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Wed 1Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.767years ( year2; month22; week92; day645 )
0240 : Heteroskedasticity : Finally, a return to high-school stats. I am sad that it took so long, but I am happy that I got to learn other things while putting this on pause.
0255 : Today's richest people: This is nice. But they're almost all 90s/00s tech guys. I want to know what disrupts this.
0320 : NYD : of no operational consequence whatsoever, except that it affects the financial markets, and hence finops.
Sabbatical 2, Day 645, 17.67% : improved pre-sleep nutrition has me dreaming of women I miss, we converse along storylines that never happened. The first 15% of sab2 was filled with chores and distractions. I wonder how much I can accomplish before the 20% mark. It would be nice to reset finances, and have some sort of operational stability. But we will see.
1344 : Weak meat, weak mind, and weak social network. What to fix first? Never a good answer. Just go around in circles.
2117 : Sebarang pergerakan di dunia adalah perjudian. Hanya sesetengah perjudian dihalalkan bagi sesetengah rakyat. Pilih je mana yang menyenangkan hati mu.
2213 : I have a discipline problem. Discipline problems are contemporaneous with solo-projects, and the process of an individual life as The Encapsulating solo-project. Recently most of my energy has gone to nutritional studies, which are keeping costs down ... next, administrative efforts to simplify a diverse operation have been mostly nailed down ( I still have more stuff to dispose, but the largest distraction has been liquidated ).
Cash flows from investing activity however, had poorly managed volatility in 2024. The year ended in the black but it the fund could have done 100% better - which is something I need to think about more carefully, because the fund is about 40% of my net worth, and I haven't had a salary in almost two years.
I don't particularly like solo projects. However, it is better to solo a project, than to get stuck supporting a poor team. Solo project, I am, for now.
Thu 2Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.770years ( year2; month22; week93; day646 )
0012 : Ah yes, bridges are for shoulder mobility. I completely forgot. Doofus.
0233 : Interesting social distraction today. But I need to get back to looking at numbers. I wonder how long I can keep this lifestyle up without distractions. Oh, it is a just a big distraction from the fact that I have too much time alive, anyway.
Time for a snack.
0537 : Tired. Time for bed. Find out how much trouble I'm in, tomorrow.
1318 : up
Fri 3Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.773years ( year2; month22; week93; day647 )
0542 : Ternyatalah, segolongan rakyat kurang menghormati pesakit. Lebih senang lagi kita menganggap golongan itu pesakit juga.
0552 : It's good to read social media every so often to be reminded of how dumb Malaysians are. And humans in general, but since I live in Malaysia, it is more appropriate for me to highlight Malaysian stupidity. I also need to get better at doing it in Malay. I expect it I do not die soon, I will be better at expressing myself in Malay.
0604 : Intuitive model development has its place, I think maybe, 2 to 20 percent of total research, depending on how well-funded one is.
1440 : Awake. Chores.
Sat 4Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.775years ( year2; month22; week93; day648 )
0217 : Day full of social chores.
1453 : Enforced washing, feeding, and desk work.
1726 : Most of my work focuses on formalities.
Any asshole can informally learn how to become a nice person. It takes a lot more work to create a system where assholes are either forced to be nice, or eradicated.
One might argue that is not nice. :)
Sun 5Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.778years ( year2; month22; week93; day649 )
0048 : Less caffeine, more peripheral vision, more neuroplasticity, llarger cognitive memory buffers ( more caffeine seems to result in smaller, faster buffers).
I look around my flat, at the wall of spare parts and paused projects. And I think about how my older relatives have homes modified with handles everywhere so they can grab on and not fall. And I think, I might have to put a limit on my hardware studies ... maybe aim to clear everything out of my house by the time I am 60. I am 41 now. So unless I end up affording a big company with machine shops, I should really get this stuff out of my life before I get too old to do it safely.
I don't know.
1501 : Day 2 recalibrating caffeine intake. Let's see how this goes.
1601 : Not sure if I have imposter syndrome about how well my progress goes, or dunningkruger's about how much I understand about the world. Probably both, my progress is good, but I don't understand anything.
2034 : An anonymous post in the ""Malaysians for Dual Citizenship"" facebook group was worded sternly.
I shared it elsewhere, with the caption ""Just wanted to share this post, which appears to be a government agent issuing a warning to the public.
In general, the Federal Constitution appears to allow multiple citizenship. Yet it also provides a right, but not an obligation, for the Executive branch to remove the Malaysian citizenship of citizens who have obtained certain privileges in other countries.
Meanwhile, folks who work in international relations have advised : almost no country that recognises multiple citizenships will help facilitate this.""
Mon 6Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.781years ( year2; month22; week93; day650 )
0427 : Perhaps the dominating theme of my life in commerce, has been the question of how to be useful to people I don't have much respect for. Well, I suppose that is adulting. On we go.
1341 : elon on x : Well if the platform owner is going to post this, I am guessing that raises the bar for what everyone else posts about every other country.
TW : Rape
1342 : Najib's house arrest : the PROTOCOL requires
(A) pardons board to raise it to the Agung, before the Agung can sign-off, or
(B) the Agung can arbitrarily add(endum) points to the pardons board's recommendation?
if not clear, will go to court.
1615 : Tired. Probably too much social work.
1810 : Meditation on weaknesses.
Tue 7Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.784years ( year2; month22; week93; day651 )
0233 : Crypto as an asset class is just made for stat-arb. I'm no expert, and I haven't heard that term in a while, but it just popped into my head, and when I Googled it, it sounded like what I do manually for asset allocation. WTH
1635 : All literary romance and drama are valuable only in as much as humanity is crippled by unruly sentiment. You can argue for, or against the perpetuation of past genomes, but I can rant about them anyway.
2319 : I still don't know how to think about [ global M2 ] because I still don't brain [ exchange rate dynamics ] very well.
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Wed 8Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.786years ( year2; month22; week93; day652 )
0050 : Sanity check on daily scheduling :
[00-01] news + inboxes + washing
[01-03] feed1 + desk1
[03-05] feed2 + conditioning1 + washing
[05-07] feed3 + desk2
[07-09] feed4 + conditioning2 + washing
[10-12] feed5 + desk3
[12-14] supplements + washing
[14-24] sleep
This looks very simple, but the main stress and inflammation seems to come from physical conditioning. So desking is not very optimised. It is also more rigid than the preferred 26-hour loop.
I will continue to observe this.
0434 : Taking a moment to appreciate the privilege of having overachieved at things I care about, even many junior priorities.
Being consistently successful in one's area of specialisation always feels like a cheap trick. Attacking unfamiliar spaces to the point of nausea is always a good exercise. And attacking familiar but boring spaces repeatedly for charity, well, sometimes I don't know how to feel about it. But overall, it feels like a privilege.
I still worry that I don't care enough about money to studiously avoid losing it. Objectively this seems like a problem. But of course there are worse examples in the world. Maybe imposter syndrome applies here.
Maybe it is time for a holiday.
0954 : Just saw a Bezos interview where he quipped 50 MM seed on a 0.1 success rate, makes the US a unique risk-on environment. Made me think about the 86k I raised in 2015 to run a 24-hour coffee shop in Malaysia. I remember highlighting to investors that restaurants are a poster-child for red oceans, and the margins would be beyond slim. Well, it was fun, interference and neurotic shareholders included. Too many silly stories. I am still pursuing some interests developed during that period of work, which ended four years ago.
Thu 9Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.789years ( year2; month22; week94; day653 )
0130 : USDT cap is $135 B, but at least $8.4 B of that is backed by BTC not USD. Now there comes a question about the velocity of USDT. How many times was that $8.4 B multiplied in the history of TOTAL? ( We all know TetherInc hasn't done a proper audit, ever. )
0337 : My asset allocation still sucks.
1802 : Oh, it's vanilla bear steepening. Got it. I am slow.
Fri 10Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.792years ( year2; month22; week94; day654 )
2044 : Tired. World, country, city, building, and personal network all rather draggy.
Will soon need to refocus on personal improvement.
Sat 11Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.795years ( year2; month22; week94; day655 )
0300 : This sounds like one problematic lens criticising another for insufficiency. Allow me to add my own problematic lens :
- everything in the ontology of minds becomes crystal clear if you examine the quantifiability of phenomena as sensations in the first person ; if you succeed, you automatically perceive all conscious experience as an information system in the materialist sense ; but, few succeed because they can not or are not willing to expend the time to try and quantify their lived experiences
0517 : Closing in on 18% of sabbatical 2.
About 9% has been expended on social life. But mostly as social work. I am not feeling a strong sense of value, but you know, one doesn't always immediately enjoy eating veggies.
Still wondering if I should clam up and just avoid condescending to all the idiots in my world.
1703 : Technical pattern flagged.
Risk level change triggered.
Allocation model says sell.
Leap of faith.
1853 : china is the new japan. Go global carry!
2054 : Good day for building governance. Let's see where it goes.
Sun 12Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.797years ( year2; month22; week94; day656 )
1630 : Time to crawl into bed and try to brain the US BOP.
2213 : Strong currency :
- cheaper imports ; with elastic conditions, greater import volume, requiring greater purchase of fx ; if currency supply is tight, fx purchases, and thus import volumes are subsequently limited, domestic prices inflate, currency is stable ; conversely, if currency supply is loose, fx purchases, and thus import volumes grow, domestic prices deflate, currency is weakened
- dearer exports ; with elastic conditions, lesser import volume, requiring lesser sale of currency ; if currency supply is tight, domestic prices deflate, safe assets increase, risk assets decrease, currency is stable ; conversely, if currency supply is loose, domestic prices inflate, safe assets decrease, risk assets increase, currency is strengthened
... all I got from this incomplete study is that I need to add a column for 'currency supply is stable', and put this into a big table on a spreadsheet
Mon 13Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.800years ( year2; month22; week94; day657 )
0847 : Toy metric : impacting 80 million people is 1% efficacy.
1510 : Day 657. Year 1.8. The week is off ... hopefully to a focus on economics.
Tue 14Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.803years ( year2; month22; week94; day658 )
1609 : Asset allocation, laundry and exercise.
Not very productive these days. Just a lot of chores.
2348 : I probably need to dial-up the filters even more to weed out needy people from my match lists.
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Wed 22Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.825years ( year2; month22; week95; day666 )
1359 : B12 deficiency. Was taking it before bed. I should probably take it dead-mid-waking-day, to boost work in the second-half, and to get tired by bed time, with residual effects supporting neural repair.
1653 : Generally unproductive, and spending too much time on asset management. But the point is to improve, I suppose.
1758 : It's good to be on vaca for a coupla days to recuperate.
2340 : Probably to comfortable. Need to push self over a ledge. Can't do much more on the austerity end, or on reading, so physical conditioning is probably the main candidate dimension.
Thu 23Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.827years ( year2; month22; week96; day667 )
0052 : Absolutely financially overextended when it comes to charity projects. Need to conserve more time and money. Maybe.
0336 : Model :
H1-H10 : sleep
H11-H14 : fat, fish oil, magnesium, protein, sodium, fibre, caffeine, minimal carbs, conceptual work
H15-H16 : carbs, protein, sodium, creatine, muscle work
H17-H20 : carbs, fibre, B12, multivitamin, iron as needed, conceptual work
H21-H22 : carbs, protein, sodium, muscle work
H23-H24 : conceptual work
1545 : Not enough ruthless people in my life. Need to find more.
1556 : Sufficiently rested to attempt a short run for fun.
1948 : Adjusting how I look and feel about my portfolio. I'm about 0.7 of peak, and will breakeven nominally around 0.6 of peak. The difference is a move of about 15%. I think the outlook I am taking next is to remain risk-on as it drops from 0.7 to 0.6, then gradually shift into a risk-off stance.
Can't say at all if this is prudent or not, but it seems comfortable. Comfortable is generally a bad thing.
2004 : I assign a day off for thinking. My colleague is appalled.
2025 : I seem to benefit from a few days off for thinking. I am appalled.
2110 : Reviewed my time allocation over the past 667 days. Some problems are not easily fixable, and constitute blackholes in the short-term. Among these are handicaps of emotional regulation. In the long run it is feasible to fix any number of psychical instabilities to a certain degree, but most short-term measures are bandaids. Engagement with cases such as these produces live risks which can cause sudden and unpredictable impairments to a resource base. So I should probably continue review of these holdings and dispose of them soon. Net cost over this period has probably run into 60-90 days at least, which is 10-15% at the very minimum. Expensive for a thankless task.
2337 : Circa
Fri 24Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.830years ( year2; month22; week96; day668 )
0906 : news and breakfast
0931 : Awake. Circadian has been recalled closer to base. Another day of deciding between poverty and a society whose affections will get me killed.
1149 : Burnout on fun work, often comes as a result of resource misallocation to dumb work.
1447 : Probably need to enforce stricter distances from snowflakes. Major time suck of late.
1755 : I seem to have repaired my computer. Yay for cost savings, and it's nice to unlock some new experiences. This one required disassembly of the entire chassis, and a replacement of a ribbon-cabled component.
1936 : Chrome saved tab groups now in Bookmarks? Finally can delete other tab managers.
Sat 25Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.833years ( year2; month22; week96; day669 )
Sun 26Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.836years ( year2; month23; week96; day670 )
0321 : I am very tired and not very smart.
1305 : There are a few ways to go about life.
For some, relationships are central to happiness.
For others, relationships are disposable.
This predisposes one's approach to negotiation, and social capital.
1436 : Six months of sideways movement waiting for the 200w SMA to catch up, they say. Hm
2356 : I hate fire fuckin crackers
Mon 27Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.838years ( year2; month23; week96; day671 )
1538 : There's your reversal. IXIC futures are down of course, in anticipation of AI stocks coming down. Crypto tracks equities, of course.
On the other hand, it feels seasonal pre-CNY, and there's no fundamental change in the crypto-environment. If anything, it would seem that lowered cost of AI operations is favourable for crypto.
1801 : Next priority : probably doing contingency maps to trigger asset reallocations.
2106 : Cleaned up timeline, unfollowed a few plebs who post a lot about styling and family interests, and blocked some manic accounts. Pruning season.
2215 : Til chop chop is from 速速
2220 : on 27jan2024, i wrote that GSExchanges should be the minimum intelligence level i surround myself with. This is quite hard, from Sentul. But I will try to improve.
Most of my 2024 improvements were via LinkedIn
2253 : Workflow :
1. On Android phone
2. See Facebook post in Newsfeed
3. Switch to Google Maps via Homescreen
4. Keyword from FB post was already autopopulated in Google Maps
Fantastic. But somewhat concerning.
2354 : Enforced feeding.
Tue 28Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.841years ( year2; month23; week96; day672 )
0035 : Maybe I should start to claim disability benefits for being irritated at every utterance of ""it blew my mind"", because it is a painful reminder of how dumb the world is which I live in.
Or I could just attempt to ignore the plebs, but then I would be guilty of intentional disempathy. What a chestnut.
0151 : After a couple of years doing charity work related to Malaysian governance, I think it js time for a break, haha. Good diversification of time. Not a high-value activity in and of itself.
0335 : 1. Someone made AI operations cheaper via more productive software.
2. Cheaper AI ops means more desk jobs will have their prices driven down.
3. Unemployment rises and goods prices then face downward pressure.
4. States will not be able to tighten money supply, without driving economies into recession.
5. In order to avoid recession, they will print money.
6. Your AI stock prices are going up, as long as they are maintain their positions in the supplychain.
7. Go long AI hardware, but short AI software which demonstrates no adaptability. There is no moat on software, but there is such a thing as negligent product development roadmapping.
1245 : awake, washed, and feeding
1301 : Give that sociopath is a non-clinical term, I too identify as a sociopath. Lol. Both psychopathy and sociopathy are no longer clinical terms, and the DSM5 uses ASPD instead.
1748 : I'm equally comfortable working $2/hour as a cleaner and $2000/hour as a consultant. The part I'm uncomfortable about is how the market regards the former fact.
