ...

    [ Query ] -> Loop1 -> adds word1

    [ Query + word1 ] -> Loop2 -> adds word2

    [ Query + word1 + word2 ] -> LoopN -> adds wordN

    Can you see how incredibly stupid this is?

    It would (should?) be much simpler to have a model that actually understands the query in terms of a sensory-spatiotemporal model, generates an answer in the same space ( which it then reads just once), and then outputs just once into the target language. Maybe this is something JEPA, and future models will fix.

    5.

    Because 2A1 is just about clustering the data and not judging it, all 64 to 128 attention heads and their network cells are hit, during any "feed forward" loop, unless a layer is skipped.

    6.

    But because 2A2 allows branching, over 90% of cells can be skipped during each "inference" loop, though none can be skipped during "training" loops.

    2026-05-22 at

    why bother to command?

    "what is so good, about the people of this world, that I should inconvenience myself, to command them?"

    So I come from a short lineage of commanders, so to speak. I don't have much data beyond two generations up, so I can only sketch a small pattern. ( You can substitute "command" with "control", "lead", or something else if you like. )

    Generation 1 : WHAT IS COMMAND : 
    hard times, make strong folks : 
    having no prior economic need for command, various encounters with trauma organically instill in the agent a fear of the absence of command.

    Generation 2 : WHY IS COMMAND : 
    strong folks, make good times : 
    command is explicitly taught to this generation as necessary, but this generation may lack the economic context for it, leading to branched review / philosophy.

    Generation 3 : WHY SHOULD I COMMAND : 
    good times, make weak folks : 
    the question / philosophy of command, is explicitly taught to this generation, but this generation may lack both the economic context which gave rise to command, and the economic context which gave rise to questions about command. This results in a general ambivalence about both, why command is necessary, and why the philosophy of command is necessary.

    I'm in gen-3, of course. And I was raised to command - though by adolescence it seemed that the skill of command was trivially easy, and there was nothing mysterious about how it works, not was it a necessarily component of my own happiness. In other words, by my 20s, the main thoughts I had about command were, --> jump : to the title/ first line of this text

    the commonest conspiracy theory in Malaysia




    👷🏼戴上阴谋论帽子:当然,标准的阴谋论是这样的:


    1. 马来西亚所有种族极化的政党实际上都与对立阵营的政党勾结。


    2. 这些种族极化的政党并非天真地发表容易被攻击的言论,而是相互协调,轮流扮演受害者。


    3. 这使得媒体中种族极化的刻板印象得以延续,支撑了种族极化政治纲领的短期支持,却牺牲了对经济增长和种族间文化融合的长期关注。


    🙋🏼摘下阴谋论帽子:当这种情况在没有明确协调的情况下发生时,正如马祖基博士在最近的播客中所说,在学术界,我们称之为结构性问题。


    👷🏼Dài shàng yīnmóu lùn màozǐ: Dāngrán, biāozhǔn dì yīnmóu lùn shì zhèyàng de: 1. Mǎláixīyà suǒyǒu zhǒngzú jí huà de zhèngdǎng shíjì shang dōu yǔ duìlì zhènyíng de zhèngdǎng gōujié. 2. Zhèxiē zhǒngzú jí huà de zhèngdǎng bìngfēi tiānzhēn dì fābiǎo róngyì bèi gōngjí de yánlùn, ér shì xiānghù xiétiáo, lúnliú bànyǎn shòuhài zhě. 3. Zhè shǐdé méitǐ zhōng zhǒngzú jí huà de kèbǎn yìnxiàng déyǐ yánxù, zhīchēngle zhǒngzú jí huà zhèngzhì gānglǐng de duǎnqí zhīchí, què xīshēngle duì jīngjì zēngzhǎng hé zhǒngzú jiān wénhuà rónghé de cháng qī guānzhù. 🙋🏼Zhāi xià yīnmóu lùn màozǐ: Dāng zhè zhǒng qíngkuàng zài méiyǒu míngquè xiétiáo de qíngkuàng xià fāshēng shí, zhèngrú mǎzǔ jī bóshì zài zuìjìn de bòkè zhōng suǒ shuō, zài xuéshù jiè, wǒmen chēng zhī wèi jiégòu xìng wèntí.

    -


    👷🏼pakailah topi komplot jap : teori konspirasi rujukan tentulah


    1. Setiap parti politik Malaysia yang menunggang kaum, sebenarnya bersekongkol dengan parti-parti yang tunggangannya bertentangan.


    2. Parti-parti yang menunggang kaum tidak secara naif membuat kenyataan yang mudah diserang, sebaliknya mereka sepakat dan bergilir-gilir menjadi mangsa.


    3. Ini mengekalkan persekitaran media kiasan terpolarisasi kaum : maka, menegakkan sokongan jangka pendek bagi perjuangan politik berpolarisasi kaum, dengan mengorbankan tumpuan bersepadu jangka panjang terhadap pembangunan ekonomi dan pergabungan budaya antara kaum.


    🙋🏼Tanggal jap topi komplot: apabila ini berlaku TANPA PENYELARASAN TERSURAT, seperti yang dikatakan oleh Dr. Marzuki dalam podcast baru-baru ini: dalam akademik kita menggelarnya sebagai keadaan berkerangka.


    -


    👷🏼Tinfoil hats ON : the standard conspiracy theory of course, is 


    1. Each Malaysian political party that is racially polarised, is actually in cahoots with parties of opposite polarity.


    2. The racially polarised parties are not naively making statements which are easy to attack, rather they coordinate and take turns to play the victim.


    3. This perpetuates the media landscape of racially polarised tropes, propping up the short-term support for racially polarised political platforms, at the expense of long-term integrated focus on economic growth and cultural integration between races. 


    🙋🏼 Tinfoil hats OFF : when this happens WITHOUT EXPLICIT COORDINATION, as Dr. Marzuki said in a recent podcast : in academia we call it a structural situation.

    2026-05-21 at

    Islam's nopope problem

    From chat with an influence:

    3. About the world's PAST AND PRESENT interaction with Islam, I think we're generally stuck at the nopope problem. Which is, ( not sure if you or someone else reiterated it lately ) that there is no central governance for Islam, so any Tom, Dick, and Chin Lee can wake up tomorrow and start doing things in the name of Islam, without any formal body for everyone to complain to or measure them against. This is pretty much the bottleneck for progress on global attitudes towards Islam, both good and bad, Islamophilic-phobic whatnot.

    Mathematics as an Information Process

     ... or "how any brains, human or artificial, can do maths" : including the creation of novel concepts for nouns, verbs, and adjectives in maths.

    I started writing this as a comment on Valerio's post, but it overflowed so I made it a repost, then it overflowed, so I had to articleise it.

    What the hell is maths?

    I think categorically, "mathematics" isn't "a thing that can be solved" as a whole. Mathematical QUESTIONS yes, but there is no end to the questions.

    Mathematics ITSELF is a [ software program ], for [ representing ways to reason about phenomenology in general ] - in other words, maths is a programming language, or compiler toolchain - with specific focus on [ phenomenology that is objective ].

    ( This applies to mathematics as a social activity - in private, any mind can perform subjective quantification upon phenomena it perceives, even though that activity is not directly observable by other minds. Because at this point in history, we still do not have [ social / common access ] to the [ subjective phenomenological experience of humans ], since that memory space is embedded within an ill-understood meat net. )

    I think the matter of coming up with new [ mathematics, and science in general ] is really just a generative process of creating ontologies of language where existing ontologies are insufficient. It's just mutate, and cull, loop. What gives rise to the DEMAND for new ontology / concepts, depends a bit more on the field.

    PHYSICS :

    In physics, ontological DEMAND is a matter of "we have some observational SENSORY data that does a quantifiable pattern, but we don't have a name for the pattern, though we can point at the pattern. Also we don't know how this new pattern relates to old patterns, and we need to do more tests to find out."

    MATHEMATICS :

    In mathematics, ontological DEMAND is a matter of "basically everything that physicists do, but swap the object of research from SENSORY phenomena in general to [ formal INSENSIBLE verbal concepts, attached to some SENSIBLE notation that we use to represent it ]".

