Love, sex, and romance. I view these as a non-essential, and luxurious component of my overall operations. Some thoughts on the drive home are as follows.
1.
There's been one relationship (in the general sense), where
- I've been an open book for years
- I've let her let me in, and push me away at her leisure
- I'm happy to deal with the consequences on my end; ultimately, curiosity shapes my life; assignment of unconditional resources, or top priority, i.e. love, is something that my curiosity deploys
- I really need to just convince myself that I did everything that I could, given what I had to work with, instead of thinking about strategic revisions all the time
2.
There's been this other relationship (in the general sense), where
- we've exchanged notes on priorities
- I'm not sure how much she likes me
- if we have mutual feelings for each other
- if we have clear ideological conflicts (i.e. abstract disagreements) - early signals for a bad match
- if logistical concerns are unsuitable for the pursuit of a relationship in the near future
- reach a yes / no / maybe-means-no conclusion on this, so that I continue / kill any thoughts about her
So yeah, up next, making that call.
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