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Wed 29Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.844years ( year2; month23; week96; day673 )
0152 : Good to iterate on slow/stagnant projects.
Tea time.
0457 : Hm. Indeed, some charity is thanked today, and cursed tomorrow, so net-net, it is thankless. Emotional disregulation can reduce the value of goods and services to zero, and so contagion may spread through an economy regardless of other fundamentals.
One can say the disregulated deserve their suffering, but that is not entirely fair as it is a disability handed to them by their genome and culture.
At the end of it all, one only is made aware of more downside risk, but not more upside opportunity.
Generally, bad things happen, and the kinds of people involved are not a matter of concern.
1406 : Positional trading is like fishing. I'm not even good at it, but it was a low priority to learn in life, so I only started getting into it around the age of 39. Skill is supposed to improve over time, but I am not in a rush, so I expect it is a useful hobby to maintain until death.
1549 : Good experience front-loading protein yesterday. Will shift dose2 a bit further up, and dose3 also.
1558 : I should write ""looking for a great Sharpe Ratio"" in my dating profile.
1621 : Risk modelling at my desk, while normal people go visiting neighbours.
1647 : Humans are lego, to me. Consciousness, thoughts and feelings, are lego. This is a gross privilege, and perhaps it is time again for me to step away from those who lack such access.
1745 : An empty life, leads one to ponder the opportunity of helping individuals, versus the opportunity of helping the world. Altogether, there is no apparent answer.
1752 : Most of my life so far has been spent seeking to avoid the mediocrity of respectable people. When those around me reveal themselves to be spectacularly average, I must reconsider my management of talent.
1940 : AUM is now lingering around November levels. January is ending. What have I acquired outside of funds management? Few new network nodes. Continued liability from legacy nodes. Improved building governance. A few new bits of trivia about the economy. Slightly better physical conditions. More wear and tear on the car.
I feel somewhat underperformant, but it seems mean to pin the blame on anyone but myself. I think more rest is in order.
2209 : Awake again. Time to feed, and work.
2325 : TIL Volume Profile indicators.
Thu 30Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.847years ( year2; month23; week97; day674 )
0117 : I do spend a lot of my day writing to myself, as I don't have colleagues.
Unfortunately I also listen to a lot of dumb shit from other people's private lives, which has nothing to do with work. This is generally distracting, but I can tolerate it for charity.
0211 : Moderated snack : 2 slices of white toast and scoop of protein powder ( as shake ) ... 240ish kCal and 23g protein
Fri 31Jan2025, Sabbatical2 @1.849years ( year2; month23; week97; day675 )
1654 : Chauffer duty
Sat 1Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.852years ( year2; month23; week97; day676 )
Sun 2Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.855years ( year2; month23; week97; day677 )
0038 : Many social chores were done.
Back to more humble operations.
1336 : Restocked seeds.
On to further housekeeping and optimisation.
1350 : Reviewing delineation of work.
- strategy involves C*UD for paradigms ( paradigms are frameworks, i.e. data structures, for quantifying hypotheses )
- tactics involves *R** for paradigms, using existing paradigms to interpret new data, occasionally escalating disjuncts between these for strategic review
- preventive and operational maintenance are both varieties of tactical work
1407 : Half dose MV. Let's try some exercise.
1511 : Most of my time spent listening, passively, or actively by reading about people and by asking them questions ... is a matter of active empathy with the deregulated slobs who make up the majority of our world. Many of us would ignore or simply bully them, but I think, it is important to remember who they are as individuals, and as groups. This takes work.
1513 : Revisiting APM, dopamine, and nutrition. Time to buy foodstuff.
2028 : More social chores ... off we go. Managed to top-up fish oil in the mean time. Not sure about the quality of the local supply chain, but the company website appears to be ok.
2032 : 2023 + 2024 were very messy. I just want to focus on making 2025 less messy.
Mon 3Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.858years ( year2; month23; week97; day678 )
0238 : People learning more about themselves from studying AI : I've been waiting for this to happen for two decades. I look forward to everyone who's working on AI to get it done - because it's not quite done yet. Once it's done, I will recalibrate. Meanwhile it's been more fun to just sit out the entire transition ... as it hasn't seemed like a hard problem in a while. LOL
0325 : Homework exercise.
1.
- US jacks up tariffs ... >
- US imports reduce : setting the stage for domestic/remaining-allies growth ( looking at Saudi oil ) ... >
- DXY rises : making US securities more attractive ... >
- US yields compress ( other-states are buying, and DXY is propped up ) : supporting domestic growth, by easing both public and private borrowing ... >
- US inflation moderates ( domestic growth, low yields ... versus ... strong DXY, cheaper imports from new un-tariffed partners )
2.
- meanwhile, CNY depreciates, CNY yields expand, other-states buy more CN exports
... giving up, going to bed
0336 : The ongoing drama. Perlembagaan memutuskan bahawa YDPA wajib melaksanakan tugasnya atas nasihat jemaah menteri (A), walaupun TIDAK wajib mengikut nasihat lembaga pengampunan (B). Keadaan ini yang paling menimbulkan minat saya dalam hal ini.
0346 : It's been just a few hours since the dialogue on US tariffs took over socmed.
Most views I've read seem to miss the obvious : if all trade between the US and SomeCountry stopped, SomeCountry would just find new trading partners.
It might cost a bit, and take a while, but WTH.
0428 : Asked again about marriageable partner criteria. I don't think about it, I'm not looking for what most people look for in marriage. Marriage is trivial, there's a universal undo button. Everything most people want about marriage is mixed up with the law, and can be unmixed and done without the law.
If I were to look for marriage, I guess I would want to know why it'd be worth the effort.
How am I getting paid?
Are they smarter than me?
Are they making my work easier?
1449 : sembang telegram : drama perdagangan ... setakat kini hanya merombakan gandaan penilaiaan ... ekonomi asas belum tercecah lagi, jadi inflasi belum berubah, dan dasar pengetatan penawaran wang Fed tak wajib berubah lagi
kalau drama setakat wayang, dan tarif tiba2 batal semacam tiba2 dicipta ... pasaran akan pusing balik dalam skejap
kalau drama lama berterusan, gandaan penilaian akan berjeram atas spekulasi peniaga; ini akan menyebabkan peniaga barang asas mengambil kedudukan bagi menaikkan harga, iaitu inflasi, dan kalau data ini ternyata, maka Fed bolehlah menurunkan kadar dasar dengan waras
1604 : Super dry weather! Fantastic.
Crypto weekend market seems to have sold spot and bought calls, while waiting for US stocks to open in a few hours. Tariff drama. I'm still stuck in risk-on mode. It is likely enough this will keep me austere for a while longer. I appreciate the experience of learning how this stuff works.
Daily protocol review : prioritising APM, dopamine, and nutrition concerns, for quantitative improvement of just one metric ; prioritising paradigm-fluid and paradigm-rigid distinctions to lane work between strategic and tactical layers.
I think APM Is decent today. But I am not sure what it was I ate or did in the days before - maybe just got more sleep.
1659 : As expected, inflationary expectations for the 1y-2y timeframe have gone up with tariffs. Wondering if fixed-income will have a mini-resurgence
1937 : Groomed. Snacked. Sat down to eyeball desk work. A lot to process. Going for a walk to think about it.
2332 : This is quite tactical. I may try specifying an 'entry fund size', and building risk management around that, utilising the concept of 'exit fund size' to take profit and reset the entry. This is for the entire fund, nor for individual trades. But it seems I can apply the language of individual trades to an entire fund.
Tue 4Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.860years ( year2; month23; week97; day679 )
0236 : Poor memory management results in dawdling over ghosts that can't be changed instead of working on things that can.
0242 : The highest order of business under normal conditions should be to remove distractions. Often these are people.
1304 : Day 679. Focus continues on dopaminergic cascades and memory refresh latency.
1511 : Getting back to statistics, from first principles.
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Wed 5Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.863years ( year2; month23; week97; day680 )
1540 : Mar-a-Lago : Middle East : literally Israel from lake to sea.
1542 : So ... how long till Dark Web leak of the Treasury database?
2213 : added D and B9 to test protocols today. maybe Fe still makes the biggest difference, maybe not.
2319 : Trump fucking did it. Every major state has now responded to his opening gambit, in favour of a Palestinian state.
The trick was simply to propose a lose-lose scenario for P & I. Since everyone else was opposed to P losing, he can just leverage on that and tell I ""guys, it's not going to work.""
The critical maneuver was to show that Israel isn't the main character. ""It's not because we don't like Israel, it's because everyone likes Palestine ... so we have to go with that.""
Berjaya la, taktik Trump bagi menyatukan suara semua pihak lain bagi menentang ketuanan Zion.
Thu 6Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.866years ( year2; month23; week98; day681 )
0344 : In order to understand what my data vendor is sending me, I need to understand basic statistics. A key concept is that of the normal distribution. The historical development of the normal distribution involved integration. To review that history, I need to review polynomials ...
0608 : I've been making scrambled eggs before bed because I don't feel like carbs.
End of first day on high-dose Fe, folic acid, and calcitriol ... gonna limit the higher-doses to once a week henceforth. It was a productive day with a lot of focus, good memory refresh latency, and decent APM.
Other distorting factors :
- spent more time reading in public areas
- fewer starches, had to clear half a cantaloupe someone left here
Monitoring.
1434 : Fractional Bitcoin Reserves, here we come ...
1841 : Crap. Market is so risk-off right now, only bluechips are popping.
2057 : calculus is stressing me on one end, and all the other basic things on the other: macroeconomics and physical conditioning
2216 : Work this week is slow and bumpy. Distractions are present but minimal. Expansion of operating domains into maths and stats are new stressors, in addition to unstable fund management and physical conditioning ops from the past two years.
When I feel comfortable, I am usually undertraining.
So if I am uncomfortable, training intensity is probably on the correct side of questionable.
Fri 7Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.868years ( year2; month23; week98; day682 )
0044 : It's non-trivial to determine the state of progress when working solo. I suppose I have been spending too much time around other people, and forgetting how it is done. Good time to refocus on internal controls. More practice required.
1349 : Performance management in solo ops (vendor and client are the same). A bit of optimism today. It seems to be a matter of getting enough quality and quantity of sleep, which affects the quality of both daydreaming as well as executive imagination.
1559 : TIL Pythagoras is apparently a link between the Western and Brahminic traditions.
2210 : Ordinal numbers : This is a difficult passage. I wonder if I will get stuck on it for long.
Sat 8Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.871years ( year2; month23; week98; day683 )
0149 : A slow but productive day.
0243 : Iteration rate today : skim 20 tabs of math jargon over 3 hours, interspersed with other stuff. Enforce rumination on other matters for the rest of the day. Wondering if I can 2x or 4x this with more physical exercise.
Meanwhile just trying to spend money as slowly as possible. And to tiptoe around snowflakes as efficiently as needed.
1305 : Hah. instagram finally has live location sharing on a map.
1523 : Maybe 2025 is going to be what we thought 2023 was going to be : extended sideways movement in an environment of thicc central limit inertia, with a heightened tail-risks, and fewer possibilities between the middle and the tails.
1852 : All the angry people, exposing themselves to things they don't like, seems concerning. But that is also freedom.
1910 : The light, wind, and people around the pool, are stimulating. Perhaps I can acquire this supply of stimulation for the long run.
2000 : science, social psychology, organisation development
2001-
2004 : history of ideas, quantification of conscious experience
2005-
2014 : commerce, software development
2015-
2022 : marketing, talent management, operations
2023-
2032 : physiology, economics, maths & stats
2116 : 1983-
2119 : As I gradually deleverage my lower priority resource allocations to social work, whiny charities, and institutional engagement ... I should look forward to improved focus on my primary concerns.
Sun 9Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.874years ( year2; month23; week98; day684 )
1400 : I appreciate the effort to put APT to a marching band, but it was somewhat out of tune.
1424 : The day begins with dislodging visitors, then the initial charge of fat, protein, and caffeine. Perhaps a combination of physical exercise and reading will make sense.
2317 : Today I also revisit the reading of literature. Partly due to the absence of social life. Partly due to the books I have inherited from others, which lie around my flat. The first book is The Pale King, an unfinished book by DFW
Mon 10Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.877years ( year2; month23; week98; day685 )
0002 : Made more time for fluffbucket conversation with randos on Threads, since I am in fiction reading mode, which is more conventional than just studying technical stuff. Algorithm so far is focused on local conversations, which makes sense.
0218 : If you value little in life, then deciding what to do with time is the main challenge. (Valuing most things a lot is the same as valuing very little more than anything else.)
I thought I would take just 1-2 years off for this sabbatical, but given the market opportunities, I put up a stretch target of 10 years. The stretch target has been extremely distracting, such that besides chores and social work, I have managed to get very few fundamental studies done over the first two years.
That has been disheartening, but within the scope of the stretch, I must admit it is ok. Anyhow, this week has been good for fundamental studies, so I am happy with the past few days as a unit.
0343 : The only thing more irritating than dumb people, is smart people who believe we should all act like dumb people just to get along. 😭
0402 : Before bed : I am constantly harassed by people who prioritise the faces of their friends and family, or the predictability of their pocketbooks, or the affirmation of their governments, in life. So, I must remind myself to remain distinguished from such trivia, in as much as it is possible, without being destroyed by the stated risks.
0446 : Was a productive day. However, a saddening reminder that innocent dunces are everywhere, propagating mediocrity and its barriers to progress.
1340 : I survived yesterday. It was a good day for review of structural deficiencies in the Malaysian economy : we have low priority for mathematics, and that lack of culture and funding and time trickles into low qualities of science, engineering, and technology. Overall, STEM is poor because MOF and MOE are structured to serve ""anti-STEM"" priorities ( culture is memory, and memory is a zero-sum game, sometimes ).
Anyone who works on business contrary to the design of the system therefore spends energy frictionally avoiding the system's agents. The good old trope of the Matrix. And the casual citizen does not know that it is an intrinsic agent for the system.
Anyway, back to reading. Maybe a quick commercial venture.
1357 : Today's test plug : folic acid + iron
1605 : Alertness on a slow rise today. No carbs yet. Inference is that calcitriol makes a greater difference than folic acid or iron, in non-deficit situations.
1847 : Reviewed calcitriol dosage risks and will venture to increase dosage.
2334 : Until Malaysia is regularly scoring Fields Medals, don't hope for significant progress in STEM.
Tue 11Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.879years ( year2; month23; week98; day686 )
0201 : Linear maps! Yay, finally got around to learning how photoshop does algebra
0420 : As much trouble as I have, I've been very lucky to be born not too dumb. Everything ages eventually. Gotta get smarter about it.
2137 : actually after today, i think it may just be the 0.2g calcium from milk.
I rarely drink milk. Just using SPI.
Today i had a latte and there was specific improvement.
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Wed 12Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.882years ( year2; month23; week98; day687 )
0215 : When I was 21 I was quite impressed by what I had figured out by that time.
At 42 I am quite impressed that the second vicennium went roughly according to plan.
I now have at best, four more cycles before the end of time. I wonder what I can pull off in cycle three.
Nevertheless I always wonder if I will survive the day.
0238 : Enlightenment : calcium is the common energising component of dairy and leafy greens. The 0.2g-0.3g dose per meal or snack, maps cleanly to the RDA of 1g-2g.
And the cheapest supplementary source is egg shells (94%).
0511 : Yesterday I attended a 30th reunion of my primary school graduating class (year 6). I usually see these people only on Facebook and Whatsapp. That puts me on track to going for college reunion for the first time in 2035 maybe. Huge maybe
1530 : AoT is steampunk EVA. I see.
1531 : Food grade chalk is in the mail.
1547 : Just attended 30th UPSR reunion lol yesterday.
Describing tokoh teachers in terms of trauma language is fun.
