2020-08-31 - 2020-09-21
2020-08-31
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Back in the administrative cockpit, and getting a feel for things here, again. Nutrition somewhat fixed. Salt seems to have been part of the issue. Perhaps garlic is helping too.
2020-09-01
1117
Up, inboxes clear. Reminded to focus on internal weaknesses instead of external oportunities, from yesterday's calibration. Need to feed, but with less carbs, perhaps.
2051
Rushed payroll because I'll be at the auto mechanic tomorrow. Worked out a little. Need to cut carbs and amp fibre.
2020-09-02
0027
Yesterday was a strange day. I hope I am not failing some sort of test.
I spent much of the evening over-prepared for a date which ghosted. Given the number of under-prepared dates I've messed up, I think it is better to be over-prepared than under-prepared. Win some lose some.
Back to the subject of risk-taking. I think my ambition to be ordinary conflicts with my instinct to evade boredom ... I am a believer in the notion that: by combining my aptitude for extraordinary success, with a high risk portfolio of investments, I can achieve balance by strategically allowing extraordinary failures, and that at the end of the day I will average out as a normal person. So I often summarise by saying that I am not an ambitious or competitive person ("not competitive" in the ambitious sense, not in the capability sense). This could be a flawed strategy - maybe I will never be normal. Maybe I am very normal, but I think I am not. Who cares? I'll work with what has been given ...
Now to try and get a bit of coding in before bed.
You know what is REALLY getting me down this year isn't the volatile love life - it's the sort of development work I'm doing with software at the moment ... where every quarter-work-day is a nerve-racking jaunt across a seven-dimensional decision matrix ... on borrowed time ... or something analogous to that.
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TFW: your friends like *dancing but aren't very good *dancers
* substitute with : dressing up / wearing makeup / playing sports / running cafes / discussing politics / writing software / etc.
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Which is the worse strategy?
1. Seeking physical intimacy from conversational partners.
2. Seeking conversational intimacy from physical partners.
Actually it just depends on which one you luck into first, in life. Right?
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2020-09-03
1101
Up and washed. Today we shall focus on avoiding overhydration. TFW your peers spend so much money on heavily taxed drugs when you can get high on water.
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Resurrecting a laptop I got in 2010 ... my word, she's a screamer.
long heat exchangers should be cheaper and more durable than broad ones.
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4 a.m. laundry party. At least there was blood on the sheets. Poking at ... code, while the washer spins. This entire post spins.
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Reinstating daily desk time tracking. Initial target: 6 hr/dy
Revised target: 8 hr/dy (after a 45mn test run)
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Mak pundek RAM seating error ... half a day problem set ...
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Operational volatility detected. Yanking up staff on an individual basis to check on their personal emotional, financial, and operational health. #workharder247
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My current programming experience is, I look around a few files, think for about five minutes (or fifteen), write a line of code, and become anxious for a few minutes. Then I recollect myself and continue 😛 #workharder247
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By the time the software being written feels like it requires a Michelangeloesque attention to detail, I can confirm that this is not what I set out to do. Or was it? Probably not, but still an acceptable life.
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2020-09-11
Caffeine induced hyponatramia may have contributed to consistent lack of muscle development due to reduced intracellular osmolarity. Not sure about this model though, but raising electrolyte intake has helped with water retention in muscles, somewhat.
8am, and on only a few hours sleep, as I spent much of the evening comforting a friend. I think it is best now to enforce feeding and get some bitch work done. No offense intended to females, but certainly the vernacular is unfortunately gendered.
7pm, data entry work. As a point of discipline, I am typing all entries with proper punctuation.
11pm, attempts to soundproof the old laptop have failed. I must return to work. Next, preparation of slides for a coffee talk tomorrow. Update: as a literal stopgap, there is now a ghetto pile of shrink-wrapped pillows, plastic boxes of clothes, and some corrugated cardboard all around my workstation. FML
2020-09-12
4pm, done scoping out new office rental opportunity. Perhaps to bed.