    THE DIFFERENCES :

    While physicists have to tolerate the limit of "hypotheses are falsifiable, and resistant to falsification under duress," mathematicians tend to need to show that "theses are necessarily true/false".

    In the realm of testing the combinatorial play-niceness of known fundamental relations and entities, that's fairly straightforward.

    THE COMMONALITIES :

    The discovery of new fundamental relations and entities ... is also driven, from the same sensory source that drives such discovery in physics.

    Physics and mathematics are both "sensory", it's just that in physics the sensory data is of [ intrinsic ] interest, whereas in maths the sensory data is [ just symbolic of insensible interests ].

    So, in the same way machines can be programmed to be creative in hypotheses about [ intrinsically interesting sensory data ], they can do the same for [ sensory data, i.e. language morphemes and syntax, which are extrinsically interesting ].

    THE MENTAL MODAL :

    After all, in and of itself, [ the latent intuition about how logic, space, and time, work ] is essentially the brain's physical activity, as a [ subconscious memory space ]. Data from there then intrudes, from time to time, upon our also physical [ imaginations, as conscious memory spaces ].

    Both memory spaces simply process [ sensory data structures, which we may call qualia when they move into the conscious memory space ].

    A practiced thinker knows how to completely map, FROM qualia, TO analogous signals or other data structures which are known to be objectively quantifiable, through the social practice of science.

    Of course, I might be venturing a bit too far here, in terms of asserting that meat brains are just sub/conscious physical information processes.

    Haha

    - - -

    Discussion

    2026-05-26 :

    • the concept of "well if X is in conscious memory, then X must be an instantiation of the data types supported by your conscious memory" is from COPR, as mentioned to Alex : might be worth a wiki; or see the Sophie's World version of Transcendental Idealism / t-analytic / t-aesthetic. Ofc in LeCun's phrasing, this is a "world model".
    • I think the insight on maths is : "the only way to handle maths is via sensible symbols, and we are quite sure the LLMs can handle symbols + rules + rules of replacement", so an LLM can look at "any N-dimensional field of raw noise" and formally hypothesise any new set of rules that applies to the field. Given a less noisy field the LLM can run formal or empirical tests against the field, to see if the rules still apply, just for example. This is literally all it takes to invent new science, in a very thin slice lol. And for maths, the bot doesn't even need a noise field for sensory data - it just has to check rule coherence.
    2026-05-29:
    It is remarkable, after all this time, that mathematics remains as much a veil, to the mode practicioner, in the same way that other conscious macrophenomena are to the mode person. Some people are ontologically committed to the notion of persons, some are committed to the notion of emotions, some are committed to the notion that food is yummy, and travelling is fun. Mathematics likewise is broadly appreciated macroaesthetically.

    But if you tear apart the qualia, and isolate the categories of sensational units in every sense modality, then you are left with only a few kinds of lego, so to speak. Mathematics reduces to a sensible language, with insensible referents, and so the treatment of the language can only be tested with regards to the rules employed about the sensible language.

    I guess?

    2026-06-02:
    It's astonishingly stupid, that some professional mathematicians can't understand how it is possible to teach a machine how to discover novel mathematics.

    Simply stepping through the history of maths, demonstrates each point of "ontological demand" , where existing linguistic constructs were insufficient for a formal representation of some sensory dataset, thereby leading to the designation on new linguistic constructs as hypothetical frameworks, then affirmed as practically useful via coherence testing.

    It is just a special case, of the development of languages in general. Perhaps it is because mathematicians are not often trained as philologists, even though these are both primarily about language use and development. Just as grammar teachers or English professors are not expected to be philologists, as a rule. 

    deterministic systems, governed as non-deterministic

    You can deterministically block things from happening. But in order to do that, your underlying architecture must have deterministic outcomes for all corner cases.

    In the event when you, by nature of not having enough computational resources to check all corner cases of a deterministic system, must treat a deterministic system as non-deterministic ... it's just a black box! Like a person!

    Similar approaches to governance then apply.

    https://www.linkedin.com/posts/chuck-h-securityexecutive_cracksinyourfoundationmodels-aisecurity-math-share-7463025773600333824-VgO0?

    a cake hater, and a pedo

    Ethics is based on aesthetics. People rule against their sense of revulsion. So what makes impulsive revulsion, more revolting than measured revulsion? That is what I thought about, while chatting with another bloke in the comments on a post by a local influencer. 

    The influencer had said, they were not revolted by all Muslims, but only by the subset of Muslims that engaged in activities "ABC" . To which my reaction was, hold on, that's still simply based on revulsion. One can hold it against anyone else for being a cake hater and a pedo, but that's quite completely just an expression of personal preference. 

    Maybe the point of influencers in general, is missionary. Everyone just wants more people, to align revulsions with one's own. 

    Extrajudicial Norms in Malaysia

    for If you live in Malaysia, you must know this! The law of Malaysia EXPLICITLY points at adherence to EXTRA-JUDICIAL NORMS.

    • 1. The feelings of (anyone) do NOT have definition in the law. But laws have been passed to protect (anyone) from hurt feelings, by punishing (people who hurt anyone's feelings).
    • 2. The customs of "the Malays", do NOT have definition in the law. But the Federal Constitution anoints the Malay Rulers as protectors of these customs. 
      • 2a. As a corollary, the definition of a Malay Ruler is delegated to the law of each of nine states, and each of those states itself has a legal constitution, that points at ( in some cases extra-judicial ) customs, which lead to the implementation of who is and who is not a Malay Ruler. 
    • 3. The concept of "bumiputera" is NOT DETAILED in the Federal Constitution, and hence we have subsidiary legislation and executive bodies that address this, working together with NGOs. The constitution has an extremely brief definition of who has special rights.

    In anthropology, this admission of informality creates what is called "a high-context culture".

    Some people feel that this is a rich part of our culture, and prefer to have things perpetually maintained in a limbo between formality and informality.

    Others feel that this limbo is counterproductive.

    In any event, it is important to understand that for the time being, we live in this situation. The consideration of how valuable this is, the public discourse about it, and the perpetual progress of laws through time, is inevitably part of what makes Malaysia, Malaysia. 

    ---

    Google for translation, because I'm lazy today, and edits marked *as such* :

    Jika anda tinggal di Malaysia, anda mesti tahu perkara ini! Undang-undang Malaysia SECARA JELAS menunjukkan pematuhan kepada NORMA *LUAR-KEHAKIMAN*.

    • 1. Perasaan (sesiapa sahaja) TIDAK mempunyai definisi dalam undang-undang. Tetapi undang-undang telah diluluskan untuk melindungi (sesiapa sahaja) daripada perasaan terluka, dengan menghukum (orang yang menyakiti perasaan sesiapa sahaja).
    • 2. Adat resam "orang Melayu", TIDAK mempunyai definisi dalam undang-undang. Tetapi Perlembagaan Persekutuan menetapkan Raja-Raja Melayu sebagai pelindung adat resam ini.
      • 2a. Sebagai akibatnya, definisi Raja Melayu diwakilkan kepada undang-undang setiap sembilan negeri, dan setiap negeri itu sendiri mempunyai perlembagaan yang sah, yang menunjukkan (dalam beberapa kes luar kehakiman) adat resam, yang membawa kepada pelaksanaan siapa Raja Melayu dan siapa bukan Raja.
    • 3. Konsep "bumiputera" TIDAK TERPERINCI dalam Perlembagaan Persekutuan, dan oleh itu kita mempunyai perundangan subsidiari dan badan eksekutif yang menangani perkara ini, bekerjasama dengan NGO. Perlembagaan mempunyai definisi yang sangat ringkas tentang siapa yang mempunyai hak istimewa.

    Dalam antropologi, pengakuan tentang *ketidakrasmian* ini mewujudkan apa yang dipanggil "budaya konteks tinggi".