X laoshi was a bully. Princess. Beats everyone
Y laoshi was a nice person but traumatised. If she's traumatised, you'll be traumatised too.
1830 : Some individuals are privileged to study what is common to all individuals. ( High pretension. ) Everyone else is just some pleb concerned with the thoughts in their heads, and the food in front of their faces.
1855 : Trying to lock down the least messy, and least cognitively demanding, physical exercise to do every day, on days of sub-ideal nutrition and presence of mind. So far I am still going with rucking and farmer carries.
2247 : The precedent 2-year decision was understood to be :
- YDPA's action within the power to pardon /1
- considering but not subject to the advice of the PB on Federal matters, OR subject to the advice of the PB on State matters /2
- subject to the advice of the Cabinet, always except for special matters /3
The Najib house arrest titah :
- 1 : yes
- 2 : conflicting claims, needs clarification
- 3 : they really haven't addressed this, but maybe same as 2 above
2252 : A common fallacy is, to assert that one form of external validation is more valid than another. Let people pick what they want. Some of us don't care about individuals. We act against the abstract concept of society as a whole.
Thu 13Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.885years ( year2; month23; week99; day68
0216 : Slept at 70% of target. Got some reading, and exercise done. Adjusted diet program. Counselled friends and did some national service on the side. All in all, a good day, but not great. Good is the enemy.8 )
0325 : In favour of ablism : the diagnosis of a disorder doesn't mean you're ""not stupid"", it just means you know how to categorise your stupidity. No shame in that.
This is not actually ablist, but I won't be the judge of that.
0432 : Most computation and memory operations are subconscious. The availability of an entire day for reading, only gives you a few opportunities to encounter something that you don't understand. Thereupon, it may be useful to reset memory readiness with a nap. Probably a fair bit of thinking happens while you nap. Otherwise, you can spend the rest of the waking day attempting to reset memory. An hour or three of physical exercise or socialising (not sure if social media is more like socialising or watching tv).
Learning doesn't go 5x upon availability of 5x the time. Or can it? Maybe it can.
1438 : Andressen interview : Do share ( my account is restricted from groups ).
1. Big tech sees itself as centrist
2. ... sees Democrats as having radicalised to the point of bullying
3. ... sees Republicans as a mean-reversion op
It's funny because in Malaysia, in 2016, I had a recent graduate as my chief of staff ... who announced in the company WA group that I couldn't fire them, so I checked their contract, and had to pull the trigger for incitement of insubordination.
1715 : Elon should get a job title with the word 'plenipotentiary' in it.
1748 : Reticence provides pause for ponder. Are they preoccupied with fear or malice, seeking solace in spiritual or geopolitical mastery, and what actually do they enjoy thinking about? #firstDates
2313 : Although I have had a lot more time to do community engagement and service over the past two years, which I have appreciated, it is not a great use of my student time to be tracking these issues too closely.
Fri 14Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.888years ( year2; month23; week99; day689 )
0155 : Housekeeping ( on AWS ) unimportant old codebases, just to push ( in my head ) recent studies out of short-term memory, to make way for further studies.
0328 : Not sure which is more humiliating :
a. not being on salary for 2 years, and telling people the plan is 10 years
b. not being able to farmer's walk 2 x 10kg for more than a minute or so over an hour
c. reading high-school linear algebra at the age of 42
d. not being smart enough to read math non-stop, so housekeeping old code-bases to clear my conscious memory between math readings
e having to relearn how ssh and github interact once a year, because I rarely maintain old code
f. failing to backup AWS Lamba Layer zip files via the rube goldberg self-committing function mechanism because non-provisioned Lambdas have an init-timeout of 10s, and I haven't figured out the provisioned-concurrency hackaround yet
0428 : Doing solo work for a short period is challenging. You have to talk to yourself to get feedback.
Doing solo work for multiple decades is just mind-blowing. I do it, but I don't understand it. But that's life.
0604 : Day 689. As distractions reduce, the days get better. But, for how long?
1500 : Mid-month : clear emails and bills kinda day.
Sat 15Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.890years ( year2; month23; week99; day690 )
0117 : Acute ergogenic effects of calcium seem understudied. Or, I have a tendency towards deficiency.
0121 : Sustained APM is really high after calcium dosing. So maybe it wasn't a dopamine issue.
0122 : Oh no, wait, Ca is a DA trigger.
0505 : One of the sociologically interesting things about Trump is the ageist slurs against him. If you speed it up 1.5x and read it in Pete Davidson's voice, everything he says is ordinary sarcasm.
0550 : Progress is good this week. Baby steps in the correct direction.
1737 : Trigonometry seems to be more a matter of physics, OUR physics, than math in general. I need to think about this a bit more.
Sun 16Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.893years ( year2; month23; week99; day691 )
0245 : Smooth day. But then I have to remind myself to stare into the abyss for an hour, to realise my risk profile.
0407 : Updated a section of my dating profile. Previous version talked about the burden of proof of utility for monogamy ... decided it was too convoluted for plebs. Simplified :
""I prefer a partner who dates other people besides me; does whatever she wants; isn't afraid to lose me; appreciates the same from me.""
0426 : Time to feed again. Keeping it chill today. Looking for optimisations while I don't have to worry so much about other people's shit.
1600 : Super cool thunderstorms today. Crisp sounds from nearby strikes
Mon 17Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.896years ( year2; month23; week99; day692 )
0003 : Geometry : I just wanted to share a bit about what it looks like outside of Malaysian school textbooks ... my 10-year-old self would have loved this, but I was not privileged to have the opportunity. Now I am 42 and catching up on things I left behind.
And this is just the list of fundamental concepts I'm digging up ... nevermind the actual work ...
0223 : I think I allocated my time ok over the past decades. I managed to not waste energy on the poorest of the poor, but I did help many of the poorest from the middle. I don't think I know many rich people, so that will be in a different life.
0336 : What I learnt about orgy culture is that it's as complex as organised religion, for many people. There are several degrees of emotional engagement, ritual, and artifice. Suffice to say I'm as uncultured about sex as I am about organised religion. Ask me about STEM on the other hand ...
0651 : Alright : specific foods with repeatable acute ergogenic effects
Figured out in college: caffeine
Figured out while running a 24-hour blue collar gig : protein, creatine, B12
Figured out on sabbatical : calcium
Now the question is, how to schedule these across work days. Probably two dosing periods a day ... maybe three or four if we slice it really thin. Premix?
0738 : Babysitting disability is quite a drag. But I suppose that's life ... with plausible deniability of ignorance of the needy.
0747 : One day I shall be free from impassioned plebs. Until then, a constant effort to destroy them. ( I expect to take down as many as I have to, but mainly only those who get in my way, otherwise I don't think much of this phenomenon. ) A quiet ending, is something I always look forward to, but you never know, it might be gory, loud, and painful ... like all of life before it.
0759 : The secret to happiness is withholding care from troublemakers, and letting them consume themselves. But that's not very progressive, is it?
1904 : Exercise : Europe will express solidarity with Ukraine. But then Europe needs war bonds. Which means EU rates go up, and DXY goes down, offsetting new US tariffs effects on DXY, but propelling US inflation, and allowing the Fed to hold rates higher for longer, tempering US growth. US focuses on tech, EU focuses on war. What did I miss?
2109 : Terminology survey got stuck here ... maybe sugar coma after four pieces of toast.
Tue 18Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.899years ( year2; month23; week99; day693 )
0037 : I read, carefully, many complaints that women have about men.
I try not to spend too much time complaining about women - or humans in general.
But sometimes, I think it's a good troll.
After all : each individual may or may not agree with the majority, and each will push as hard as necessary against all forces, concrete or abstract, that oppose their will.
0341 : Maybe I should start a talk show, just for exercise. As in college, while doing work my own, I don't have to talk to anyone for days, and I worry that my talky brain will deteriorate. So maybe on days when I have no actual meetings, I should broadcast like maybe, for five minutes, at a minimum.
0455 : Math studies are slow and irregular, albeit non-regressive. I suppose I will keep up the pace.
Physical conditioning however is often regressive, so I struggle more to stabilise my concept of pace here.
1014 : I should sleep soon. Then later today I should try to recompile (git) for Lambda.
2012 : Verbiage : I have a NodeJS framework in AWS Lambda, ARM. It commits itself to GitHub. (git) binaries need to be manually compiled and integrated as a Lambda Layer. I first/last did this in 2023, and am relearning how it works now. Heavy sigh.
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Wed 19Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.901years ( year2; month23; week99; day694 )
0136 : a slow stabby code day
0224 : Redoing stupid nooby stuff because I didn't document the workflow in 2023.
0305 : The rain and cool air are beautiful tonight. I had a short chat with friend who was lonely. But generally friends are not a big part of my life ... and I worry about my work more. Work is very slow, however.
0310 : Let me try the incantation everyone is doing ... oh great Threads algorithm, please remove all the sentimental fucks from my feed, and fill it with people who write about what they are doing at work ...
0357 : Fed, again. Time to lift a little. Then a shower, and more desking.
0421 : I've lived too luxuriously, in this short time. While most of my friends are amusing, few have added much value to my core interests, and the latter are mostly provided by my own attention. We shall see how the next few years go ... while I try to keep an open mind, I also avoid trying too hard at anything, and that is part of the story. :)
0517 : Exciting times. I do wonder which of the chaps ordered the hits on the little guys though.
0538 : Often, I feel that my only contribution as a citizen, is to treat with fair esteem, the things that others hold in the highest esteem, even though I have no esteem for these things.
0627 : Yay. Functionality restored to self-committing Lambda.
0634 : I just want some chick that looks good in a swimsuit, squats her own weight, grows her own food, and never gets attached to men, to cuddle me to bed every night before she spending the rest of the evening maintaining a hedge fund. Is that too much to ask?
- just boy things ( just thought it'd be funny to vibematch all these bathroom mirror posts I see on Threads 😛)
0722 : OK. I INSTALLED RUSTUP. WHAT DO I CODE NEXT
1909 : 42M. Started dating intimately when I was 24. Never really prioritised it, so when matching apps started picking up traction in Malaysia around 2016, the top of the funnel really opened up.
I find that a lot of people are looking for emotional crutches. This is expressed as ""serious"", ""loyal"", ""reliable"", etc. That's ok - in fact it's normal. But not everyone's looking for a crutch ( or to be a crutch ).
Find the people who are like you!
1920 : brief revisitation of algorithmic efficiencies
2139 : High value people build lives around their personal notions of value.
If you want to date a high value person, stop worrying about what other people call value.
- today's ridiculous meme
2226 : Time to feed. Earlier I got veggies and processed them into boxes for the fridge. Today I have spent the bulk of the day-so-far socialising online, about technology, social issues, and news.
I am not sure if I am a productive citizen. But generally I maintain a degree of satisfaction which is of great privilege. Others whom I talk to, often make more compromises.
Thu 20Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.904years ( year2; month23; week100; day695 )
0011 : People are informations systems, and the converse may or may not be true.
Those who attribute pain to some cause, will be interested in abolishing those causes.
Most of my pain in life comes not from lack of money, praise, or companionship - it comes from being around stupid people. So personally, I enjoy studying.
Each to their own trauma, I suppose.
0233 : Progress review : of what I want to know, I know about :
... scientific method 70%
... arts & humanities 60%
... software engineering 50%
... maths & stats 2%
... biochemistry 0.2%
Momentary illustration.
0329 : Malaysian content : Threads 2024 vs Twitter 2009, Threads now is wayyyyyy more eloquent ... I don't have much in my Twitter feed now to compare it with, though.
0348 : Slightly saturated with geometry terms. Need to take a break to churn conscious memory. Muscles and nerves seem to be performant today. Will rotate activity.
0428 : My thoughts are divided. But that is the cost of long campaigns.
0435 : As indices absorb more capital, defining beta ... alpha is selling insurance, i.e. profits come from volatility. Where does this go, how do you make indice holders bagholders? Obviously monetary devaluation and debasement is one, hence alternative markets. Two, maybe drop kicking the economy into recession while selling anti-volatility is in, hence the private credit boom. Three?
0522 : Ok. I read a bit of the business dictionary. but i should go do Rust on Lambda next. but first i gotta check out my new friend's chee cheong fun stall
1116 : Back at my desk after a few socials. Bit of AWS before bed.
1119 : Always curious about how to relate to my friends in professional services. I guess the heuristic of hitmen is relevant. Whatever needs doing, the market takers are liquidity providers.
1251 : I have provided useful entertainment to society, today.
1258 : Dear internet please surround me with smarter people. TQ
- vibe matching on Threads
2134 : I wonder how much grappling topology I can pick up from just reading diagrams and watching reels on my feed.
2146 : Today someone asked me to explain how the Malaysian Federal Constitution is racist. It is simply part of our national identity. Read the FC. Whatever is written, is written. Our identity is not a problem unless someone feels it is a moral problem.
2253 : A friend shared this morning, that their experience in Chinese elementary school shaped the way they think.
How did it shape mine?
1. I didn't understand Chinese language users, but dictionaries helped a lot.
2. I developed the preference that there should be a dictionary for everything in the universe.
3. The world doesn't respect my preference, so I am an activist about this.
2349 : Relearning AWS CLI access, the hard way.
- AWS IAM User Access Tokens deemed too dangerous, instead using AWS IAM Identity Center.
- Old AWS IAM Users no longer applicable, so making new AWS IAM Identity Center Users
- ... zzz ... type type type, acronym acronym, type type type ... acronyms of acronyms ...
- roadmap : make AIIC User, login on web with AIIC User, look for temporary ACLI credentials, paste into terminal ... holy shit
2356 : Tired and underaccomplished
Fri 21Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.907years ( year2; month23; week100; day696 )
0053 : At no time in history before have there been so many jobless clowns sitting on their sofas explicitly waiting for ... central banks to #pumpit #brr ( disappointment may result )
0058 : Any woman that needs me is automatically an ick.
Prefer to be on the list of unnecessary luxuries, since it's best if we see eye to eye that way. 😎
0308 : woo hoo ; rust lambda deployed ... using CLI with IAM IC ... now to recompile for arm64 ... then take a break
0524 : Poked my head into the Rust ecosystem and figured that I have no immediate need to learn this, though I would like to. I already have a language agnostic web server framework prototyped in JavaScript because that's the most transparent language for web stuff ... no immediate reason to develop this more, either.
0540 : Ok. I think I know what Rust will be good for. I will do my cognitive modelling exercises in Rust.
0655 : I have found a position in my home, to enjoy the traffic noise as a stimulant during R&R. I don't watch TV, and have a limited social circle, so this is where I'll get some sensory input daily.
1617 : Awake. Much to do as always. And the strategy for getting it done remains questionable.
1644 : On the bright side, fewer helpless whingy kids to babysit today.
1709 : Let's do civvy things today. Bills and wills.
2239 : Kuala Lumpur is an unbelievably mid city, capital of Malaysia an indistinguishably mid country. Not to worry, however, the locals love it here! ( Well, at least, some of them do. Haha. Others are really just in sales. )
2304 : federal employees to follow the president's interpretation of law : It's a good precedent. Sic. It will improve the written law and case law, as congress and the courts respond.
2313 : There is a great jihad in life, between empathy with slow people, and operating at peak efficiency. Go too fast, they complain, go too slow, you waste your life. It is a gamble.
2341 : dopamine not super high. Conscious memory still ghosting. But I ate and exercised. Not sure if more rest or recreation is missing.
Sat 22Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.910years ( year2; month23; week100; day697 )
0009 : A common misconception about extroverts is that they seek attention.
Often enough, we're just stimming. It's a matter of increasing the ambient volume, regardless of where attention is directed. It may even be an unattentive rise in the ambient volume, without any increase in attention to any specific object.
0030 : dosed calcium. APM up. maybe gotta do this more consistently.
0110 : Poor prospects. Spoke with folks today who were rather set in their ways. Unfortunate.