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Mulan:Not sure why adults everywhere are complaining about a kids cartoon that was adapted into a kids movie, as if the kids today care about what cultural context the cartoon occured in. 😛 Fine, I know your kids are smart and they care - would they have cared about the original cartoon? I didn't even bother watching it ...
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I just realised I don't have to install printer drivers any more.
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OCBC online banking background image 4.2 MB. TQVM
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Mukins in Selangor: 37 years and I still haven't memorised this data structure LOL
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Ok, exciting times (please laugh).
I think I've stablised the bit of code which (1.) generically validates PATCH (HTTP) request form names (HTML), based on (2.) a narrowed definition of PATCH as a batch of PUTs and DELETEs, on (3.) a syntax and interpreter for transforming multiple input[name]s into single JSON trees, and on (4.) another syntax and interpreter for defining JSON data models - both storing the model definition in JSON then validating arbitrary JSON data against the defined model. Phew. Quite a process of discovery ... as this leads into the broader project of bridging HTML form syntax with NoSQL docstore backends ... also for further regularity and limit-testing, (5.) a crude implementation of a no-code RDBMS (cell by cell addressing, and indexed columns) ON TOP OF a couple of DynamoDB tables. What follows next ... is to decide how much consistency the system will enforce when it writes rows of data into the RDBMS. Maybe I should just hip/shot it and not bother with locking (haha, after all, this is a prototype).
Meanwhile ... investors are starting to make good on their intentions to dump our shares. After all, it has been five years, and I am not at all pursuing quarterly growth of the bottom line.
I am inundated with general work, and I look forward to a breakthrough at some point. Meanwhile, one tries to stay healthy and happy in order to maximise the probability of success. I am fortunate to be surrounded by good people.
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2020-09-15
If I wasn't inundated with work I'd probably file a police report about this - it may contradict clauses in the Federal Constitution. (So of course, you know, keeping me busy is a self-imposed device of the state to inhibit rebellion 😉. )
Title: "Malaysia's Federal Department of Islamic Development mobilises 38,550 religious teachers to obstruct ("dam") liberal comprehensions"
I draw attention only to the last three words, "tuntutan kebebasan beragama" ("demands for religious freedom"), which should be noted in specific contrast to the title.
There is a slight indirection on the source, it cites a police investigation, but does not clarify what the investigation was intending to achieve, nor how it was conducted.
Photo source: https://twitter.com/.../status/1304675764298686464/photo/1
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Awake. Enforced wash, feed, work.
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Year five of this little project will soon end.
In the first year, and to a lesser extent until the third year, I overestimated the post-deal value of investors and spent a disproportionate amount of energy reporting to them on operations. After all was said and done, post-deal, I received little operational or financial assistance, and much interference in both financing and operating activities.
In the two years after that, I had a relatively quiet period of investor relations, and was able to focus on restructuring and developing the operation through its recent environments.
Recently I am returning to address some administrative issues with investor relations. Despite all outstanding threats to operations and and limitations on management activities ... I hope to administer all investors with due protocol, and with minimal consideration whenever such consideration should jeopardise my focus on operations. This is something I think about on a minute-to-minute basis, for a few weeks, whenever there are new activities on the radar.
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Me: *picks up ringing phone* hi
BFFN: hi. i am grouch
Me: i am ... grouch whisperer ...
/* several exchanges later */
BFFN: i am smiling
Me: grouch whisperer works
BFFN: you didn't even whisper, you just grunted
Me: that is a grouch whisper
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One reads about people who are ahead of their time, and it may sound rather romantic and inspiring. But if you realise one day that you are generally inconvenienced by many of your peers because ... you accidentally lucked out and are one of those weirdos mentioned above, then you may thoroughly embrace the vernacular, TFW, OMGBBQ, FML, wtf, UWU, etc.
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Eve of public holiday. Understaffed. Stop computer programming. Clear memory. Enforce eating and grooming. Run to office to wash dishes ... back to coding in another four hours ... #cibaistartuplife #sorryforgendering
11 hours later: I'm happy with progress. I'm about 50% sure that any chunk of code I write will behave as expected, since I consistently have more expectations than time to write code.