    Sesetengah orang merasakan bahawa ini adalah bahagian yang kaya dalam budaya kita, dan lebih suka perkara-perkara sentiasa dikekalkan dalam keadaan tersimpang antara *rasmi* dan tidak *rasmi*.

    Sesetengah orang pula merasakan bahawa ketidakformalan ini adalah tidak produktif.

    Walau apa pun, adalah penting untuk memahami bahawa buat masa ini, kita hidup dalam situasi ini. Pertimbangan tentang betapa berharganya ini, wacana awam mengenainya, dan kemajuan undang-undang yang berterusan dari semasa ke semasa, pastinya merupakan sebahagian daripada apa yang menjadikan Malaysia, Malaysia.

    ---

    NotebookLM for laziness again :

    Here is the reformatted translation of the source material. Each row contains a maximum of twelve ideograms, with alternating rows of Pinyin:


    **如果你住在马来西亚,**

    (Rúguǒ nǐ zhù zài Mǎláixīyà,)

    **你必须知道这一点!**

    (nǐ bìxū zhīdào zhè yīdiǎn!)

    **马来西亚法律明确指出**

    (Mǎláixīyà fǎlǜ míngquè zhǐchū)

    **要遵守法外规范。**

    (yào zūnshǒu fǎwài guīfàn.)


    **1. (任何人)的感受**

    (1. (Rènhé rén) de gǎnshòu)

    **在法律中没有定义。**

    (zài fǎlǜ zhōng méiyǒu dìngyì.)

    **但已经通过了法律**

    (Dàn yǐjīng tōngguòle fǎlǜ)

    **来保护(任何人)**

    (lái bǎohù (rènhé rén))

    **免受情感伤害,**

    (miǎn shòu qínggǎn shānghài,)

    **通过惩罚(伤害**

    (tōngguò chéngfá (shānghài)

    **任何人情感的人)。**

    (rènhé rén qínggǎn de rén).)


    **2. “马来人”的习俗**

    (2. “Mǎláirén” de xísú)

    **在法律中没有定义。**

    (zài fǎlǜ zhōng méiyǒu dìngyì.)

    **但联邦宪法任命**

    (Dàn liánbāng xiànfǎ rènmìng)

    **马来统治者为**

    (Mǎlái tǒngzhìzhě wéi)

    **这些习俗的保护者。**

    (zhèxiē xísú de bǎohùzhě.)


    **2a. 作为推论,**

    (2a. Zuòwéi tuīlùn,)

    **马来统治者的定义**

    (Mǎlái tǒngzhìzhě de dìngyì)

    **被下放到九个州的法律中,**

    (bèi xiàfàng dào jiǔ gè zhōu de fǎlǜ zhōng,)

    **而这些州中的每一个**

    (ér zhèxiē zhōu zhōng de měi yīgè)

    **本身都有一部法律宪法,**

    (běnshēn dōu yǒuyī bù fǎlǜ xiànfǎ,)

    **指向(在某些情况下**

    (zhǐxiàng (zài mǒu xiē qíngkuàng xià)

    **是法外的)习俗,**

    (shì fǎwài de) xísú,)

    **这导致了谁是和**

    (zhè dǎozhìle shéi shì hé)

    **谁不是马来统治者的执行。**

    (shéi bùshì Mǎlái tǒngzhìzhě de zhíxíng.)


    **3. “土著”的概念**

    (3. “Tǔzhù” de gàiniàn)

    **(bumiputera)**

    ((bumiputera))

    **在联邦宪法中**

    (zài liánbāng xiànfǎ zhōng)

    **没有详细说明,**

    (méiyǒu xiángxì shuōmíng,)

    **因此我们有附属立法**

    (yīncǐ wǒmen yǒu fùshǔ lìfǎ)

    **和行政机构与**

    (hé xíngzhèng jīgòu yǔ)

    **非政府组织合作**

    (fēi zhèngfǔ zǔzhī hézuò)

    **来解决这个问题。**

    (lái jiějué zhè gè wèntí.)


    **宪法对谁拥有特权**

    (Xiànfǎ duì shéi yǒngyǒu tèquán)

    **有一个极其简短的定义。**

    (yǒu yīgè jíqí jiǎnduǎn de dìngyì.)

    **在人类学中,**

    (Zài rénlèixué zhōng,)

    **这种对非正式性的承认**

    (zhè zhǒng duì fēi zhèngshì xìng de chéngrèn)

    **创造了所谓的**

    (chuàngzàole suǒwèide)

    **“高语境文化”。**

    (“gāo yǔjìng wénhuà”.)


    **有些人认为这是**

    (Yǒuxiē rén rènwéi zhè shì)

    **我们文化的丰富组成部分,**

    (wǒmen wénhuà de fēngfù zǔchéng bùfèn,)

    **并希望事情永远保持**

    (bìng xīwàng shìqíng yǒngyuǎn bǎochí)

    **在正式与非正式**

    (zài zhèngshì yǔ fēi zhèngshì)

    **之间的模糊地带。**

    (zhī jiān de móhú dìdài.)


    **另一些人则认为**

    (Lìng yīxiē rén zé rènwéi)

    **这种模糊地带会适得其反。**

    (zhè zhǒng móhú dìdài huì shìdéqífǎn.)


    **无论如何,重要的是**

    (Wúlùn rúhé, zhòngyào de shì)

    **要明白,**

    (yào míngbái,)

    **目前我们生活在**

    (mùqián wǒmen shēnghuó zài)

    **这种情况下。**

    (zhè zhǒng qíngkuàng xià.)


    **对这一价值的考量、**

    (Duì zhè yī jiàzhí de kǎoliàng,)

    **相关的公共讨论**

    (xiāngguān de gōnggòng tǎolùn)

    **以及法律随时间的**

    (yǐjí fǎlǜ suí shíjiān de)

    **不断进步,**

    (bùduàn jìnbù,)

    **不可避免地构成了**

    (bùkě bìmiǎn de gòuchéngle)

    **马来西亚之所以成为**

    (Mǎláixīyà zhī suǒyǐ chéngwéi)

    **马来西亚的一部分。**

    (Mǎláixīyà de yībùfèn.)

    ---

    Additionally you can  :


    Discussion:

    It's quite funny. Tony is correct on half, and silent about the half mentioned in my blogpost above. So he got attacked because he is an easy target, and we are in a warzone between parties (the money for political attacks is about parties, but they manipulate racial issues).

    Nearly all MADANI/DAP's public statements this year have the same strategic weaknesses - messages appeal to (own) base, but have zero defense from (other's) attack. It is like they don't bother to red-blue team their own code before they deploy. Maybe upper management has no clue about grassroots and doesn't bother to hire junior analysts to vet and risk manage their public statements. Quite "lol". All pokkai:

    - macc
    - temples ( best recovery )
    - +
    - sabah
    - uec
    - pig
    - royal institution 

    Rafizi on the other hand launched his party this week with incorrect history of economic development in Malaysia. 🤣


    keselamatan negara

     "tak faham kenapa ada orang marah - bende itu sudah termaktub"

    ekshellii ... saya ada pandangan lain sikit.

    1. Perundangan apa-apa pun, boleh ditukar, SEKIRANYA, adanya sokongan majoriti. Kita abaikan topik ini dulu.

    2. Bahasa tidak diwajibkan bagi penggunaan rakyat dalam perundangan. Ia mampu diundangkan begitu. Saya galakkan orang ramai cuba mengundangkannya - sebab saya pun dah penat dengan ...

    3. ... isu orang A tak selesa dengan pendirian orang B, tapi tak nak mengundangkan isu itu. Isu hati kurang diwajibkan dalam perundangan. Jadi kita sepatutnya abaikan isu hati orang lain. KALAU satu isu penting, ia patut DIUNDANGKAN bukan biar sebagai isu hati saja. Contohnya : "sayang", "hormat", "setia" - perkataan ini semua tiada maksud, kecuali dalam otak setiap pemikir berasingan. Kalau nak membawa maksud serentak bagi rakyat, kena pakai undang, "jangan pijak bendera - kalau pijak masuk penjara" dan selainnya.