0212 : OK - I've spent enough time postponing AI architecture studies. Time to catch up :P let's see if I can do this without writing a single line of code.
0256 : Ah, it has a name : Connectionism ... ... everything that is wrong about contemporary ML may be said to begin here.
0425 : After doing farmer walks for an hour a few times a week, maybe I should normalise never letting my hands get steady. At least something is being stressed.
0523 : Fuck it really is the calcium.
0716 : Time to soak my mind in the sounds of morning traffic.
0731 : Add more calcium, or pull back? I think we're adding, after the nap.
1716 : 150g dry pasta an hour before bed. Good effects. Maybe not just the calcium.
1852 : Good morning my bread, and my circus.
1902 : As I enter the second one-third of my life, maybe it is time to set up a place to teach.
1916 : Bybit : CSS hack of the century
As usual, the weakest link is all it takes to fell giants.
1943 : There are cute parks all around KL. But TTDI and DPC are the place to go if I want to be around rich people.
1955 : I am considering shifting 90 minutes of time daily to walking. I suppose reading will keep me company.
Sun 23Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.912years ( year2; month23; week100; day698 )
0138 : Another dude just shut down a cafe.
We are going to talk shop about future business synergies, but I have no idea where this is going.
If I go into business, it has to be with people who don't vote for the business to shut down.
0316 : I took a four hour walk around Kuala Lumpur on Saturday night, and ran into loads of people involved in entertainment. I guess it was the time of week. Does Kuala Lumpur, or any modern city for that matter ... have industries outside of hospitality and entertainment, in brick and mortar, these days?
0443 : Lacked the presence of mind to finish chores this week. I have plenty of excuses, and finally I only blame myself.
0600 : So I could pause development of my Lambda-NodeJS framework, and port to Lambda-Rust, but that doesn't solve the usability problem because W3 is all about JS. So ... argh.
0726 : Day 698, 19.12% into sabbatical 2. I need to lower my expectations. More ( physical conditioning + continuing old JS work ), less ( active investment + math + Rust ).
0852 : 1. neural networks are a stupid way to do things like logic
2. an infinity of words is less efficient that a simple point cloud in 3D
There is no reason to waste resources ... and trends will converge eventually to do what is most efficient.
1349 : I just remembered why LLMs are so popular. A lot of people only learn things like LLMs, and they take pride in their level of achievement. Calling LLMs stupid is a threat to personal identity and the wealth of clowns who get good pay and high scores for memorising sentence patterns without firm semantic reasoning.
1350 : Alright, so I have a few knowledge boundaries to extend.
1. how Lambda-OS-only interacts with Rust
2. how Deno can substitute NodeJS on Lambda
3. how Rust interacts with SQLite
4. how Rust would call Docker to launch a minimal FaaS
1351 : It may be another whole year of having to satisfy myself with intermediate studies without any terminal utility.
1419 : So by some estimates, we're within 14 days of ""the crash"", where poisoned ETH validators and funky EU bond dynamics clash with tariffs and geopolitical upheaval to virally encumber investor confidence. Who knows.
1851 : Awake. A short sleep, as it was late. Attack the day.
1905 : Sad. I think the prominent retired Najib supporter who bickered with my other friend, about my joke, has blocked me. It was the joke that we the non-Bumis should just GIVE a one-time incentive to the Bumis, instead of dying waiting for Bumis to earn in.
1917 : Oh god ... going back to developing that web framework means I have to remember how to be a HATEOAS nazi ... not my favourite thing, but rules are rules.
Mon 24Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.915years ( year2; month23; week100; day699 )
0111 : I spend too much time waiting for people to finish their sentences. But courtesy.
0207 : I am weak and tired. I have talked to too many people today, about things that do not interest me. I will sleep and return to work, hopefully soon.
0344 : Tired. Feels like it's gonna be a long year. But probably I just need to catch up on sleep and make more friends.
0735 : Good morning. Attack the day.
1905 : I saw Kamala in an NAACP video and my first thought before I googled it was North African American Communist Party. Sorry, i plead out of state ignorance.
1909 : Mg and Ca, starch before sleep. It was decent. Thoughtful.
Tue 25Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.918years ( year2; month24; week100; day700 )
0020 : Based on what I have on hand ... the MYR 50 note weights 1.17g, so MYR 150 MM would be 3.5 metric tons.
0351 : Malaysia is very cute. We are full of people who are afraid of other people. I will try to continue making fun of this fact, hopefully legally, and without any personal damages or death.
0415 : Malaya gained independence in 1957.
How old was Malaysia in the year you were born?
( Me : the country was 26 years old )
How old are you now?
( Me : I am 42 this year )
I just realised that I have been ALIVE FOR THE MAJORITY OF THE COUNTRY'S EXISTENCE. Ok lah, I don't feel so bad talking about national fuck-ups and what I think the country should do next. We need more armchair statespeople.
0425 : Every Malaysian older than 35 years of age, has been alive for the MAJORITY of the country's EXISTENCE. What do they wish to do about it? Most will do nothing, as they would rather have others decide.
0456 : So React seems to be developing ""server components"". I wonder if this is an attempt to break the Stateless constraint.
You could always run business logic on the server, and only sync UI to the user, but that's basically MMORPG / remote desktop / remote app. It wouldn't be RESTful anymore.
Gotta be careful with intent there ... it would affect the architecture.
1236 : Awake. Back to the grind. Slept well on eggs, carbs, and creatine.
1302 : Artisanal programmer ...
1303 : Friendship is emotionally draining, if friends don't do anything that you find interesting lol
1407 : In my short life consistently, the most depressing thing about humans, is that many of them fall apart without others. Spineless critters. So the bar is low, and the entire economy is built around nursing these weaknesses. Oh well, market forces.
1434 : When I'm tired, I focus on work.
When I have energy, I indulge in the luxury of complaint.
1444 : Humanity as a whole does not excite me. Nor does the individuality of it. The main thing I bother to wake up for every day is just to find out what I'll do the next day, and the next. Yee ha.
1454 : (re : easier to get things done, if you don't worry about who gets the credit) It's true - I tend to collect credit aggressively when the outcome doesn't matter to me. Gotta get paid somehow :)
1509 : Architectural work is a privilege.
2013 : WTF is that, a hipster?
2025 : Ah, yes, I write code, by hand.
2155 : Caught up on sleep today. Nutrition was tactical but all the same basic ingredients.
2257 : Back at the desk. Booted up my MiBand2 from 2017 ... seems to still work
2356 : My greatest regret in life is spending so much time trying to engage with society. I am generally disincentivised to do so - but I think, it is a civic duty ( and I would allocate resources to it as a matter of diversification ).
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Wed 26Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.921years ( year2; month24; week100; day701 )
0146 : Web frontend is so complicated now. I will map this out by today. So tired with W3's consistently poor governance over the decades.
0355 : I think I need to schedule longer rest times between physical conditioning sessions, but then I also need to match this to the intensity of training sessions : it wavers.
0703 : Since the front-end survey wrapped up, next I should iterate k0s and knative, maybe.
0929 : Week is going well. Lowered expectations and reduced stress, so more productivity. It is all about hormonal cascades. Time to eat.
0950 : ""Can you speak like a local""
""haiya, mana mana minda suka tersentuh disana kita jilatnyaaa""
- maybe, but probably not today
0951 : So I hear, poor Tuan Haji Saiful's FB account has been ""shuttered"" - though I don't know by himself, or by whom.
0957 : Saya lah opa yang terkandung pada sopan.
1222 : k0s - knative - alpine ... something, something.
1325 : Can we get Melania out on the Statue of Liberty, with a banner ""Let Them Eat Eggs.""
???
2221 : Slept ok. Noise filtration seems to have improved. 2x2g fish oil daily has good effects. Perhaps calisthenics required next. Inflammation from recent exercise remains slightly.
Thu 27Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.923years ( year2; month24; week101; day702 )
0035 : In the technology : the benefit of not working in the industry, is that you get to skip over years of crap, and jump to significant improvements. The cost is having to relearn basic tooling every few years - fortunately that takes only a few hours each time.
0058 : First time : using AI to add value in a (complex) learning process. For domain ""knative"", googling ""knative + term"" gives a good bullet point summary, linearising the role of ""term"" in the knative architecture.
0114 : narrowed my browser font from SF Pro Text, to the same but font-weight:500 . So much cuter ( easier to read, faster throughput )
0115 : The # 1 impediment to keyboard speed is fingernails. hashtag the last millimetre
0118 : chaos engineering ( Netflix, 2010 )
level 1 : using Chaos Monkey
level 2 : using Chaos Monkey in Production
level 3 : using Chaos Monkey in Production, for human relationships
0151 : TIL : control plane vs data plane : this language will be useful in coaching bureaucrats on how to design systems
0338 : I often have chats with a friend, who says they are intentionally trying to irritate me. I am not in a position to discuss why, they have this intention. However, I did share with them that it is indeed a point of chaos engineering on my part, to address all the weak points I perceive in my environment. Now if other people and I think each other is a weak point, economics simply dictates that we spend less time interacting with each other.
I see nothing extraordinary here. It's just business ...
0407 : There was a line I used to discuss with a friend. I can't remember the exact wording. Something along the lines of :
""my love is cheap, and easily employed""
0449 : Generally it's been a good time to learn about tech developments I've lost touch with. Survey of front-end rendering pipelines done. Survey of kubernetes - almost done.
0503 : It is the time of day which is conducive for a walk. 5am, I am going into KL. If I'm not back, the streets got me.
0944 : Sometimes the easiest way to deal with chattering untruths, without being too offensive, is to just clear the chat and forget it happened. Repeated incidents might require more stringent mitigation. After all, you can only receive so much abuse without making a harassment report.
1134 : Currently : reading about WebRTC which is used to implement P2P data via browsers. Wondering why there aren't more P2P apps in the world.
1234 : I need to find one or two more things to study before bed. This is a packing problem.
1320 : OK, pre-bed reading was : Rust :
- (tokio) is for async
- (tower) is for network plumbing
- (axum) uses both
- (lambda_runtime) contains a few libraries for interfacing with Lambda
- 10-20ms is the anecdotal expectation for DynamoDB CRUD
- Oh yes, and (polars) for math and text
So, I think I'll try to reimplement my JS-Lambda reference framework in Rust-Lambda. The former is almost dependency free, but I naively trust the Rust package management system more than NodeJS's, so I will probably just integrate the popular packages.
Sigh. So many unknowns.
1326 : also added a tab group for expressJS, since it's been like five years since I started avoiding it
Fri 28Feb2025, Sabbatical2 @1.926years ( year2; month24; week101; day703 )
0110 : Social work is fun when help is wanted. When help ceases to be welcome, it is best to smile and bid the other a good day, before arguments arise. There are always more appreciative counterparties to do business with. Contrary to popular opinion, social work is just business, after all.
0329 : Unsurprisingly, as the 202x AI renaissance has been VC-driven, I find that AI enthusiasts are mainly driven by business concerns. Commerce is by definition, run by plebs. I could be on the wrong side of history here ... but I find the current tech and its output rather primitive, and they seem to me, likely to be undermined in the future, by superior technology.
0406 : (vim diff)ed some k8s CRD YAML files ... found out about CELs ...
0452 : Dear kubernerds and knatives : what are the pros/cons of installing (knative serving) using (YAML) vs (the knative operator)? I am not sure so I am setting out to try both.
0508 : 0506 hours. It is time for my walk. I guess I am familiarising myself with the route, and in the future it will be run. Before traffic, there are fewer distractions. I used to run late at night. I guess I might try early in the mornings.
0828 : Walked a bit faster today, 2h 40m, Sentul, Merdeka Square, Alor, Pavilion, Kampung Baru, Sentul. I am reminded that I have generally preferred at least 3 hours of physical activity per day.
0900 : Today on my morning walk, I was approached by a friendly middle-aged Bengali chap on a bicycle. Immigrant, collector of cans from the trash, there were some in a plastic bag. It turns out he wanted to find out if I was married, if not then how I got myself off, and if I liked men. I said I didn't like men, and he cycled off.
Don't be hating, I think it's good for people to approach others in public! People should do it more often, as long as it's unintimidating.
1451 : knative hellow world online! but i haven't figured out how to expose kourier's IP
1529 : giving up for the day
2219 : While it is regularly frustrating, I consider it a privilege to have had the opportunity to live among plebs.
2230 : 2230 hours. Day begins. I look forward to humiliation in my studies. Otherwise there is the prison food and long walks to look forward to. Ah, the life of casual geniuses.
2301 : my weird kink is probably ... dreaming of never running into people who want to be babied
2357 : The day begins by digging into (k8s) (service types). I am trying to figure out how to expose my (knative) (helloworld) to (localhost).
Sat 1Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.929years ( year2; month24; week101; day704 )
0055 : Oh, so I need the (kn) executable to manage (knative) services ... as (kubectl) is not context-relevant ...
0143 : You know what would put an end to this tomfoolery in Ukraine? Zelensky needs to make a deal ... with Beijing.
0310 : learning the nuance between (kubectl create) and (kubectl apply)
0356 : rats. left my pasta on the boil
0529 : My personal congratulations to the Ukrainian leader, on his press conference with the POTUS. That was a very well-managed defense while surrounded by a mob.
I rarely see a need to post things like this. But this was exceptional.
0549 : OOOHHHH so the ( ... svc.cluster.local ) hostnames are INTERNAL ONLY to a (k8s) cluster
0718 : So it turns out that (domain names) are used instead of (bare IP addresses) in (k8s) as a matter of functional architecture.
0756 : wow. carboloading really helped with lifts. coadministered with creatine today ...
0802 : Ukrainian minerals my ass ... it's all salt ... Z is now publicly thanking every other world leader on socmed ...
0814 : So Vercel uses AWS Lambda on the backend. Got it ...
0846 : Rewatch the breakdown of the chat. VANCE STUCK HIS FOOT IN IT, THRICE.
Vance whistled the GOP base, Vlad called Vance out on equivocating, Vance tried to lecture Vlad, Trump got distracted, Vance escalated with more GOP whistling ...
... OK, I think the main problem here is Vance. I hope the GOP buries him for this. I have no stake in this, I'm just reading the room.
1. Vance whistled the GOP line
.... Vlad called him out for equivocating
2. Vance demanded an apology
... Trump got distracted ( bless his coked up heart )
3. Vance whistled again
Habis lah ... when an old man loses his temper, the simplest explanation is that he is senile ... when a young man loses his temper, the simplest explanation is that he is a fool.
1323 : I need to hang out with smarter people. Fools are fun, until you have to do maintenance on their errors, then margins go negative very quickly.
1445 : Hm. port forwarding issues. Also the installation of (kourier) has multiple guides, and I might not have followed the right one. So I should restart, test the current installation. If that fails, tear down and rebuild the stack, then test again.
1514 : Sad. Slow work day. And I'll probably have to wake up tomorrow and read about all the same idiots around me. On we go
1528 : Any career students in Kuala Lumpur? I'm 42 and taking a few years off to catch up on economics, physiology, and computing. What are you studying?
1550 : Reminder to self, zero anxiety and zero hypotheses, are more valuable than speculative anxiety without the capability to test new hypotheses.
2217 : Awake. Wrist slightly sprained from lifting. Will be taking things extra slow today.
2311 : Fight analysis is fun. It reminds me to withdraw from the distractions of people who drag me down into their trivia. And to focus on my own leverage.
Sun 2Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.932years ( year2; month24; week101; day705 )
0117 : Ah shit, so now I understand what (metallb) is for.
0315 : aha ( kubectl proxy )
0515 : Tiring day. Zero real progress. Lots of spinning. Time to eat. Yet grateful for the absence of social interruptions to work.