Also, regretfully, I have never written this much cowboy code in my life. Actually, I have just never written this much code for a single project ... in my life before this - it is just an accident that I am a cowboy coder, and so the code is cowboy code. I hope to revise all of it someday, but you know, that is more often wished for than done. Completing prototypes lends durability to designs, and with durable designs come opportunities for performance and coherence optimisations.
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This is the MINIMUM time I managed to stay my desk. Some time was untracked. I think it is an improvement in discipline. There is just so much to do at the desk, and away from the desk. Balance must be acquired.
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I will never understand the significance of birthdays. Jk. I totally understand that people feel excited to exist and that losing that sense of excitement reduces them to self-loathing lumps, so oh god, please celebrate anything you must in order to stay hale and hearty!
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"We need to speed up registration."
"The tools exist, but the population is not engaged."
"Well engage them by any means necessary."
"A biological threat would speed things up. But you know what that means."
"For the entire population?"
"For all."
"No one can ever know, of course."
"Of course."
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Interior design: I last messed with the furniture layout in 2018. We have accumulated a lot more broken equipment since, and I haven't updated it for COVID circumstances. I think we shall redesign it tonight and deploy it in the morning.
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10:30pm staff calls me because they lost their copy of Chief Minister's directive to separate individuals by 1 meter. Non-compliant customers insist it is ok for families. Fucking hell, do you know how hard it is to find a printer at 10pm? #cibaistartuplyfe Stop bugging me, folks, just call the police. Every time I make a police report, they ask me why no one called a patrol car.
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2020-09-20 14:51 - pursuing algorithm stepgroup seven.
Two days ago, a mechanical failure put some distance between myself and a friend. This was a bad experience.
Yesterday, I spent some time plumbing my network to introduce two of my best friends to each other. This was a good experience.
These are both issues in stepgroup five, which have taken my time away from immediate work. I have been aware of the costs, and now need to collect myself and work also towards less volatility.
Conclusion: feed, wash, reload working memory, start clocking more desk hours.
16:17 - mandatory eating, complete. Next, desk.
The mechanical failure: It's been a rather painful time for me, as it brings to mind other instances where I've lost similar people to similar circumstances. Starting a business and have little to show (in terms of material gains) for the time being has been a part of it. But moving on.
I remind myself that each partner is under a unique set of limitations. Some of these limitations are on their abilities to verbally engage with counterparties such as myself. Under such circumstances, the shortfalls of verbal communication and availability are both to be taken as granted.
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Successfully got gas-lit by a bunch of people who believe all auto insurance comes with tow truck services 😛 I've never had an insurance policy that covered tow truck services for me. (Third-party, Fire, Theft, only were covered.)
Update:
5:37pm - received phone call from officer ---/ZRA saying this car is not covered under Zurich.
6:26pm - received phone call from officer ---/ZRA saying the previous call's information is incorrect; this car IS COVERED under Zurich, with an annual tow truck benefit of RM200. Advice received to call ZRA for future towing requirements.
However at this time, customer is extremely concerned as the previous attempt to obtain roadside assistance (18 SEP) failed.
BTW - AXA confirms they were my insurer BEFORE the current policy.
So it is a matter of JPJ and other databases not being updated.
This is rather dangerous for consumers, don't you think? If a consumer changes their insurance policy but the databases are not updated, then there is "no way" (there is a difficult way) for them to contact their insurer in the event of emergency.
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I often wonder about how many people define "romance" in their ontology. To some degree I infuse romance into each minute of my daily activity, and I avoid having any relationships where romance is especially concentrated. On the flip side, I guess most people don't think of chewing, or spreadsheets as romantic, and so they concentrate their notion of romance in very specific times, places, and people.
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Looks like this is going to be another solo desk work day.
Done with data entry in first half. Break. Restocked B12. Got food. Scrubbed memory. Let's see if we can get any progress in software development.
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