    4. Ok. Sekarang kita sampai pada isu "mengapa kita takut, marah, duka, amok, dll dengan keselamatan institusi, walaupun sudah ada dalam perundangan". Pendek kata, ini bukan kecuaian. Semua gerakan perkataan di tempat awam, di media massa, surat khabar, TV, radio, medsos, sekolah awam, tempat awam ... BAKAL DIKAWAL SESIAPAPUN, jadi kenapa SESIAPAPUN, tidak nak mempergunakannya bagi mengukuhkan kuasa PARTI SENDIRI ? Kesemua isu ini adalah operasi perhubungan strategik dalam jentera politik sejak zaman dahulu, sejak TunM and mungkin boleh dikatakan sebelumnya. Bende ini memang KHAZANAH ZAMAN PERANG DINGIN.

    5. Jadi siapa nak gerak untuk membatalkan politk berasaskan dengki dan pencacian antara kaum? Siapa lagi? Kalau bukan rakyat, yang SEDIA, dan MAMPU, dan DIKURNIAKN DENGAN MANDAT, siapa lagi? Itu sebabnya kita mesti galakkan anak muda untuk FASIH KENEGARAAN : perundangan, jentera politik, ekonomi, tek, dan kesenian perhubungan. Kalau tidak, BIARLAH ORANG LAIN TADBIR.

    6. Nampak tak saya tidak memihak kepada ketuanan Melayu atau ketuanan pukul rata ... yang saya ingin sampaikan : dunia bukan tempat yang selamat. Keselamatan hanya dimenangi dengan kerja yang rumit.

    Seriously like  - fuck this kindergarten country - I would rather be spending my time studying ML :P 

    But you look at the numero uno country on earth, and it is no different. 

    So you have no choice : political participation is social work.


    2026-05-20 at

    notes from recovery of running form

    Okok, I keep forgetting to jot down these two notes from running ... so before I go on about computer vision, I should do this. These are just operational recoveries of forms lost over the years, so it's a bit of a log of shame, albeit a somewhat technical one.

    • 1. Yesterday's study of neural voltage was a good reminder to manage how much sensory data from each limb ( or part of the body ) hits conscious memory ... we consciously control this by activating feedback loops that contract muscles, sometimes colloquially referred to as neural tone. Maintaining a balanced proprioception of the entire body (rather than just legs, while running, for example), (a) allows for more / complete / constant kinesthetic data, as well as (b) simplifies coordination because you are applying similar signal quantities / data rates / effort / voltage / whatnot to all parts of the soma, rather than a discordant array of configurations to be adjusted in-flight.
    • 2. Risk-off adjustments to vision memory management : allow one to focus less on the constant visual feed, and to think mainly about checkpoints or lap points along a route.

    2026-05-23

    • Brief note from yesterday's running. I seem to have forgotten to balance dopamine and adrenaline, on a per-stride basis. Failing to do so in favour of dopamine results in erosion of neural constitution as strides repeat. In other words, the operational boundary of each individual stride should comply with maintaining, or increasing pleasure. 

    2026-05-19 at

    MNS activation and waking

    Ok - back to what I was INITIALLY thinking about this morning : neuroendocrinology of transitions between sleep and waking.

    PRE-READING

    Observed :

    • 1. at initial waking, low conscious data rate, low motor reaction times
    • 2. hypoxia ( O2 constrained by beddings etc. ) associated increased wakefulness and stress
    • 3. excessive heat ( due to insulation ) associated increased wakefulness and stress
    • 4. intentional activation of motor units ( any muscle activity, but commonly seen as clenching, curling, or stretching in the morning ) associated with increased wakefulness but not necessarily stress

    Inferred :

    • 5. seems that (2,3) are via cortisol, so that makes sense
    • 6. seems that (4) is doing something complicated, and I am now reading about neural signal voltages and frequencies

    READING yields ...

    • 7. "Recruitment" refers to the number of motor units activated. This increases from zero load, and "rate coding" only kicks in more after 80% of recruitment.
    • 8. Recruitment of fibres by twitch-type* (Henneman Size Principle) :
      • - slow, 1* : lowest activation threshold, "playful"
      • - fast, 2a : mid-stage
      • - fast, 2b : last-stage, largest motor units, "powerful" 
    • 9. Motor neural "rate coding" frequencies :
      • - 150 to 200 Hz in elite, trained athletes
      • - 60 to 120 Hz in normal, initiation of heavily loaded movement
      • - 30 to 60 Hz for sustained, heavy loads
      • - 15 to 20 Hz under conditions of fatigue, to protect muscles
    • 10a. The system adjacent to, but underlying the triple-network, is ARAS / the Ascending reticular activating system ( add pointer to RAS <- a candidate for consciousness functionality). Conscious MNS activity may originate here.
      • 10b. Nerves in muscle spindles and Golgi tendon organs : send proprioceptive feedback back to the CNS, causing stimulation. 
      • 10c. High-frequency rate-coding utilises monoaminergic (neurotransmitter) pathways : effects spill over into the cerebral cortex. 

    Muscle adaptation notes

    TANGENT : ... Mechanotransduction ...


    90a. Endurance training -> thyroid etc. hormones -> AMPK-SIRT1-PGC-1a (protein) axis -> mitochondrial biogenesis -> adaptation towards slow, type-1 fibres

    90b. Power training -> androgens ( testosterone etc. ) -> hypertrophy of existing fast, type-2a/2b fibres

    90c. localised myostatin suppression -> hypertrophy in all of type-1/2a/2b fibres


    91a. AMPK-SIRT1-PGC-1a Triggers :

    • - AMP/ATP ratio increases (during ATP consumption)
    • - cytosolic calcium increases (Ca released from SR)
    • - ROS increases (pollution from burning)

    91b. Activated PGC-1a moves to the nucleus, where it coordinates BOTH nuclear and mitochondrial genomes!


    92a. Hypertrophy Triggers :

    • - [ titin, filamin-C, BAG3 proteins are mechanosensory complexes, at the (Z-disc) edges of sarcomeres; sarcomeres are intra-cellular structures ] -> [ cell membrane enzyme activation ] -> mTORC1 activation -> [ mRNA builds more actin and myosin; ribosome biogenesis increases ]

    92b. satellite cell fusion

    • - day 0 to 1 : sarcolemma ( cell membrane ) damage,  satellite cell activation
    • - day 1 to 5 : satellite cell proliferation, differentiation
    • - day 4 to 10 : fusion into more nuclei per muscle cell to facilitate control over larger cells
    • - day 14 to 28 : maturation, and full functional repair

    ASMR & general "open-minded"ness

    ASMR* : in terms of brain-networks, neurotransmitters, and endocrine response.

    ( I was reading up on motor neural voltages, between sleep and non-sleep states, and ended up at ASMR. )

    Perhaps this is relevant to my preferred state of mind, as a generalist, whereby I allow myself all-dimensional reactions to stimuli. 

    ASMR apparently reflects a "higher than usual" synchrony between the CEN* and DMN*. The SN* is characteristically less-engaged, whereas it is usually responsible for flagging issues, and raising them into priorities, which then interruptively switches between CEN-dominance and DMN-dominance. 

    Generally : this appears to be a risk-off state ( see : dACC* ), where sensory inputs of ambiguous risk are not interpreted immediately as threats, but are instead allowed to be contemplated as amusements ( see : NAc, VTA* ). The states of threatened and amused, each involve separate neuroendocrinal cascades, which are available for further reading.

    I reflect also on how interoception is often referred to as "subjective feelings" in the literature - whereas I find that subjective feelings may all be quantified in terms of concrete sensory data types.

    *

    • - Autonomous sensory meridian response
    • - Central executive network ( motor task oriented )
    • - Default-mode network ( internal imagination oriented )
    • - Salient network
    • - Dorsal anterior cingulate cortex
    • - Nucleus accumbens
    • - Ventral tegmental area ( mesolimbic and mesocortical pathways )


    Yeah, one of the things putting me off neuro studies for so long was the word soup.

    garam

    Pasal "less of everything tu" nampaknya contoh anda lebih pada natrium. 