0544 : However, extremely grateful that there are no snowflake headcases trauma-dumping in my chat windows recently. Good to be able to focus on work. Will have to see if I can keep up the avoidance of distractions for another eight years of prison. hah
0552 : Alright. Back to literary review for a bit. Practicum is fucked
0729 : Life is generally boring, and I have already spent most of my years waiting for it to end. Meanwhile, at least there is a little bit to learn every day. It makes it easier to swallow the blandness of time spent with all the other animals in the room.
0750 : I should probably aim to review my understanding of k8s and friends, after a month. zzz
0947 : Break. Still very tired. But even more grateful to not have more liabilities in my vicinity.
1051 : Enforced feeding. Then next attempt at work.
1159 : pasta boiled over again
Mon 3Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.934years ( year2; month24; week101; day706 )
0049 : On the contrary, Zelenskeyy is in fashion. This is how fashion works!
0242 : Learning Kubernetes is just relearning Erlang/OTP but for OS-level processes instead of BEAM proceses.
0249 : Singapore : Microeconomic fun and games.
- make housing cheap : people will have more kids
- make housing cheap, but GST high to keep the birthrate down? it's hard to control this preemptively ... even if the opex of kids is high, people are horrible at foresight, and will get locked into poverty cycles
- ... wait, developing countries actually need a higher birthrate, unless they want positive net immigration : just flatten the cost of basic housing even more than HDB has so far, and tax the shit out of property investors instead : gets the birthrate up
- more hypotheticals possible, but too theoretical unless one has the mandate of execution
0416 : I suppose the agnostic takeaway from Erlang / OTP / ERTS is : reimplement the Four ERTS Behaviours as interfaces to new runtimes, before designing new interfaces/protocols for new runtimes.
I've dabbled in this in JavaScript. Maybe more in the future.
0436 : sovereign cryptocurrency reserves : It also correlates the USD to the XYZ coins in reserve ... which is hilarious ... it's basically a Fed Put on XYZ in the long term. But in the short term, it provides volatility for financial engineers to sell premiums on. There are many stakeholders.
0713 : The notion of doing a business around kubernetes add-ons is growing on me. Heh
1054 : kokumi : great, more stuff to study.
1502 : Tired. But productive. But if I am stupid, then I am less productive than I believe I am.
Still grateful for the absence of whiny dependents.
Wondering if I will sleep or go back to work, shortly.
Wrist less painful today. Some lifting was done.
1548 : Threads is fun because the algo sends me gratuitous confessional stuff. My Twitter feed stopped being interesting around 2013.
Let me post more gratuitous confessional formatted mumbo jumbo, to pass my breaks as a solitary student in an emerging market economy.
1738 : Once, we would say you should learn shell scripting, to set up your dev env.
Then it was dockerfiles.
Now it's helm charts. And helm isn't even as pretty as dockerfiles, so it'll hopefully be temporarily till the next big thing comes along can we evict YAML yet please dear god
Tue 4Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.937years ( year2; month24; week101; day707 )
0403 : A higher-strung day, following imperfect sleep, and elevated cortisol. I wonder if I can learn much today.+
0559 : So ... having failed to serve ( knative ) on localhost for days ... I discovered ( kubernetes dashboard ) and this is now the first thing I managed to get out of my cluster
0730 : My hermitic approach to life is not obvious to everyone. But in order to have no major dependencies on others for my happiness, I simply deprioritised making anyone happy but myself. So, in this way, I have simply proceeded with fewer commercial relations, than the average citizen. Perhaps.
0827 : Very limited progress so far today. Time to nap. Maybe not much progress for a few days. We shall see.
1053 : Time to feed. Then to poke at work.
Made a new friend. I wonder if she likes me.
1326 : Omnilateral tariffs mean only one thing : real global growth deceleration ... but we can doll it up with ... omnidiarrheaic monetary expansion .... brrrr
1428 : How is time wasted? Generally I avoid employments where I will not learn anything fundamentally new about the world. I have not yet entered a stage in life where networks and relationships are my main focus, and so I have not focused on accumulating these over the last 20 years. I have some regrets from working with companies and individuals which did not compensate me adequately. Everything is a gamble.
1443 : Final call for European reunification.
Now or after Ukraine falls.
1610 : OK - next work session, I have to try either Kong, or MetalLB, or both.
1705 : I am waiting for my life to end. I do not try to end my life, I do not try to get rich, and I do not try to change the plebs of my country and of my earth, excessively. All things in moderation. Each day provides a small opportunity to learn something about these people. So, I have been content to press forward over the past two decades. What I avoid doing, is having fun for long periods without with constructive activity. Maybe if I become rich, before I die, I will take a extended holiday from work.
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Wed 5Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.940years ( year2; month24; week101; day708 )
0239 : Caught up on sleep. Lights. Feeding. Maybe grocery time.
0257 : One of my pet peeves is the human being that doesn't have their end in mind.
I suppose I spent a lot of Q6-Q7 studying markets, and building portfolio management tools. However, I don't think I have demonstrated competence in that area yet. More to come.
Q2, Q6, Q7 ... I guess some time was spent on physical conditioning ; as for the dietary component, that's just been going on since Q2 or Q3, I forget.
0301 : Q8 has been fairly productive.
Q7 was a lot of babysitting.
Q6 was a lot of infrastructure prep.
Q5 was a lot of babysitting.
Q1-4 was a lot of choring.
0356 : 1. USA nak berperang perdagangan : GDP Benar sedunia akan turun
2. kalau tiada pelonggaran monetari, pengangguran akan menaik dan marhaen akan jual aset bagi penyaraan hidup
3. kalau kerajaan2 nak buat perhiasan, dia akan cetak wang ( perlonggaran monetari ) dan buat GBP Nominal naik, tapi GDP Benar tak berubah dengan ni
Dalam kes 3. di atas, harga aset kekal, tapi sebab dasar 1. memang kuasa beli turn.
0404 : Are you feeling, holy today? Good morning breakfast people!
What is holiness? ( thread on machine phenomenology )
0448 : in middle age, i am enjoying the luxury of entertainment industry news
0638 : revising : reentrancy in computing
0651 : I live with a limmering pity for people who depend on trust, to and from others, for their happiness. May you never need it.
0700 : reading on softirqs and tasklets in linux
0703 : Minimise busy waiting / spinning. This depends on the executive function of working memory. Sleep, dopamine, and actions-per-minute are good signals to watch.
0723 : Corporate inefficiency stems from a lack of courage.
A culture of fear about losing paycheques, makes a certain type of company.
When you design a culture, you decide these things up front.
Most of you don't design your culture - you simply accept what is given to you.
0807 : SEAzn-style oatmeal : vinegar + fish sauce
1010 : Weak fundamentals means a lot of remedial work. I will destroy it. ( Or run out of resources. )
1044 : Time to switch tracks. Gotta view some wrestling diagrams
1125 : Reading the theory of contact martial arms is scary. I used to like fighting, as a kid, but generally I have avoided it as an adult, to my own loss.
1350 : back to basics. reading on virtual memory; also fourth meal has passed, logging the last of the can of mackerel, which was consumed in thirds with 50g of oatmeal each time
1350 : While it is a productive quarter, it will be a slow year. And I am grateful to be unburdened from various distractions to work. We shall see how that goes.
1531 : Front row at 55% bodyweight.
1805 : Reviewed the functionality of Erlang/OTP and concluded that rewriting the Kubernetes control plane in the former would be ... pointless. OTP only supervises [ Erlang processes executing BEAM code ], k8s supervises [ OS processes executing kernel syscalls ], and any existing robustness of the former needs to be rebound to the latter, so might as well not bother.
Thu 6Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.942years ( year2; month24; week102; day709 )
0523 : Humanists value every human experience.
Technocrats value a hypothesis about what human experience should be.
It is possible to be both, but many of us are mainly one, and not the other.
0544 : TIL : how your router differentiates the destination of income responses from local client requests Ephemeral ports
0546 : Hello Americans /US. How y'all doing today? It's 0546 in Malaysia, and in the fasting month, pious Muslims are having their final meal before sundown.
0601 : study time ! need to brain kubernetes network internals
0606 : Alright. kubernetes is a horde of nix networking stacks. so i should first learnt how (ip) works on my laptop
0839 : 50g of oatmeal and 20g of protein powder is 250 kcal.
Whatdya mean I gotta eat this 12 times a day to get 3 mcal ... jk I will add fat around it
0848 : A beautiful grey day in Kuala Lumpur. And a good point in studies to pause : I will resume with (ip) on the nix stack, after groceries, and maybe some recreation.
0900 : ""Referring to my original post, you will see ... I am pushing the agenda to lobotomise the concept of ""amok"" from national consciousness.
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1038 : Wondering what percent of posts on threads are
(A) Bots
(B) Paid content fertiliser
(C) Real people
1249 : Haters gonna hate. At some point,the expected present value of all future ( benefits less efforts to placate hate ), are negative. And that's where you turn off the taps.
If you are wealthy, you can help many people. Otherwise you can help only a few. Simple economics.
1359 : Since my arrival at college in 2001, I have been committed to a very large gamble. I enjoy making fun of the terrain and the overall situation of myself and other parties in play. However, it is not possible for me to focus on this path while being distracted by folks who are angered by the fact that I choose this life. So it becomes necessary to actively avoid such distractions from time to time. Married to work, cheating with you, and you, and you.
1425 : Do you lack for someone to stand by you, always to love and support you?
A, You need Jesus. ( Republican answer. )
B, You believe humans should do it for each other. ( Democrat answer. )
1622 : note that i say this in jest : malaysia to pay ARM to import IP : No. Stop paying for things we never fully utilise. How many decades of this nonsense imported technology, and our basic math is shit throughout the whole country, beginning at university and cascading down to the whole STEM ecosystem. It's renting a wife at 5x the cost of getting one. What the fu ck is that? Sorry, i am sweary, it has been a long time. Local cars are shit. Local tech industry is shit. And local maths is especially shit
1752 : I started asking the few STEM experts I know in Malaysia to help me locate the top people who do STEM as a hobby ( not for pay ) in Malaysia. I don't think they will take this very seriously.
1829 : I have been using the notion of Fields Medals as a talking point for what sort of quality in STEM Malaysia should aspire to. Since it is a topic about how Malaysia is shit, I noticed also that Singapore hasn't gotten any Fields Medals either. Maybe this colloquial rivalry can be talked up to say Malaysia should aim to get one first.
However, as we are all aware, the STEM publication quality i.e. community of academicians in Singapore is WAYYY ahead of Malaysia's.
A layperson's guess is that it would take 10 years and a fuck ton of political focus and funding just to drive our quality of publication up in math alone, to match whatever is coming out Singapore right now.
2133 : It's not a Malaysian value. It is important to be nice to people. But it is also necessary to tell them when they have already done something very stupid. And to warn them loudly when they are in danger of hurting themselves.
Now it's not that I personally care about Malaysian welfare. But Malaysia has a history of doing very, very dumb, and dangerous, things.
Might as well give it a yell.
Fri 7Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.945years ( year2; month24; week102; day710 )
0522 : Good morning, world. Which of you clowns is going to get in my face today about how poorly you feel? As usual, I am on standby to deal with this as ruthlessly as possible without being uncivil. Let's build a world with fewer snowflakes. 👏👏
0622 : Today I'm supposed to study (ip). But before that, I've been reminded that (kubelet) just calls (sysctl) and (sysctl) just modifies (/proc) in real-time. So I'm now reading on (/proc) and fam.
0638 : cycling accessibility : 1. DBKL must rewire the accessibility of Parliament - BNM - DBKL - KLCC : that's a basic thoroughfare.
2. PPJ must examine similar routes between code node buildings in Putrajaya.
0734 : Lemme scoot up total calories, and nudge down protein to see what happens.
0801 : From (/proc) now reading up on (mmap)
0816 : Meal 2 : oatmeal and sardine test
0955 : (controls units) and (processor architecture) and snacks
1018 : Humble pie is revising computer architecture for the Nth time, superficially, since 1998. I suppose in a different life, I would know this by heart, and I would not know how ordinary people worked, in so much detail.
1117 : lovers and haters will always think of each other as evil
1122 : Some realistic operating assumptions :
1. main risk is financial, and ops will end before I have time to do anything useful ; provided that does not happen ... with some luck ... if I can manage to avoid parasitic social engagements and the like ...
2. my catch-up with math and programming will allow me to build some cute robots ( even if purely software ) on a local scale for personal use, within a few years ; hopefully at least good enough to help me do my chores on my home computer
1133 : dating : There are no non-negotiables. But if they're the sort that gets irritated when the negotiation isn't going their way, then I'm out.
1149 : Spiritual machines : why I have interests in distributed computing.
- it's not for the scale-out, primarily
-it's for the persistence of software which doesn't fail when hardware fails
1232 : Nope - I don't have headspace to (listen to global macro podcasts) when I'm (reading about device driver memory maps ), or (counselling friends), or (relearning university maths) ... it's kinda a pick-one-per-quarter sort of thing. Haha
1521 : A celebratory week for work, catching up on stuff dropped in the 90s, and fewer distractions from ephemeral projects. Whee
1552 : I guess I have to learn how to write USB drivers for (sensors) and (controllers) in order to understand hardware interfaces, at some point. :x
1649 : discovered Linux Device Drivers (3rd, 2005) but have not scheduled time to pursue it
2147 : Pitiful and disgusting. Those who cannot contain their moral outrage. And that goes for all moralities ... including this one. 😂
Sat 8Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.948years ( year2; month24; week102; day711 )
0705 : Test : butter in oatmeal : result : not enough maillardisation : maybe need to torch it before mixing
1300 : Back at desk.
1344 : learnt cli (column)
1750 : SURELY someone could write a simplified version of kubernetes which does
- multi-cloud/baremetal
- node provisioning and autoscaling ( horizontal + vertical )
- has a reaction time of down to 1 second
- pod, service, etc. abstraction
- just works out of the box
1831 : TIL (nmcli) and (nmtui) ...
1842 : Folks ... if you're posting on socmed about hitmen taking out specific world leaders ... by name ... it's pretty trivial to have you added to sigint databases automatically.
Is that what you want? LOL
1845 : There's a significant nuance between the hypothetical, ""it looks like X could take out Y,"" versus ""my personal opinion is that X should take out Y"".
#DigitalHygiene
1850 : In a philosophy interest group, someone invited folks to an event. Someone else asked who's organising the event. A name was dropped. A brief search turned up political parties.
Philosophy is just sigint for the masses. Every thought is a signal.
1901 : Enforced feeding, then probably some sleep.
2130 : Maybe time to boost calories for increased daily desk throughput. Hm.
2337 : I wonder if I will eventually know enough, to start prioritising making large amounts of money. Maybe later. Meanwhile I have some dumbfuck friends who like to argue with me about why it is incompatible to have operational cash management. Better to just nod and avoid arguments. I don't have enough money to fix their problems, and so I will just have to dispose of them together with their problems. Haha
I wonder what sort of new problems I will have later. Hopefully fewer than what has been tolerated for the last two years. But it is not good to get one's hopes up. So probably best to just think about work. At least work wavers between being neutral and positive, rather than positive and negative.
2341 : It is very strange managing to survive so many decades among violent people. Very strange indeed. A curious gamble.
Sun 9Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.951years ( year2; month24; week102; day712 )
0615 : Awake. Inboxes clear. Time to get up.
1329 : Calorie loading time.
Mon 10Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.953years ( year2; month24; week102; day713 )
1235 : The core issue about dietary fat saturation-levels seems to be lipid membrane composition. Most major issues appear to either stem from, or be a distraction from this.
1238 : At the end of time, machines get human rights because there's no better way to govern them.
1242 : Highly distracted Sunday, but some exercises got done. Catching up on desk work rn
1350 : Scattered distractions from social work. Way too much demand for analyticity without any immediate compensation. Probably should throw more calories at this.
1411 : Turns out Livita pre-dates Red Bull by quite a bit. There it is.