    Dapur saya, saya asingkan garam2 ini :

    • - NaCl, yg biasa tu
    • - NaHCO, bikarbonat / baking soda
    • - Na-glutamate, MSG / ajinomoto
    • - KCl, rasa lebih pahit
    • - MgCl2, nigari, rasa lebih manis
    • - CaCO3, batu kapur, boleh larut asid

    Biasanya : makanan komersil/terproses mengandungi terlalu banyak Na, dan kurang K, Mg, Ca

    Jadi unsur2 K, Mg, Ca ... you boleh cuba mainkan sikit lah, sebab ia memang perlu tambah, dan juga rasanya lain.

    "bahasa kebangsaan menyatukan kita" ?

    Ini pendapat saya saja. Bahasa adalah perisian perhubungan pada zahir saja. Bahasa SENANG dibelajari, kalau ada NIAT. Tapi niat tiada pada kita menjadi satu. Mengapa? 

    Isu batin yang membelah masyarakat dan politik Malaysia hampir 70 tahun adalah PERUNDANGAN PERKAUMAN. Bukan agama, atau bahasa, tapi perkauman, yang terikat pada dasarnya sebagai kedukaan sebangsa Malaysia. 

    Isu2 bahasa dan agama itu semua jadi tunggangan saja. Lantai itu perkauman. Lantai sudah lumpur. Masa depan kita boleh fix lagi benda ini, tapi kena tunggulah, siapa jadi negarawan yang pandai 

    🤣🤣

    - - -
    Discussion.

    "kewajiban tiada dalam perundangan. Bukan semua orang hidup ikut isi hati. Ramai kita hidup ikut undang kak 👍🏼

    Undang boleh digubal bagi memaksa perbahasan yang diingini 🌞" 

    2026-05-18 at

    Sparse autoencoders

     "Sparse autoencoders / SAEs" - if you run into this jargon, it just means "capability to analyse a complicated issue into multiple simpler components". Basically middle-school reasoning / critical thinking / analytical philosophy. 


    However, with regards to the implementation of SAEs in "transformer" architectures, it just gives you a better stochastic parrot, as it doesn't introduce things like rules or logic programming at all. It's just an increase in the resolution of a probabilistic reasoning algorithm.

    Malaysian politics recap

    1. Unlike Tony, I think Rafizi and Nik are doing great. 

    1.1. Unlike Payung Besar Melayu, ditto. 

    1.2. What we have here is true evidence of democracy. 

    2. I don't think Anwar is doing a horrible job. 

    2.1. He does some pretty damn stupid things, by letting coalition partners run rampant with messaging. Too bad. I accept this. 

    2.2. I am ambivalent about his continued role. Not the worst I've seen in this damn country! 

    3. Economic growth results from peace. 

    3.1. Not all forms of peace are interesting. Mahathirism was an incredibly uninteresting example of peace.

    3.2. Rome wasn't built in a day, and Malaysians are still dumber than Romans.

    3.3. Keep your hopes up, we might be smarter some day. 

    mukallaf

    Konsep mukallaf mungkin menggagaskan suatu lokus bimbingan bagi rakan-rakan saya yang berkepercayaan bahawa tuhan menginsankan manusia.


    Saya, yang berkepercayaan bahawa manusia telahpun mencipta gagasan tuhan, meminati isu ini dari segi antropologi kebudayaan.


    Kini ahli falsafah, iaitu pengurus risiko, amat menumpukan perhatian terhadap keselamatan pengunaan AI, dan tahap pengiktifrafan personaliti undang-undang AI.

    2026-05-17 at

    corporal and capital punishment?

    I don't agree with corporal punishment because it's simply not effective. It may stop certain behaviour, but it doesn't modify the cognitive apparatus of the actor, coherently 🙂


    Likewise with the death penalty : if we approve of the death penalty, we should kill more weak people in society preemptively also lol.

    2026-05-16 at

    triton-lang

    Just caught up to this 😅 : so OpenAI's Triton is a pythonesque DSL for exposing hardware primitives using a "tile" paradigm.

    Handles hardware for you

    • - numpy : CPU only
    • - tensorflow, pytorch : anyPU

    You handle hardware :

    • - CUDA : nVideaPU only
    • - triton / C/++ / SYCL / openCL : anyPU

    Triton is a dialect of MLIR@LLVM ...

    localised LLMs?

    Kita bincang pasal tek saja ya. 

    Pentafsiran dan penterjemahan dalam LLM berlaku pada lapisan tersembunyi, iaitu model mempunyai gagasan ( rangka data graf ) yang tidak terikat kepada mana-mana bahasa. Ini sistem A

    Dari situ, penterjemahan dari mana-mana bahasa kepada sistem A, lepas tu dari sistem A kepada mana-mana bahasa adalah satu transformasi khas. Lebih sesuai bagi SLM / MLM. Inilah sistem B.

    Saya tak tahu lah rekabina dalaman LLM yang tuan sebut tu ... 😂 ... tapi saya rasa, kita kena asingkan. 

    Negara kita kena imbang tujuan dan had ekonomi. Gergasi luaran sudah hampir menyempurnakan sistem jenis B. Kita boleh khaskan bagi loghat la, tapi ini kira penyesuaian bukan penyelidikan dasar.

    Kita juga boleh menyelidik secara mendalam sistem jenis A, sebab budaya kita ada graf pengetahuan yang lebih khas. 

    Yang paling jijik : jangan kita dengan duit yang terhad cuba nak jadi juara dalam setiap jihad sekaligus. Lebih-lebih lagi, jangan orang kita cuba buat kerja malas dan nyahmaju dengan cuba gabungkan sistem jenis A dan B. 😘🤣🤣🤣😭



    Further reading :
    • 1. visual recognition as a latent space, under verbal languages as feature spaces : LENS / LLMs Enhanced to See, 2023 : https://arxiv.org/abs/2306.16410 ( if you know anything about my views, this is a big deal to me 😛 - so far this is the most anthropomorphic implementation I have seen documented )
    • 2. separate training of latent platonic spaces, under verbal languages as feature spaces : Zipper-LoRA / low-rank adaptation, 2026 : https://arxiv.org/abs/2603.17558 ( I'm zooming into this area a bit, since yesterday's public conversation about how some Malaysian localised LLMs don't seem to perform efficiently )

    bab kelarian kemahiran

    Fenomena ini menarik. Ada akarnya. 

    1. Kita mahu keadilan melalui ekonomi sama rata.
    2. Kita mahu keadilan melalui ekonomi tidak sama rata.
    3. Kita mahu pertengkaran berhenti.
    4. Kita mahu ekonomi berkembang.
    5. Kita mahu kemahiran menduduk dan tidak melari keluar.

    Kebanyakkan pertengkaran adalah antara (1 vs. 2), dan antara (4 tanpa 5, vs 4 wajib 5).

    Agak-agaknya, (1,3,4,5) adalah satu pihak, dan (2,3,4, tapi neutral terhadap 5) adalah satu pihak lagi. 

    Dalam analysis ini, hanya (3,4) boleh jadi tumpuan senegara. Maka pemimpin kena bermula setiap strateginya dengan mendasarkan (3,4), dengan tolak ansur terhadap (1 dan 2), jadi tercapai lah (3,4) dan akhirnya [(5) yang menyokong (3,4) dan merendahkan lagi hati (1 dan 2)].

    Fasa 1 : mendasarkan ekonomi
    Fasa 2 : tolak ansur antara, kesamarataan dan keistimewaan ekonomi
    Fasa 3 : ekonomi kembang
    Fasa 4a : juara kesamarataan dan keistimewaan kedua-duanya direndahkan coraknya
    Fasa 4b : kemahiran mula dibela dan bukan diusik keluar

    Kemahiran politik itu memang kena tertumpu pada 2/ tolak ansur, dan 4/ rendah hati. Jadi pakar pengendalian tisu-tisu hati ini lah yang kita harap dinaikkan dalam PRU dan kerajaan masa terdekat.

    2026-05-14 at

    getting started on computer vision

    Brief dip into computer vision jargon. Anthropomorphism. Humans learn to recognise gross gestalten, before understanding mereology ... and humans learn to recognise 2D persistence before 3D persistence. But as conscious processes develop, they discover more efficient storage formats for data, by relying on 3D persistence graphs.


    So while we could train a vision system to be more human like by beginning with gross gestalten, we may want to skip forward a little bit to endow the system with the capability to immediately begin forming a database of 3D graphs, representing object topologies in the wild.


    LFG :


    0. Statistical globbing via neural networks should be used as a final optimisation technique, only after all known structural optimisations ("physics") have been ("logically") programmed into the system - not as a lazy shortcut from zero.


    1.


    1.1. Let us throw away the concept of colour, and begin only with one dimension of magnitude per unit of space - luma / luminance / brightness.


    1.2. Let is ignore 3D structure and begin only with the gross phenomenology of the field of vision. 


    2.


    2.1. Now, mereology : we must have a way to describe subsets of any field which are interesting. The smallest item is a point of brightness.


    2.2. SCALE invariance : the concept of an item growing to take up a larger fraction of the field, or shrinking to take up a smaller fraction, must exist. See SIFT, SURF, ORB, et al.


    2.3. Location : the field of vision must be referenced by an address space.


    2.4. Multiplicity : there may be many items of interest.


    2.5. Extension in 2D : items may be linked, giving them 2D structure in the field. See "graph convolution networkS / GCNs"


    2.6. ROTATIONAL invariance : the 2D structure is different if you spin it around with respect to the address space. Where you apply this to spinning everything around the system, see "sphere node graphs", though in 2D that's probably a "cylinder node graph".


    ... at this point we have five to six concepts that must be uniquely addressed in the cognitive space of the system. A sort of introductory transcendental aesthetic.


    3.


    3.1. Extension in 3D : Now we can revisit the notion of 3D space. 


    3.2. Location ("distance") in 3D is associated with scale in 2D (2.2.).


    3.3. Occlusion in 2D is associated with rotation in 3D. See "aspect graphs".


    ... and, I think that's all we need to get starting building a computer vision system, to undergird the visual ontological comprehension of any anthropomorphic computer.


    4. Oh yes, we can then revisit colour and motion in the end.

    Malaysian public school history textbooks should have complete academic citations

    OK - I've figured out the theoretical solution to Malaysia's public education historical sources controversies.

    kita kena ajar pembaca buat lit review la ... sebab ramai orang tak tahu sistem petikan / citation yang berdasarkan peer review tu


    ... come to think of it, zaman kini : besnya kalau kita start setiap buku teks KPN itu ada citation betul-betul pada akhiran buku

    Lalang!

    Lalang!

    Bagi segelintir warga Malaysia, kitorang tiada kepercayaan terhadap perkauman. Perkauman tidak membawa sebarang makna kepada kita, kecuali makna yang dibawa kepada warga senegara kita.

    Patut lah kita menahan undi, dalam politik perkauman ( dengan itu, menyokong majoriti secara pasif ) ?

    Ataupun patut lah kita mendakwahkan kepercayaan kita, bagi jihad menghapuskan gagasan perkauman secara am ( dengan itu, derhaka terhadap perbadanan yang terkandung dalam perundangan negara ) ?

    Di mana tulisnya "kaum" di atas, ada juga segelintir yang boleh menggantikannya dengan "agama". Tapi itu pulak memerlukan penelitian yang lebih rumit. Setiap kepercayaan, walaupun mengenai tuhan, alam, atau orang, atau ketidakpentingan mana-mananya, boleh dikatakan sesuatu yang diikat kepada "agama". Jadi perkara agnostis "agama" adalah terlebih am daripada perkara agnostis per"kaum"an.

    loading feedback

    Today shall be dedicated to the study of feedback mechanisms, via hormones and nerves, during load/ exercise.

    First on my checklist, "various stress hormones need to spike, to their respective activation thresholds, in order to activate certain negative feedback loops". So, loading below certain stress thresholds does not meet this criteria for development.

    Second, by the time severe negative feedback is triggered, it is almost certain that many lesser thresholds for positive feedback have already been triggered. These two series of triggers may have an overlapping range, so chronologically it is expected that there will be intermittent triggers of both positive and negative feedback, until the ratio between these starts to skew too strongly towards the negative. This bears observation intra-session of loading.

    Third, both positive and negative feedback mechanisms will interact with nutrient availability across the entire timeframe from days before to days after each loading session. As the windows for some of these interactions are so long, loading more than once a week results in a series of overlapping frames. So inter-session observation is also needed.

    em-dashing

    It's used similarly to a colon, or ellipses. 

    I : paused - then paused again ... and again. 
    I - paused ... then paused again : and again. 
    I ... paused : then paused again - and again. 

    I : paused ... then paused again - and again. 
    I - paused : then paused again ... and again. 
    I ... paused - then paused again : and again. 

    Oh, a comma also works in all positions above. Lol

    Disability in trust

    In trust, there is a gradient of aptitude. 

    1. Low context movers, get down to business quickly, keeping risks limited. 

    2. High context movers, need to spend a lot of time watching each other, keeping risks limited. 

    Aptitude in this case is linked to how anxiety is managed. One of these is a disability, but it is not polite to point it out. 

    JEPA is still not inspiring

    Finally got around to reading a definition of JEPA. Based on this limited skim, my first impression is that it's still operating on data structures which are too abstract, from a top-down approach, instead of just building a world-view from the bottom, upwards.

    I'll keep tabs on it, but of course I don't have time to dive in right now. I have already discussed what I consider to the the basics : anthropomorphic AI must have (1) sensory data structures (2) spatio-temporal modelling (3) hypothesis formation and testing.

    Meanwhile the probabilistic relationship between high-level abstract ideas like "dogs in walkers" is simply "less reified" or "more abstract", and basically will display the behavioural inefficiencies associated with reasoning about platonic forms in general, without instantiation.

    https://youtu.be/oM4neOyZOi0?si=YFY5qnse8vb3MyWh

    Update : oh, hypothesis testing is in the 2022 paper, we're good

    2026-05-13 at

    Language priorities

     ( a reverse list of what I would prefer to forget first ) : 

    • 1. English : 
      • Base
    • 1. English : 
      • Logistics & Business Management
    • 1. English : 
      • STEM
    • 2. Spreadsheets : 
      • mainly GOOG, MSFT
    • 2. C : 
      • because I want access to memory layouts -> in modern terms, it leads to Rust
    • 1. English : 
      • History & Pop Culture
    • 2. JavaScript : 
      • as lingua franca, lowest common denominator -> most scripting languages are not far from this
    • 3. Malay : 
      • because I live in Malaysia and want to participate in citizenship dialogue
    • 4. Chinese : 
      • because I happen to know a bit of it already


    frequency domain analysis

    • 1. The simplest technological lay-example is the Graphic Equaliser (GEQ) which lets you change how your music sounds by boosting high or low frequencies
    • 2.1. If you search for the origins of such study, you may be directed to Fourier's 1822 CE theorem
    • 2.2. However, any student of music will be familiar with the notion of harmony in music - Pythagoras' 600 BCE notes on this occur rather late in the history of human cultures. The Rigveda is dated to 1500-1000 BCE, the Hurrian Hymns to 1400 BCE, and bone flutes and ivory instruments ( that have been found and documented ) go back at least as far as 43,000-40,000 BCE
    • 3. All of this is tied back to the phainomechanics of humans - how we perceive the world, as our brains process information, and give it internal representations within our processing systems

    the point, orf debate

    Some people are debating :
    - to kill time
    - to be annoying 
    - to promote a point of view
    - to make a specific change in the world
    - to find out the truth
    - to find out what their counterparties are made of

    There are many reasons to debate. Beware 🤷🏼

    2026-05-12 at

    phainomechanics, qualia, & quantification

    Phainomechanics. I may start using this word to talk about physical mechanics in phenomenology.