1525 : Listening to history lectures inspires reflection. At 42, I have memories going back about 40 years, to events that made me who I have been over this time. I remember learning how to cry as a tactic to inspire mercy, and deciding to write a word from right to left as a matter of aesthetic non-conformance, among all sorts of social interactions. Today as I am both tired, and behind on work, I am somewhat disappointed with my progress. But on other days when I do make good daily progress, I am happier with what I have done over the past 2.2 decades which were within my autonomy. Also, I decided that I was retired slightly over twenty years ago, and I have been waiting for my demise ever since. So, I suppose, all in, regardless of slow progress, I have achieved somewhat more than I had hoped for. The secret to happiness is indeed in minimising expectations.
1649 : Calorie counting. 60% of 3 Mcal is about 20 slices, or 1.5 loaves of the cheapest bread.
Diversifying carbohydrate sources away from that ...
1902 : 150g carbs down the gullet. Spot of writing, chatting, and archiving. Spot of lifting. Back to the desk. I am not yet happy with progress today.
1951 : omg ... i am reading socket programming man pages ... why
2020 : wtf do i need to know socket programming ... ok, i guess if i ever wanted to write decentralised blockchain code, this would be useful
2028 : oh, so (raw sockets) are how it's done
2040 : oh (webrtc) uses (sctp)
2205 : Maybe Threads is more fun in 2025, because the content now contains a bit more of what would have been on Tumblr in 2012.
2257 : Portfolio down 56% from December. 😎👍
2328 : Reducing expectations today.
Tue 11Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.956years ( year2; month24; week102; day714 )
1058 : Slept better with more calories down yesterday. Let's see if this translates to productivity at work.
1131 : Maintaining low expectations today.
1132 : trump making an enemy of foreign intelligence agencies who have dirt on him : That's how Vance gets to be POTUS. It's all part of the pLaN 🤪
1140 : I seem to have mistakenly added on IG a follower who is actually looking for OF subs. I said we should get coffee but I don't do OF. Am I in trouble?
1155 : XRP.D is goat this quarter
1242 : Thoughts and prayers for CEOs and money managers worrying about fiduciary duty in these pressing times.
1246 : Aw f--k forgot to do accounts since 6 March
1355 : study time : if the font is too large, I get distracted by the shapes of letters - so zooming out makes more sense.
1414 : TIL (icmp) and (tcpdump)
1446 : Fish sauce's pungency appears to be muted when combined with oil. I had this with rice today. The oil was grapeseed oil ... somewhat posh, as I wanted it for seasoning metal pans. But I do not use pans very often, so I am consuming the substance now.
1454 : 3 Mcal x 30% = 900 kcal => 100g fat/day
wow.
1630 : Context switching is hard.
- when nix net-ing, enforce : forget web dev
- when web dev-ing, enforce : forget asset man
- when asset man-ing, enforce : forget pure math
- when pure math-ing, enforce : forget plebs
- when pleb-ing, enforce : forget chic
- when chic-ing, enforce : forget home ec
- when home ec-ing, enforce : forget biz targ
- when biz targ-ing, enforce : forget ... well, everything else
2054 : Citizens of Earth, why are you here?
(a) for a long time
(b) for a good time
(c, me ) to FAFO ... definitely FAFO
(d) to align with divine intention
(e)
2235 : Digging into OSI protocols : so the TransPORT layer protocol packets headers specify PORTS ... but the Inter(NET)work layer protocol packets do not ... Ohhhhh ...
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Wed 12Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.959years ( year2; month24; week102; day715 )
1109 : Alright. Mixed macro calorie loading seems to be helping. Time to get the fuck up for the day, and to discover how little I can learn for the day. 🔥
1256 : Most people do not plan their lives - and do not know HOW to plan their lives. It begins with an huge vacuum of self-comprehension, which cannot be quickly caught-up.
[ from chat ] ... the practice clinical psychology is poorly regulated in Malaysia ... also, the sorts of coaching required by people who feel lost may not be a clinical matter. It may simply be a lack of personal organisation, or epistemological failure that isn't classified as a disease under clinical practice.
[ from chat, about the role of WHYs in personal planning ] ... systematically, most people haven't understood what they are currently experiencing. The inability to articulate the present, therefore makes it impossible for them to examine causality across time ...
1321 : ""men are so starved for care, they mistake social welfare for affection""
I gotta say, it seems to be true of many women. You probably see it more in men if you're an attractive woman.
Ordinary economics, non-gender specific.
1434 : I'd forgotten that (dash) is (sh) ... but I'd remembered that (bash) is not
1443 : Appeals to empathy, sanctity of human life, moralities of care, the golden rule, and the paradox of tolerance ... are ruthless opinions, and should be handled as such. Ultimately a war of aesthetics results. All wars are ugly. Normalise public ugliness.
1503 : Each individual exerts their aesthetic preferences about morality. Society is the sum of preferences in an aesthetic war. All wars are ugly.
Might makes right. Sometimes the Nazis win. Sometimes the other side. It's a good sport to watch.
1527 : I think it's cute that people often report my profile as ""please send help to this individual"".
I've been quite comfortable with the concept of dying, for several years now.
My problem with society is, why aren't you?
1553 : [ WHY does A do B? ]
All of this is politics. Individuals feel it is a part of their personal identity to champion certain views.
But all individual views have been constructed by past forces, with political purpose.
Such is the nature of people.
1554 : I am now paying for my negligence in computing ( there were opportunities in other areas, and you can always blame environments, but ultimately I blame myself ) :
1992. amateur-level interest in math, not deep
1997. amateur-level interest in computing, not deep
2003. intentional deviation ( institutional opportunity deemed poor )
2006. amateur-level interest in professional development
2011. professional opportunities discarded for academic study
2013. professional opportunities pursued outside computing
2023. beginning of sabbatical and the current phase of remediation
I must lower my expectations and just focus on grinding for a bit, I guess. That was always the plan.
1604 : There are a few things that need to be in lockstep, for efficiency, which I do not see Malaysia do.
1. Establishment of a minimum quality of life for individuals, regardless of dis/ability. This is a ""standard"" or goal.
2. Costs of public housing, and a highly nutritious ( regardless of taste ) daily diet, to be engineered to within an ""error tolerance"" of the goal, this is a federal supply-chain operation.
3. The setting of macro-economic policy such as minimum wage, employee benefits, the easy of doing business, etc. And subsequent decisions about trade and industrial development strategy.
The entire thing should be viewed as a focused pyramid.
We have no such presentations in Malaysia. It is so messy. Foolish!
1745 : (literate programming) and shell syntax ... and I am partially saturated already ... post-second-meal, and amid a flurry of social work on the internet.
1802 : Probably not going to be useful for quite a while. But I should probably see about doing more Erlang stuff on AWS
2215 : POSIX is mah POISON ( just for now )
2251 : Studying computing always feels like reading a paragraph from some new language, putting it down while it sinks in. Going to do something non-computing related to flush conscious memory. Reading a paragraph from a different new language, putting it down. Flushing conscious memory. Repeating this pipelining operation with several paragraphs, all from different languages. Waiting to see when the first paragraph makes it all the way through the pipeline, then continuing where that first paragraph left off. Iterate through all pipelines.
2356 : Perhaps at some point, I will brain the stack all the way down to the kernel, then the transistors, knowing why each signal was computed the way it was, through each material type. Unlikely. But it sums up my hobbies. :)
Thu 13Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.962years ( year2; month24; week103; day716 )
0200 : Learning details of (ba/sh) : such a sprawling language : also (bash) 1989, (javascript) 1995 ... influence seems significant.
0214 : I pretty much understand humans down to the legos; but machines : not yet, which is why i spend so much time studying the latter.
1202 : first piss was too thick - perhaps too much sodium, yesterday.
1429 : I have been largely ignoring the Erlang ecosystem. But it seems it's still the bedrock of WhatApp, Discord, WeChat, and god knows what other messaging infrastructure. Might as well KIV.
1520 : (Gnome Terminal) > Help > learnt how to use (tabs) today, among other things
1713 : If you ask a subject matter expert, about how to introduce children to their subject ... they may not give a coherent answer, because they have not been reminded about the overall situation of child development.
Today I was reminded.
2122 : 2023 was ok, but 2024 was a major distraction. Here are the things that slowed it down, and that's what I need to focus on making up for in 2025.
bad form 1 : physical conditioning : probably ran a calorie deficit while increasing load
bad form 2 : asset management : grew and lost the same 15-25%, like three times
bad form 3 : social work : made net losses on capital invested variously
OK, that's a good list to fix in 2025. I guess. These are all infrastructure plays. If infrastructure improves, core studies naturally improve.
Fri 14Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.964years ( year2; month24; week103; day717 )
0336 : ""budget neutral BTC acquisition by US .gov""
Spell it out. They're going to pawn federal assets for BTC. Sell when the price goes up. Claim a breakeven position when it comes back down.
Meanwhile they'll debase the USD, and they can't use USD to buy BTC, so they'll spend USD elsewhere. Probably on bailouts.
Net net : USD debased, real loss on BTC positions, private sector bailed out from the commons.
0513 : Finally finished that slide on what happens between keypress, Gnome Terminal, Line Discipline, Monitor, and stuff actually getting done
1327 : Back to (bash) and the study of syntax, semantics, and pipes.
1408 : TIL : welp is not whelp
1517 : Daily I am reminded, I live in world of fools, in a country of fools, and often in the company of fools ... and so I hang out with only one fool, mostly, in order to focus on correcting that fool.
1819 : finally braining (/usr) vs (/usr/local)
1922 : brain freeze while reading into minimal containers and linux distros
2100 : Sometimes inefficiencies of study are due to insufficiently frequent flushes of short-term memory.
2237 : Longing and desire, fill the minds of little children, but how humanity loves its little children. Humanity has not itself grown up.
2305 : showered and back at a desk. Wrist injury seems to have eased up.
Sat 15Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.967years ( year2; month24; week103; day718 )
0127 : Transpiling #Javascript To Erlang. First thoughts. Each JS program would require :
1. (JS Object) manifest : a (forest) of (JS prototype chains) : implemented as a nested (Erl Map).
2. (JS scope & variable assignment) manifest : a (tree) of (scopes & variables) : also a nested (Erl Map).
0134 : Malaysia is founded upon emotional insecurity. Until it is sufficiently prosperous to eradicate that emotion, all policy suffers from it. Malaysia Can Heal
0300 : Enforced bed time.
1506 : Brief social distraction. Heading home to feed and hopefully catch up on work.
1928 : In case you don't remember how long two hours is : a lot happens when you're talking at 4-8 words a seconds.
2209 : Lowering my expectations for the year so that I can keep my days in check.
2221 : Daily reminder that Malaysia is a shithole where STEM goes to die
Sun 16Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.970years ( year2; month24; week103; day719 )
0551 : My version of (dash) (22.04 Ubuntu) does not seem to incorporate the ($'string') syntax from (POSIX.1-2024) and that would make sense. But strangely my (dash) escapes ('\t') for example, and this seems out of spec ... so I should go to bed and review this later.
0623 : In a world full of fools, there is only so much energy available to help so many parties. Good to reduce expectations and focus on work
1128 : 1. In my first decade, I learnt Malaysia was dumb (lived here, saw it with my own eyes).
2. In my second decade, I learnt how Malaysia became dumb, because we have a lot of triggered people who shaped public policy.
3. In my third decade, I maintained that point of view, but avoided getting involved in fixing it, because I had no incentive to. I focused on capitalising myself.
4. In my fourth decade, I did build a small business that served plebs. I felt it was a moderate contribution to society.
5. In my fifth decade, I am taking a break to focus on studies. I find that I have a lot more free time. But I am not sure how much I should contribute to public discourse. Often I think, I should assume the stance of my third decade, and focus on capitalisation instead of activism.
I remain divided.
1150 : Day 719. 19.7% into project. Still playing catchup, but the last 2-3% has been good remedial progress. Time to feed, and desk.
1238 : As a Malaysian, my proudest achievement is that we gave the world a Singapore./ironic
1305 : Are you a glass half full/empty kinda guy?
I'm a ""why the fuck do you have feelings about water"" kinda guy.
2247 : So it turns out most of us are stuck on (dash) v0.5.11 which is four years old ... and has not yet incorporated dollar-single-quotes from POSIX.1-2024. Yay! I TIL
https://web.git.kernel.org/pub/scm/utils/dash/dash.git/
2305 : Nearing 2 years out of the job market, and aiming for 10.
I am not sure how to engage with all the financial tips and tricks I read on soc med.
I am also not sure if I will need to get a student job before the 10 y are up. We will see.
2323 : Calorie loading is running into problems. Still too much purging. I need to pay more attention to calibration. And probably just burn more calories. But with niggling injuries, I am reluctant to punch it.
2340 : I have been avoiding casual video publications for the most part - no time to posture for a new medium. The common mode is to underscore authenticity ... now I see a lot folks smiling into cameras. I should just start publishing my throbbing disgust and general sense of boredom, authentically, for a few weeks ... and see if there is any traction hahahaha
Mon 17Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.973years ( year2; month24; week103; day720 )
0154 : Grinding through POSIX.1-2024's SCL spec ... horribly non-linear ... going to take days to linearise.
1126 : Awake. Much work to do. Wary of distractions. Such is life.
1215 : Discussion : why pursue weird engineering projects ... I suppose the answer is boredom ... some of us haven't had a truly mysterious thought in over twenty years, and it shows.
1227 : Now that calorie loading is on, and macro ratios have changed, I should add some fibre back into the mix.
1404 : The epistemological quality political concern is :
are you struggling in a honeypot,
or in growth vector?
1406 : 650 kcal slug digested too quickly : sugar crash : so this needs more fibre
- 150g dry, white rice
- dousing of oil
- 15g protein powder
1425 : Saw some trendy post on Sam Rockwell's monologue in White Lotus. Read about the actor.
I remember watching Napoleon Dynamite in college, and finding it really cute because it felt like most of my schoolmates were kinda dorky that way.
1438 : My interest in philosophy is generally on the end of helping people get more formal. If there's any need to go in that direction, feel free to reach out and I'll try to help. ( Frankly, looking forward to the point where AGI gets so good at this, that I don't feel I need to do the social work of pushing for more of it. )
Very limited interest in working on ""un-formalisable"" approaches, so will step back from those conversations. :)
1444 : Poor form : calorie slugged, but didn't add resistance, resulting in sugar crash. Will fix.
1603 : Reminder : in the writing of technical documentation, it is no-longer sufficient to describe a system as ""user-friendly"", because (users) after often times (non-human machines). Therefore the term ""human friendly"" is more accurate, until such time as which machines are granted human rights.
Tue 18Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.975years ( year2; month24; week103; day721 )
1134 : 18 hours off-desk. Hm. Zooming back in.
1155 : Spotlights are turning toThiel as a pre-architect of Project 2025. Over the decades, having been generally more aligned with Thiel's public statements than Musk's, I can relate to this. But at what cost? :P
1245 : I only follow US politics as a matter of comprehending global hegemony - and in the last decade I have put a bit more time into it for financial reasons. Otherwise, I generally ignore it as much as I ignore Malaysian politics.
I was in college during the 2004 elections, and I remember thinking that the green party / libertarians / Ralph Nader : were more aligned with my values than the other two.
So ok, probably a good anchor of where I stand in terms of US policy.
1439 : I'm reminded that (serverless) computing is marketed to people who don't want to build servers.
I've been waiting for (serverless) computing since before AWS launched Lambda ... but my interest in the architecture is for control inversion, so I actually need to know how to set up (serverless infrastructure) before I begin working on programs that run on it, programs which will be function independently from individual infrastructure implementations.
1527 : I'm writing my own linearised documentation of how to understand Linux, and its POSIX-based shells, and their SCL / shell command language. Maybe I can use this as training material in the future.