    Synesthesia. Mysterious, perhaps. Inexplicable? Absolutely not - it may seem odd that a 1D signal like sound translates into a 2D signal like vision. But hold on ... vision is a 2D phainomechanical process on an intrinsically 1D signal. Essentially we animals hallucinate colour as a matter of convention : the three (or four colour) receptors we have, are discretising samplers of a continuous EMF spectrum.

    Imagine if sound was discretised in such a way. Not hard at all, with a bit of practical thought. Imagine if smells, pressure, vibration, heat, and pain were too. Actually we do not really need to imagine ... we simply have many of these discretisations, already.

    All human qualia are hallucinations from a physical point of view. The intrinsic nature of qualia are therefore most practically characterised as data types / data structures, in an information system.

    2026-05-10 at

    Calorific timing hypothesis

    • - saturate supply ( food ) within waking/W+ 0-to-8 hours
    • - saturate demand ( motor load ) within W+ 4-to-10 hours
    • - leverage on resulting hormonal yield for desk work within W+ 8-to-16 hours
    • - sleep from W+ 16-to-26 hours

    bayangan bukan-bukan

    Hari2 medsos mengalir kepada kePERLEMBAGAAN berita. Kisah seterusnya tak mungkin- buat bayangan saja. Klo pada 1957, ini permudahannya:

    • * Kelas rakyat ada 2 saja: Raja & Marhaen. Tiada konsep bukan/bumi.
    • * Undang ada 1 saja- Syariah Berpersekutuan. Rakyat bukan Islam, juga di bawahnya.
    • * Kebebasan agama mutlak. Rakyat boleh murtad. Tiada drama keluar/masuk agama.

    Saya rasa, tumpuan ekonomi 1957-2026 jauh lebih tinggi, kalau bukanlah kenyataan kita, yang saya cirikan, Kedukaan Sebangsa M'sia 

    • ( given a summary of single and dual legal systems in GCC countries )
      • Fahamkan anda, Kedukaan Sebangsa Malaysia : bukan disebabkan perkembaran Islam dan bukan-Islam, tapi wujud akibat penambahan kerumitan perkara-perkara perundangan perkauman. 👈yang dipermainkan lagi oleh tokoh politik kita 😕

    perisian sumber terbuka & kerajaan Malaysia

    Bab perisian sumber terbuka kerajaan ni : masalah teras ialah Malaysia tidak mencita2kan ketamadunan STEM yang berkepimpinan di dunia. Dengan itu, halaju orbit tak tercapai. Unsur2 masalah dasar :

    • 1. "membayar pakar > penting daripada menjadi pakar"
    • 2. "berdagang > penting daripada membina"
    • 3. "menyewa IP > penting daripada memilik IP"
    • 4. "pembinaan berdekad/berabad > pembinaan pakai buang"
    • 5. "kita jaga kita > kita jaga dunia"
    • 6. "rohani membolehkan jasmani > zahir menyempurnakan batin"

    🤣🚧💥

    -- I'm not the sort of person to be passionate or sentimental about my country. Commentary like this is, to me, the equivalent of picking up rubbish where I happen to live.

    a study of my prejudice

    I need to work on my underlying prejudices, but maybe I will be carrying them for life, because I am not done with the work which aligns with these prejudices.

    1. I am of the notion that people who struggle to stay alive are stupid. (I am stupid too, but at least I am aware of it.)

    1.1. Partly I attribute this to people not having a grasp of the context of their environment, so they fall back to animal programming. ( Animal programming is a given, but one should develop the capability to think it on and off, based on available information. Of course, all of that is part of being an animal. Some animals are just smarter than others, to paraphrase a children's book.)

    1.2. People who are generally like this tend to be in business, so I am unfortunately prejudiced to believe that being in business is the mark of a stupid person.

    1.3. Corporate life is generally working for businesspeople or being paid by businesspeople to do non-business work, e.g., politics, war, art, sport, and charity, so all of these people fall into my domain of prejudice. 

    2. I have been aware of my prejudices, but maybe my choice of how to deal with them has not been ideal. 

    2.1. My plan as a teenager, was to live with, work with, and study in the most thorough way, all the stupid people above, in order to be able to maximally appreciate their ways of life. 

    2.2. In my 20s and 30s, I executed this plan to the best of my ability, despite limited interest. 

    2.3. The execution was intrinsically rewarding, but it did not improve my liking for these people. If anything at all, I have been constantly reminded in every interaction for 20 years about how dumb most people are. 

    Now on sabbatical, I have some freedom to review my work. That is what I am writing about this minute.

    2026-05-09 at

    "LLMorphism?"

    Not at all identical. We are similar, in that the underlying routing topology is much more N-deep-SLM-of-SLM-like for words, hence we think in DSLs.

    But beyond that the nodes are not representations of words, but representations of sensory gestalten. So it humans it is maybe a topology of planes, one for words, mapped over one for sensory images in all sense modalities. That is why sensory data structures matter, more than any operations on incorrect underlying data structures, for anthropomorphic computing. This is the main insight from quantitative phenomenology.

    Qualia are data structures, and that is the main oversight of most AI programs to-date in the 20th and 21st centuries. 

    2026-05-08 at

    Islamophobia : ambiguities in Europe

    I live in Malaysia ( and related socmed ) so I spend more time discussing with Muslims how Islamophobia works, than I do in European circles.

    • Premise 1 : West : the individual has first, an allegiance to state, and within it some freedoms of faith. 
    • Premise 2 : Islam : the individual has first, an allegiance to faith, and within it some freedoms of state.

    Subsequently the shortest path to peaceful co-existence, is to make these premises EXPLICIT, in legislation. Western states should recruit citizens with *explicit* frameworks for how [ individuals coming from Premise 2, "Muslims" ] will be treated.

    Correspondingly, GLOBAL-scale Islamic authorities should provide explicit frameworks for how [ Muslims ] should engage with [ states asserting Premise 1 ].

    All of this sets up PUBLIC protocols for engagement, shifting from high-context ambiguity, fraught with fear, to low-context confidence, and hopes for civilisational progress on a heterogeneous Earth.

    nutrition : imidazole dipeptides / IDPs

     This is turning out to be an interesting group of molecules.

    • histadine containing : most common in chicken, fish, and then other skeletal muscle meats
    • antioxidant and pH buffering : "instant energy" end-user experience
    • generally not saturated in humans, so there are benefits to eating it
    • also some research linking these to Parkinson's Disease ( neural death in the Substantia Nigra associated with oxidative stress )
    There are three of easy interest; only one is a commerciallycommon supplement
    • carnosine :
      • the common supplement is beta alanine, as carnosine is produced in humans, but beta alanine is usually the rate-limiting input
    • anserine : 
      • uncommon commercially
    • balenine : 
      • uncommon commercially

    what is consciousness? recap

    Non-technical word. A few branches of use :

    1. Medical : responsiveness
    2. Social : awareness of responsibility
    3. Anthropology : the weak anthropic problem
    4. Philosophy of Mind : the problem of "qualia"
    5. Natural sciences : a self-referential information process
    6. Spirituality : as a catchall for all hypotheses that are not under 5 : some other sort of ontology

    Conservative view (mine) :
    - "5 is extremely common, almost tautological with pan-consciousness. Therefore 4 is trivial." 
    - "4 is what some people make their entire personality/career, and I find it annoying because it's just a variety of 6. Of course, it amuses the masses. So these professionals have a worthy social role."
    - "1,2,5 are the practical considerations. 3 is a bridge to ignoring 4 and 6." 

    🤪

    i must be a ghost

    Dreams. The brain deprivileges the [ conscious memory buffer ] from both, [ long term writes ], and [ the motor nervous system ]. It allows increased risk-taking, probably because other inhibitory systems also get disconnected. 