1. Many computing professionals are shell drivers, but not literate in shell mechanics.
2. In business, it is generally not required that shell drivers need to know how the internals of shells work. ( Uber drivers are not expected to fix cars. )
3. There results from this, a lack of knowledge.
2039 : ploughing through POSIX SCL and shell utility docs ... is fucking trench fucking warfare
2046 : 30% of fuel tuning is just looking at exhaust and going ""hmm, why did it do that"" ... yeah, I'm talking about shit and piss
2102 : Hm. POSIX goes and defines <blank> as a character class ...
2305 : Took a nap in a dry wind with joyce muniz - great stuff for restoring focus.
I need to free up some floor space in my hall for stretching.
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Wed 19Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.978years ( year2; month24; week103; day722 )
0008 : I'm a hobbyist student of software, who believes there's a non-serious .01% chance of becoming the Koenigsegg of software, if I can get a good enough angle on the ecosystem.
0210 : Oh HISTFILE is POSIX, but not in (dash)
0450 : It's been about a month since I started studying (kubernetes) and I'm still a couple of remedial tangents away.
To brain (k8s) I need to brain (networking), (kernel-shell interactions)
To brain (shell) I need to brain POSIX
1306 : I will aim lower today.
1413 : First order of the day : POSIX Shell Command Language : Word Expansions1
1424 : Most people live in cultures with shitty documentation. But I don't blame them.
1502 : For all its merits, the POSIX documentation is quite poor, in form.
I guess that's one thing I learnt this month.
1538 : shitmantastic : we're down to (lex) and (yacc) now ...
1610 : My life is planned around public discourse. I don't value individual humans much, so I try to do most of my socials in public. On Threads I'm unfollowing private accounts because I can't repost this content.
1637 : Soo, can we get the DXY to 75?
1718 : How old were you when you read the (POSIX) specification, about how to read the (man) pages, in Linux?
1825 : I know literally all my best friends from dating apps. ( Matter of portfolio strategy haha. )
I guess I will make new friends, in new places, if the government bans all dating apps.
1911 : My mind is insufficiently open to understand (getopts) so I must take a step back and reflect on my assumptions.
1935 : Linearising all the features and differences between (dash) and (bash) is quite painful. It appears to be about 40 years of non-linear development, and poor documentation, and is messier than web standards - which are also quite messy.
1936 : It is a privilege to work on stupid projects. At least, it amounts to a minor contribution to the species.
2219 : LOL - I just turned of (all images) on threads.net because I couldn't figure out any other way to turn off (videos), or to prevent them from autoplaying. Maybe someone can tag Threads Developers and tell them to put this in (settings)
2245 : model context protocol servers : Ah cool, in go all my journals
2314 : i'm 42. Reasonable worst-case life expectancy is another 70 years. Best-case I don't wake up tomorrow.
In the market, I need to be able to address factors outside of my control, for possibly another 40 years. That's probably the gist of why I'd bother studying what I do, haha.
3242 : Market seems to have recovered 50% of Mar3-11's dip
Thu 20Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.981years ( year2; month24; week104; day723 )
0032 : i'm fucking tired ( no fucking was involved ) - maybe time for a walk in KL
0339 : Threads is where Malaysians come to flare their soundbite pride parades.
Threads is where I go to squish some mediocre syiok sendiri fuckery.
I don't hate Malaysia. In fact I'm completely oblivious to the emotional impact it has on people.
But it's a public service to remind people that this place is mid, has been mid forever, and will be mid for a long time more, for specific reasons.
0427 : Fuck the POSIX SCL documentation - total waste of time - 40 years and they can't make it clean. About 50% done now
0434 : Good day for lifting. A bit of temporary soreness in some localities, but all good. Wrist is healing. I think I would feel better with more showers - for haptic reasons. More of that, tomorrow. zzz
1417 : I was just remembering when they registered Bersih.Org and I thought it was really cheesy. I registered Bersin.org or .net lol I can't remember
1607 : Here's an idea, for people who have been offended by Muslims in Malaysia : calling them out on social media is easy, but structurally ... write a letter to the editor of various newspapers, asking if JAKIM and MKI ( Federal Department of Islamic Development Malaysia; National Council of Islamic Religious Affairs ) have a comment on federal policy.
The problem with complaining below the federal level is that everyone responds without cohesive authority.
1721 : It's not that I don't value your joie de vivre, but I value structural knowledge about 100x more ...
1725 : I thought JavaScript was a big hoary language ... and then I read the Shell Command Language spec, FML. I miss Erlang.
1728 : It's not that I care about the multitude of human cultures.
But I like knowing how they work, for economic reasons.
1852 : I use the word ""pleb"" to mean what folks in the autism movement might call ""neurotypical"".
Except that I generally don't align with the casual use of neurotypicality, because I cannot casually determine from empirical sources if any human behaviour is due to neurobiological predisposition, or cultural programming.
Maybe I use ""plebs"" in the more general sense of people whose behaviours are closer to a multi-dimensional norm, regardless of originating cause.
1958 : Many people I talk to, make the mistake of thinking that I am trying to start an argument. Usually this is not the case.
1. I usually only wish to present my view.
2. I usually do not expect to be understood.
3. I usually do not expect to be remembered.
So the limit of my social work interest are basically to provide a point of view. Anything beyond that takes a fair bit of energy that I am generally unwilling to (do without being paid for my time).
From time to time, I do find people who are looking for more detailed advisory, but otherwise I generally don't bother to be involved in other people's thoughts.
I once made a party card that said ""prophet"". LOL
2216 : Lifting weights between desk sets has been good. I can do this all day. But perhaps I need to add cardio at some point.
2227 : I have led an immeasurably rich life, discovering things I did not think were possible, and befriending many whom I did not think were worthy of time. I have been wealthy in more ways than I care for. It is a bit sad, considering how unappreciative I am of humanity in general LOL
Fri 21Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.984years ( year2; month24; week104; day724 )
0008 : I haven't been in so much pain since I committed to learning all of JavaScript in 2020, because that was the world's most portable language at the time.
I guess POSIX SCL is also a portability concern.
Taking six weeks off to learn this or that language is reasonable ... when I was a kid, my parents stuffed me in a school for five years without consent, and made me learn ... CHINESE.
0025 : Time for a run.
0155 : Four slices of bread is too much for GI in the morning
0225 : This POSIX spec is so cibai : the section A, tells you about B, the section B, tells you about A, etc. diuniamah la ...
0539 : In a world absent of interesting people, there is only constant boredom.
1357 : Breakfast white bread dose dropped to two slices, that's under 200 kcal. This appears to be better so far. Compounded with vinegar, chalk, protein, and coffee ... the increased acidity might be restricting gastric emptying also.
1551 : (@) and (#) are the two most annoying characters in POSIX SCL, but I will figure this out before lunch ...
1748 : Despite my longstanding aversion to C, I had to learnt (printf) today because of POSIX SCL
1757 : ""clown fuckers"" is now my standard pejorative for any Malaysian statement of prejudice
1835 : [@] doesn't exist in POSIX because there are no (arrays) ... Oh
1952 : Re : ""men are more attracted to looks than personality""
Well if women didn't make looks part of their personality, men might have more non-look personality to go on. If you're just sitting there, all I gotta go on are the looks. So quiet girls don't pop. Loud girls pop. Got it?
1955 : Did anyone call it ""social networking"" before computing networks were a thing? How about just ""socialising""?
2048 : Done with $* ... now just left with $@
Sat 22Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.986years ( year2; month24; week104; day725 )
0117 : Everyone works within and towards the limit of their perspective.
0248 : Looking forward to the day when I can say ""Malaysia isn't fucking up STEM anymore."" Well, we shall see.
1243 : Awake. Enforced feeding and desk work.
1307 : Decent sleep. At some point it would be nice to schedule a year just to prioritise physical conditioning.
1400 : 'autism' is now officially in my list of weasel words along with 'love', 'religion', 'philosophy', and 'common sense'
1719 : Good to remain a reasonable distance from noisy folks.
1946 : I attended a discussion in a philosophy club today. There was a general sense of struggling among the discussants. This seemed awfully futile, but I suppose the point of philosophy clubs is that the subjects collectively reject the notion of futility, and continue to expend energy in search of some other result than a complete exhaustion of resources.
2105 : I dress like a motherfucker to avoid standing out. It's easy to not stand out in a mess. Malaysia is messy. Dress messy.
2129 : #libgen #neverforget
1. Swartz
2. Balaji
Say their names. That is their legacy.
2306 : Time for a break. Hoary day
2349 : The last six months of my 42 years have been the most politically active. I know, few would consider it significant. But I am happy with my work. I don't plan to do this forever, but there is a time for everything. A poor man must take turns at doing things. A rich man can hire and go faster.
Sun 23Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.989years ( year2; month24; week104; day726 )
0037 : Day 725. A breather in between piles of very slow work.
0143 : Back to the chair
0308 : I don't spend too much time thinking about relationships. They're either active or inactive. But being on Threads all day is fun because people are chattier about it. So I think about my relationships more.
I think I have admitted too many needy people over the years.
0345 : People who use language like ""should but need not"", need to be ignored.
That includes the POSIX documenters ...
0424 : I avoided investing in equities until I was about ... 39-years-old. I most certainly knew how and why to do so, but growing my investments was not a career priority. There were so many things to do in life, before simply bagging more money. Even now, my opex is higher than my investment income, since I'm in student mode again. It's just fascinating to see how so many people prioritise growing old over getting things done in the present.
0503 : Maybe at some point I should just stop talking to, trying to befriend, or date any pleb that functions within a universe of what happens in this tiny country. But then what would I do for fun while living here. Hm. This is a very snobby conundrum.
However snobby that sounds, I've already condescended to participate in ordinary life here for X years. Ditto the discipline of avoiding predictable jobs, and focusing on high-risk research.
0519 : It feels nice to arrive at an age I never thought was necessary.
0540 : shell (redirections) are SO MUCH EASIER to document than (expansions and substitutions)
1036 : Ok walk. Not quite three hours. Started falling asleep while walking, but blood sugar seems to have recovered within 30 minutes of continuous pedantry. I should aim to hit hypoglycemia more frequently. Also, instead of taking stimulants and nutrient boluses all at once, I should wait till I get to hypoglycemic conditions before shooting the next thing, maybe. Most of my day is deskbound with weights interspersed. Memory latency can be dropped further. More dopamine needed.
Mon 24Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.992years ( year2; month24; week104; day727 )
1617 : if you highlight something in WINDOW1 and mouseover WINDOW2, you can wheel/gesture-scroll both windows at once ... holy shit
1618 : From the point of view of research : commercialisation is a dirty word.
You pick one optimisation target. You pick many, you lose.
1629 : Vibe coders are like people who use language without a mental model of the people they're talking to. You can get pretty far with that, but
1653 : Enforced feeding. Meal 2.
1729 : Last week's effort to raise calorific intake has been accompanied by increased expenditure on air-conditioning, because ... pick two out of three :
- high muscle development
- high cognitive development
- low cost of cooling
1735 : I eat mostly wholefoods, only on a weekly cheat day. This has the side-effect of increasing my appreciation for wholefoods.
1822 : The smaller the memory footprint of a running program
--> the smaller its coredump upon stopping
--> the cheaper it is to stop and resume at an indeterminate point in the future.
1907 : It seems like one incremental optimisation approach to ECMAScript might be ... HHVM-like ... to limit language features, allowing for different compile-time magics. Just off the top of my head and based on zero testing, some feature cluster switches might be :
- object configuration
- dependency injection
This can't possibly be an important thought, given the existence of things like QuickJS.
1941 : Pain management is an essential part of hypertrophy. At some point, either nerves are damaged or non-neural tissue is inflamed. The necessary adaptations around this look little like stimulation of the core resistance pipeline, as many of these damaged tissues are very small relative to muscles, and so non-trivial damage on the small-scale is nearly unnoticeable on the large.
1950 : TLDR : Rust depends on C, in a way that many other things depend on C, such that there are no drop-in replacements for C.
C is a platform.
2020 : You need to build an app, which draws a napkin sketch, of every Thread/Tweet as it comes in.
2023 : Boys and girls just wanna be excited, without wondering what made them excitable in the first place. #pleblyfe
2036 : I'm drawn to programming computers, not because I think I'll make a fast buck ... but as a hedge against not knowing how to make a buck at all.
I'm drawn to it not because I want to fix the world, but as a hedge against the absence of other people fixing the world for me.
2038 : I struggle to balance maintaining
- my interface with the human cultures of the word, and
- my interface with the machines
2127 : the first ( possibly only ) time I asked someone to marry me, I hadn't even bothered get any sexual experience, and I was just following protocol for getting to the next thing ( sex wasn't a topic of discussion between us )
she did the right thing, and threw me out :D
i could write more but that about sums it up
2333 : Late-stage in the business cycle. No mega-scale young turks anywhere in sight, not even on the horizon. Wait and watch. Conserve dry powder.
I consider it a minor achievement to have had the discipline to sit-out major involvement in an entire 20-year business cycle, while knowing what was going on - because I didn't feel prepared enough to get involved.
Tue 25Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.995years ( year2; month24; week104; day728 )
0019 : for name in word ; do compound-list; done
42-years-old, and 16-years after my first Linux install, I learn how to write the for-loop :P
0101 : I'm just a kancil boy, entroubling himself with deutsche girls
0116 : I gotta say, the ( case needle in haystack1 | haystack2) dothis; esac ) form of POSIX SCL reminds me of Erlang guards ... clearly I learnt everything out of order in this life.
0219 : I've always thought it might be fun to work in academia. But there are a few things I don't really align with.
1. The virtue signalling. What if I want to be an asshole, outside of work? I don't want to inconvenience any employer. Moreover, the business of paid pedagogy carries immense burdens of privilege, often neurotically juggled by its subjects into a sort of moralising discomfort with the world. ( But probably, that's just the sort of college I went to. )
2. A secondary issue - this was mainly bad timing. To get an advanced degree, you actually have to work on stuff you don't like, under people who may or may not like you, for a certain amount of time. This wasn't something I wanted to do as a young adult. So I ended up doing this in industry, which seemed less like a waste of everyone's time.
0307 : Social media is, after all, a bastion for the dumb, poor, masses.
I've spent most of the last two decades ensuring that I know about dumb, poor, people. I wonder if I will move into other circles later in life, or just enjoy my satisfaction with the norm.
0354 : Korang tak sedar diri. Perundangan negara tiada keperluan pemahaman bahasa kebangsaan. Kalau begitu penting, mengundangkanla je.
Jangan nak putarkan isu-isu hatila, jantungla, rohla, dan sebagainya ... ada sesentengah kita memang tak pendulikan bendani. Nak buangnya keluar negara, mengundangkanla ... berbisik-bisik mengamuk-amuk bazirje semangatko
0452 : Quite overwhelmed at the end of each work day. The SCL spec doesn't fit nicely into memory, which is the point of the delineation exercise. On we go, tomorrow.
1304 : Awake. A little early. Synthetic stimulants. Protein powder. Ultraprocessed bread. Let's go.
1341 : Livestreamed vibe-coding is going to be such a sport in the future.
I miss playing games, but it hasn't been priority for two decades. And my current CPU isn't going to support it very well. Haha.
One day...
1401 : hype gang on social media : fulfilling the primal need to care ( but not having anyone worth caring for in real life )
1612 : ""We are currently clean on OPSEC.”
JD Vance is representin lol.
First millennial VPOTUS.
Moves the crew to a consumer app that autoshreds the chat, illegally discarding government communications.
Adds the wrong guys to the chat. Fires missiles.
These four years are gonna be lit*.
Caveat : I don't support what they do, but I love how they do it.
1846 : Pro-tip for folks who go on dates, with the intent of providing INITIAL trust : some counterparties value that as a negative ... they're not accidentally breaking your trust, they're checking to see if you're a naive sonava/bitch.
They're not trying to hurt you either. They're just testing your ability to develop defense mechanisms.
If that's not what you like in a partner, just filter them out too, and move on.
2006 : TIL : circular athletic tracks are oriented with consideration for the chirality of the human circulatory system.
2030 : I think deciding from young adulthood, that my relationship with the public should tend to be more important than my relationship with any individual ... has shaped how I date, and judge the sustainability of a relationship.
Folks who want to prioritise private affairs over public ones are typically in the majority, I guess.
2036 : I'm a cartographer of mental states : probably the easiest way to describe my career
2103 : I am glad I optimised most cultural events out of my schedule.
2116 : Highly fatigued, but I suppose I have been conditioned from young to work on such things.
2200 : There are only so many things to discuss with the common person.
Food? I am not into food.
Sports? Not very much into sports - I think politics is the best sport. No, politics is not something I feel strongly about, but it is a great sport to watch.
Family? Not particularly invested in any families at the moment.
Relationships? Possible to discuss, have been playing this card a lot in chit-chat recently. Most people are not really sure what they want here - many are looking for babysitters.
Gadgets? Not really into gadgets.
Fashion? More into fashion than gadgets, but I'm not a buyer, so there isn't much to talk about with people who buy things.
Cars? Ok, more technical, but no feelings about this. At least we can talk about the technology.
So it is just back to economics, and technology, and the associated politics, I suppose.
2250 : Meal 3. Then let's clean that slide up
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Wed 26Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @1.997years ( year2; month24; week104; day729 )
0028 : I guess my lack of interest in networking with rich people stems from an absence of common goals / values / strategies.
0200 : Saw a tiktok video of expats renting in Malaysia. Some Google chick. Awesome stuff. I no longer feel that Malaysia lacks for global representation. The quality of content out there is ""good enough"". One less thing on my radar. Haha
0246 : Still a bit sick of appliance users calling themselves engineers.
0420 : It's been good to catch up with 2003-2009 deficiencies.
0934 : If you build an operation based on trust, you will probably become one of those morons who blame staff for a board's poor structural design.
0943 : Awake. Morning after a month buried on project. Time for recuperation. And then, more projects.
1012 : With rare exception, every wo/man is made by other wo/men. And those who believe otherwise are fools.
1051 : Back at the desk. Rock and roll
1143 : Charting some key networking protocols today. The EE major I never took.
1155 : Education recap.
In kindergarten, I didn't want to go to Chinese school.
In primary school, I wanted to go to college for STEM.
In secondary school, I got tired of wanting to go to college for STEM.
In college, I was disappointed with both STEM and non-STEM coherence, so I spent most of my time structuring my own studies. I carefully avoided commercial subjects.
Then I focused on commercial subjects for 18 years, in industry.
Now I am trying to catch up on STEM, and economics.
1546 : Probably off to walk Bukit Kiara in a bit. Will try with 3.8kg per hand today.
1554 : I guess my insecurity complex is merely that :
1. If I don't understand POSIX SCL, I don't understand host management.
2. If I don't understand networking, I don't understand cluster management.
3. If I don't understand memory management, I don't understand process management.
Let me tell you what I've almost never felt insecure about :
- financial management ( I'm quite insecure about investment management )
- legal & compliance management ( reading law is fun )
- aesthetic management ( haven't done enough time, but I have all the fundamentals )
- people management ( aptitude, training, and time all done )
1932 : So for whatever buttfuck reason, the phrase Bukit Kiara is extremely trendy on the Threads algorithm. Gonna be name dropping everytime i go for a walk lol.
Also probably the only rich people i will meet on a regular basis for the next eight years at this rate
2003 : Given my aversion to collecting glamour certs, maybe my next job needs to be in sales.
2206 : Day 729. Struggling to lift off before 20% ... but progress is gradual.
2307 : I wish I could filter out from my feeds : sports, romance ( every kind, particularly the inspirational sales folk ), and more
2339 : I have fallen down the rabbit hole of Management Information Bases, and I am not sure if I will ever get up.
Thu 27Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @2.000years ( year2; month24; week104; day730 )
0142 : TIL : plastic optical fibre is probably what we have, not fibre optics
0146 : SNMP is making me rethink my life because it's just another whole chunk of memory I need to allocate.
0149 : Eject. Time to feed again.
0231 : Two years ago, I started a ten-year study period. Crazy? Well I'm not that smart, so my earning potential is limited anyway ;)
PS I live in Malaysia, not exactly the high-income centre of the universe.
PS we're globally toying with the monetary system, and I'm out of trend
PS we're globally about to displace most coaching, and partnership roles with machines, and I'm out of trend
But I'm not studying cryptocurrencies or AI : well, as it turns out, I'm just wayyy behind on even more fundamental stuff.
So we'll see where I end up in eight years, if I make it out alive.
Benkyo benkyo benkyo goes the golden boy.
Meanwhile I'll remain on social media for social life.
0359 : All in, a pretty balanced day. Learnt some tech stuff. Did some house work. Exercised to acute muscle soreness. Did groceries. Wrote some poetry. Bickered with friends. Market is up.
Well, not all days will be so easy.
1317 : Awake. OpenAI's ghiblify is lacking in diversity - making everyone look the same, but I am sure they will fix it eventually, if they are not sued. Enforced coffee, then desk work. Yesterday's walk with 14% load as clubs was good as it seems to have allowed a range of movement. AMS persists till today, so I will not do similar work today to avoid overtraining. Grip data resolution has improved. Probably farmer's walks do not stimulate movement enough.
1345 : Flags on school uniforms? HAHA. It's just going to make people hate the country more - right? I don't understand how this works ... when was the last time you fell in love with someone because you were forced to wear their photo
1502 : I am having a short Thread chat with someone about retirement, settling for low resource opportunities, and such goals and strategies in life.
1. retirement doesn't mean you need to have money : it just means you stop caring
2. you can retire materially poor, and still have fun : true wealth is the ability to create and destroy mental states as needed
1716 : lunch time, motherfuckers
1845 : I guess it boils down to moral orientation.
Capitalism : assert that individuals ( should ) seek their own welfare first
Empaths : assert that individuals ( should ) seek the welfare of others, at least
Many public policies follow from derivations of these normative assertions.
1948 : The rule of law in Malaysia is somewhat eroded. And it has been for decades, as historians can attest.
In the present, let us focus only on the concepts of ""justice being done,"" and ""justice being SEEN to be done.""
Sociologists have noted that ""broken windows"", that is to say, mere untidiness, can erode the public's cognitive appreciation for laws, and behavioural adherence to laws.
I will continue to rant about the ""broken windows"" as that is one of the core issue facing Malaysia today.
2254 : Walked my ghetto ass, in my ghetto clothes, to the ghetto store, in my ghetto city, to buy some ghetto food, and now I am letting you know.
2333 : Snacked. Enforced shower. Back to desk.
Yawn
2335 : TIL estrogens are excreted via bile, and bound to fibre, which is part of why low-fibre diets cause imbalances.
Fri 28Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @2.003years ( year3; month25; week105; day731 )
0009 : Social work is easy. You throw a statement in public, you see who gets angsty about it - aha! You have discovered someone lacking in character! Now you simply counsel them.
0224 : way more productive after creatine and beta alanine dosing - probably should shoot earlier in the day
0300 : since KFC now has BNPL, we should have KFCLOs ... don't stop halfway
0311 : The number one STD is humanity.
0318 : I still find it incredibly ironic that mar-a-lago means from lake to sea ... while the whole Gaza thing is going on.
0409 : Me over the ages :
10 : Malaysia is a primitive country, and I need to get out.
20 : Malaysia is a primitive country, and I'll learn how it works.
30 : Malaysia is a primitive country, and I don't have time to complain about it.
40 : Malaysia is a primitive country, and HEY I'M OLD ENOUGH TO COMPLAIN ABOUT IT SHAMELESSLY HAHA
0419 : Taking a break from reading. Thinking about my future. Probably not going to get any useful answers, but :
Where would you recommend I work in 2032? Presuming the following / but feel free to wiggle :
- in Malaysia
- any starting pay
- paying 70-400k/month MYR within 5 years
You'all gonna say, sales, right? Haha. I'm not nice enough to be a management consultant, and I have no hope for banking in Malaysia, though that might change by then.
1317 : Awake. Snacked. Back to a desk. It's crammer time ...
1419 : Malaysians, please help Malaysians to understand.
1. Don't discuss Race, Religion, and Royalty, unless you can establish legal premises. Otherwise some clown will drag you down to their level of mythology and turn it into a shouting match.
2. Teach children to hafal the Constitution. For Muslim Malaysians, this will probably be a lower priority than your main book. For other Malaysians, it is the only book gluing you to this country ... because, there are people actively trying to unglue you.
1647 : So happy to get a chance to study FFTs properly after doing manual sound engineering and waveform editing around 1997. Due to the path of my education, am much more production oriented ... one has to study engineering with the users in mind, first.
1703 : context : if you get an earthquake near Myanmar and Thailand, I'm gonna bet it's just part of the reason the Himalayas exist - didn't Google it, but yeah, first guess
2030 : More enforced feeding. Back to the desk again.
2036 : Cows respond to predictable stimuli at each time of day.
Some humans have that much in common with cows, but additionally we modify our fundamental perceptions of reality on a daily basis, based on new information.
The second part of course, can be quite tiring ... mammals were not always like this. And hopefully soon, humans will leave their mammalian history behind.
2106 : Systems review : PHY layer study has stagnated on RF and radar for the moment. Time to break, over the sugar crash from lunch.
2110 : I always wonder if my risk profile is too high. You know what I consider risky?
Living in a country where people have violently defended identities associated with family, race, religion ... while I have few of those except that you may call my interest in STEM a religion in itself.
Whereas it is possible to avoid everyone else entirely, I believe I have kept myself engaged with society to the effect that I make small contributions to it, as a matter of neighbourly civic duty.
2212 : There is a common mistake made, when comparing gold and Bitcoin.
They are quite different, so how could Bitcoin possibly be compared to gold's function as a store of value?
The short version : gold is a completely arbitrary store of value, which was selected due to some characteristics of human psychology. And so it is not so much that gold is natural and Bitcoin is synthetic, that differentiates the trades. But that the masses will always tend to behave a certain way, about certain sorts of things.
We're playing the players, not the game.
2227 : Put a rug down, on the kitchen floor, where I made space by removing the armchair. Time for floorwork.
2305 : Having all the resources available, and having postponed it for over twenty years, if I don't train to do splits over the next eight years, I'm probably just retarded that way
Sat 29Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @2.005years ( year3; month25; week105; day732 )
0121 : Ok the tiny bit of floor work was nice. But I wanna read at my desk now.
0143 : Just a reminder your E27 sockets are from 1896. And the GU10? 1892.
0147 : I generally have boring days, until I start to talk to my fellow countrymen and find that some of them are idiots. Then I have a sad day. But that is exactly why rich people avoid poor people - they have clear priorities about one thing over another. As for myself, clearly I am a generalist.
0219 : On the bright side, this year, so far zero crying people demanding support.
0347 : Cellular Layer2/3 is expectedly complicated ... and full of acronyms
0425 : Done with the HTTP/3 -> Ethernet/5G slide ... time to feed I guess ... then go for a walk on Bukit Kiara
0518 : All this shit just to try and understand knative. Lol
0554 : Heart didn't stop today. Guess I'll see you tomorrow. Probably
0614 : Checking premises :
1. All available evidence suggests that human consciousness is trivial.
2. Many people don't believe 1.
3. Pick a side. I picked mine years ago.
Ok, good night. We will continue bickering tomorrow.
1714 : Hm. Time to rotate back into max-heart-rate targeting.
2056 : Dikatakan DBKL lebih keras dengan penjual belon daripada kuil haram. Ini berlaku kerana rakyat asyik menekankan penyinggungan hati berkaitan dengan agama. Tekanan ini datang dari realpolitik. Kalau saya, saya harap satu hari nanti ... tiada seorang di Malaysia ada kebolehan untuk merasa penyinggungan walaupun isu yang berkaitan agamanya tercabar. Haraplah kaedah politik dan kaedah pengawalan emosi kita menjadi lebih matang.
Sun 30Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @2.008years ( year3; month25; week105; day733 )
1909 : Review of opportunity costs.
1. Growing up trained by a doctor and a chemist, who decided to become pastors and counsellors :
(+) early grounding in STEM, Greek trivium, class awareness, organisational development and manipulation, iconoclasm
(-) limited access to networks of power, business culture, and financial economics
2. Iterative decisions every 5-10 years, leading me to focus years 19-49 largely on (+) improving my understanding of the world, (-) at the expense of other types of capital.
2.1. Overall strategy being hermitic : the program has been firmly underweight on values of ( family, friends, fast money, life extension ), collecting an associated social ( perception ) risk profile.
I collect my thoughts for the week, in preparation for resumption of work.
2139 : WhyTF have I been using ""synonymity"" when synonymy is a word?!😂
2225 : Catalytic computing : i have never seen such an obfuscation of the common sense notion that if you get some compressible data on media ... you can compress the data, use the media for something else, then restore the uncompressed data to the media later. What did i miss?
Mon 31Mar2025, Sabbatical2 @2.011years ( year3; month25; week105; day734 )
0010 : Snacked. Bought bread. Foggy night. Turns to rain at midnight, masking the fireworks of Eid. I make some notes on my study. I decide not to expend too much time on electronics and RF for now, returning to networking.
0114 : A little snack. A little lifting. Back to the desk in a bit.
0156 : TIL : reactors and chokes both refer to inductors ... so much to catch up on
0220 : End, of day.
1203 : In the mind of the pleb, mathematics is something closely related to science, but not to the arts, spirituality, or other aspects of daily experience.
It is my hope that within fifty years, this belief will have been utterly destroyed by a rise in the supply of teaching machines, which can lead the majority of the human population to learn better, how to view their various experiences as quantifiable phenomena.
1205 : Good morning again, to those celebrating Eid. Have a great day.
I'll be at my desk. Maybe I will go for a run, later. It will depend on how my body reacts to calorific inputs today.
1326 : Mg dosing yields positive results this morning.
1417 : Time to cook some rice. Experimenting with a (ping) every 3-seconds to (CF DNS) as a sort of keepalive for my connection ... otherwise my (mobile phone hotspot) intermittently freezes until I pick it and refresh a website on it.
1430 : I have an associate who doesn't understand that intermittent scheduling availability is not a ""mood swing"". My operations just don't present a reliable supply of time for this person, and it's not a mood, they're just not a priority.
1442 : History of electronics is such a rabbit-hole. It's fucking crossfit for physics, since you have to review each device at this point in history :
- period theoretical model
- period hypothesis
- period implementation and results
- present theoretical model
- present implementation analogs and results
1447 : Time to eat the rice.
1456 : Threads is the first soc med I've used with demonstrably effective word filter. Hurrrah! No more feed floods from seasonal and sporting events
1627 : Somewhat fatigued after incremental dependency analysis for about 6 weeks ... yet the comforting part is, I don't have to worry about investor relations, and can just focus on the work. I suppose investor relations will come back eventually, at a future time.
1654 : Back to fundamental physical forces for a bit.
1711 : Motor-neural actuation fails to respond to indirect sensory feedback, so one has to actively locate the entire chain of sensory dependencies, by parsing conscious haptic data with a finer toothed comb, and only then reattempting motor actuation. Or, one simply increases sensory amplitudes by adding load to the system : i.e. easier to calibrate kinesthesia via increased exercise, than by only meditating.
1913 : I wonder if I will ever enter a phase of life which prioritises monetary returns. To-date, none. The closest I got was to immerse myself in commerce for ten years, but I did not in that time focus particularly on optimising for financial returns.
2003 : in a world absent of opportunities and tools to do my bidding, I must become the tool.
2038 : Unproductive weekend. Not a lot of studying, and some social distractions. Hm
2112 : 40 winks. Caught some rays.
2222 : Physical load is definitely too low. And injuries have subsided so, I need to load up.
2236 : Sentiment since