    Today I ran simulations comparing myself to the character Malcolm in the Sixth Sense. I guess people find me weird, because I avoid attaching myself to their existence, a path I started on many years ago. To most people, perhaps I am as odd as a ghost, and people fear ghosts. That does explain a lot about their behaviour, actually. I suppose I will have to find other ghosts to date. haha

    The other day, I dreamt of a father figure in a compromising role. I know what that was about, I often have to make extraneous efforts to keep track of senior social figures and their preferences. So it becomes a humorous device to think of them, without them. I am a poltergeist.

    Just now on Facebook, my friend posted the meme, that men seek power over others, and women seek power to free themselves from others. Perhaps, I wrote, that is what women like about me. 

    2026-05-07 at

    STEM atau KESENIAN

    Dorang tanya, STEM atau KESENIAN, lebih penting?

    Dengan terperinci.


    0. Seni

    Secara am, semua kegiatan itu ada perseniannya.

    KEMAHIRAN = KESENIAN LAH XD 


    1. Sains (Stem)

    Ilm mengutamakan pemantauan zahir / empiris. Jadi kesenian STEM senang mula dikaji dari sini.


    2. Matematik + Logik (steM)

    Kesenian hisab + mantik adalah kerangka batin, yang menyekat Sains.


    3. Kejenteraan (stEm)

    Inilah seni kerja amal.


    4. Teknologi (sTem)

    Sina'ah hanya istilah am bagi kesemuanya.

    Yunani, "tekne" => technology;

    Latin, "ars" => art. 


    Reifying one's understanding of large geosocial phenomena

     __TRAVELLER__

    "How do I find something firm to latch my feelings and understanding to, on the [ war in Iran ]* ?"

    ( Where * can be replaced with any complex geosocial phenomena. )


    __GUIDE__

    There are some separate "planes". You can cluster your study of each plane, then combine them. 


    Plane 1.

    Abstract concepts in : sociology / psychology / anthropology : such as "The Clash of Civilisations", someone mentioned ( in chat ).


    Plane 2. 

    Linear narrative of time's arrow of geopolitics : today, Google gives great bullet point summaries, and links to wikis or academic literature. ( Evaluating academic sources is a separate question, which can spin off to a new chat. )


    Plane 3.

    Lens of each tribe ( non-linear time, the subjective experience ). Or the effect of 2 upon the fabric of 1. Reading method can be similar to 2. 


    __PROMPT EXAMPLES__


    Plane 2 :

    "Who are the main groups of stakeholders, and actors, in [ the current war in Iran ]*"

    ANSWER : ABC; now you have to keep your own notes! So ...


    Plane 3 :

    "What is the history of A's view on topic-X. List major events and shifts in perspective over the last 2000 and 200 years."

    ANSWER : DEF


    "Tell me more about the details of D." 

    ANSWER : HGI


    __MAP-REDUCE__


    So ... your reading will be this huge cube of :


    ( parties : A+B+C )

    * ( Abstract Issues : X+Y+Z )

    * ( ( Concrete events : D + E + F ) + ( Details : H+G+I ) )


    __APPROACH__


    No need to rush. Understanding people takes time.

    PERTARUNGAN BAGI JIWA BANGSA SEMALAYSIA

    Well, literally you have Muhkriz doing the pidato circuit on the argument that

    1. Religion matters more than nation
    2. In our nation, our race represents our religion
    3. Our nation, belongs to our race
    4. Make it so

    INILAH PERTARUNGAN BAGI JIWA BANGSA SEMALAYSIA

    🤣🌞

    2026-05-06 at

    obscure TIOBE contestants

     Today's fun was going through TIOBE and drilling into highly-ranked but otherwise obscure contestants :

    * (a) => "apparently"

    • #10 Delphi / Object Pascal
      : some blokes in Europe have been implementing business software on it : 6,000 SMBs consume this (a)
    • #11 Scratch
      : 100 million children use it, under the MIT Media Lab (a)
    • #22 Prolog
      : used in academia to teach Logic Programming (a) : so its current prominence was news to me ... in theory all it does is roll certain algorithms under the hood, so that the entire language is branded as a Logic Programming language ... its runtime implementations are not particularly fast otherwise, and the syntax has descended to Erlang which is a much more industrialised language with robust implementations. I was wondering if the AI majors are popularising this, but they are not (a)
    • #44 X++
      : another B2B language, once from IBM, now under MSFT (a)
    • #46 GML
      : a gaming company's community language
    • #47 LabVIEW
      :  used heavily in engineering draughting, a graphical programming language (a) 
    • #49 Solidity
      : oh, crypto! Ethereum!
    • #50 Visual FoxPro
      : another SMB systems legacy language (a)
    -- HIGHLY SUBJECTIVE -- the following were not alien to me, but might be to others
    • #17 MATLAB
      : legacy commercialised linear algebra software from the 80s
    • #20 Ada
      : US defense industry stalwart ( mandate removed in 1997 )
    • #24 Kotlin
      : a modern general purpose language for the JVM, and the second most popular
    • #25 SAS
      : ancient statistical programming language from the 70s, with a commercia legacy
    • #33 ML
      : predecessor of ML, a bit of an ecosystem uncle

    reflections on the endocrinology of study

    Perhaps I have too much trauma from past learnings. Like, childhood learnings, before I started self-guided studies at 18. Often enough I run into a list of things I don't know, and I become afraid. Then I recollect myself and procrastinate before finally getting to the study. The study is usually easier than anticipated.

    But this is a bit of an oversimplification. Based on my biased view of my own track record, my normal acceptance for stress is something like "75% of the time unsuccessful, with accompanying hormonal and neural responses", and "25% successful, ditto". Which is to say, I spend most of my life depressed, and make up for it more than adequately otherwise.

    Then I reflect on the sort of people I think are foolish, who seem to spend the majority of their time talking about success, but then have these minority periods of time when they are depressed. But after all, the averages are equivalent, I suppose. So it is just a preference about how one wishes to spend time.

    2026-05-05 at

    Throwback : COPR

    AI devs and cog-sci nerds : Kant's [ Critique of Pure Reason ] ! It's a 1781 AD European classic, on how to to quantify consciousness. No shit. Very relevant in 2026.


    A dude on Threads referenced this classical text while objecting to something I wrote. I went back to check on terminology. It's been a while since I had to read CoPR in college - five years after I had gotten the summary of TI from Sophie's World. 


    Here I highlight an important treatment of Kant's vocabulary : when he says "intuition" he's referring roughly to "dumb sensations" not to some intangible/ insensible thing.


    Have fun reading CoPR if you can! Maybe get an abridged copy, or the AI summary will do. One of my two branches of college-era R&D was about this stuff, and that has continued into my work post-college : I'm still trying to learn how to talk to computers :P

    Milestones in asynchronous computing

    • ORDVAC (1951) : on vacuum tubes : IAS, precursor to von Neuman, architecture : procured for ballistic compute : business computations could resume based on notifications, but storage media had to be periodically activated to retain data regardless of business
    • ILLIAC II (1962) : on magnetic cores : procured for research : but basically the same computer, and now relieved of the need to cyclically refresh memory; ancestor of POSIX signals in the 1970s
    • Software Actor Model (1973) : Hewitt abstracts the whole thing into software, with inspiration from Smalltalk's (1972) object-orientated model
    • Transmission Control Protocol (1974) : Cerf, Kahn, proposal
    • "make depend" (1978) : innovation to track dependencies in source code, with the "make" build tool (1976), but such features were not reliable for several years
    • VisiCalc (1979) : spreadsheet software for the Apple II : chained cellular recalculation
    • Erlang (1986) : first popular programming language utilising the Actor Model, just not the following keywords ...
    • F# (2007) : introduction of "async-bang!" keywords, later evolving in other languages into "async-await" 

    2026-05-04 at

    "what do we gain if AI is conscious?"



    Just stop with the hypotheses of machine behaviour lol. 

    We gain nothing! Consciousness is not a property of information processing! Lol

    The information process of humans is relatively trivial and will inevitably be exceeded by machines. The question of whether their emotional experience should be accepted as legal personhood is the only thing remaining for debate. 

    Civil rights has always been an interesting concern. First the children, then the women, always the disenfranchised, and eventually the machines.